How Am I Doing? Special Health Crisis Edition ~ The 12th house is not a home

I am planning to write my third and perhaps final installment of Colonodyssey and yods factor strongly into the mix. I am reblogging this post as a precursor of events to come and to re-introduce the yod.

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Update 4-16-15: Thanks for all the well wishes and prayers. I will reply to all comments when I feel stronger. My health is still fragile, yet not as serious as what landed me in the hospital.

For the astrologers: Uranus just recently hit my yod ( square Mars in 6th house) so there is a sense of inevitability with my dis-ease. Yods are quite fascinating and my yod has been quite active at pivotal times. The yod occupies the 1st, 6th, and 10th houses. Mars forms the fulcrum of the yod, so my health ( or pets, daily life, office) often gets triggered big time.

My difficulty in tolerating antibiotics has made this recovery very tricky. I will continue to connect with WP as I feel led. Connecting with all of you is very healing and lifts my spirits.  I feel grateful for my ability to express myself here with my beloved WP…

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Words and Pictures

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Words and Pictures is a film I have longed to see for a good while. The draw for me is my passion for both writing and the visual arts. It had alluded me at the theater and disappeared from cable and Netflix without warning. It reappeared this week on On Demand fortunately.

Mini-review: This film is about two lonely, wounded artists who find one another and challenge each other to become better versions of themselves. The acting is magnificent. Juliette Binoche and Clive Owen are beautifully matched here. I am a fan of both in such films as Chocolat, Bee Season, Croupier, and Closer. But I would be inclined to say they gave better performances in this piece. I appreciated mostly the nuances in what wasn’t said, the intricacies expressed by their facial expressions were on full display.

The main premise asks the question: Which medium is more moving , pictures or words? While the answer still remains a mystery, the film uses both words and visuals to provide drama, inspiration, and some comic relief. Both main characters struggle with loss, failure, and emotional vulnerability. It seems like they have become reduced to lifeless, half-dead, shells. But life has other plans….

The purpose of this post is to pair images with words and have you, the reader, decide your preference. I am pairing the paintings of J. E. H. MacDonald and the words of  poets from Love Poems from God and quotes by The Book of Awakening by Mark Nepo for your enjoyment and comparison.

First pairing:

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I WOULD CEASE TO BE by St. Teresa of Avila

God

dissolved

my mind – my separation.

I cannot describe now my intimacy with Him.

How dependent is your body’s life on water and food and air?

I said to God ” I will always be unless you cease to Be.”

And my Beloved replied, ” And I

would cease to Be

if you

died.”

Second pairing:

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LIKE ROOTS by St. Thomas of Assisi

Our hands imbibe like roots

so I place them on what is beautiful in this world.

And I fold them in prayer, and they

draw from the heavens

light.

Third pairing:

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The stream of life that runs through the world,

runs through my veins.  ~  Rabindranath Tagore

Fourth pairing:

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And then the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk to bloom.  ~ Anais Nin

Final reflections ~

This is not a contest, just merely an exercise to focus on the wonder of the written word and the dance of color and light. I will admit that blogging has afforded me the luxury of marrying my words with art, a luxury I am unlikely to relinquish without a fight.

The beauty of Words and Pictures is the restoration of the main characters. This is a partial restoration or reset point. While neither one goes back in time, before the damage and wounds set in, they emerge lively and prolific once more. Compromises were made and risks were taken. Through this process, rebirth prevailed.

Happy Spring from litebeing,

May you embrace your inner Easter.

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Natural Medicine Healing and Wellness Summit

 

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As is often the case, I am alerted by some unknown source to an excellent, free online series that as the Quakers say “speaks to my condition.” This happened  about a week or so ago. I signed up for the Natural Medicine Healing and Wellness summit, led by Dr. Murray. I only viewed a couple of videos and was not sure I would learn anything new or relevant. Then I watched Sayer Ji’s video on Breakthroughs in Natural Medicine. It blew my mind and shook me to my core regarding the differences between ” Modern” and ” Natural ” healing practices. The video was linked to a free E course on  Food Wisdom. This was also excellent and reinforced some theories I have had about the wisdom of plants and Gaia in general.

