Follow the Winding Brook

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This is a draft from November 2014 that had not made it to press. It was almost complete, save a few sentences I added a few minutes ago. In light of where I find myself currently, this piece is quite significant. More will be revealed soon. Have a great Memorial Day weekend!

I chose this painting entitled Winding Brook to illustrate that life can be lived like an open road with many twists and turns. What is truly magical is that the name Winding Brook itself is significant in a deeply personal way. Two of the loves of my life ( unbeknownst to one another) resided at the Winding Brook cul-de-sac many years ago. I worked there when I first moved to Philadelphia. Nice housing development, even better metaphor. I knew it should appear here for my post-birthday offering.

I can honestly say that I am gaining more clarity regarding my future, especially in regards to life purpose. The past few days in particular have brought me insights that are leading me out of what seems at times to be a perpetual fog. Born with Sun conjunct Neptune, this tends to be my default position. The fog can be incredibly mysterious and envelope you in its magnificence but I don’t like to drive in it!

With just a few weeks more before I must decide to either pull a rabbit out of a hat ( irony intended) or take my retirement money early, the heat has been on. I take full responsibility for my financial predicament. Years upon years of choices have led me to where I am today. I understand my relationship with money much better now than ever and I am totally fine with it.

Like Prince says:

Money don’t matter to night (no, don’t matter)
It sure didn’t matter yesterday (yesterday)
Just when you think you’ve got more than enough
That’s when it all up and flies away (flies away, flies away)
That’s when you find out that you’re better off
Makin’ sure your soul’s alright (make certain that your soul’s alright)
‘Cause money didn’t matter yesterday,
It sure don’t matter to night

 

This song has been bouncing in my head the last few days and I agree with its premise. I want to make sure my soul’s alright. I just had another birthday and I find this occasion to be a fine time to engage in some honest reflection about the state of my soul. While Prince rarely allows his videos to remain online, this Scorpio Gemini hybrid sure can make a statement with his lyrics. Today the Sun is in Scorpio with the moon in Gemini and it mimics my natal positions almost exactly. I feel so much like me today and hope my message is indicative of  the intense whimsy that resides at my core.

Money is not my primary objective, but freedom to move freely and unencumbered in pursuit of my highest expression IS. I have tried the past couple years to tell myself it is alright to have a small life, in order to appease myself and become comfortable with accepting my reality instead of fighting it. Learn to live within limits and make do with your circumstances. This concept is spoken like a reluctant realist who has just come off a brutal Saturn cycle. I also have had a progressed chart loaded with  many Capricorn planets, a Cap MH and a Taurus ascendant for quite a few years now.

There lies the rub. I now can clearly see that teaching and speaking my truth have a lot to do with my ” next steps” on the highway of life. I thought this new break in the action was a chance to regroup, especially when the research interview easily dropped into my lap. Although the research position did not materialize, it helped solidify what matters to me. Work has typically been the bane of my existence. I do not fit into highly conforming systems. Being an outsider resulted in plenty of stress, wreaking havoc with my health and peace of mind. Most of my jobs were a not so great fit, but had aspects to them that I really enjoyed. I want to hold onto the positive aspects of being a “helper”. At the same time, I cherish inner peace. The nourishment it offers is unlike anything else.

How will I find balance between purpose and peace?

Stay tuned..

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  3. Hey Linda,

    How are you doing? I was flicking back through some missed posts and paused a moment here to chew a little on your words.

    You ask, How will I find balance between purpose and peace?…and yet you title the post, Follow the Winding Brook. I guess the answer you require is found within the title of the piece don’t you think?

    Also, I note the use of an Anthurium Flower to head up your Blog. Knowing how you enjoy the symbolism and language of flowers, what the Japanese call Hanakotoba, I imagine this was deliberate choice, as too the colour used. ( http://www.flowermeaning.com/anthurium-flower/ )

    Hoping all has proceeded from this point in the rightful, mindful manner life was intended. As Sue D correctly suggests, the big adventure of Life is the journey to discover and reveal the hidden. Money may carry us to many beautiful and inspiring locations but it isn’t going to purchase a ticket for the personal quest we may choose to embark upon internally. Only Love, and the Love we find within us will support and finance that journey.

    Take care Lind, and enjoy the remainder of your weekend.

    Namaste 🙂

    DN

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    1. Hey Dewin,
      How lovely to discover you take such interest in my writing. I just got out of the hospital and have begun a post on it in the drafts folder. I do not know if the title suffices as the answer to my dilemna that was introduced here. I plan to re-read as I did like this one 🙂
      I have a ton of pictures uploaded from Longwood and this choice was rather random. However I love the color and was pleased to learn of the symbology. The Anthurium is very adaptable to all environments and is a hospitable plant ( as opposed to a hospital plant, pun intended). Obviously I am aiming to be more adaptable in all environments so that I can live here a bit longer , and with more harmony and peace.

      Namaste, Linda

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      1. Hey Linda,

        Well you know how I enjoy pulling up a comfy winged chair and stopping a while by the hearth to share your writing with you. And your reply here, just perfect.

        I enjoyed your hospital, hospitable pun…and of course wish you well convalescing and returning to full strength…and hope there will be Anthuriums waiting at home to ease any residual disquiet and facilitate your intentions far further.

        Do you recall a post you made many months ago now featuring an image of a pink and purple tunnel (I cannot remember the name of the post)…but recall emailing you with a different perspective on the image. I revolved the picture 90 degrees and suggested it detailed a figure, half-man half-horse, a Hierophant was waiting to welcome you? It is a memory that returned to me whilst I read this post about following the winding brook….and wondered if you did step into the Hierophant’s healing domain?

