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Art is My Medicine ~ Neptunian Splendour

This is the next installment in the occasional series I call Art is My Medicine ~ highlighting the healing magic of visual art. These past few days we have been graced with both a Neptune Sun conjunction and Pisces Sun trine Scorpio Moon. These energies naturally lead me to revel in the boundless magnificence of all creative endeavors. On this auspicious Leap Day I am featuring the paintings of  Mikalojus Ciurlionis. A couple of his masterpieces can also be found here. Join me as I ride the waves of colour, texture, and interplay of light.

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Curcuma Longa (Tumeric)

Happy Leap Day litebeings!
I am in close daily relationship with turmeric and use it whenever possible. Dayna’s post is right on time and incredibly helpful. Thank you Dayna for this informative article.

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I wanted to write very briefly about Curcuma Longa, or Tumeric. In case you don’t recall, on the 18th of February, the night I had the lucid dream which resulted in the Union, Curcuma was mentioned to me by my counterpart. I didn’t tell you all, but the next morning the first thing I did was run to the Vitamin Shoppe and buy some. I have been taking it daily ever since.

I did little research before heading to the store other than checking very quickly to make sure it did indeed have spiritual relevance. Sure enough, I discovered that it aids in the cleansing of the chakras, the subtle energy body, and the nadis.

One article suggest using Tumeric in conjunction with a regular Yoga practice:

  • Pain and inflammation: Yoga involves asanas (body postures), some of which are not easy in the beginning. Yoga practitioners, especially in case…

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Returning Home: Part VI – Silver and Gold at the Magic Gardens

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Here is the latest chapter in my Returning Home series, where I explore the portals towards self-realization. I am reposting this on a Pisces day with a Scorpio moon. While editing, I noticed that this excursion to the Magic Gardens occurred on a Scorpio day with a Pisces moon. Ahh, my friend synchronicity never fails to quicken a heartbeat or prompt a smile… I took me some time to realize that South Street contains some powerful energetic gateways. It certainly did not hurt that this recent visit was spent with a dear childhood friend.

Make New Friends, But Keep the Old, One is Silver and the Other’s Gold ..

Photo979 (1)Anyone remember this Girl Scout song about friendship? Apparently Hillary Clinton did when she was recently interviewed about surrounding herself with old friends throughout her life. She goes on to explain that she has made many new friends and then referenced the song. She expressed her fondness for Photo973longtime pals, including a friend she made in the 6th grade. I was a girl scout and also remembered the song. Its mention was timely since I would be meeting up shortly with my friend from 8th grade, Arlene. I think it is okay with her that I use her first name here. If not, this will encourage her to learn how to leave a comment here. ( She does read my blog, which makes me smile).

Photo977 (2)We got together yesterday and it is fall at its finest. The leaves are now close to peaking and I savored their beauty on my drive back and forth from my home to South Street. What a rare day it was with a clear blue sky, cool weather, and endless sunshine. The focus of our trip was the Magic Gardens. We both benefited from some magic in our day.

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Yesterday was that rare astro combo I am so fond of: Scorpio Sun, Pisces Moon. Since it was a void of course moon to boot, the day was emotional, creative, free-flowing, and quite mystical. I had not been to the Magic Gardens before, but was eager to visit. I had read about the gardens years ago and was transfixed by its sparkly goodness. It is so much better in person, I can assure you. I took plenty of pictures, but I urge you to see it for yourself.

Photo971The experience was surreal as we lost ourselves in the mystery of the exhibit space, climbing steps up and down and slowly exploring the nuances of beatific wonder, tiny and huge, whimsical and deliberate.  Stained glass, mosaics, paintings on tiles, curious word puzzles, intuitive use of space, the value of  “disposable ” items.

 There are no limits here. 

Our time together was precious as I introduced her to some of my favorite haunts Photo966that still remain, like the amazing South Street Souvlaki. We had a delicious meal and created new memories to accompany the old ones. According to their website, the restaurant has been around since 1977. We have been friends even before then !

