Water Goddess

 

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Happy everything under the sun and moon/ day litebeings!

I have been out of commission again with another colon – odyssey relapse but feel inspired to do some sharing tonight. My mind and heart has been all over the place, looking at old photos, experiencing quite spirited dreams, and reflecting on the Barnes Matisse class and my Reiki 1 certification. What does it all mean ?

What have I done, where have I been, what do I value, who do I love, what do I want, how can I feel alive in the present moment? Nostalgia, gratitude, regret, sadness, awe, grief, guilt, curiosity, I am feeling it all. Very intensely.

I do not have the energy or interest to write about today’s Blue Taurus full moon,  Halloween, Samhain ( properly celebrated at 15 degrees Scorpio which happens to land on my birthday this year in my time zone!) or the highly hyped Mercury retrograde. There are many great articles out there and I rather make this more personal.

I have been feeling a strong pull to listen to Joni Mitchell’s music the last few weeks. I have a great CD of hers, which I used to play in the car, but my leased vehicle doesn’t have a CD player and my CD player at home is not working now.  I am too fixed in my ways to start downloading music and listening to it on this pc with its crummy sound system. So YouTube on my TV does the trick for now.

You may wonder, why Joni Mitchell? Her voice takes me to other realms where all is calm and sweet. She is also a Scorpio and probably my favorite Scorpio musician, with Neil Young close behind. Her music is so ethereal and soothing, like a feather floating down from the sky, gently tickling your nose.

I have pulled her natal chart to take a closer look.

Joni Mitchell truly is a water goddess with Cancer rising, Scorpio sun, and Pisces moon. The sun weighs in at 14 degrees 52 minutes Scorpio so she is a Samhain cross quarter day soul! I can sense the twilight, longing, melancholy and darkness in tone, along with pain, rage, and relentless passion.

With Saturn conjunct Mars in Gemini in the 12th ruling her descendant, she has not been happy with the men in her life, but still her romantic aspirations often appear to emerge anyway ( Moon in Pisces on the MC opposing MC ruler Neptune conjunct Venus in Virgo the 4th house. ) Like many Scorpios there is deep love and affection mixed in with many mighty stings! Sun conjunct Mercury in Scorpio in the 5th lends itself well to an intense and highly talented performer, which she certainly has proven to be.

Her chart is closely aligned with mine with several conjunctions, sometimes to the exact degree. However our lives have taken quite different paths and she is truly a product of the Boomer Generation, where I am more on the cusp between Boomer and X. I see her as a feminist, activist, and cultural icon, who never seemed to linger in the shadow of her male singer songwriter counterparts of the sixties and seventies. Good on Jonie! She also closely physically resembles one of my WP blogger buddies, but I will keep her name a secret. I will say that I never thought of it until tonight.  Hmmmm, I wonder if that is some of today’s liminal energies bringing in that awareness?

So I will leave you with a few of my favorite Joni videos so you can enhance your weekend and appreciate her artistry with fresh ears. Thank you Joni for expressing the water element so gracefully and completely.

Another Fall in Philadelphia ~ The Sequel

I was hankering to provide more recent fall foliage photos and Monday’s trip home from the Barnes supplied my muse. The first shot below is ironically of the Phila Museum of Art. Not sure why but I did not take one of the Barnes. I have driven this route so many times when I worked downtown in Center City Philadelphia but this trip was quite special to me. I will let the photos do the talking….

The pictures below were taken later in the week with the final shot a rare glimpse of the moon. Happy Friday to all!

Scorpio ~ ahhhhh

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About half an hour ago the Sun made its annual return to the sign of Scorpio. Thrilled to be back on home turf once more. Enjoy this oldie but goodie, one of my favorite poetic blogs!   Blessings, litebeing

Ahhh Scorpio, where to begin..  Well, let’s start with the featured header. It is a picture of purple chrysanthemums I took near my house. Notice how at first glance these scorpio flowers sporting scorpion fuchsia are out of focus, mysterious, difficult to get a fix on. Now move your laptop or device further away and notice how the image becomes clearer and better defined. This is part of the Scorpio nature. We are difficult to assess, but can become better known if you persevere and change your perspective. Now mind you, I planned to take a clear picture and it looked fine on my phone. But it translated differently and served me well to prove this point about Scorpios.

