Moving at the Speed of Lite

litebeing:

I’m reblogging this post in honor of Bobbi Kristina Brown. She passed away today at age 22.

That is way way too young.
RIP Bobbi Kristina

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I don’t know what to make of 2015 so far. My Sun is now in the 1st house, yet I did not feel the usual Ascendant return bounce. My body is ailing and I am just going with the flow, letting it ride.

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Time speeds up, then it slows down. The slowdown is not the kind you notice in the middle of a boring staff meeting or while sitting in traffic. It is when time appears to stop and you wonder if perhaps your clock needs a new battery? It has become commonplace for me to look at the clock and say ” How can it still be 2:00 PM? It seems so much later.” This is kinda new to me, not like the sensation of the years quickly racing by. I have acclimated to that by now. This experience is unique. Sometimes I enjoy it and sometimes…

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Venus and Uranus Retrograde: Thunder Island

To quote my hero Anthony Bourdain, ” Welcome to my world!” Venus went retrograde this morning at 5:28 am EDT . Uranus is on her heels, retracing his steps 25 hours  later at 6:38 am EDT. On some level I feel afraid to leave my house. But hey, I feel that way a lot anyway !

Venus retrograde is a topic I have blogged about before because it’s an important cycle. I feel it very strongly, which is odd because my Venus is direct and remains that way even when progressed. It could be because so many of my ex partners come back to visit me either consciously or on other planes of existence. It could also be that Venus is the ruler of my  8th house of death and rebirth. In any case, when Venus appears to move backwards, memories and emotions about old flames come alive. With Uranus following a similar path, it appears that where love goes, lightening will strike.

Venus Uranus aspects or transits often produce the love at first sight effect. Just one glance and you never know what hit you. Have any of you been there? Great music, poetry, and films have been inspired by such a phenomenon. Often what may appear to be love is simply a powerful attraction of the electric variety. With Venus spending most of this cycle in Leo and Uranus respectively in Aries, we are talking fireworks! But do not do anything stupid unless you are willing to live with the fallout. These fireworks are quite exciting but very temporary and erratic. Don’t say I didn’t warn you!

This is not the time to go out and meet someone new or spend lots of money on Venusian goods like jewelry and clothing. This can be an excellent time to unravel any leftover issues with former partners and whatever else that’s preventing you from moving on and making changes in your life. When a planet retrogrades, it is less about the external and all about the internal. In actuality, life typically operates this way anyway, but we often forget and look to whatever appears outside of us to validate our worth. If you still prefer externalization to build up your self-esteem, now is a wonderful time to modify your thoughts and behavior. Inner change is easier with Uranus retrograde so assess what needs to be upgraded. Don’t delete any files yet or install new software. Rather, review what may be corrupted or incompatible with the best version of you.

Look to where Leo and Aries are in your natal chart to get more insight into how these transits can be best used to your advantage. My 2nd and 7th houses are affected so I can expect some activity with abundance and partnerships. Since it seems like I have Venus retro natally, I do not expect to be that surprised. While the players may be different, the emotions that get triggered are all too familiar. I have noticed this quite often and this awareness has confirmed for me that I was correct in ending some friendships and romantic bonds.

When I think about love and loss in particular, I rarely miss a beat. Whatever I dread will happen once I love again typically does comes to fruition. Or at least that has been my pattern.  For example, after raising my cat Jasmine from a kitten to age 16, letting her go was excruciating. I never forgot the intensity of that loss. When I adopted Dexter, I said I would not love him like I loved Jasmine. It turns out this was true, but not the way I meant it. My love for Dexter was so much bigger, building on the love for Jasmine, but it did not eclipse that initial love. The loss of Dexter reminds me why I was so skeptical about getting another cat. I did not want to grieve again. It is a wicked catch 22 and the only way out is through.