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Sharing great food and experiencing fabulous art is especially awesome when it is with someone who loves the same things with equal passion. It is so refreshing and rare to find someone who understands my taste for both the old and the quirky and finds joy where I dwell ( books, travel, creativity, ethnic food, music, etc.)

Photo976We get each other and leave judgments behind. Compromise is not really compromise and laughter comes so easily.These Magic Gardens and this stretch of South Street did morph into another power place for me, a mystical portal where the light is shimmering and all is well.Perhaps this has always been the case. I am not certain.  What I do know is that we all can benefit from following our dreams and inklings, no matter how fragile or subtle they appear to be. The interplay between living and blogging was evident as I scrambled to take pictures and delete old images to free up memory to capture something new.

I wonder: aren’t we always scrambling to stay in the present and deciding which thoughts to erase in exchange for something sparkling with new life?

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I relish the melding of old and new and blog about this often. I dig the chance to explore new places with an old friend. I also delight that my old friend is engaged with my newer ones through this blog. The added bonus of my “astro-twin” commenting on my Magic Gardens FB post after I mentioned her to Arlene earlier in the day seemed Divinely guided. She is a talented artist that uses recycled items in her work.

For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them.

This biblical quote is the theme of the day. While my health has been troubling and I did not even think I could visit my friend, grace prevailed and a heartfelt reunion happened. What I take from the quote is that all is restored when one is in proper relationship to oneself and with others. Maybe the magic garden is within and all we have to do is excavate it with love and trust in its existence. There lies both the silver and the gold.

A Selection of True Awakening Experiences Part II: Litebeing Rising

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This article is my contribution to Barbara’s challenge, A Selection of True Awakening Experiences ~ Part II. This new compilation of material will also be assembled into a free E book for all to enjoy. To familiarize yourself with my initial story, please read about it here. To download the original E book, you can download it now or click on the book icon on the right sidebar at your leisure.

First off, I would like to mention that I did not follow the exact instructions with my initial contribution. Just to clarify, my initial piece was not about my current journey.  Rather, I shared my recollections of a profoundly mystical experience that took place in 2005. I did not address my state of consciousness circa 2014. I do not think I considered awakening or ascension when I wrote my post. The idea of soul ascension was not on my radar.

So much has shifted for me since then.

In this second installment, I will share some of my soul’s awakening journey between 2014 and today, plus some other takeaways that may offer inspiration and insight. With both some hesitance and excitement, I offer you a glimpse into the workings of this ever-changing litebeing.

So let’s delve into herstory:

When we last left our heroine, it was early 2006 and she had just quit her secure employment of 18 years. She was so excited about the future and intermittently buzzing from her encounters with James. Transiting Neptune was conjunct her natal ascendant ( house of self) and her inner mystic was resurfacing. Life was a blank canvas, brimming with possibilities..

Here is a brief excerpt from my initial story, where I conclude with some observations and lingering questions:

The dawn was breaking within my being and the light was beginning to enter my awareness. I was barely waking to what waits beyond the physical plane. The entanglement was both between myself and this young man , and  also occurring at the quantum level. Was this awakening fleeting, ephemeral and anomalous? Was it a miracle in the purest sense of the word? Am I still wondering what more can happen as Neptune continues to spend many more years in my 1st house?

These lingering questions will serve as the blueprint for today’s article, paving the way for reflection and clarity.

Was this awakening fleeting, ephemeral and anomalous?

It is quite the challenge to summarize my journey over the past two years, not to mention the last ten years ( 2006 – 2016) where I began the transition to overhaul my career and overall identity. But I will try my best to describe how I arrived at my present destination. Destination, destiny, hmmm, they have the same root; to make firm or establish.

My awakening is definitely not fleeting, ephemeral or anomalous.  I am still barely waking. The more I experience, the less I know. Humility has definitely taken root within my consciousness. I take far less for granted and that is a good thing. Intense peak experiences are absolutely rare and transitory. I highly valued the somewhat occasional extreme mystical openings that have graced my life. My ideas about these topics have shifted since then.  I think that it took many years for me to see that over – the – top, trippy, transcendental episodes are not necessarily the bread and butter of spiritual evolution. I thought that the goal was to get as high as possible for as long as possible. Much of my life is filled with oh so subtle wonder. Bizarre transcendental happenings are part of my life, but not on a regular basis. But synchronicity is a daily visitor and the more I acknowledge it, the more plentiful is its presence.

