Wednesday, Right? The bc Blues

More and more each day dissolves into the next. I wake up so many mornings feeling like there is no reason to get out of bed because my day will be almost the same as the last 10 or more. This is so different from previous unemployment episodes. I was at home more often, but I went out regularly and socialized and engaged with the outside world.

Days had distinction.

I remember what Wednesdays meant bc ( before Covid). I ran two groups back to back on Wednesday evenings and got home rather late at night. I was exhausted but also filled with the inner knowing that I was doing something, making a contribution to humanity.

So for the hell of it, let me share what I actually did today ~ 5-6-20, my half birthday.

I will be 60 years old in 6 months if I survive this monotony ( and the Presidential election).

Here are the “highlights ” :

I wished my friend a happy birthday on FB ( Happy Birthday Lynda if you are seeing this!)

I watched part of Morning Joe on MSNBC ( lately the MS/ Microsoft merger is really bothering me, but not enough to divorce me from tuning in to Morning Joe and Chuck Todd.)

I ate breakfast while watching more TV and playing video games. I spend part of most mornings playing a couple video games. I have done so for many years and made them part of my pre-work routine.  I like building virtual cities ; I must admit.

I sorta got dressed, depending on how you define dressed. I logged onto WP and read a few blogs, another daily ritual. I am here almost every day because it is home for me.

I prepared lunch and got into an email argument that lasted a few rounds. I ate lunch and watched part of the Young and The Restless, my go -to soap since around 1975 or so. Yes, we Scorpios can be loy-alle. The show is now airing “classic episodes ” since filming has ceased for now. About half of an episode is aired daily because programming is interrupted by city and NJ briefings. ( My state does not broadcast daily as far as I can tell, but NJ does). I also caught up on Mrs. America on Hulu. This series about the Women’s movement and the fight for the ERA in the 1970s is so fascinating. The acting is also impeccable. Check out Cate Blanchett. She was made for this role.

I must confess I have already forgotten a few hours of my day. Yeah, it was that interesting. I did complete my first mail-in ballot for the Presidential Primary and sent my mother a Mother’s Day card. Other than blogging, those tasks seemed to be the most productive.

I also had a “random ” in-person encounter. I rushed to fill out the ballot and card before the mail carrier arrived. Fortunately, the mail arrives here mid-afternoon now, rather than anywhere between 5 and 6 pm ( or later ) in the evening, like an afterthought. I was so excited and surprised to see the mail woman show up just as I walked out in the hall. I asked her if she could wait for me to address the card and she agreed, which was very kind. She has great long red hair and we talked awhile. She was very sweet and I felt grateful for this chance exchange ( as if anything is chance… )

I also spent way too much time checking email on my phone, expecting some message would arrive and rewrite my day. Maybe something along the lines of  ” You just won a million dollars ” or ” We want to make a movie about your life ” or ” This is just a dream ” and then I awaken to a bc reality.

I ate dinner and watched Becoming on Netflix. It was good, but I find it odd that it seems like I saw it already. Yet, how can that be if it was released today? I was thrilled to see glimpses of my city. Could it be because I don’t go anywhere anymore? I don’t typically venture downtown that much, maybe 5 times a year, but I was gleeful to see a SEPTA bus on the screen and some other local relics. Watch it if you like documentaries, as Michelle Obama’s transformation story is compelling.

Next I read a few sections of the Sunday NY Times ( promo deal made this affordable) and completed Decolonizing Wealth. This book was recommended and I got it because I thought it was about explaining the working-class Western world in terms of contemporary enslavement. It is not about that topic but it was still a good read. I came upon a lovely quote in the last chapter that begged to be shared.

When we are engaged in acts of love, we humans are at our best and most resilient. The love in romance that makes us want to be better people, the love of children that makes us want to change our whole lives to meet their needs, the love of family that makes us drop everything to take care of them,  the love of  community that makes us work tirelessly with broken hearts. Perhaps humans’ core function is love. “

So that was my day. Rather ordinary and not much different than Tuesday May 5, 2020. Yet, I was reminded about the power of love and this reminder inspired me to write today.

Love makes each day productive.