My experience with my pets helped me see why I subconsciously decided to shut down my desire for romantic love. The pain and sadness were not worth the investment. Sometimes a break between involvements leaves me believing a new relationship would not cause the same suffering. But often my reasons for letting a relationship dissolve would re-emerge with someone new. Faulty soul contracts or inability to manifest better outcomes? I have no clue.

Matt Kahn repeatedly says that emotions even out when one begins to ascend. Perhaps this is why I am dealing better with Dexter’s passing than previous losses. The fact that I am pretty together after having lost what I loved most on the planet is astonishing. It is really a miracle that I am not curled up in the fetal position on the floor. Maybe I am evolving and/or the love of my community is holding a space for my healing. I do feel grateful that I am surviving this tragic sudden loss. While it does not seem fair, I realize that we do not get to control the lifespan of another.

While I am curious to see what shows up with these transits, I know that it is all about how I treat myself and raise my vibration. Sometimes the love we receive in relationship builds up in the soul and becomes a resource for future alliances. We shall see. I am grateful that I know myself better than ever and that I have become a more adaptable person. I really have no choice but to grow and adapt.

Thunder Island is an old song that once held special meaning for me. Frankly I forgot all about it until I heard it on the radio a few days ago. It is about a couple braving a summer storm on an island. It was popular during the time my family spent a month or so every August down the Jersey shore. One summer in particular a major hurricane was predicted to hit our beach during our vacation. While I recall our anguish over whether to ride out the storm or not, I do not remember if we went home and returned later, or took a risk and stayed.

What is important is the way I felt hearing the song again and reminiscing about my love interests down the shore. Thunder Island is a perfect metaphor in light of the Venus Uranus retrograde. It is often a place in my heart where unexpected openings wax and wane like the waves along any shore. During these tumultuous times it’s important to learn how to surf one’s inner emotional waves in order to arrive both safe and renewed on solid ground.

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Color for a New Dawn

Inspired by Sue’s post on color and my recent visit to Discovering the Impressionists: Paul Durand-Ruel and the New Painting, I offer you some treasures by Degas, Delacroix, Manet, Monet, and Renoir. Enjoy…

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My Awakening Experience and Moving On: It is always about love

litebeing:

Ten years ago today was the culmination of a remarkably intense and joyful awakening experience for me. While James and I first met in 2004, it was not until the following year that everything aligned in Divine Order. It is interesting that Pendle Hill has contacted me this week to write about my time at their retreat center. It is also interesting that today’s astrological transits are very powerful for me. Today marks both my Mars return and transiting Jupiter conjunct my chart ruler ( Uranus.) Both events indicate a burst of energy and exciting beginnings. With all I have endured recently, I am certainly ready for new adventures and breakthroughs that propel me forward with joy and fulfillment.

So I am re-blogging my awakening story in celebration of my ability to be open, embrace change, and boldly share my truth. So much has changed over these past ten years, but my appreciation of Source’s movement in my life has remained a constant. Underneath the sorrow and pain, all is well.

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Please play this while reading :  Collide

The dawn is breaking

A light shining through

You’re barely waking

And I’m tangled up in you

Yeah

Fitting words from the song Collide by Howie Day for an experience that really defies the limits of human communication. This looks like the beginning of a romantic love story. Looks though, can be deceiving! On January 30th, Uranus the Awakener  ( modern ruler of Aquarius) is in full force. Today also marks the Chinese New Year, the Year of the Wood Horse. I chose today on this rare Black Moon, the Aquarius New Moon ( a few degrees behind my Ascendant) that also features Mercury conjunct Neptune to post my offering for my participation inBarbara’s January Challenge on Awakening. Thank you Barbara for giving me a nudge to look back at this time in order to gain some perspective and share with others.

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My Best Friend

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It has been incredibly challenging to simply survive this week. One week ago today, my beloved Dexter transitioned to another realm. So far this is a realm I cannot reach. I sincerely thank everyone here for their love and support. My longtime readers know that this year has not been an easy one. Your unwavering loyalty is priceless.