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Was it a miracle in the purest sense of the word?

This is a tough question to answer. Initially I was referring to my cosmic meeting with James that I explored here. I will now address it from the perspective of my ability to integrate the energies on the path to awakening. From 2002 through 2006 and up until the present, I have had many a dark night. One could label it depression, dysthymia, dark night, or some other nomenclature. The labels do not make any difference at all. These are intermittent periods of extreme doubt, sadness, disconnection from Source, and/or profound powerlessness. My journey has not been linear by any means. It has been more cyclical in nature.

What has changed for me lately is that I do not dwell in any one emotional state for very long. I still feel anger, resentment, isolation, joy, confusion, bliss, empathy, or neutrality, but they dissipate rather quickly. However, I would characterize this current season as one of illness, loss, confusion, and frustration. However, my connection to Source is quite strong and that is what makes the difference for me.  I do feel a bit lost and tired though, but not forgotten or unloved. In some ways, my life has never been as arduous as it is now. And yet, it is also incredibly exciting and mysterious.

There lies the miracle for me. 

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Am I still wondering what more can happen as Neptune continues to spend many more years in my 1st house?

For the astrologers: As I mentioned in the beginning of this article, Transiting Neptune was conjunct my Ascendant in the summer of 2005. It is interesting to note that James has that placement natally. So one could surmise that I manifested someone to mirror that transit for me. My 1st house is very large as it covers half of Aquarius, all of Pisces, and the beginning of Aries. Neptune will remain in my 1st house until 2026. So this concentrated energy of fantasy, communion, and mystical essence has just begun to alter my awareness and melt into my soul.

Certain significant progressions have also impacted my journey. As my progressed Ascendant moved from Aries to Taurus, I became more focused on how Pluto/Scorpio affects my interactions with others. I also became more interested in family and nurturing as I was about to become an aunt for the first time.

When my progressed sun moved from Sagittarius to Capricorn, life became more serious and purposeful. With both my ascendant and sun now progressed into the Earth element, my focus had turned towards more responsibility with a call to leadership, substantial friendships/partnerships, and a renewed admiration for the natural world. Examples include my sacred encounters with the animal kingdom, power places, and a stronger appreciation for Gaia.

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Significant Takeaways

From the Refiner’s fire into a river of love

The past 2 years have been a continuation of spiritual “tests” regarding shaping me into a purer version of my Self. Losses have been many, including loss of professional identity, steady sustainable income, robust health,  family members, friends, mentors, and animal companions. This refining process has been somewhat unexpected and definitely traumatic in a variety of ways. What has sustained me is a generosity of spirit from many sources. Some were surprising, to say the least.

One could say that my ability to intuit has led me to be more bold and open. This boldness has opened me up to new people, places, and things that were previously out of reach. While I still tilt closer to introvert on the introvert/ extrovert continuum, I have become more at ease interacting with a multitude of individuals online and offline. I am increasingly being fueled by these exchanges, both creatively and emotionally, not to mention spiritually.

Leaving my city employment brought me back to working full-time in the mental health field once again. The response I received from clients reassured me that I still “had it”, the gifts of compassion and healing I had acquired earlier down the road. Working with creative therapists for many years unleashed a desire in me to re-engage with my inner artist. That re-engagement eventually led to blogging back in 2013.

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Lighting the spark of creation

This creative spark has always resided within. The question was, what to do with it? I was tired of simply being a ” friend of writers “. It was time to be a writer once more. By 2014 I was clearly established as a blogger and now working as a therapist and manager of a recovery program. These opportunities have led me to become more interested in how to combine my creative impulses with spiritual service work. My current passion is offering awakening support to those in need, along with expansion of my astrology practice and writing projects. These desires to lead and expand my sights has been guided by spiritual practices and friends new and old. They are nurtured by immersion in the natural world, music, teachers like Matt Kahn and Lee Harris, travel, altered states ( dreams, meditation) and by interaction with other like-minded people. Many of these unofficial guides have been bloggers on this platform. You know who you are.

