I was sort of psyched to write about this powerfully liberating Aries new moon, but could not get it together. I was too busy having a diverticulitis attack. Fortunately I caught it early and it appears that I am slowly on the mend. So grateful I could ride this out at home. How I survived without major pain meds is a mystery. But why it happened almost exactly 1 year after my initial attack is less of one.
My initiation into Colonodyssey was April 6, 2015, following a full moon eclipse that highlighted the Uranus Pluto square. April 7, 2016 was a new moon, also showcasing Pluto and Uranus. I wrote all about it here, a post I recently re-blogged to foreshadow my next Colonodyssey installment. Perhaps it was really foreshadowing this next health setback. Who knows anymore?
There is some irony that on both dates I wanted to write about these significant astrological events, but could not push through my resistance. Looking back, it is clear that I knew there was going to be more to the story.
If I did write about this recent new moon, mention of it being the unofficial start of 2016 would be paramount. With Uranus conjunct the new moon, I would have indicated bold, exciting, fresh beginnings. I don’t know about you, but for me nothing feels new. Not yet anyway. Yesterday it snowed in April and I am left wondering if time has stood still or if I can’t trace time ( Changes by David Bowie reference). I feel like I am stuck in quicksand. By the way, Quicksand is another Bowie song. Couldn’t help myself.
What seems somewhat new is the steady influx of Spirit movement. I had 2 dreams within the span of a few days that warned me about my health, which I chose to discount ( yet again.) One dream included the 911 sequence and the other one referenced pipes needing repair ( I am equating pipes with intestines). I am learning the hard way that minimizing these signals, regardless of dream residue interference, is foolish business.
Another development is the onslaught of strange phone calls I have received the week following my medium session. According to my caller ID, I was flooded with unknown callers from all over the country – all strangers to me, a few days before the reading and the entire week after. Some days the phone would ring constantly, leaving some hangups on my voicemail. I do not know any of the phone numbers nor am I connected with most of their locations. Last night the calls have seemed to cease. Thank goodness! Seems like Spirit was testing to see if I was paying attention. Sylvia Browne says that the deceased often will make the phone ring in order to communicate. She could be right.
I have had to put any plans on hold once more, and focus clearly on the here and now. This is not fun, but necessary when your world is rocked in a not-very-good way. This is so Uranus Pluto, yet rather old school by this point. When I visited a new GI specialist last Friday, his parting words were ” call us if you have another attack so we can postpone your colonoscopy.” He repeated himself, making his message more pronounced. I wondered if he was able to predict this outcome, or was it a self-fulfilling prophecy? Truth be told, I have been down this road before; the road where you can drive yourself crazy with half-baked theory and conjecture. I could attempt to explain why I relapsed, but what purpose would be served?
This is the thing: I do not want to be a victim anymore. I finished watching the latest Matt Kahn video ~ Claim your power, which was about taking the high road in life, aka the Golden Rule. It is a worthwhile lecture, so consider taking a look. He goes on to describe four ego behaviors that can derail you: entitlement, righteousness, neediness, and victimhood. When he got to victimhood, the buzzer went off in my head. He defines it as a belief that everything is conspiring against you. Sound familiar anyone? I had not thought about victimhood this way before, but it fits. I have been valiantly attempting to flip the script to the opposite premise, that the universe is conspiring in my favor. Making an about-face has been haunting me for a good while. It is a real struggle, but worth pursuing anyway. I know it is a better way to live.
But it ain’t easy.
So how has this new moon been treating you?
Is it invigorating and exciting?
Or same old, same old?
Or is it more like the same old song, but with a twist?
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Again Linda, sorry that you are experiencing more health issues.. But what stood out for me is that you are connecting more dots, seeing the ‘Signs’ we are all so often given yet we discount them.. The Dreams, you didn’t pay attention too. 🙂 etc.. And have you ever had a life regression? Just wondering.. As I mention it as it helped relieve my Raynauds.. Which was very bad at the time.. Like blue black fingers.. From Icy white..
Thinking of a book I read how symptoms often can be connected to traumatic events of the past.. A thought! To think on..
Sending love and Loved the post.. Bowie and the Four Tops.. ❤ xxx
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Hi Sue,
I had 1 semi successful individual life regression. I am not drawn to that presently, but thanks for the idea. I just got out of the hospital yet again. still looking for ways to care for myself and help myself gently heal. Living on Earth is traumatic and I wonder why so many choose to return here. But here I am, so I hope to find joy in my time on this planet.
