Caffeine and Collisions: Thoughts are Things

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We interrupt this current cycle of chaotic, melancholic, existential angst to bring you a new segment of the Collision series. Yesterday’s adventure gives me hope that a new dawn is arriving, or at least within sight.

Backstory: I’m a very visual person , so imagery sticks with me. On many occasions I will go by a building that has a catchy name or logo. Certain words evoke peace, positivity, love, etc. In fact I once applied for a position at a group practice simply because I liked the name of the company. Hint: It is a name of something found in nature. When I told people I was attracted to the name, they looked at me with that ” she must be crazy” look. Turns out my intuition was on point. I worked there happily for many years.

So I have driven by a sign for a holistic counseling center numerous times on my way to work out or shop. We will call it The Love Center for the purposes of this blog. I will also use fictitious names for the people named in this story. The names will be set in quotes.  I often imagined what type of healing took place there and what the building looked like inside. A key word is included in the name and this word evokes many powerful, positive associations in my consciousness. Words and numbers are symbols and symbols are significant and often overlooked. The address and telephone number of a business or a residence will tell you many things about the energies of that location or its inhabitants. I am often amazed at how so many people I know have similar phone numbers to my own and I am not referring to the area code.  I share some experiences with symbols here. I often wondered if I would like to be a part of this center. I never pursued it  any further, because of the distance between the center and my home. It seemed too long of a commute and I also knew nothing at all about the business other than the name.

Meetups and more: I started a spiritual meetup in January and the process has been interesting to say the least. For some reason my inbox has been inundated with emails about other new meetup groups. There seems to be a meetup explosion happening lately, or I am getting more notifications because I am an organizer, on none of the above.  In any event, one new meetup got my attention. It happened to be sponsored by the holistic center I described above. So I went to the page and joined the group. While perusing the page, I discovered the address has changed. The center relocated to a location in my immediate area. It is in an office complex that I frequent right near my gym and supermarket. It is in my ‘hood! So I visit their website to learn more about them and notice the new address. It is 1811,which reduces to 911, which reduces to 11. I ponder attending some of their meetup events and perhaps applying to work there. My internet browser apparently has changed its format because I notice that pages I save are adhered to the task bar right below the search bar. The Love Center’s page is now within my sight every time I use my laptop so it is frequently prominent in my thoughts.

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Astrology, Soundbaths, and a surprise: I had a client scheduled on Sunday for an astrology session. While my practice is currently small, I am so in the flow when I give readings. I was going to type the word working, but it is not work. Maybe the preparation can be a bit tedious, but the interactions with the clients are joyous. Each one is different and I feel so grateful that I get to share this knowledge with others. Being alert during sessions is essential and caffeine is typically my friend when I need to be at my best. We planned to meet at a local Starbucks. I could have chosen the location closest to my home, but for several reasons I chose this particular location. I made my choice based on a few factors: There is a parking lot, there are tables outside in case we cannot find one available indoors, and I have gone there for several metaphysical gatherings in the past. I initially worried about finding any available seating, but reminded myself that anytime I went there with others, we always found a table. I also prayed that a free table would appear upon my arrival.

I arrived a few minutes early and a table by the window cleared right as I opened the door. “Perfect” I thought as I waited for the people to gather their belongings and leave. I conducted the reading and it went well. I was reminded once again how in my element I am when I have a chance to  love live  my purpose. I could tell that my client was gaining unique insights into this life and that the reading opened up new possibilities and choices for him going forward. I had waited to go to the bathroom until the session was complete and I noticed that we had gone over the standard appointment time. I have a habit for talking and talking…    Who knew?? Yeah, right!

Kidding aside, we both said goodbye and headed to the bathroom. I left my coat at the table. When I went back to retrieve my coat, I saw a woman sitting at the adjacent table. She was smiling at me and I recognized her immediately. We have not seen each other in a couple years. I said hello and we began to chat. I know her from attending sound baths for several years. I described my latest soundbath “opening” here. I told ” Kathy” that she should have attended the last one because it was so powerful for me. I told here it was in a different venue. She said that it was held at ” Joan’s” office. I asked her ” Who is Joan?  ” “Joan is in private practice now, but I used to work with her.” ” Where do you work?” ” I teach classes at the Love Center.” ” You mean the Love Center that has meetups?” ” Yes, we just moved to our new location.”  I tell her that I joined the meetup and asked her about her specialty. We discussed the new site and the culture of the practice. I told her that I was considering applying to join the practice and she was very helpful and encouraging. As we said goodbye, I smiled and said ” There are no accidents!”

