Fare thee well 2014

Since it is Mercury retrograde, I happily re-blog a New Year’s Eve post from 2 years ago. I will probably create some new content over the next day or so, but please allow me to take this time to say Thank You for your loyalty and community. Blessings for 2017, a 1 year bursting with promise, possibility, and renewal.

Namaste, litebeing

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It has been a very intense and overwhelming time for me lately. I have so many unanswered questions, loose ends, and unfinished business that will remain a mystery as this year closes. While I typically do not view the end of the calendar year as an accurate time to usher in new beginnings, years of cultural conditioning orient me to use this window to clear out what no longer is needed. We cannot totally eliminate our 3D cultural orientation while in a body, or can we??

As I walked outside tonight to take out the trash, I looked all around and prayed fervently for a sign to guide me. No creatures were in sight, yet..

As I approached my front door, one by one all the light fixtures at the apartment complex began to turn on. My prayer was answered! It is all about the light.

I call this blog 

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Like My New Tagline?

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As is so often the case, ideas flash into my head. Today while processing the death of Carrie Fisher and noticing she is forever ensconced on my sidebar ( as part of my random post oracle), the word snapshot buzzed in my ear. Then it occurred to me to use this on the blog. A few seconds later incarnation appeared. So there you have it, snapshots of an incarnation (that would be mine).

I did not think about this or mull it over ; I just discarded the old and added the new. While my former tagline Stories Beyond the Veil reflects my blogging journey, this new tagline is more inclusive and describes the pointillistic approach to litebeing chronicles. All the small snapshots move together to construct a tapestry of malleable space and time. Yes, this is a bit woo -woo, but if you look at the depth and breadth of material posted here, it will start to make sense. The whole is so much more than the sum of its parts.

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So let me know what you think. Do you like this new tagline? What does it mean to you?

As a tribute to Carrie Fisher, give the random post oracle a spin. You never know what might turn up!

Namaste, litebeing 

Musings at the Crossroads

SPOILER ALERT: Lots of poinsettia and introspection ahead….

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Merry Christmas and Happy Hanukkah , Merry Yule, and Happy Kwanzaa (December 26) to everyone associated in any way with this blog. You are my circle, my precious litebeing family, and I wish you boundless joy and love during this Solstice/Yuletide season.

You may enjoy listening to some of my favorite holiday music as you read on:

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There is plenty on my mind that needs sorting and releasing. This hodgepodge style post is mostly for me, but hopefully it will be interesting enough to read through. Way way overdue, so here we go…

High-way hazards: My commute to work is reasonable in duration but part of the trip is on a notoriously treacherous road. Years ago Robert predicted I would be in a major accident on this road. He sternly told me to never use it again, especially during rush hour. Robert was not always accurate, but he managed to frighten me nevertheless. The drivers are very aggressive and reckless and it takes some construction of armor for me to make this daily commute. But the near misses have occurred in other locations. About 6 weeks ago I had a vision after awakening where a white pickup truck or SUV would come at my vehicle from the right. It was so vivid and strange because it was not a dream, but a semi-awake ” scene.” A few days later, driving home on a very familiar road, a white SUV comes at me from the right and almost slams into my car. I drove into the opposing lane, which fortunately was clear. I only had been driving my new car a couple of weeks at the most. Then last Sunday I am trying to get some coffee before heading to a holiday party. It was incredibly crowded in my neighborhood and the energy was frenetic. Another huge, high-end SUV almost slams into me from the left lane. I prepare for a head-on collision and slammed on the brakes. The vehicle just missed me but I felt like I was attacked. I got out of the car, examined my vehicle and walked up to the driver, an older, well-appointed woman. I told her to be especially careful driving such a large vehicle. She declared that she did not hit me and seemed indifferent.

I think this incident triggered my GI pains the next day, which I thought might be diverticulitis. I was in shock at the holiday party and a bit off at work the following day. On the drive home I felt like a creature was kicking me from inside my belly. I went to the doctor and was put on antibiotics. Was it stress related IBS or diverticulitis? Per usual, I have no clue. What I do know is that I hate driving in a world where people poorly manage massive vehicles, text, and make calls while operating them.