While writing is both my joy and my solace, words have not come easily to me lately. My pain is too great and my motivation too meager. Yet I do have a message to convey and I will attempt to do so to the best of my ability.

The week that Dexter died was a very busy one. While I know the word busy is relative, for me the increase in activity was substantial. Tuesday was the dentist, Wednesday and Thursday Caryn visited me, and Friday I took my car to the shop. Saturday, my last full day with Dexter was a blur, except for posting about master/students late at night. Sunday, of course, was my own private circle of hell. I wish I could remember more of my final day at home with Dexter, but I don’t. Unfortunately the details of last Sunday seem to be on a rotating loop inside my heart.

But I want to go back to earlier in the week to share some resources that have helped me and may help others who “stumble” upon my blog. Caryn and I have not been together in Philly since the 1990s. We did hang out last fall in NY after reconnecting on FB. I plan to blog about what brought me to NY, but that draft is not ready for completion. Caryn and I were so so busy: special Impressionist exhibition at the Philadelphia Museum of Art, movie night at an old lovely theater, 2 incredible meals ( one was Indian since we both adore it!) and a mini road trip to Longwood Gardens. Our 2 days were go go go and rather frenetic. The weather was horrible both days and my patience often wore thin. Yet grace did surround us in many ways: a deer crossing on a road where this “never” happens; a “random” encounter with a waiter that was filled with synchronicity, a gratis fruit platter that was a work of art in itself and discounts off our bill; and  the sheer joy of watching Caryn frolicking at Longwood for the very first time. The waterlilies  I am sharing were a highlight of this particular visit for me. They were not in bloom during my last two trips.

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Another source of peace was Matt Kahn. On Wednesday Caryn and I spoke about relationships and the nature of connections. That very evening I come home to notice a brand new video by Matt on soul mates and twin flames. In it he mentions, among many other things, that for some a soul mate may be their pet. This idea prompted me to refer to Dexter as my soul mate on my latest post. Matt refers to a soul mate as a balancing counterpart with little drama or intensity, but great love. While I do not agree with every point made, I find Matt’s take on the different type of soul connections to be fascinating and quite revelatory. This information is especially relevant in regards to next week’s Venus retrograde event.  I offer his video here:

 

Now I want to share some resources that have softened the loss by providing a rare understanding of my bond with my cats ( and most animals and inhabitants of the natural world) and some insight into the grieving process.

They are both courtesy of  Caryn and Karin, “the Carings” in my life. Caryn provided me with this link that really spoke to me. I am very picky about these grief expert offerings, perhaps because I provide these services in my work, or because I am quite discerning. In any case, this article was profoundly insightful. For those who may not understand the connection between human and animal, please take a look and your impressions may shift.

http://www.anaflora.com/grieving/beloved/beloved.html

I especially like both these passages:

The love of an animal permits us to unfold, to open up, drop our defenses and to be naked, not only physically but psychologically and spiritually as well. With an animal we let ourselves be seen instead of hiding behind our personalities, our cultures, our jobs, our clothing or our makeup. They know us as no one else does, in our private joys, angry rages, deepest despair, in sickness and in health. All the while their calm steady presence companions us with an unwavering love like few others on this earth. Our animal companions see through us to the very soul of our soul, encouraging the unfolding of a sacred trust. If there is such a thing as a soul mate, then surely this is it.

Many people have never been blessed with, or felt for themselves, the true love of an animal. They are incapable of understanding that your love for an animal may surpass your love for the humans that are the closest to you. It is a different bond, in a way, more profound; something only the heart understands. What I have learned over the years, as a student of grief and a student of many spiritual traditions, is that no guru, guide, master or friend no matter how enlightened can comfort the heart that believes it has lost what it holds most dear. Whether grieving ourselves, or consoling a grieving friend, often the most useful thing we can do is to simply tell our story. For in the story of our own journey through the gates of grief, or in bearing witness to the grief of another, we can at least legitimize the experience and make it “Sacred.”