        Wishing you peace, balance, and harmony in abundance and a weekend bringing good cheer and good fortune in all ways desired.

        Namaste 🙂

        DN

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      3. Hey Linda,

        Really? 🙂 Hmmm, now there’s a rather curious synchronicity to ponder, or indeed, an interesting connection to consider further.

        Being an Astrologer, perhaps you know of the Hierophant by a different name: Chiron? 🙂

        I’ll look forward with anticipation to reading the finished article when posted.

        Until then…be well and keep smiling.

        Namaste 🙂

        DN

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  4. This post was just waiting for the right time to be posted Linda.. And so poignant too with Princes words.. I feel we are all of us being given opportunities within our experiences to follow a new path all be it winding and often it can be filled with emotional waters as we allow our tears to flow..
    This last week I have worked hard in the early mornings in the allotments and slept like a baby in the afternoons.. Something within has shifted yet again as I know we are being shown the winding brook of Life..
    Sending you my love, healing thoughts and hugs my dear friend..
    Love ❤ Sue xxx

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    1. I sense a peace within you and it looks good on you Sue 🙂 I do think the material chose the right time to appear in print. I see life as a spiral, but also with parts of the path hidden from conscious view. And even what is not hidden is not always recognized.

      love and hugs, Linda

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  6. I relate to this as well! If it helps, I ended up in financial situations I never (ever!) thought I would have, and as difficult and as much of a tear down as it is….it’s better on the other side. There’s a lot of purpose to exiting the system! (Really not easy – I got lot of practice in being patient with myself. And the hardest part was that I did not manage to pull a rabbit out of my hat.) Huge topic! Wishing you all the best. Be good to yourself! xo Dayna

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    1. Hi Dayna,
      Apparently my life is graced with Daynas and Danas lol! I am so glad you can relate strongly to this post. It was composed Nov 2014 and there was no rabbit for me either. It is a huge topic and connects with many important ideals. I have also found myself in situations that were not supposed to happen to me, ha, the joke was on me. While I am not ready to totally leave the system, I think my priorities are in right order. Thank you for finding me and leaving such a thoughtful comment.

      peace, Linda

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      1. Hi Linda, cheers to priorities in right order! That’s a big one, congratulations. My favorite line in response to “the joke was on me” is “if you want to make God laugh, tell her your plans.” 🙂 Different rabbits for us, maybe? And good for you for going at your own pace. That is my #1 priority for this year. It’s lovely to connect – (And I’ve only known two Danas my entire life, both as a teenager, so it’s extra fun to see all these Da(y)nas online!) xxoo Dayna

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  7. Hi Linda, I really relate to this post. This money/purpose thing seems to be an ongoing struggle for me! Well, maybe struggle’s not the right word. I’m working it out, it’s just taking a long time. 😉 I too have some big changes coming this summer, mostly to do with finances, but also about my love of foreign travel. I’ve tried the 9-5 routine but seems I can only tolerate it for a few months at a time. Hah! Thank you as always! Aleya

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    1. Hi Aleya, yoga goddess,
      I like your post which also highlights this theme. I am excited to see what happens for both of us. I am praying that my intention for major travel is on its way to me too. Maybe looking back what seems like ” a long time” will be put in proper perspective. I think we both are people who enjoy our freedom to explore and be independent. The trick is to know when to be connected and when to stay put.

      love, Linda

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  8. Teaching and speaking your truth – that sounds good. I resonate with that.
    Synchronistically, truthcodex blogged about this yesterday
    https://truthcodex.com/2016/05/27/physical-transformation/
    “I ask my guidance what physical transformation actually means. They say it is time for wayshowers to come out of hiding and reveal themselves to the world. It is time to shine our light without hesitation or fright. The duty of each wayshower is to be their authentic self and speak their genuine truth. The truth they speak of is a vibratory truth. The duty they speak of is one of utmost joy. ”

    So, how are we going to do it? What will be the next practical steps, I wonder.
    I wish you all the best for your journey.
    Hugs,
    Karin

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    1. Hi Karin,
      Yes there is a theme here. Dayna blogged today about truth and communication and Lee Harris’s energy forecast is also about Truth telling from the heart. I was clearly led to blog this old post. I did not plan it at all, just went to old drafts and saw it was practically complete and voila! This is how Spirit works, I had nothing really to do with this action 🙂
      Thank you for the link. For myself, deciding to blog set this self-expression action in motion. I have become more vulnerable over time. Regarding the teaching, it has been rather dormant, but will be coming back for me very soon. It is important for me not to get triggered by old ideas about competition, status, and ambition. These ego forces drag me down and take me off message ( purpose). Also have to consider that purpose is subject to change.

      hugs, Linda

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      1. Dear Linda… IAM also expanding, the light is drenching all our physical bodies AND we find ourselves in two worlds… If you take away the but in your sentence and allow the AND instead you can experience it all… How wonderful. I’ve been really focused on my masterclass this month, Tuesday is the last class… It’s been great. I’m going to put it online end June… I was wondering if you would like to participate, free of charge so that you could write about it/your experience… It’s a follow up from my book… Love to you xxxx

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      2. I corrected my comment by adding AND, and I like it better. Reminds me of a communication exercise at work where we substituted And for But.

        Thanks for the generous offer about your course. I will consider taking you up on it. Speaking of books, have you assembled our eBook on Awakening?

        love, Linda

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