Thought are things: If I have learned anything this past month, it is to never never NEVER underestimate the power of thought mixed with emotion. I had not seen “Kathy” in years since the Sound healer relocated to Santa Fe. I had no idea where she worked. I did not recognize anyone I knew when I read the center’s website. There seems to be a strong pull for me towards this practice. I do not know if I will put in an application, but that’s not central to this collision tale. What does matter is I was happy sitting at Starbucks, drinking my chai latte with coconut milk ( yum) and interacting with my client about his natal chart. It also matters that I chose this particular location and  that we ran over the allotted time. Otherwise it is rather unlikely I would have ran into ” Kathy.”

You have no idea how relieved I am that I could shift my thoughts towards the light once more. It wasn’t that I was depressed, but I was quite fearful and in a weakened state. The negativity had been spiraling out of control and seemed to be dominating my experience of day-to-day life. The darkness and the ego do have their value. I am a non-duality enthusiast so I do not attempt to eradicate the dark or my ego. But over the past month my focus on fear was leading me out of the flow and into a perpetually frightening state. It was not constant, but its influence was draining me and coloring my perspective.

This recent encounter has empowered me to keep faithful to self-care. As an empath, I am highly sensitive and attract more and more of whatever I give emotion and charge to. Thank you to Sarah, Karin, Theanne, Michael, Sue, Jamie, Dewin, and all of the wonderful readers who have lent encouragement and love. A final thank you to Starbucks for adding coconut milk to their menu. Somehow the coconut milk transports me to a familiar happy place beyond time and space.

Where all is well.

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“But NOTHING happened!” Why Big Transits Can Sometimes be a Bust

This is a meaningful and informative discussion of an under-reported issue in Astrology. Thank you Donna for addressing this question with expertise and flair. Please scroll down to the comment section as well to get first hand examples of how major transits manifest internally.

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© 3-28-2015 by Donna Cunningham, MSW

 A longtime Skywriter reader wrote to ask a question that had been bothering her for quite a while. She said that despite predictions of big changes in her life, major transits had often produced little or no effect in the way of happenings. I understood what she was saying about big transits and nothing happening. I have observed such things with myself  and others, too–clients and friends or loved ones.

When I examined their lives more closely, it became clearer that the long outer planet transit correlated with internal changes that moved them. Eventually and only gradually, under internal and/or external pressure, did they take action to change their approach to life and to significant others. It’s often something like a realization that ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

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Musings – And in the beginning ….

I am reblogging this old post because it speaks to my current existential crisis. For new readers, please take some time to read the comments at the end. They are so provocative and insightful. Feel free to add your own to the mix. Namaste

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I grew up knowing of the Book of Genesis and while I lacked formal religious education, these  lines are etched into my memory:

1 In the beginning God created the heavens andthe earth.

2 Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.

3 And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light.

4 God saw that the light was good, and He separated the light from the darkness. 

The Introduction to A Course in Miracles says  “Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists. Herein lies the peace of God.”

For those who have been following my blog awhile, you know that this started out as a way to track my movement through 2013. Most of the material has been very positive, even magical or mystical in content…

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How Am I Doing? Part 2

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I would suggest you read this series in order, so start here.

When I was relatively new to this spiritual odyssey, I had an important insight. I realized that once you are on the train, you cannot stop it. Once you pursue what is beyond the 5 senses ( 3D world), it is on. At the time, I was fine with it. I was exhilarated by the ride and had plenty of support. You cannot go back to not knowing.

Fast forward to now: There are many moments when I wish I could see the chair as just a chair, the window as the window, the floor as solid. Years of studying A Course in Miracles helped me exit the world of duality and separation. I have no regrets about The Course. I love what I have learned and the timing of my introduction was perfect. I just am at a place where it gets to be too much. I would not say that ignorance is bliss, but I would say that with knowledge comes responsibility.

Having gifts or abilities does not eliminate loss, sadness, confusion, or fear. If anything, my sensitivity can often heighten my emotional experiences. Love is stronger than fear and it is close to impossible to be in love and fearful simultaneously. Yet love does not eliminate all the pain and suffering on the planet ( within and without).