Karin turned me on to this excellent video with medium Danielle MacKinnon that was posted just a few days ago. While I do hold some skepticism regarding animal communicators, Danielle is someone who naturally conveys authenticity and warmth. Please check it out if you are called to explore this topic further. What really struck me most was the question posed near the end of the interview.:

 Animals choose to pass at a particular time.  Ask yourself : What was it about this time that has meaning for you?

Here is the link for the video: https://wingingwithwhitehawk.wordpress.com/2015/07/16/pets-in-the-afterlife/

Finally I want to share some closing thoughts. It is so ironic that I have been so successful as a grief counselor. So very many clients over the years suffered unimaginable trauma and loss. I seem to be rather effective at facilitating healing for those in pain and was quite driven to focus on this area of therapy. Personally though, I suck at loss and death. I do not judge how I grieve, so please do not misconstrue my meaning. I just do not like to let go. I do not detach easily, especially if the bond was deep. Losing my first cat brought me to the brink of depression from which I doubted I would ever recover. Yet I did recover and I will recover from this loss. But this journey has just begun…

Let me conclude with a song that helps express the enormity of my love for Dexter. When I call him my best friend and soul mate, I am not exaggerating. It does not mean I do not love or have not loved other human beings deeply.

It’s just different.


For a tribute to Dexter circa 2013ish, please visit OM’s site here.

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Dexter on parade

litebeing:

My soulmate and partner in crime Dexter passed away today. He died of heart disease, which makes no sense because he had the biggest heart I had ever known, overflowing with love. I am re-blogging this post in his honor. My heart is shattered and my sadness unspeakable. This is one of the worst days of my entire life but I do not regret a second I spent with this furry bundle of joy and affection.

Here’s a tribute to my sweet angel Dexter.

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Within the past few days I have heard of 2 friends losing their beloved animal companions. Then I had a heartfelt conversation with OM about cats and blogging. While this topic is somewhat off theme, it seems fitting to prepare a simple post about my beloved Dexter.

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I adopted Dexter back in 2008, a few months after I lost my first cat Jasmine. I renamed him Dexter after careful thought and consideration. It was not because he reminds me of a serial killer. It just suited him better than his original name Sylvester did.

After 16 years ( she was about 8 weeks when I brought her home) , Jasmine succumbed to kidney disease. Watching her decline and deciding when to let her go was among the most agonizingly painful, gut- wrenching times in my entire life. The sadness and pain were almost too much to bear. Jazz died…

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She who can master, does. She who cannot, studies forever.

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It took some time, but I was able to cultivate my entry for Ka’s 3 day quote challenge. Thanks to the awesomely kind and creative Ka of Fiesta Estrellas for nominating my blog for this project. I am not in the proper head space to nominate other bloggers, but if any of my readers feel inspired, please join in and add your mojo to the party!

This post came together this weekend as I began to review my extremely busy week. The topic of teaching and learning is not a new one for me, but recent face to face discussions, media, and other factors created a ” perfect storm” for me to marinate in.

When contemplating my fervent interest in the work of Matt Kahn, a little birdie landed on my shoulder and squealed ” be careful.” This birdie knows me well and reminded me of an old tendency to put people on pedestals that later became rusty and disintegrated into itty bitty pieces. I have known loved ones who knowingly or unconsciously became involved in cults. In every case, some collateral damage occurred and it was not pretty. The ripples from the fallout continue to reverberate to this day. I feel sad for those who lacked the life experience to be able to properly discern which choices were for their highest good. I witnessed great abuses of power and was unable to do anything to prevent them from happening. I pray that all involved have found forgiveness and peace.

In many traditions, discipleship is part of the initiation process. I cannot speak to this personally as I have never participated in such an arrangement. I have worked with a variety of “teachers” over the years and all of them had some difficulty with ego. This does not seem atypical since most human beings struggle with ego. It can be intoxicating to be worshiped by many on a constant basis.  I do take responsibility for my part in these interactions since I was always a willing party. Fortunately my boundaries were well established and no real harm resulted.