Thank You

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Conclusions

I do not know where this will take me. This needs more time and thought. Or maybe not. I will simply state that I do not know. It is more than outer purpose or creative spark or the stripping away of material goods, loved ones or roles. Seeker, mystic, lightworker, starseed ; they all seem limiting. I will just continue to keep breathing and see what arises.

 

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A musical finale ~David Bowie’s passing is still a difficult pill to swallow. While he remains an enigma, I am certain that he knew me. As a rebellious yet idealistic teen, I played the Hunky Dory album over and over and over, looking for answers. The song Oh You Pretty Things has a catchy melody with intriguing lyrics, but was certainly over my head. In the wake of Bowie’s death, revisiting the lyrics triggered a volcanic reaction to my core. The song is both darkness and light, as is the Earthly experience. Please give it a listen here and you will understand how his influence has informed my awakening.

 

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Litebeing’s Guide to the Movies

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While I am still busy preparing my Awakening post for Barbara’s challenge, I figured this old chestnut will tide my readers over for now. I hope to have it published by Sunday evening, but you never know..

So here is an oldie but goodie that will provide you with some excellent entertainment choices. Until we meet again, have a grace-filled weekend.

In honor of the Oscars on Sunday, I had to showcase some of my favorite spiritually themed films. This weekend’s Sun in Pisces, Moon in Scorpio energies are excellent for combining fantasy with passion. It is a great combo for just about any activity, in my opinion. Some of my choices are more obscure, and therefore less well-known. A few are controversial (big surprise!) , while others are more mainstream crowd pleasers.

Here’s an alphabetical list with my brief critiques below, enjoy!

Bee Season  (2005)

This movie stars Richard Gere who mentors his daughter while his family falls apart.  It was adapted from the book Bee Season about a young girl’s quest to win a spelling bee. It is a tale about both mysticism and alienation.

 

The Blue Bird  ( 1940)

I first stumbled onto this Shirley Temple feature as a child and was mesmerized by this story about the search for the bluebird of happiness. The way in which the future was characterized was both otherworldly and heart wrenching   The memory of this magical realm stayed with me for years and was just as captivating during a recent viewing.

 

City of Angels  (1998)

This story about an Angel who risks everything for the woman he loves stars Meg Ryan and Nicholas Cage. Most of the story takes place in the hospital where a weary physician becomes involved in an unlikely love triangle. The performances of the two principles are both soulful and nuanced.

 

 Close Encounters of the Third Kind  (1977)

This Steven Spielberg classic highlighted the theme of interconnection long before Babel, Crash, and Traffic and also demystified the concept of life on other planets. When I initially saw this film, I wondered if Spielberg was trying to prepare us for the possibility of some visitors! See it again with new eyes.

 

Cloud Atlas  (2012)

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This was adapted from the book Cloud Atlas and features an ensemble cast whose multiple characters permeate each other’s orbits through time and space. It is a stunningly complex epic that left me enthralled long after the final credits. Incredible work by Halle Berry and Tom Hanks, supported by spectacular costumes, sets, and special effects.

 

Contact (1997)

Jodie Foster plays a lonely  scientist who seeks out communication from the cosmos and meets a charismatic theologian in Matthew  McConaughey along the way. David Morse’s performance as her father is noteworthy. Fabulous use of special effects adds to the appeal.

 

Defending Your Life ( 1991 )

This funny yet poignant story about the afterlife features Meryl Streep and Albert Brooks.  Shirley MacLaine discusses reincarnation in a cameo role. The plot focuses on the impact of love and fear on one’s evolution. Wonder if the writers read  A Course in Miracles ?

 

 Groundhog Day ( 1993 )

Bill Murray does what he does best as he tries to win Andi MacDowell’s heart on Groundhog’s Day.    After I watched the movie a few times, I was able to recognize the gradual soul development of Bill Murray’s character. There is more here than meets the eye.