Blue-Christmas: I have always felt alien during this time of year and this has not really changed, regardless of any inner-evolution. While I marvel at all the lights, trees decked out to the nines, and poinsettia in every color and permutation, I don’t understand this holiday. I do understand it is borrowed from pagan traditions and correlates with the beginning of Winter ( the Capricorn season), but emotionally it doesn’t click. I just don’t get it. I am inside my bubble where none of the festivities are able to enchant me. Being at work just amplifies my isolation. It took awhile for me to put it together, but working outside the home triggers more sadness and angst and increases my desire to build up my defenses. I do not fit in at work and am actually considering applying for new jobs in the New Year.

I have also requested a transfer to my friend’s position after she leaves. It may signal a new beginning with different co-workers and a nicer office. I find it so interesting that when I begin a new venture I am immune initially to the characters that emerge on the scene. At this juncture, so many of them resemble people I have encountered before. With the exception of my clients, my life has not been impacted much by having these “new” people in my stratosphere. I am still grateful though to be working and earning money. It is just that I continue to find myself in toxic settings and am beginning to conclude that it is not me, it is the state of office politics. On the positive side of the ledger, my supervisor approved my plan to create a new group for the young and/or newly diagnosed. I am excited about building something original based on my passion for helping people get back to the business of living. I will keep you updated.

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Traditionettes: I just made up this new word to describe some of what I set up for this season on a regular basis. Since I do not celebrate Christmas, Hanukkah, or Kwanzaa, there is not much to do. However there are some elements that bring my comfort and peace in a small way. I would seek out eggnog every December until I became lactose intolerant. Boy do I miss that drink, a concoction that tastes like a boozy milkshake. Maybe I can find a lactose – free version.  I always listen to the Nutcracker either on CD or on TV. I have been fortunate to see it live at least once and it was spectacular. Speaking of nuts, I have not eaten any whole nuts since April 2015, but I do enjoy nut milks and nut butters, etc. I am very enamored with chestnuts, going back to enjoying marrons glacés over ice cream as a child. I found chestnut cream this week ~ pureed chestnuts with vanilla and sugar. It is addictive! Try it with ice cream or yogurt, dip chocolate in it, spread it on a baguette, or straight out of the jar!

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I usually purchase a poinsettia and place it on the dining room table. I enjoy experimenting with nuanced colors and patterns. They add a warm glow to any setting. This year I chose one with peachy leaves, resembling autumn foliage. This plant is not poisonous for pets and has such a storied history. Learn more about poinsettia here.

Fate and purpose: I continue to ponder who is driving this bus, meaning, who is the ” me ” that enjoys the Nutcracker and dips chocolate in puréed chestnuts? How or what is the source of my love affair with astrology and Indian cuisine? Where does my affinity for writing and obsession with pattern and color originate? Is it personality or Divine guidance, ego or Higher Self ? Joe Dispenza states that what we anticipate through intention or intuition is really what we are destined to have in our lives. We just get a sneak preview of what fate has in store for us. Matt Kahn says that everything is fated, but the degree of worthiness we attribute to our circumstances determines the outcome. So I ponder: if all is determined beforehand, why desire anything? What is the point? Who is doing the desiring anyway? Any thoughts on this?

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Rudolph’s friends: While listening to the end of Matt Kahn’s video yesterday, I noticed some movement in the backyard. At first I thought it was a dog, but I sensed much  more activity. I observed and counted at least 10 deer hanging out in broad daylight. A few of them were actually prancing around, which seemed novel to me. A stray cat emerged out of central casting, moving slowly and seemingly oblivious to all the deer activity. It truly was a whirlwind of activity! I am quite fond of deer and was happy to have them congregate near me, albeit briefly. So today I was gifted a free subscription to Carrie Hart’s power animal site and selected a power animal for the day. Guess who choose me? the buck! The central message for buck is grace, confidence, and renewal. This definitely seems fitting and the synchronicity between the deer sighting and choosing the buck adds more energy to the message. Perhaps this was a faint taste of holiday magic for me to savor.