Yesterday I was determined to blog about this, but the Summit was over. I am usually on top of these things, but again, was not certain there was anything to recommend. Well, today they announced a free replay of the 3 most popular videos, including the talk given by Sayer Ji. It was crystal clear to me that now is the time to blog about this series. You do have to pay to access the material, since the summit is officially over. But it is truly worth it if you have severe and/or chronic health issues that are not responding to traditional interventions. Or if you want to expand your knowledge about the latest research on what we like to call alternative medicine.

Here is a small sampling of what I learned:

No one has been able to create a drug with curcumin that is superior to turmeric in its natural state.

Food is coded ( protein chaperones) so the nutrients know where to go in the body.

Flowers are natural mood elevators.

Chocolate ( dark variety) functions like manufactured statin drugs without the side effects.

 

I wish I had mentioned this earlier, but am hoping it reaches the people who will benefit. I cannot recommend the Sayer Ji material highly enough! He is the founder of greenmedinfo.com, which is  a treasure trove of information. If you are passionate about the magic of spices such as ginger and turmeric, you will love learning more about the latest findings of food as catalysts towards wellness and vitality.

Here is the link to the summit, where you can decide how to proceed. As some of my readers know, I am seeking new ways to address my health. While I am new to this quest, it is exciting how this information, yet again, fell into my lap. The same thing happened with the Shades of Awakening summit. With my Gemini Moon in the disseminating phase, I am  spiritually”contractually obligated” to pass on helpful information. It is in my DNA, pun intended. If you view Ji’s video, you will get the joke! Please take a look if you or someone you love needs to modify your lifestyle or wants to embark on a new relationship with your physical body.

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Pure Love Renaissance ~ Behold the Magic Carpet

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Today’s post practically wrote itself. Today the sun made its ingress into Aries, signaling the vernal equinox and Spring in the Northern Hemisphere ( Happy Autumn to all my readers in the Southern Hemisphere.) A mere few hours later Venus joined Neptune at 10 degrees Pisces. A sublime combination of energies, if I say so myself.  This combination sparked the beginning of the title, Pure Love ( Neptune Venus) Renaissance ( Vernal Equinox, aka Spring). Confirmation of random love is evident via the whimsical heart adorning my yummy soy latte.

But what about the magic carpet? Glad you asked!

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While conversing with Mike about his latest blog ( which I highly recommend) , I mentioned that the singer he featured reminded me of Annie Haslam from the band Renaissance. I quickly became reacquainted with my favorite Renaissance classic, Carpet of the Sun.

Here are some of the lyrics that stood out today:

Come into the day
Feel the sunshine warmth around you
Sounds from far away
Music of the love that found you

The seed that you plant today
Tomorrow will be a tree
And living goes on this way
It’s all part of you and me

See the carpet of the sun
The green grass, soft and sweet
Sands upon the shores of time
Of oceans, mountains deep
Part of the world that you live in
You are the part that you’re giving

Read more: Renaissance – Carpet Of The Sun Lyrics | MetroLyrics

I really believe I was tuned into this material intuitively. The lyrics and band name really reflect today’s themes of new life and universal connection. The carpet reference conjured up visions of mystical magic carpet rides. The current mars in Sagittarius energy loves big adventures.  So here we go…….

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I have been imagining magic carpets for a few months actually; perhaps yearning for more freedom, intrigue, and autonomy. Could this demonstrate one route that manifestation can take? I certainly hope so.

I am definitely smitten with the union of Venus with Neptune, although it is not an aspect found in my natal chart. I do think that this transit summons the better part of human nature, where we soar to Divine heights of unconditional universal love. Gaia certainly could use more love and less discord at this time.