Thanks as always for supporting my writing and me ❤
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I often wonder that too Linda.. I remember my late friend and I discussing it.. We said if we should want another Earth Life, we both needed our heads sorting.. 🙂 But I can only assume. here we have a much greater chance of progressing as there is so much more to experience.. emotionally and physically .. But I want at least some years of floating around in Bliss before my next life 🙂 lol 😉
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Love the post Linda… As you can see I’m reading backwards to catch up… What is going on indeed with us all… We’re all just releasing what we and all our ancestors have being playing for all time… So you can imagine it’s double triple pain coming out… But it is not who you are… So you can just choose to allow, acknowledge, embrace and release… The coal indeed transforming into diamonds… We are all birthing our self anew… Together with the new earth we all so desire to live peacefully in. Lots of rest, water, breathing and walking to keep the energy moving… It seems like the same old dong because we are spitting it all out now… Me too in ways I wouldn’t of thought… But I continue to hold my high vision and vibration of myself and the world I’m creating and this ensures I sail through the storm… Love to you… Barbara x
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Hi Barbara,
Glad you liked this post. I agree we are releasing the sludge from humanity through its genesis. Would like some “down time” to just play!
Hold the vision, yes!!
xx Linda
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Ah Linda, really great post, and I believe you are doing really great work. I owned sovereignty long ago, cannot say I never slip into fear, because I sure do. Thankfully my stays in fear have grown shorter, and shorter. People like Matt, Abraham Hicks, Doreen, Deepak, and so on…things they say come to me, and assist me to transform that fear. We are so blessed in our time with the internet, and so much to assist us at our fingertips.
You are a Strong Warrior Goddess and you make such a positive difference. Once you turn this coal into a diamond, watch out. Pow!
The bit about the phone calls, probably what you suspect. I had a really odd thing happen like that, well sort of…..going have to tell you that one privately. lol
Keep up the good work. I am sending you love, light, prayer, and know you are a powerful healer. You are just making diamonds, and it can be painful ❤
Namaste
Sindy
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Hi Sindy,
Thanks for the encouragement and all the prayers! making diamonds is hard work. Ask Rhianna, lol! It is a great metaphor for this process. My journey out of far has been turbulent. At times I get quite exhausted. But I feel better at this moment and now is all we have.
love, Linda
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Yay! Yes Now, so happy to hear in that now you were feeling better. ❤
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Hi Linda,
Lovely and timely post! It’s been real interesting! Lots of the same, and yet, there’s so much that’s new ~ it’s as if it’s even more “new” than my mind can “realize” and yet, there’s all this retrograde energy started, so it’s going to be a deeper process, and more refined at some point. Can’t really point my finger on it. I enjoyed seeing Matt Kahn in person this past weekend, and am glad you are benefiting from my and Barbara’s mention of him. At present, I have a few posts in the works when I get to it. Thank you for adding this Matt Kahn link here. As we keep recognizing that everything is supporting us, we can keep being that “work in progress” in a realized way. I always think of Rob Brezsny’s (Free Will Astrology) Pronoia, and also, there’s this idea that what we perceive is not dualistically “good or bad,” from the perspective that see’s that. Your reminder here is so apt as we are living humanly. So glad that are being supported throughout this process of healing. I am hoping that you continue to find the resources you need to navigate through it. How interesting that you received a lot of phone calls around the mediumship call. What was your visit with the medium like? Did you connect with Dexter? Please don’t feel like you need to answer my questions if you don’t want to share. I’m curious and should probably get back to my own plate right now 🙂 Lots of Love and Hugs and ❤ and healing.
Ka
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Hi Ka,
thanks for such an enthusiastic response, more “new” than my mind can “realize”, wow! that is exciting.
Regarding the session, I am less inclined to discuss online, atleast not now, but I do think Dex is trying to contact me with the 2 odd whisker incidents, and some lifelike encounters in dreamtime. Sometimes I think he’s still here, for a flash of time. I appreciate all your support and love. Still feel yucky, but less yucky.
love,
Linda
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I am sorry to hear that you had another attack. But it is good that you made it through without having to go to the hospital again.
Influx of spirit movement which comes as dreams: That sounds good that some communication channel is open.