Let’s take a look at the first quote:

When the student is ready, the master appears.

Buddhist Proverb

Originally I interpreted this to mean that in Divine timing all seekers will find the ideal person to play the role of ” master”.  I often looked at particular astrological transits to predict when I may attract a new sage into my orbit. With my Venus in Sagittarius, this was not that difficult to manifest!

Today I see this quote with fresh eyes. What if when the student is ready, she becomes the master?

hmmmm, clever, no?

Why must a student remain a perpetual student? How much learning and practice is necessary? Isn’t mastery part of the game? I have two Master’s Degrees but never felt a master of either discipline. It seemed arrogant to take that title seriously. The truth is that formal education does not a master make. The recipe is not based on a GPA or the pedigree of the University. Mastery is complicated because it does not typically occur in a prescribed manner. It is not static either. It can be lost, regained, or appear to be in flux. It is not subject to the laws of 3D reality.

Now let’s examine the next quote:

He who can, does. He who cannot, teaches.

Man and Superman (1903) “Maxims for Revolutionists”

 George Bernard Shaw.

Historically I never liked this notion. I found it to be snarky and cynical. My enjoyment of the teacher archetype at work, in part, is why I found this to be distasteful. ” Hey, if I love to teach and am good at it, this does not apply to me! ” I have so much Mercury Jupiter energy in my natal chart, so I am all about the magic of academia and the perpetual process of studying and disseminating knowledge. My Sun/ Moon phase is the disseminating phase, for goodness sake!

Recently I have begun to view this idea from a new angle. I learn best  by direct experience. I also am a fan of those who teach by example. In psychological circles, this is called modeling. It is all about the behavior. This reminds me of yet another favorite quote, actions speak louder than words! When I consider all the folks I know who call themselves spiritual or awake or enlightened, I often walk away less than impressed. In my life, those who say less are usually more evolved in their deeds than those who anoint themselves as self-realized. Have you arrived at the same conclusion?

Ready for the final quote? :

If your blessings becomes automatic, and if you stop seeking for knowledge, knowing that everything you need to know will find you, then you have found the dissolving of the Student, and the Emergence of the Master.  

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It could be considered ironic that I end this discussion with a Matt Kahn quote, but I can live with that. It is some of his material that accelerated my inquiry into the dynamic between student and master. As I find myself connecting with more people from different generations and worldviews, this dynamic appears more frequently. Questions often arise such as ” When am I ready to lead?” or ” What exactly are you able to offer another about your journey thus far? ” With my astrology practice it took decades before I stopped calling myself a student and took on the title of astrologer. It took even longer to shed the label of seeker.  I attribute this to my unrealistic( and hopefully former) standards of perfectionism.

The notion that all that one needs to know will find you in an instant is provocative and comforting. Yet it is difficult for me to drop the idea that life is a school and we are here to learn lessons. I have latched onto this philosophy with great passion  and enthusiasm. If Matt Kahn’s quote has merit, perhaps I have learned the lesson that I am not here to be an eternal student. I also am grounded enough to embrace the material Matt Kahn provides without turning him into a guru. Lesson learned.

There is so much more I can say on this subject so perhaps I will continue on in a separate post. Thank you Ka for initially introducing me to Matt many moons ago, before I was able to listen intently, and for gently encouraging me to take on this challenge. It has all come full circle.

As always I welcome reactions and questions in the comments section.

This old Police song can be heard on multiple levels; as a twisted love song, a back story on the eventual breakup of the band, or a struggle between master and disciple. Listen and arrive at your own conclusions. It is a stirring piece any way you slice it!