I offer another song from the same time period as the last couple posts. Another haunting melody with powerful lyrics and a message that is up for interpretation. Let the music take you wherever you want to go…

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How Am I Doing? Part 1

I realize that most of my recent posts have been about art or reblogs ( of my work or fellow bloggers). With the exception of the March Madness post, I have been rather quiet.

I have really been struggling. So much so, that while the blog ideas arrive fast and furious, my ability to digest and integrate the material has been compromised. So I have decided to write smallish posts for now.  My goal is to share my story in manageable, bite size nuggets until I am able to produce more lengthy material.

I do want to thank those who have prayed for me, sent me love, good vibes, light, etc. Please keep it coming. Some of it must have reached me because my physical health has shown some improvement. The symptoms are less harsh and less frequent. Thank you.

Music has always offered me solace. I cannot recall a time when it has not comforted me. As I continue to sort out the jewels from the rubbish, the soundtrack continues.

So I offer you another song. When I first heard this in the 1970s, I took the message literally. Today it takes on a symbolic tone.

 

After you listen, please take a pause and ask yourself:

Is this the Matrix or the Soul?

Or possibly an alternative way of being?

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After the Fire

I am speechless. Well, practically speechless. I am not even close to wrapping my head around the last few weeks.

However, for the past few days the phrase After the Fire has been cycling repeatedly within me. I knew it was an old Who song that I vaguely remember. While most of the lyrics have long since receded, the message remains clear.

 

After the fire, the fire still burns
The heart grows older but never ever learns
The memories smolder and the soul always yearns
After the fire, the fire still burns

 

I found this rare and quite sweet video performance of After the Fire by Roger Daltrey and Sinead O’ Connor. I am in awe of how this particular rendition resonates with me so intimately.  Hoping this performance will convey my emotional state adequately.

 

 

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11 Day Clearing ~ This too shall pass

I am reblogging this gem from the archives as I “stumbled” upon it now and it really describes my present state of being. I offer it for now, until I am present enough to post some new material. While my attitude about shadow work has shifted since this was written, I still agree that recognizing fears and other dark aspects of our nature leads us closer to integration. And integration leads to peace.

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I am a Scorpio type, through and through. Pluto is the modern planet that rules Scorpio  and regardless of recent events, Pluto remains a full-fledged planet. Pluto represents transformation. This involves excavation of the soul. The sprinkling of fairy dust and a few affirmations will not do! This is getting into the trenches and battling for the light.

I have a metaphor in mind that hits somewhat close to home. It reflects poorly on my domestic skills but I decided it was worth sharing. My cat Dexter keeps growing and growing but my living space has appeared to shrink ( due to years of accumulating books, stuff, more books, other stuff, books, etc. ) My tiny bathroom is where I keep the litter box. His litter box was small because of the space and he seemed to be fine with it.  I also will confess that I could clean it…

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15 insights from the spiritual path

Wonderful insights for this snowy first day of spring, Solar Eclipse and International Astrology Day. Steaming chicken soup for the weary soul.

Spiritual Awakening

  1. I thought all I needed to know about life would be taught to me in school.
    Now I know that most people know neither the goal nor the rules of life.
  2. I thought that consciousness was a by-product of the brain.
    Now I know that the brain is a consequence of consciousness’s thought
    (- the thought ‘I am separate’ taken seriously).
  3. I thought life was about learning facts and skills.
    Now I know that life is about remembering our true nature.
  4. I thought life was about money and success.
    Now I know that inner peace is more important than anything else.
  5. I thought life was about becoming someone special.
    Now I know that the journey is about losing the illusion of the separate self.
  6. I thought I would get the things I needed to be happy from outside.
    Now I know that happiness is an inside job.
  7. I thought I had to change the world out there.
    Now I know that…

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Astrological Forecast: March Madness ~ Play to Your Strengths

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Oh how I enjoy a good pop culture metaphor to describe the energies.  March madness is the annual NCAA Basketball tournament here in the US. The moniker surely is appropriate for March 2015. This is not a subtle Pisces season. We are in the wild place where electricity meets the ocean. Thunderstorms, tsunamis, and tidal waves are on the daily menu. I suggest you take a great big bite and chew slowly so you can digest what you consume. Better than have it consume you!

There is so much on the menu: Saturday’s ( March 14) Saturn retrograde in Sag, the final Uranus Pluto Square as we speak, and a powerful Solar Eclipse at 29 ( critical) degrees Pisces followed by the Spring Equinox ( Fall in Southern Hemisphere ) on March 20th. So what is a litebeing to do with all this info? Hide inside your bunker or dance gleefully in the storm?