 

 Heaven Can Wait  ( 1978 )

Warren Beatty is luminous as the football player who dies before his time in this remake of Here Comes Mr. Jordan. This tale of reincarnation has a fair balance of comedy and romance. Beatty’s chemistry with Julie Christie here really makes the difference.

 

  Made in Heaven ( 1987 )

This is another love story starring Timothy Hutton and Kelly McGillis. They meet in the afterlife and are forced to find each other again on Earth before Timothy Hutton’s character turns thirty. His real wife at the time , Debra Winger, plays God. Two souls head out on separate heroes’ journeys in order to have a chance to reunite. Watch for the surprise cameos along the way!

 

  The Last Temptation of Christ ( 1988 )

I love Martin Scorsese so maybe I am a bit biased but I adored this over the top interpretation of the life of Christ based on the adaptation of Nikos Kazantzakis’s novel . It is brilliantly acted by Willem Dafoe and thoughtfully depicts his inner struggle as he gradually comes to accept his divinity and ultimate fate.

 

 The Sixth Sense ( 1999 )

One of Bruce Willis’s best performances and shot in Philly to boot! Willis plays a therapist whose young client ( Haley Joel Osment) sees dead people. If you haven’t seen it yet, the ending will blow you away. I would consider this film a modern-day classic.

 

 Sliding Doors ( 1998 )

This is a tale of parallel universes starring Gwyneth Paltrow as a young woman who makes different choices about her fate. The story-telling is very credible so it is effortless for the audience to buy this premise as plausible. It is a clever take on the road not traveled.

 

 Somewhere in Time  ( 1980 )

One of my favorites about reincarnation and time travel with Christopher Reeves and Jane Seymour.  I especially liked Jane Seymour in this role as she seems to me to be from a previous era. Christopher Reeves also shows more dramatic range and magnetism that is less obvious in later roles. The story’s pace is nuanced yet compelling as you are transfixed by a stunning score, enchanting sets, and strong chemistry between the two leads.  A truly romantic treasure.

 

  Vanilla Sky ( 2001 )

Although I am not a Tom Cruise fan, I think he is fabulous as this cocky rich kid caught up in this trippy murder mystery. Penelope Cruz and Cameron Diaz are both excellent as the women in this enchanted love triangle. The ending was so incredible that I had to watch it over and over again to put the pieces together. Stunning visuals and great soundtrack by director Cameron Crowe’s ex-wife Nancy Wilson.

 

  Waking Life  ( 2001 )

Richard Linklater is one of my favorite filmmakers and it is very cool that he took on the topic of lucid dreaming. Yes it is very conversational, but this animated feature is thought-provoking and highly recommended for anyone interested in dream exploration.

 

  What Dreams May Come ( 1998 )

This movie is an emotional roller coaster ride about suicide and the afterlife starring Robin Williams, Anabella Sciorra, and Cuba Gooding Jr. Using spectacular visuals based on Sciorra’s character’s paintings, you are taken on a journey of wonder, awe, and triumph. This is an intense story about tragedy and redemption.

 

What the Bleep Do We Know !?  ( 2004 )

Quantum physics, basketball,a Polish wedding, and a woman’s transformation; this is the cosmic voyage of What the #$*! Do We (K)now!? ( or What the Bleep Do We Know!? ) This extraordinary film incorporates interviews with scientists and thought leaders into a scripted tale of a woman played by Marlee Matlin who is trying to get on with her life after a marital crisis. It was panned by some critics and applauded by others . I really am amazed that this film was able to get a distributor and reach as many people as it did. The DVD version can be programmed to shuffle the scenes randomly. This cult phenomenon has to be seen to be believed!!

  Zardoz  ( 1974 )

What would it be like if you could not die? Zardoz attempts to give you a perspective on eternal life on Earth. It is a somewhat cheesy take on The Wizard of Oz with a 1970’s mentality. I found the premise fascinating, despite its flaws.

 

  Tell me about your favorite spiritual movies. What elements speak to you the most? :

Do you prefer sweeping cinematography, computer generated special effects, or an  artfully crafted screenplay carefully translated onto the screen?

What  role does the score and soundtrack play in your choices?

Classic black and white or strikingly vivid Technicolor?