Police – Wrapped around your finger:

listen now

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This may have been a verbose essay, but I had a lot to express. And there is probably more to say in the near future, as I find this topic fascinating. Thank you for accompanying me on this wild ride. Hope 7-11 has been lucky for you.

blessings, litebeing

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Shades of Awakening Summit: Spirituality and Mental Health

Hello litebeings,

While many of you know I have been a practicing therapist with a strong transpersonal orientation, most do not know about one of my pet research topics ~ spirituality and psychosis. I did some research in grad school on the psychosis process from a micro to macro perspective and emphasized both the intersection between psychosis across cultures and how mental health symptoms intersects with mystical experiences. I was hungry to do more and a few years later I partnered with a psychologist to edit and complete a book on spiritual emergencies. The book project was permanently shelved but my passion for the topic has only increased over time.  I have intended to blog on this topic, but have not really done so as of yet.

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However …….

I want to inform those who are curious about how Chiron ( the wounded healer) operates in one’s life that there is an excellent free online summit happening this weekend. I just finished listening to one of the interviews and was quite impressed. I plan to listen to more of the speakers and invite you to check this out.

Here is the link:

 http://www.shadesofawakening.com/summit#sthash.BzNxWund.dpbs

Let me know what you think of the series and the topic in general. I would love to hear from any shamans ( part-time or otherwise) to get their take on this material also.

Namaste

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Full Moon and Leo Bonanza ~ R U Wide Awake or Having a Teenage Dream?

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In just a little while the Capricorn Full Moon will be upon us. Happy July to everyone. Can anyone tell me where the first half of 2015 went? What a rollercoaster ride it has been!

This morning Venus cozy-ed up to Jupiter at 21 degrees Leo. Saturn is demanding caution with a square at 29 degrees Scorpio.  Uranus is trining the lovebirds at 20 Aries and Mercury is sextiling them at 19 Gemini. So many planets are pairing up today. With the full moon we have Sun conjunct Mars in wide opposition to Pluto. Pluto is conjunct the Moon.

We have such a full plate with most of the solar system in play. Sun, Moon, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn and Pluto are getting busy today. So much to absorb and so little time. Do we focus on Blazing Sun in Cancer or Controlling Moon in Capricorn? Mars and Pluto are 2 sides of the same coin and Cancer/ Capricorn are mommy and daddy with plenty of edge. With my 7th house all lit up with Leo magic, I am going to discuss the nature of enlightened relationships.

I am led to use A Course in Miracles today to illustrate how 3D world limitations can impact how we love and who we love. Here is an excerpt from The Manual for Teachers, page 6 & 7:

What Are the Levels of Teaching?

The teachers of God have no set teaching level. Each teaching-learning situation involves a different relationship at the beginning, although the ultimate goal is always the same; to make of the relationship a holy relationship, in which both can look upon the Son of God as sinless. There is no one from whom a teacher of God cannot learn, so there is no one whom he cannot teach. However, from a practical point of view he cannot meet everyone, nor can everyone find him. Therefore, the plan includes very specific contacts to be made for each teacher of God. There are no accidents in salvation. Those who are to meet will meet, because together they have the potential for a holy relationship. They are ready for each other.

The simplest level of teaching appears to be quite superficial. It consists of what seem to be very casual encounters; a “chance” meeting of two apparent strangers in an elevator, a child who is not looking where he is going running into an adult “by chance,” two students “happening” to walk home together. These are not chance encounters. Each of them has the potential for becoming a teaching-learning situation.

Each teaching-learning situation is maximal in the sense that each person involved will learn the most that he can from the other person at that time. In this sense, and in this sense only, we can speak of levels of teaching. Using the term in this way, the second level of teaching is a more sustained relationship, in which, for a time, two people enter into a fairly intense teaching-learning situation and then appear to separate. As with the first level, these meetings are not accidental, nor is what appears to be the end of the relationship a real end. Again, each has learned the most he can at the time. Yet all who meet will someday meet again, for it is the destiny of all relationships to become holy. God is not mistaken in His Son.