The phone calls from unknown callers: wow, this is strange. Is it an attempt from the deceased to connect? Is Dexter calling? Or is it a metaphor? Is it you getting a call? A calling by the universe? Many repeated callings?
I have felt very weak in March, very tired and flu-ish. And then end of March after Easter, I got a fat cold. And during the last weekend, I relapsed with weakness and cough. I am also cracking my brain, trying to explain why this happened. And I cannot come up with some real conclusions either. Ascension energies of March? Everyone seems to be wrestled down so that they are forced to rest, maybe? Or is it my lingering resistance to answering my calling of spirit that has made me sick? I have no idea.
“I have been valiantly attempting to flip the script to the opposite premise, that the universe is conspiring in your favor. Making an about-face has been haunting me for a good while. It is a real struggle, but worth pursuing anyway. I know it is a better way to live.”
This sounds inspiring. Yes, thinking that the universe conspires in our favor is a better way to live.
Hugs,
Karin
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Hi Karin,
We both have been struggling with health problems, and I know of others. Hope you are doing better now. Are you beginning to embrace the idea of ascension? I am tired, truly tired, of trying to figure out why I keep having these setbacks. Am I too dense, pun intended, to receive the answers? Or is it that I simply need to let my body rest? Time will tell.
The phonecall thing is strange. Only once did I pick up the phone, and it was a person on the end. But there were a slew of calls all day and night from strange sources. Could be Dex, but I think he is showing up with 2 whisker incidents, and in dreams ( all documented on the blog.) Could be departed relatives and/or other spirits ( guides?) I do feel it has to do with my willingness to be open via the medium session. Maybe the floodgates were opened for a limited time.
thanks for such a thoughtful comment. lots of hugs, Linda
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Am I beginning to embrace the idea of ascension, you asked. I have thought about it during the last days. I am still trying to figure out what the lightworker scene means by the term and how that maps to the term enlightenment, falling away of the sense of the separate self, which is what people in the non-duality scene talk about.
In the non-duality scene, there are some personal accounts of people who have experienced this falling away of the sense of a separate self. But in the lightworker scene, do they think that ascension is that your body becomes light or crystal or whatever and then moves up to the sky in a cloud?? And if so, are there some detailed personal accounts of people who have experienced this? Since it is hard to find a definition of terms, I cannot really say anything about it
My guess is that ascension means enlightenment, but I am not sure.
I m reading the channelings about incoming energy blasts with interest. So far, thought that I am not affected by this. But there seemed to be something strange going on in March which knocked many people off their feet.
Hugs,
Karin
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Hi Karin.
I really appreciate this question, because it helps me to clarify my own position. First of all, non-duality philosophy and lightworker “status” are not mutually exclusive. I do not think that planetary or individual ascension circa late 20th century/early 21st century has anything to do with taking your body with you to another plane permanently. I see at as growing closer towards enlightenment and upgrading one’s human/spiritual operating system.
Regarding lightworker identification, originally I considered it New Age mumbo jumbo. But when I read a book about starseeds in the 80s or early 90s and took the quiz on Are You a Starseed? I passed with flying colors. I knew from early on I was different, and became more different as I went from childhood to adolescence, and later, adulthood. I look at lightworkers as highly sensitive, empathic souls with a well developed understanding that they have a role in leaving the planet better than how they found it. We are idealistic, passionate, and highly invested in increasing love, compassion, and wisdom. We serve in many ways, often intuitively and quite naturally. ( This could turn into an article.) I personally get overwhelmed with all this data on planetary energy blasts. My ineptness with science is obvious as I try to make sense of the various waves, etc. But that does not make them less significant. I rather stick with astrology, which comes easily to me ( after decades of study).
hugs,
Linda
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For a while I wondered why I ran into the narcissists that I did in my life, and only recently read about “vulnerable” narcissism, which does have some semblance to victimhood, a habit I’ve also been trying to break. I definitely enjoy much more the attitude that the universe does favour me, just in crafty ways.
Best of health to you. My dad also has diverticulitis but thankfully has discovered most of his triggers.
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Hi Janet,
Thanks so much for visiting and commenting. Victimhood in this guise is an old habit to break, and began in my family, so it is older than me. But here is always hope that we can change and evolve. Glad your father has it under control. I have not been able to see any clear triggers.
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Must be very difficult. I am glad you are getting better Linda. Sending healing prayers your way~
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thank you Cindy
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