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Last Christmas: While preparing this post, I was conjuring up memories of some of my favorite holiday songs. Some of these include Christmas Wrapping by the Waitresses. BandAid’s Do They Know It’s Christmas, Do You Hear What I Hear?, Anything Nutcracker, Adam Sandler’s Hanukkah Song, Father Christmas by the Kinks, and George Michael’s Last Christmas. Most of these are pop songs by contemporary artists that I grew up with. They are touchstones that give me the illusion of safety and comfort. Just like the chestnut cream or eggnog, they are cozy and soothing. They also help me mark the passing of time. I just learned that George Michael passed away at age 53. I first heard his music when he was in Wham and I found his voice romantic and soulful. Many of his songs were part of the soundtrack of my early adulthood. He was so much more than a pretty face; his voice was gorgeous and his lyrics were incredibly moving. I do not know if he died today, but it was announced today, on Christmas. His song Last Christmas helped me gauge the passing of each year and the direction for the future. Call it ironic but one of his most iconic songs partially foretold his future. His life would end on Christmas, his last one.

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Kindness Collisions Abound

Howdy litebeings,
I am reblogging this gem from last year’s Winter Solstice. It is full of hope and magic, which is so truly needed. I became ill last night so I will be celebrating at home. Once again, the Universe discovered I was moving too fast so she found a way to get my attention : sharp stabbing pains in my gut. Is this merely a sign that I am forced to heed, armed with colored pencils, candles, great books, and chicken broth? Or am I an empath deeply impacted by all the violence and division of the planet? Or do both apply? Does it even matter? What does matter is that more and more souls are waking up and taking action to help us heal and rebuild.

Let’s make Earth healthy again. ❤ to all and Happy Solstice to our global family. ( Winter in the North, Summer in the South)

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I once associated collisions with car accidents, but no more. Collisions are the cosmic meetings shrouded in mystery and orchestrated by Divine appointment. This blog is loaded with everyday tales of extraordinary magic. The more I share, the better I feel inside. Storytelling is my gift to the world.

This time of year is considered to be a time of frequent miracles. But if you frequent mainstream media lately, you will find assorted horrors and hate- based dreck. Way too many stories are told not to inspire, but to agitate or incite fear. I have had enough, how about you? But there is hope. I promise you, there is hope. I invite you to watch CBS evening news, especially the last five minutes of each broadcast. If you have more time, explore the magical CBS Sunday Morning show, where they bring extraordinary stories that are unlikely to be found in memes or…

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Magnificent Winners

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I hope everyone has been enjoying my recent photos of Christmas at Longwood Gardens. It is such a magical place, full of enchantment and mystery, particularly during this time of year.

As the days grow colder in the U.S. and virtually all the trees have shed their leaves, I am reminded that Winter is here ( officially on 12-21-16). As we move closer to the end of 2016, I grieve for all the sorrow and pray for redemption and another shot at peace.

I am in a very reflective mood and hope to organize my musings later on this weekend. In the meantime, I have an announcement to make.

HERE ARE THE WINNERS OF LITEBEING’S MAGNIFICENT CHALLENGE CONTEST:

  1.  C of judahfirst.wordpress.com
  2.  Michael of embracingforever.com

Initially there was to only be one winner, but I decided to award free astrology readings to both of them. Michael is someone I have come to know and appreciate over the years and C is a new connection who is kind and full of heart. Both are wonderful souls who shared their magnificence and indicated an interest in a reading. I am fortunate to consider them my friends.

 

Congratulations to C and Michael!

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I feel blessed to have been gifted with the ability to interpret charts and share my insights with others. Astrology is a complex and intricate language the unlocks the essence of our soul’s promise.

If you want to give a loved one a unique holiday gift, contact me here to order one of my services. 