The third level of teaching occurs in relationships which, once they are formed, are lifelong. These are teaching-learning situations in which each person is given a chosen learning partner who presents him with unlimited opportunities for learning. These relationships are generally few, because their existence implies that those involved have reached a stage simultaneously in which the teaching-learning balance is actually perfect. This does not mean that they necessarily recognize this; in fact, they generally do not. They may even be quite hostile to each other for some time, and perhaps for life. Yet should they decide to learn it, the perfect lesson is before them and can be learned. And if they decide to learn that lesson, they become the saviors of the teachers who falter and may even seem to fail. No teacher of God can fail to find the Help he needs.

When I began to study The Course back in 1988, I took great comfort in this lesson. My primary love relationship was complicated and I wanted to be okay with the length of time we would have together. I wanted to surrender to the miracle of two seemingly individual souls meeting, connecting, and then appearing to separate when their mission was complete.  Looking at today’s planetary events, I cannot help but think about the impact one’s parents or caretakers have on romantic entanglements. When does one’s slippery abusive father fail to impede one’s appreciation for the truly decent male partner?When does memories of smothering mommy no longer culminate in disabling asthma and the inability to commit? What is required to see ourselves as whole and innocent, so we can project that innocence to all the others we encounter as we move through space and time?

When I meet a new person, am I really seeing them clearly? How much sludge must be cleaned and is clearing a job that never ends? My buddy Matt Kahn has said that clearing is over and I certainly hope so. I often wonder who I am relating to and who is watching me in the figurative rear view mirror?

Jupiter Venus Mercury, and Uranus certainly make life exciting and new, and yet… I decided to work this transit and but some lottery tickets today. My 5th house is lit up so I figured some random gambling is in order. I see so many numerical sequences all the time so why not put them to some use?  Frankly I am proud that I took a small risk on abundance and adventure.  It is not much of an investment, though, when you can easily afford the potential loss. With love, the stakes are so much higher. While I have spent so much time and effort letting go of those relationships that were 2nd level teachings, it seems like the process has lasted a lifetime. This is where Saturn’s handiwork is most palpable. With so many of my past partners reappearing years later for a command performance, I have to wonder if time even factors into these connections. Perhaps the answer lies outside of space and time.

My inner teenager is activated in the beginning of any attraction. She is idealistic, hopeful, glowing, and beaming with possibility. No one told me she would live inside me all of my life. The more awakened aspect of me can often create distractions or manipulates the intentions I put out for manifestation. In other words, my spiritual wisdom can sometimes be used to distance myself from the yearnings of my heart. This is often unconscious, but lately not so much.

I have been crying with abandon lately, and it is healing. I do not understand why, but I just go with it.  I believe my heart chakra is opening up even more than I thought possible. It is exciting and scary, but isn’t that par for the course?

Or should I say “Course” ?

Fellow Scorpio Katy Perry does a fine job expressing the joy of eternal youth ( Leo) and the hardened “enlightened” approach ( Capricorn) .

What archetype is most alive in your consciousness now? This is a perfect time to find the answer. Look to all natal planets placements between 19 and 29 degrees, with particular attention to the signs Cancer, Leo, and Capricorn.

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Dealing with patterns

litebeing:

I am reblogging this post of Leigh’s because it is so comprehensive. It is a fabulous resource. Please re-blog as well so more people can access the information.

love, litebeing

Originally posted on Not Just Sassy on the Inside:

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Although my last post was specifically about whining and complaining, the suggestions I’m providing here can work for moving through any kind of ingrained pattern.  I also wanted to remind you that it’s time to set aside that 10 minutes to pray for peace — see Collective Prayer Sunday page for more info.

Over the years I’ve tried many things and used many practices to shift out of negative thinking and I really think the whole conglomeration has had an impact.  Ingrained patterns are tough to shift and the more deeply embedded they are, the greater the challenge. I’ve found that it often helps to keep coming at it from different directions.

That said, I am NOT suggesting that every person out there needs to try every single thing on this list; nor do you need to do every thing that’s…

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