Musings ~ Tornado

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I have been putting pressure on myself to write about the imminent eclipses and cardinal cross that will make this April unlike any other. I want to give my readers what they want and put my personal stamp on these celestial turning points. Yet I am too busy feeling the energies to actually put 2 coherent thoughts together!

So for now I am putting that aside to write about TODAY. How do I describe today?

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Yes, today is a tornado. I woke up after a restless night with major digestive issues ( nuff said). My body is still healing from surgery and Dexter is improving but not back to baseline yet. I had a meeting this morning in a part of the city we call The Great Northeast. I was exhausted and overwhelmed after the meeting and longed to get home. As I made my way around this part of Philly I realized how much fun I had working there in the 1980s. While many of the landmarks are gone, the streets are the same and the familiar names evoked memories. I took an unfamiliar route home and ended up in another county! My usually impeccable sense of direction was off kilter and I kept encountering construction, road blocks, detours, and thought perhaps a tornado had tossed me into Kansas! Saturn is calling and I want to let his call go directly to voicemail.  Ever have one of those dreams that you are driving and you end up off the beaten track and the background keeps getting stranger and stranger? But I was awake!

When I got home, I settled down to watch American Idol. I do love my singing competition shows. The music soothes me and helps me unleash the emotional “Remains of the Day.” Tonite was 80s theme night. I love 80s music because it takes me back to my youth, and the distinctive theatrical tone to so many of the compositions and  music videos mimic my confusing passage into full tilt adulthood. I began to think about how confused and unbalanced I felt at my meeting and driving home. I felt so lost and exhausted and overwhelmed, but yet exhilarated all at the same time. I am so grateful that nowadays I only feel that way occasionally.

It felt like I was being swept back into a time where I had to make decisions with no safety net and just hope for the best. I often stumbled and fell. But I kept getting back up because I was full of life and hope. As Pluto prepares to station on my natal Saturn, I realize that so many of the structures I worked so hard to build have evaporated…..

Then two of the  Idol contestants sang a duet that unleashed my tears. It is Knew You Were Waiting. This tune is about perseverance  and faith in the face of adversity in the search for destiny. That George Michael sure can emote…

Enjoy a song that reminds me that I survived my youth and I will survive today:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KBCWLhlJV0Y

Please weigh in on how you are feeling today.

How freaky is your world?

It can’t just be me!

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  4. l and d-
    thanks for the you tube song. so perfectly 80s. didn’t recognize it til they said the lines ‘knew you were waiting’. then it brought back a lot of memories. sounds like the song worked for u in that total recall kind of way too. interesting that i remember the 80s as a kind of magical mystical time that i didn’t fully live/physically exist in. i know that doesn’t make sense in a way, but all i can say is the memories i have of like 1984 etc seems like dreams of another person i was privy too. very out of body when viewing them. i was so young and trying to figure out what was real/tangible/obtainable and what was fantasy/imagary. it all seems quite fantasy for some reason. maybe my young soul hadn’t firmly seated in my body yet. idk.
    well thanks for the memories. send more.
    thanks,
    o and om.

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    1. hi O and OM,
      I sorta have a similar view of the 1980s and I was an adult(albeit a young one) by then. It seems so far away and yet so close. Maybe because I left home then and moved to the state that I still live in and sometimes travel to places where I lived or worked when I first arrived here?
      Not really sure, but you may remember my surreal time warp at the Indian restaurant. That was a real clash of then inside the Eternal NOW 🙂

      The funny thing about memories is that they are really distortions of the actual events. For example, I had a friend in grade school. We moved away so I lost touch with people( before internet) I remembered his name in my mind. Recently we reconnected on FB and I remembered his last name incorrectly! It took me a good while to reconcile these 2 perspectives.

      anyway, you and Odie are welcome.

      xx l and Dex

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      5. Nor are we. Plus all this blood moon eclipse stuff. Good for solo p project creativity. Bad for sleeping and interpersonal. We are sending u good vibes.
        Hugs,
        O and om

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  5. It has been a very energetic time for me. Lots of changing dynamics at work.
    I have noticed that mid-April has brought some pretty big events at least in the states. I suppose we should fasten our seat belts?
    xxx
    Debra

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    1. Hi Debra,
      Energetic sounds encouraging. Thought of you last night when I started getting into the Astrology of Fate. Fate and free will, time and space, these concepts take up most of the “space” in my head 🙂

      xx Linda

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  6. I think Linda, those planets are swirling us all into this tornado of life at the moment. Last Sunday for me was the worst.. But you lift yourself up, and shake yourself off and start all over again… 🙂 I am so pleased in a sense its not just me… Reading your fellow comments here seems we have all been tossed around lately 🙂
    Wishing you a peaceful weekend and my thoughts are with you.. Big Hugs.. Sue xox

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  7. i think you know where i’m at with this 🙂 – right there with you! it helps to know so many of us are feeling it, and that YA we are all in this together. sometimes it’s so incredibly draining, others it’s sooo exciting to be alive at this time. and it’s much easier for me to be energized when i read posts like yours, which point to the bigger (astral) picture behind things.

    i’ve also been contemplating the mini astro reading you did for me – makes sense that my chart transit is wrapped up in an already intense april. so thankful to have this context. thank you again for taking the time to do that. wishing you a wonderful weekend! xo aleya

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    1. Aleya,
      thanks for sharing your experiences here. While it is comforting to know I am not alone in this, I still need to do more work to ground myself so I do not lose perspective.The thing with Uranus is that you cannot plan for it or anticipate it And Saturn and Pluto are more predictable but can be particularly frustrating and painfully isolating and scary.