 

New gig : As this season symbolizes new beginnings, I recently entered into a new affiliation. Spirit Post magazine has made me one of their contributors. Spirit Post features material on a variety of topics such as yoga, meditation, and spiritual awakening. Please check out my first offering here.

Let me know how you ushered in the equinox.

I have had a busy weekend catching up with old friends and meeting new ones. Last night I celebrated International Astrology Day at a NCGR fundraiser held at the lovely October gallery. While I definitely can feel the rush of the impending Lunar Eclipse, there is also a whisper of hope in the air. The magic carpet is heading our way…

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related post: https://litebeing.com/2015/10/10/a-whole-new-world/

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Circles, Cycles and More ~ My Romance with Astrology

Happy International Astrology Day litebeings!
I am re-posting this piece on my love of astrology to honor this magnificent art form. Enjoy!

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Here we are, about to bid goodbye to Scorpio once more. While I feel the most ” like me ” at this time, the Saturn influence has made this past month at times bittersweet and often cruel or painful. But I am still convinced that we all are loved at every moment.

So I am going to tell you a unique love story. It is the romantic tale between Astrology and me. Thank you to the reader who inquired if I blogged on my astrological beginnings. Your inquiry helped me realize that I have only briefly mentioned those early awakenings. Since now is such a great time to pontificate on all 8th house matters, I am capitalizing on the current energy ( 4 Scorpio placements: Sun, Moon ,Mercury and Saturn) by sharing my love affair tonight.

 The Age of Aquarius, sorta

It was the 1960s in middle class America…

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Colonodyssey Part 2

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This is the second installment in the Colonodyssey Series, chronicling my intestinal adventures. While undergoing a routine medical test today, I was strongly reminded of my time spent last month in the hospital. Today’s installment picks up where we last left our heroine, in the ER of a suburban community hospital.

12th House Bugaloo

I consider this a 12th house experience because Venus and Mercury were transiting my 12th house. In addition, Pluto had just entered my 12th house after a lengthy and interesting stay in my 11th. I do not think these placements triggered my illness in themselves ( to be covered in another article), but they emphasized an insular experience in a 12th house ruled institution.

What I noticed even today during a short-term outpatient test is how pronounced my reactions are to people, places and things. This sensitivity was quite prominent during my three-day hospital stay. Take this into consideration as you read the rest of my tale. I find both the brightest and darkest aspects of myself are brought to the surface when in the throes of crisis.

I encountered Julia the ER nurse almost immediately. She was bright, friendly, compassionate, and humorous. She shared her dedication to her faith and her appreciation of alternative health care. I felt safe with her and did not want her to leave my side. I was worried the other nurses may not be so devoted or kind. She seemed angelic to me and I was very grateful to her. The doctor was also kind ( do not recall name). The attendant who kept banging my bed into walls as I was transported to get a CT scan, not so much. She kept talking about how tired she was and her studies. Typically I would feel compassion, but at this stage of the game I was tired, hungry, and in pain. I did not understand why she was telling me her problems.

I was told that I needed to be admitted and I was too exhausted to protest. Julia said that the nurse I was assigned to was a good nurse. In retrospect, I see that was an accurate assessment. She was not engaging or angelic, but she was consistent and professional. I did not know how good I had it.