Comedy, drama, documentary, fantasy, animated, sci-fi, , thriller, or mystery?

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The Jury is Still Out

UPDATE 2-27-16: I was excused from jury duty.

This is a short blog dedicated to a new swirl of psychic activity. Nothing seems to be driving this train, like intention or visualization. This is a teeny tiny occurrence, but meaningful all the same. This Fire Monkey New Moon event may be responsible for some internal rewiring. We shall see…

I do not recall what even triggered this thought. I was sitting on my bed, thinking and musing, per usual. I became aware that it has been years since I was called to serve on a jury. I began to wonder why there has not been a summons in about ten years. I thought it may have to do with leaving City government in 2006. I had the thoughts and then moved on to the next thing.

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SIDEBAR: In classic litebeing fashion, I quickly scanned the image, ignoring the details. This summons is for Philadelphia. Huh? It was downloaded online, not my personal summons. The synchrony train continues : choo choo !

What do you think appeared in the mailbox on Friday? A jury summons! All I can say is OMG! Between this event and the pre-cognitive death dream, I sense that my third eye is opening up at a faster clip. It is so interesting that neither of these occurrences were a result of any practice or exercise. I am not interested in jury duty and I was not focused ( at least consciously) on my mother’s friend Ann. Maybe these experiences have been orchestrated simply to get my attention.

Mission accomplished!

 

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I am wondering if going to jury duty may trigger some interesting chain of events. I guess there is one way to find out. This is definitely a Saturn in Sag development. Saturn being government and Sag representing the legal system. The location of the court would bring me back to City Hall, not far from where I worked for close to 20 years. Ambivalence prevails. This pending full moon closely aspects my MC/IC axis, not to mention my Pluto. Since the full moon occurs tomorrow, it is likely that a preference will surface.  Like Scarlett O ‘Hara famously once said, ” I’ll think about it tomorrow.”

Have you noticed a recent uptick in psychic ability?

How about a surge in dream recall or telepathy?

Do tell!

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Colon – artistry ~ The Reveal

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So glad I hesitated in interpreting my healing art.  Frankly, I did not feel ready to take this on. But today I am ready and eager to share some insights. You can read about what prompted this process here.

Initially my process was to start in the middle and work my way out, mandala style. The dark red inner circle did represent the highly inflamed colon region. Upon closer inspection a few days ago, I came away with a fresh perspective. The red circle is the top of my head and I am wrapped with quilts/snakes all around my physical body. I am both attempting at breaking free to reach the tranquil natural beauty in the upper right hand corner, while also keeping warm and cozy within my partial cocoon.

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With Dexter gone, the months have been lonely. As the fall came and went, some cold temperatures began to reach my corner of the planet. Huddled in my bathrobe, I feel safe and cozy. Bathrobes, flannel sheets, patchwork quilts, warm lattes and tea; they provide a vehicle towards a state of self-soothing. Self-soothing is a psychological term which basically describes a person’s desire to re-parent themselves and form a healthy attachment. When someone encounters some type of setback, they often appear to regress. Regression is really a matter of perspective though. I need to keep myself safe and warm during a time of uncertainty and change.

And yet, there is a part of me that longs to break free and maintain a sense of vitality and exuberance. I shared my birthday intention to be playful and lively on my time machine challenge post. You can read more about that here. I do not have to act my chronological age. I do not have to decide that ” I had my chance.” I better understand the old saying that youth is wasted on the young. For myself, that means that a healthy young body could be better utilized by a seasoned, wise, spirit.

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So am I being strangled by a snake or nurtured by a quilt blanket? Am I whirling around wearing a protective garment or am I fighting my way out of a suffocating barrier to peace and joy? Or is it some type of compromise between security and freedom? I am not clear on this yet.

It is exciting to have been given a brand new vision of my drawing. I feel blessed to have been given this chance to see my healing art in a new light. These struggles I have captured here are not new. The push-pull between freedom and security dramatically plays itself out in my natal chart. Mars in Cancer in the 6th house is in a tight inconjunct aspect to Venus in Sagittarius in the 1oth house. An inconjunct is best explained as 2 people standing apart from one another. As they come closer to meet, they pass by each other and fail to connect.  While I love my freedom and untethered lifestyle, I also desire safety, nurturing, and somewhere to settle down. There lies the rub.