      On the bright side, there is always a way through and we do make our way through stronger, smarter, and hopefully more whole that before!
      So glad you liked the reading: perhaps you can email me something for my testimonial page and/or blog about it ❤ 😉

      xx Linda

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  8. I love this song (I knew you were waiting) both awesome artists and an absolute classic.

    I’ve been feeling a little conflicted and contradictory over the last week or so. Very busy with Committees and going through the dynamics of working with new people (that storm that always needs to take place before you find your way)…

    I’ve had a few ‘aha’ moments as things settle down a little and all of a sudden things don’t seem as big (or stressful) as they originally did…

    I reckon we all go through weird bits, ups and downs – we usually just don’t share them so much.

    I hope you start to feel better over the coming days, weeks and months. I’ll say a prayer for you!

    ML
    x
    ♥

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    1. nice to hear from you again Miss Lou!
      One of the reasons I have begun to write more about all my colorful experiences ( especially the unpleasant, messy ones) is so I can present my self in my totality and show the world one example of authenticity through self expression. It feels less safe, but more honest and relevant to my mission.

      thank you for commenting here and I will gladly accept your prayers!

      Namaste

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      1. Thanks so much for the encouraging response.

        I do try to keep track but I’m often away from the blog so much I miss months and months of great content and then end up backtracking and almost turning into a stalker once a year.. lol

        I think writing about your personal experiences is awesome and empowering and yanno, we all have difficult and challenging times, you never know who we will provide comfort to when we are open and share our personal stories!

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  9. Oh, I am so glad it is not just me!!! Feel like my life is being shaken at its foundation, and it is EXTREMELY uncomfortable…. Trying to remember that when this moment passes, a new day will be dawning on the other side, and that will feel good, cause right now ain’t feeling so good at all…
    Fun to read of you in Philly. Used to go there lots, cause my dad is from Philly, but it’s been years now… 🙂

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    1. Hi Katalina,
      Great to hear from you. Emotions and perspectives move and change, which make them tolerable and potentially healing.
      Where in Philly? I find very few local connections here so it is always a treat when one arises..

      peace,
      Linda

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  10. Hey Linda,

    I think the common experience of turmoil, confusion, and a sense of foreboding and upheaval prevails in many. I know it does with me, and I feel almost ‘stirred’ by the winds of an approaching storm.

    Your interesting muse also reminded me of a different time in my life, when I was younger, and of the wonder and uncertainty that seemed to exist then and upon which future dreams were built: I sit and reflect now on the validity of the structures that were actually there, and find myself romanticised by the perspective of hindsight, at once troubled by the effervescent foolishness of late youth and yet in admiration of the energy of the spirit propelling me forward. However, it’s not always easy to determine one’s success or indeed one’s failures in the outcome of the choices made and the experiences lived…the world has changed so much in the last 20-30 years and so to has our relationship to it. I guess reflection is useful as a tool, yet perhaps all it can really do is provide the essential seeds of wisdom that one can choose to nurture and allow to grow in the present so that they will offer foresight for the future.

    As we approach uncertain astrological times again, and perhaps with a feeling of deja vu, when the suggestion of imminent change and psychological confrontation is anticipated in our lives, I too would very much enjoy hearing your astrological forecast for the immediate future and how this may be considered to affect the future.

    Thanks for a thought-provoking post Linda. Participating in it felt like eating an aperitif whilst waiting for the sumptuous banquet that lay ahead to be cooked and served at the laid table of our mind… 🙂

    Namaste

    DN – 11/04/14

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    1. Thank you Dewin for your incredibly astute and well executed commentary. I am a sucker for a well placed metaphor as well 🙂

      I am contemplating writing something up as interest seems to be there. Let’s hope I can piece together something substantive and, original Otherwise there is little point

      Namaste

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      1. Thank you Linda 🙂

        As for the possibility/inevitability of a forthcoming posting, I have absolutely no doubt that in the stillness of the moment, you shall be moved by a great authority to pen original words that resonate in the heart and minds of your captive audience.

        I am always surprised, enthralled, entertained, and enlightened when spending time on your Blog, and see no reason at all why your next post will be any different. We, your followers, have faith in you 🙂

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      2. thank you, that is very kind.
        I typically do not worry about such matters but with high expectations can come a larger responsibility to get it right.My writing is less technical in nature and more free flowing, so I put more pressure on myself when there is more of a creative reach involved. 🙂

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  13. Noooo, i just lost my long comment… Let me do it again 🙂
    OMG you are not the only one going through this turmoil, it can’t be just you. We are in this together 🙂 . Just read your comment on my last post and was gonna ask you to write about this Grand Crossing of April. I’ve been receiving so many messages and astrology reports about this, will fwd you some good ones via email. I read that Pluto will be challenging our past and hidden experiences, feelings and emotions and Im not surprised about your dream like journey of (being lost) in past memories.
    I’ve been shaken to my core more than a few times these days and really having difficulty staying centered and focused. And I don’t like it. But hey, it’s also an opportunity to examine what’s not working and maybe start anew. I love new beginnings! xox

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    1. thanks for sharing your experiences here and I welcome the links 🙂
      I do want to write something about these energies, but need to calm myself first so I can focus.
      People in the know have said that changes will be fast and furious and this matches up with my life at the moment.

      I also love new beginnings, yet transitions take plenty of finesse and fortitude.

      xx Linda

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  14. Similar. Craziness~ I have yet my third cold/flu, probably from the preschool observation I had on Friday. I have been so busy, and just got hit like a ton of bricks.

    Loved the 80’s on Idol.
    Heal well and feel better.
    Namaste~
    Sindy

    No pressure, I understand but I would love to hear your astrological forecast.

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