 

Thanks to all the challenge participants and all readers of litebeing chronicles. It is hard to fathom it is coming up on my four-year blogiversary. The community that has gathered around me is miraculous and keeps growing and blossoming.

Thanks again.

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Transcending the Mundane

Readers who have been following my life know there are many ups, downs, spirals, and paradoxes. And that’s just this week! As we enter the next important lunation, tomorrow’s full moon at 22 degrees Gemini ( less than 1 degree away from my own Gemini Moon), I am picking up the pieces left over from the upheaval of the past few days. My vacation seems like a distant memory now, while current events leave me overstimulated, depressed, and bored. This full moon has many interesting twists: Sun conjunct Saturn opposes it, Chiron squares it, Jupiter trines it ( while sextiling Sun Saturn) and Ceres conjunct Uranus sextiles it ( while making a trine to Sun Saturn.) We could call it a mixed bag, but didn’t I say that already?

To be a bit more specific, look for chances to integrate philosophical or foreign structures, use inspiration to ground rather than scatter, nurture your-Self unconventionally and collectively, and teach what you must learn via creative pursuits, meditation/prayer, and dream-work.

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Now, about that dream-work…

I have not been  actively pursuing dream revelations of late, because I feel the need for relief from stimuli. I actually would relish multiple nights of dream-less sleep ( as others have shared online recently). But some significant nocturnal experiences have graced my life despite any otherwise set intentions. Last night was quite rare, a semi-lucid OBE ? aka astral projection journey. I add the question mark because this was different from my occasional OBE. Let me explain: on a few rare occasions I have recalled floating around my home, heading towards the ceiling , leaving my body behind. I was semi-lucid, meaning I had some awareness of my state, but less of an ability to transform the dreamscape, as is the case with lucid dreaming. I have had many more lucid dreams than astral travel journeys, so my understanding is limited.

Last night in the middle of what seemed to be a dream sequence, I get out of bed and begin to walk around. My home is not mine, however and I start flying all about this strange residence. It is filled with a large family. I float from room to room and observe the decor. The home has many rooms, all casually furnished with plenty of books. One room has dark green walls and a dark hued couch. There is some residue from spending last night watching a phenomenal film, Captain Fantastic. I highly recommend this story starring the enigmatic Viggo Mortensen about an unconventional family that lives off the grid .

I watch a man and woman, presumably the couple, arguing and children playing and running wildly as I survey from above. Next I look at the woman and she screams, but no one interacts with me. I ask myself ” Am I a ghost? ” This is why I believe this was astral, rather than a lucid dream. When I have astral projected before, there was no communication between myself and any “characters” that I encounter.

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Can anyone offer any feedback with regard to this dream-time escapade? Is it astral projection or something else? Please add your 2 cents in the comment section. Many of you regularly travel various realms and I welcome your input. I was glad to fly around awhile and transcend the losses and disappointments of the last few days, if even for a few minutes. My experience definitely fits in with the Gem/Sag energies,  freely flying (Sag) around a house filled with books and plenty of discourse between its inhabitants. ( Gem).

While we all live in challenging times with plenty of uncertainty, there are sparks of possibility and novelty in the air. May we all fly above the fray by transforming and transcending any and all fears and limitations.

Happy full moon litebeings!

 

 

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Fifteen Reminders To Help You Make It Through The ‘Holidaze’

This is such a great post about supporting us proudly weird, strongly attuned empaths/lightworkers/INFJ or INFP types during the holidaze. With the exception of the “sinfully sensitive” description (maybe it’s meant to be tongue in cheek), I wish I had written it myself.

Thank you Paula for all you do in your practice and online here at WP.

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(This post was first published on intergifted, a great site for gifted adults.)

1  You’re not too sensitive if you’re easily overwhelmed by the holiday muzak, the florescent lights, the crowds, the frenetic meaningless pace, the likely psychopathic Santa and the smell of stale popcorn at the shopping mall.