I prefer utilizing both the intuitive and experiential approaches when I consider powerful universal astrological events. This serves me well as an astrologer and as a human living day-to-day. So here is what I suggest: Look to the placements of transiting Uranus and your natal north node.

Uranus has the upper hand in its squaredance with Pluto. Uranus in Aries is ripe with change, freedom, and beginning anew. Pluto in Capricorn is dismantling the old guard piece by piece. Uranus is impatient and relentless in Aries. While Pluto does not play fair, Uranus comes to the party with super-skills and  exciting maneuvers that are simply unparalleled. Locate transiting Uranus in your chart and he will help you fly by the seat of your pants. Which house ( or houses) contains Aries? Look for any natal planets aspecting Uranus between 13- 17 Aries in your chart. Planets in cardinal signs are especially potent. Understanding how Uranus works with your chart will give you some clues on how to ride the tiger. For example, Aries is my 2nd house of money and finances and Uranus is currently squaring my Saturn/ Mars opposition ( 13 degrees Cap and 17 degrees Cancer respectively). This can lead to crazy finances peppered with conflicts, delays, and occasional manna from the ethers. So with a 2nd house transiting Uranus, one might live a simpler life, save for unexpected expenses, find unusual sources of income, and stay open to new ways of attracting abundance into your orbit. The thing about Uranus is that one can imagine several possible scenarios but the events that appear are often original, shocking and abrupt. Uranus is always ahead of the pack and rarely conforms to suppositions or trends. Therein lies the magnificence of this planet.

Then take a look at your natal north node.What sign is it in and which house does it occupy? How is it aspected? The north node will show you how to shine and play to your inherent strengths. It will force you out of your comfort zone and teach you how to step into your precious most expansive self. My north node, for example, is in Virgo in the 7th house. It is conjunct Pluto and squares my MC/IC axis. A recent review of this placement reminds me not to give up so easily and use my sensitivity ( Pisces south node) to my advantage in my service to others , rather than allow it stifle my ability to be in the physical world ( Virgo). It also pushes me to reinvent myself over and over again ( Pluto) in the best interest of my highest good. These are not easy lessons, but the way of the nodes is never easy.

There is just so much going on now. The ride will continue to escalate throughout April with a Blood Moon Lunar Eclipse on 4-4-15.  The storm has not weakened yet. The lightning may have ended, but  how many trees have fallen? How many homes are without power? Where are the floods located?

We will not live out these energies the same way and different elements will become more noticeable as we move through time. That is why I suggest to focus on Uranus and North Node and let them lead you into the arena. One cannot predict how long you will feel the impact of these energies personally, or how you will react to the global events that are triggered. However if you play to your strengths, you will be more likely to play the game with grace and confidence and spend less time on the bench.

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I find it ironic that this is my 300th post. I have been contemplating the squares for a long time now and would not have been able to clearly see this outcome of my journey at the start of the cycle. I certainly was not entertaining blogging. But here I am, so very different in my wiring , and excited to press publish for the 300th time. Thank you all for accompanying me along the way.

related posts: https://litebeing.com/2014/04/14/these-are-the-best-and-worst-of-times-april-2014-cardinal-grand-cross/

https://litebeing.com/2014/11/28/money-dont-matter-tonight/

To learn more about the magnificence of your spirit as expressed in your astrological chart, arrange a consultation by contacting me here

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Yikes! What if they gave a final Pluto Uranus square and nobody posted?

Hello Litebeings,

Tomorrow is the big hurrah and I haven’t posted. I hope to blog soon on how I am faring spiritually and my thoughts on the brewing astrological weather. If I don’t do so today, don’t fret. I would read this  gem in the meantime. The author of the link goes by the name Michael Lutin. I call him brilliant, visionary and frighteningly accurate per usual.

I will be back posting once I gather my parts up off the floor and reassemble my self.

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Above are 2 shots taken in the fall.The first in mine and the other taken by a talented friend. They both possess pointillistic, mosaic vibes, don’t ya think?

I promise I will be back soon. Just wanted to say hello and to also thank all the new followers and readers. Welcome! I hope you find my stories and musings thought-provoking and relatable. Go back to the archives to see how my story has evolved. Plenty can happen in 2 years.

Or 2 seconds..