I have been feeling very emotional the past few days. Sad, excited, melancholy, fearful, joyous, bored, aggravated. At first I thought , so much for the Grand Water Trines and Star of David astrological configurations that have been gracing our planet. Then I came to the realization that water is emotion and plenty of water equals plenty of emoting. How individuals respond to transits will vary. One must consider more than the boiler plate definition of a transit or a planet such as a trine is good or Saturn is bad. Everyone is unique and even people born in the same hospital at the same time are going to process energy differently. So I conveniently forgot about over – emotionalism and focused on glittery mystical manifestations. So you live and learn!
Then I went with cellphone in hand on a short nature walk. You know the drill, take a stroll and be open to what appears. So coming round the bend I spot a few Eastern Tiger Swallowtails. Oh how excited I was to see these adventurous spirits once more!
As I got closer I noticed much activity among the various butterflies and bees. I made many attempts to shoot some male Swallowtails ( they do not have the blue markings of the female) without success. Once they got cozy and settled, my movements ruffled their wings and off they went. This was not a stillness moment at all. Once I realized that I was invading their space, I became a bit more detached and was able to produce this one shot:
It was wonderfully liberating to photograph my first butterfly. A Facebook friend ( and actual friend) recently shared his swallowtail online and I must say it fired up my motivation to do the same. During the walk I contemplated that my intrusion may have threatened the butterflies’ freedom and security. I so love both freedom and security and some of my emotionality has to do with balancing both of these aspects in my daily life. The song ” Favorite Things” from The Sound of Music came to mind as I returned home. It could be a pre-cursor to Cognitive Behavioral Therapy since the premise is to replace old tapes with new positive thoughts. Yet replacing thoughts that no longer serve you is not the same as blocking or stuffing down emotions. Emotions are vital messages that need your focus and attention. Once they are acknowledged and embraced, they are free to trail off like the butterflies on a warm summer evening.
While reflecting later on emotions and mindfulness, the song Feel This Moment popped in my head. I really prefer to embrace and feel my feelings so they can serve their purpose and then dissolve. Feelings are such a gift and my nature is very watery with a Scorpio stellium, Moon in the 4th house, Mars in Cancer and a very prominent Neptune.
During this part of the post I always introduce some complementary , random poetry. In light of the emotional tone set today, I decided instead to include The Guest House by Rumi. It is a favorite of mine and is prominently placed on my refrigerator door. I have it placed there to remind me that every experience I encounter is a lesson to be learned.
The Guest House
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
As an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
Regardless of where these transits take you, please remember that victim consciousness is a choice. You can always be active in your life by accepting and feeling your way through.
What are some of your favorite things?
How have you been feeling the past few days?
Do you judge or deny your emotional state of being?
How do you balance security and freedom?
for further study:
Cognitive Behavioral Therapy http://www.beckinstitute.org/history-of-cbt/
Star of David configuration http://www.maryshea.com/star.html
Grand Water Trine
brown – eyed susan header and butterfly image by litebeing chronicles © 2013