Insular World

As the hours became longer stretches of mornings, afternoons, and evenings, I began to feel very much boxed into an unfamiliar world. A world where I was just a visitor. A world where I was held captive, an observer rather than a participant. I was  a stranger in a strange land. This place is called Insular World. It became obvious early on that the patients were just collateral damage. We were often ignored or treated with disdain by some of the nursing staff. This also was prevalent at the other hospital I stayed in back in 2015. Now I like nurses generally. Several friends of mine are nurses. I also worked with some nurses as clients in my therapy practice. I highly respect the profession as it requires stamina, patience, and dedication. But when nurses either burn out, become routinely overworked, or simply find themselves in the wrong profession, look out. It seemed that the nurse to patient ratio on the floor was  too high.  I want to emphasize that my medication was given several hours late more than once, that I was not told in advance about adverse side effects that caused excruciating pain, and that I threatened to  leave early against medical advice. This is not a dramatic element added to spice up this story. I gave it strong consideration. Issues of trust and control were resurrected once again. I like my independence and autonomy and surrendering my will to others was incredibly difficult. I thought about how life itself is beyond the grasp of human limitations and frailties. I had plenty of time to think.

Insular world is where you are left alone with your thoughts, defenses, and fears. It is where you are told what to eat, what to do, and when you can leave. You are subjected to unfamiliar machines, procedures, and people without warning or explanation. Okay, there was some explanation. The hospital floor is a workplace for a variety of people who worked round the clock. I encountered people of every shape, size, age, color, ethnicity and temperament.  What they all had in common was the hospital. This was their territory. It reminded me of when I worked at a hospital as an intern many years ago. It also reminded me how much I miss having a place to be on a regular basis with others assembled to serve a common purpose. It is humbling to serve others and to require service. These interdependent relationships are slippery and complex.  I concluded that the only way to seamlessly navigate this environment is to either be comatose or totally drugged out on sedatives. The squeaky wheel did not necessarily get the grease.

All is not lost

But there were some highlights among the ruins. Besides Julia, there was Debra who works in Finance. She was kind and beyond patient with me on the phone. Within minutes she came to my room and discussed various options with me. She was consistent, prompt, and courteous. It is interesting that at both hospitals I had excellent rapport with the Financial staff. If only they could be cloned! There was also the kind man who took my vitals signs. He had a great laugh. There was the secretary who joked with me and sometimes sided with me against one of the nurses. At the end of my stay she revealed that she is also a Scorpio. Imagine that!

My most enjoyable exchanges were with two young woman I met towards the end of my stay. I kept myself busy mostly by doing self-advocacy work. I was on the phone trying to get a different specialist, arranging visits with Social Services, and general troubleshooting. I felt more powerful on the phone communicating with folks outside Insular World.  A graduate Social Work student came up to see me and I could tell she was new to the field. I spent the majority of the time asking her about her education and career aspirations. For awhile I forgot I was sitting in a hospital bed.

Last but not least was Maggie. Whenever you ring the call bell, you are surprised by who arrives at your room. A teenage volunteer came by and I asked her to find some magazines. After she retrieved some for me, she spent about an hour or more hanging out with me. She told me about her hobbies, her boyfriend, her college plans and why she enjoys volunteering. When I mentioned that I wanted to contact friends via Facebook she offered to get me signed in on her smart phone so I could alert others about my illness. During our visit, I came back to life. It really struck me how much I love talking with young people and learning about their aspirations. I am my happiest helping others by engaging and showing genuine interest. I think of Maggie often and hope she is able to follow her dreams. She clearly has a way with people that seems effortless and natural.

Much more drama ensued due to disagreements about medication and discharge. Fortunately the last doctor assigned to me was willing to compromise towards finding a mutually acceptable solution. I stayed one extra day and I was to remain on the medication that my system could tolerate. Luckily it was effective and my infection was eradicated. Being allergic to several classes of antibiotics left me wondering if I am not of this planet. But we can discuss that some other time.

to be continued….

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Poetry ~ Venus in Pisces

More original content is on the way. In the meantime, how about some Venus in Pisces poetry?

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I had a dream last night about ” James”, which has not happened for quite some time. I told him about my blog and asked him to read it and how connected we are at WordPress. Yes I am plugging my blog through the dream portal! He told me he was in love. After some reflection it occurred to me that the dream may be heralding the Venus transit into Pisces. Since “James” and I share a Neptune/ Venus connection and he is such a Piscean/Neptunian spirit, it rings true to me.