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Feel free to offer your interpretations and insights, but do not attempt to put me in a box. After a few days in the hospital, I do not have the stomach for it now ( pun intended)! I am very interested in learning if my analysis resonates for others and am open to hearing additional ideas that may further my healing and evolution.

Namaste

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Dreamwork Works!

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Happy Pisces everyone! I could ask where does the time go, but at this point it would be redundant. I had planned to write the next installment of Colonodyssey, but this dream I recorded takes precedence.

I recently purchased a new journal. I do most of my writing these days here on my blog, but felt the need to resume a private journaling practice. My old journal was filled and I found this cool owl decorated replacement. By the way, I am keeping Owl, Deer, and Tiger as continuing totems. Owl has clearly been more prominent of late, but I had one in – person multiple deer sighting recently, and tiger is appearing more online and on TV, etc.

In any case, this gorgeous journal is enticing me to write more, which includes dream documentation. I will admit my dream recording is quite sporadic at best. However, what I am about to share has convinced me it really is in my ( and everyone’s) best interest to record as many dreams as you remember.

Now to the entry:

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Mom’s Easter Birthday Party

Mom tells me we are invited to a huge ( 19 people) dinner at Ann’s house. This will take place the night before Easter. Easter is my mom’s birthday ( in real life her birthday is in April.  Occasionally it will fall on Easter.) She wants me to take off work. I am unsure of this.  I could call out sick, but did not want to do so.  I tell her I could take a Vacation Day off but better take care of this now because everyone will want the day off. I ask Mom how old she is. It was not a major birthday. I was unsure why we were having a major gathering for a routine birthday. (This dream takes place in present time.)

I then question my mom about Ann. ” Doesn’t she have Alzheimer’s?”  My mom replies ” No, she’s fine.” I am thinking to myself that my mom is in denial.

I call my mom upon admittance to the hospital on February 10th. She tells me that Ann, one of her best friends, had just passed away. She died from Alzheimer’s disease. Apparently Ann’s birthday was January 25th and she died on February 1st. I did not know when Ann’s birthday was, nor was I aware of her passing. I was aware of her condition but I have not seen her in decades, nor have I thought of her recently. I do not recall ever dreaming about her. She does not materialize in the dream but I do recall seeing her house where the dinner was to take place. Now I am wondering if that was the location of the post – funeral gathering. Apparently Ann and her husband recently relocated back to New Jersey and the funeral took place there. My mother did attend the service and told me she saw many of her relatives. I did spend time with Ann’s children and step children while I was growing up. I was fond of both Ann and her daughters who were a bit older than me.

I seem to be more clairvoyant and clairsentient of late, with a trifle clairaudience and telepathy thrown in for good measure. I have become incredibly tied into the synchronicity flow, but less psychic. I typically become psychic on demand if I am reading someone, but otherwise those abilities have appeared to dissipate. So imagine my surprise when I came upon this entry just a few days ago. My mind was blown. The dream happened just a few days before Ann’s birthday and subsequent passing.

I do not celebrate Easter, but know it is the day of Christ’s resurrection. So interesting that the day before Easter was highlighted in my dream. This clearly seems linked to Ann’s transition.

According to my research, the Ancients called 19 the ‘Number of Surrender’ as your life needs to link up with the Universal Life. Not exactly an easy number, number 1 represents ‘new beginnings’ and number 9 represents ‘endings’. When number 19s have determination to erase past mistakes they then develop their true Spiritual character with unshakable faith and a philosophy that will sustain them. 19 / 10 / 1 relates to an experience you have chosen on your path that cannot be avoided. It gives you an opportunity to stand on your own two feet and says that you will need all of the positive traits of 1 through to 9 to get through the experience.

It appears that 19 could be linked with my relapse and Ann’s passing. I can see the significance of this number in my dream scenario. It is also interesting that I did not want to take a sick day. Clearly I did not want to become ill again. Yet it appears that both my relapse and Ann’s passing were inevitable.