2  You’re not a failure as a human being if your siblings went to Stanford and are all doctors and have two and a half kids and you’re still wondering what to do when you grow up because you took a detour into drug treatment and psychotherapy because your soft heart and gentle spirit needed to heal.

3  You’re not lacking in empathy if you’re frustrated and irritated, well, OK, enraged by society’s focus on the status of having more and more stuff, the bigger the better, while they’re oblivious…

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A Mixed Bag

As we move towards the end of 2016, I say , thank goodness. I also say welcome to new followers and readers! I would love to hear from you. Please leave a comment and introduce yourself if you like.

It has been such an active, tumultuous, over-the-top, and humbling time for me and many others. Christmas music is playing, cars have trees attached to their roofs, and I am still processing the summer!

A post I wrote last year comes to mind when I reflect on Saturn and Jupiter and how they have impacted me psychologically and spiritually. I only mentioned Saturn at that time, but I see Jupiter as relevant, especially since Saturn is currently residing in the sign of Sagittarius ( ruled by Jupiter.)

When I consider that this season is the Saturn return of my initial Saturn Venus conjunction, the tears begin to flow. I fell in love with a Saturnian man who was older and the relationship felt quite “fated”. Robert Hand says that love is often lost or tested during a Saturn Venus transit, but that a new love may occur of the “fated” quality. That is what happened in my case.

What I am encountering this time around is a profound loneliness and boredom. Life is busy but boring and filled with chores, tasks, and obligations. My social time seems rushed and lacks substance. Life seems very inconvenient and empty.

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Here’s an example of how this has been appearing in my journey. There is more money now and I can catch up on buying things that have been necessary but put on hold. I also now can afford books,  some art supplies, and other needs of the soul. But there is a lack of enjoyment or satisfaction. I feel weighed down by pursuing my LCSW while staying in a low – paying, paperwork – heavy job in a poorly run program that is lucky to have me. The LCSW supervisor just flaked on me today ( Sun conjunct Saturn) and I will have to hire someone else soon. She seems somewhat Saturnian to me also ; quite serious, rigid, and harsh.  Yesterday my sole friend at the job just handed in her resignation. She is leaving in part because she feels unappreciated and dumped on, among other things.

But then Jupiter steps in … On Thursday evening my father appeared at the end of a dream, descending down a flight of stairs with energy and youth. He was younger and thin and moved with confidence. He was never like this in “real life”. I was happy to see him so free and full of vitality. Yesterday the company held its holiday party. The sun was sextile Jupiter in Libra and also conjunct my natal Venus ( Sun conjunct Venus in Sag sextile Jupiter in Libra). There were several door prizes given out at the party. I won an early prize and was pleasantly surprised. Later on,  the top prize was awarded to ME! I was given a certificate and was a bit confused because it was not an awards ceremony. It turns out that the certificate was for 2 Phillies tickets with meals and drink at a luxury suite at Citizens Park. I have never won anything of this magnitude before and I was floored. When I looked at the certificate and noticed the Phillies logo, my eyes teared up. My father would have been “over the moon” to receive such a gift. He was an avid sports fanatic and baseball was his favorite game. When we moved to this area, he switched from the Mets to the Phillies and became a relentless Phillies fan. I quickly considered my dream and realized it had a pre-cognitive feel to it. Or possibly this was a sign that my father was watching over me. Then the realization set in that I do not enjoy most sports and that this gift is wasted on me. This is classic Jupiter/Saturn thinking: here I am with an embarrassment of riches bestowed upon me and I don’t enjoy them.

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Tomorrow is another day and it is likely my mood will change. Learning recently that the decision to change my program’s funding structure has been postponed for at least 6 months has reduced some pressure that was weighing heavily on me. More books arrived today and perhaps one of them will help me shift my perspective. But hey, life is not always rosy and it is important to acknowledge where we are at any given moment. Thanks for letting me vent and illustrate the wonder of astrology at the same time.

Speaking of astrology, I will announce the winner of my challenge very soon!

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