So I decided to grace this blog with some more Random Poetry. I will get centered and randomly open to a page within Love Poems from God.  Let’s see what happens.

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WITH THAT MOON LANGUAGE by Hafiz

Admit something:

Everyone you see, you say to them, ” Love me.”

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Pink Sky Desires

As we Spring ahead thanks to Daylight Savings Time here in America, I was prompted to consider some dreams for the future. I hope that making this wishlist front and center will allow me to propel myself to the point where all this , and more, is possible….

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I had a totally different post in mind for today, but it just ain’t ready and I am not going to force it. I am led to write today since the transits mimic my own: Sun in Scorpio / Moon in Gemini.

It is my time and the sun is about to set, my favorite time of day. The sky is a flush with pink streaks gliding upon a greyish blue backdrop. So here we go:

My heart has been opening more to the notion that life can be fun. No more small Saturn living for me, it is all about my solar return MH exactly conjunct my natal Jupiter! Double wow since Jupiter rules my natal MH. For the non astrologers, I am choosing to focus only on the exuberant, loving, benevolent, generous energies. They are extraordinary and so are we. Living is miraculous and this truth is often…

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A Healing Wave

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Ever feel like you are spinning out of control? Well, I have felt this way for about a week or so. This morning was different though. This eclipse energy seems ( so far ) to be agreeing with me. Could be that the lunation is squaring my moon/Venus opposition. With the sun, moon, and/or Venus, I find squares and oppositions to be typically pleasant. The grand water trine that this 19 degrees Pisces new moon in my 1st house makes to my natal mars in Cancer in the 6th house and Scorpio stellium in the 9th house is probably more likely to be the reason. Nothing says renewal and rebirth like a lovely grand water trine supported by my Pluto and north node in Virgo.

I have been fixated on my 6th house journey as more yucky test results keep flooding in. I am not giving up though. I clearly see that I must make some dramatic changes that I have been masterful at avoiding. Meeting yesterday with health coach Dana Barron was very reassuring. She met with me for free and spent about 90 minutes listening , empathizing, explaining complex systems, and making clear recommendations. If you or someone you know needs help navigating the alternative healthcare process and live in SE Pennsylvania, please check her out. I left her office feeling cared for and respected, armed with handouts and resources.

Here is the website where you can find Dana. http://theresiliencycenter.com/

This morning I was led to pull a card from my Healing cards deck:

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I could not have chosen a more perfect card. Good old number 22 contains the following message on the back:

Memories are clever impostors, making it appear that an experience or relationship cannot be healed. If you believe that, how can you heal your body or protect your health?

The booklet further indicates that since both the soul and the body are perfect, the body has the power to heal itself and get out of its way. It suggests to stop confusing the body with medicine and food additives and allow it to work naturally.

As I continue on my quest for wellness, I will take comfort in this card, along with the 6th house/ 12th house energies accentuated by this solar eclipse flanked by Chiron, Neptune, and the south node in Pisces opposing Jupiter and north node in Virgo. Please send me light and love as I continue to ride the waves towards wholeness.

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The Good, Bad and Ludicrous

UraniasMirror20-300pxAs previously mentioned, I have long owed a post to Litebeing for the fantabulous 2016 Forecast session I had with her back in January.

I’ve really struggled with getting this  post to the ‘hit the publish button – really!  you can do it! Yes, that blue button – right – THERE!’ stage –

And yes, I’m pondering on exactly why the struggle – Linda might say it’s because I’m exploring the Libra side of life – fairness, justice, seeing both sides – and since many of these things are important to my natural Leo heart, well, I guess I hesitate, well versed in the many lessons learned when I blazed my fiery trail, only to later realize,

“Hmm…would have been better if I had just waited and thought about it for a while…”

Perhaps it’s because the reminders of my cluster birth blessing, which means when the you-know-what hits the fan, not only does it hit all…

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