The takeaway ~ You never, never, know what your dreams will show you. I recently was telling someone about how dreams can take on different meanings over time. I have been able to identify that current lovers were actually forecasted in past dream sequences. In some cases, there was a significant gap between the dream and the manifestation. I am aware intellectually that time and space are just constructs, but it never fails to surprise me when I discover that I have accessed the future.

If you would like to read about some more dreamy goodness, check out this series from last year.

Want to learn how to make sense of your dreams and/or how to increase recall? Check out my Services page for the details.

 

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Colonodyssey Part 1

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This is the first in a series about life on the road with a colon gone rogue. I absorbed so many lessons in a few short days that I hope to share as many as I can remember. Sometimes years of wisdom can accrue in mere days. Time is malleable. So here we go:

Listen to your soap opera: Last Monday evening I had some gas pains. Par for the course. They continued through Tuesday with more pain. I figured it was IBS. I kept on keeping on, not particularly alarmed, though I did sleep poorly. The pain and gas increased on Wednesday and I was not very hungry. The pressure was quite unpleasant, but not unusual. This did not resemble my initial attack. I was watching my soap opera and preparing to go to an appointment. There was a storyline where one of the actresses was ill. Everyone was telling her to go to the hospital, but she kept denying the need to go. I began to fast forward these scenes because they were making me anxious.

I started to get the chills and I found that odd. I took my temperature and it was over 100 degrees. What? I do not feel feverish at all. I knew this was not good so I called my doctor.  Guess what, he was on vacation! C,mon now. So I called my GI doctor and she was not available. Talk about lousy timing.

Jesus take the wheel: I cancelled my appointment and looked for Urgent Care. I left my house and I was frightened. Who would support me with my doctor out-of-town? There was snow on my car but I had no strength to clear it. I let the wipers do their thing. I repeatedly told myself to stay focused. My mind was racing and I did not have the luxury to become distracted. I drove to Urgent Care to be told they could not help me. So I drove all that way on a low tank for nothing. I was getting tired and more anxious. Would I make it to the ER in time? I had to use the bathroom but there was no time. I knew that the fever was a sign that I had an infection and needed treatment. I kept praying for help. I was wondering if driving myself was foolish. But I did not want to go by ambulance. I wanted to go to another hospital further from my home. I heard it provided a higher standard of care. Plus my GI was affiliated with this institution.

I did eventually arrive at the ER and man, was I relieved. A couple next to me were discussing waiting for 6 hours. As I listened further, I heard the man referring to 201s and 302s. I realized they were talking about psychiatric commitments. I began to think about my working in the mental health field and the laws that sometimes result in tragedy. I also wondered why I ended up hearing about this topic.

Staying in the present is a constant test for me. I recognize that when successful I come into power and peace. I felt relief that the confines of the moment would push aside any contemplation of past or future.

To be continued….

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Happy Valentine’s Day Litebeings! Just spent 3 days in the hospital for a diverticulitis attack. Thrilled to be home on this frigid Sunday morning. I am reblogging this post as a reminder that I never did follow up on my reactions to my art or on getting a colonoscopy. The artwork was created last Summer.I am grateful for all my readers and friends at WordPress. If you are a distance reiki healer, I would welcome some reiki healing. I plan to be doing plenty of writing coming off this hospitalization. I also plan on slowing down my incessant need to be productive and “advancing”. My constant self judgement and ambition is not worth the trouble that it has caused. Namaste ❤

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The new charger for my not so smart phone arrived today. As I began shooting photos again, I realized my camera somehow changed its resolution to the smallest setting. How did that happen? It explains why all my recent Longwood photos are so small. It might be a memory thing?

Anyway, I figured out how to switch it back so I can show you a decent size image of my latest healing art. I call it healing art as it describes my intention. I basically imagined what was lurking inside my colon and intestines:

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When I began working on it, I took a glance at my healing card box and was astounded:

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Doesn’t the red swirl resemble her arms around her heart? I swear this was not pre-meditated, just a cosmic wink from Source.

Now for a much larger reveal:

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Try to ignore the limits of my camera phone and…

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