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This post is not going to be technically oriented or objective in any way. This is litebeing – right brain style, so get ready!  My intention is to describe what this season means to me and how I resonate with the Pluto/Mars vibrations. Yes it is all about me , because I am a true Scorpio and I want to share my personal associations with you today.

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Dark purple: the hue of plum, my car , black currant in tone,  aligning with the golden leaves outside my door, the world encased in a golden ray of light, luscious pumpkin, church bells, buried treasure, animal shelters, succulent squash, isolation rooms, pungent cranberries, weddings, woodsy mushrooms, explosions, meditation, dark red wine, candlelight, bittersweet chocolate, aged sharp cheese, crystal clear spring water, a stark, piercing, bright blue sky, deep silence, Led Zeppelin loud and raw, snappy autumn air, rapturous attraction at first sight, a blazing burgundy fire …

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Burnt orange, raw garlic,  seared meat on the grill, the first inhale of an unfiltered cigarette, stinging hot chilies, spiritual ecstasy, intricate mosaics, revenge, corruption, cobwebs, gunpowder, forgiveness, roaches scrambling up and down the walls, obsessive love, finger painting, hospices, moldy food, punitive rage, live improvisational jazz in a dark, smoky bar, New York City on 9/11, passing around a pipe filled with a beguiling pungent odor, piercing howls at 3AM, redemption, gripping depression coming for your soul……

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Maroon, complex Indian curries, emergency rooms, holding cells, the scent of musk, Ouija boards, double espresso, penetration, last-minute reprieves, reckless angry sex, black velvet dresses, landfills, a searing passionate gaze, cancer wards, brothels, the ruins of Pompeii, pounding reggae, wilting red roses, shuffling tarot cards, crackling thunder,thick menstrual blood, half-dead creature on the road, feces, molten hot fudge blending with vanilla ice cream, sheer vulnerability, aching in the loins approaching climax, a newborn’s first breath…

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Happy Solar Return to Sindy, Deelia, Heidi, and Lehua! Any other Scorpio goddess bloggers? I would love to include you. How about readers? Let me know who you are.  Where are the male Scorps at WordPress? I know you must exist. Come join the party. What does Scorpio mean for you? 

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Here is my take on the Mars influence – my favorite song as a teen:

Compare it with my take on Pluto ~ this song captures how I felt about a magical young man who eventually “captured ” me !

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related posts: https://lindalitebeing.wordpress.com/2013/02/02/happy-february-why-astrology-works-a-biased-view/

https://lindalitebeing.wordpress.com/2013/09/12/11-day-clearing-this-too-shall-pass/

https://lindalitebeing.wordpress.com/2013/09/19/pluto-station-purge-clear-forgive-release/

4th Place with 228 Billion Trees

Finally some good news to share, all about magnificent trees! The US ranked number 4 in the world with total number of trees adjusted to land size. Click the link to read Sandra’s blog.  Enjoy!

 

4th Place with 228 Billion Trees, is the United States according to a research by a group of scientists calculating comprehensive estimates of the numbers %

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Blame it on the Rain

A few minutes ago the title for this post came to me and it is perfect. Honestly, I have no one or no – thing to blame for my misfortune, but sometimes it is fun to regress a little and place the blame somewhere.  Today’s New Libra Moon has really turned out to be a bummer for me and I did not have any expectations. I do have hope that tonight may turn out to be lovely. But I want to write about how I am feeling right now. It seems like my latest round of job leads has been disappointing and misleading.  Just a week and a half or so ago I was feeling quite jubilant, in the flow and excited about two interviews. Then in the midst of this timeline another job that sounded even better emerged and the employer expressed interest in me. I even dreamed about telling someone about it last night, meaning it had remained with me in the astral.

All three jobs did require that I stuff myself in a box in terms of clinical approach. But they had remote work flexibility and decent pay and were happy to take someone without the LCSW. The two screening interviews I had last week were awkward and felt forced. One already wrote a rejection email. I am waiting to hear back from the other. The most interesting twist is about the third job, which has excellent pay, is very close to home and offers benefits and fulltime hours.

I was asked to answer a question about projecting myself three years into the future and I enjoyed that challenge. The other day I was informed I was going through to the next phase of the selection process. I was  asked to perform an online assessment to see if I would be a good fit. In the past I have had to do this once or twice with poor results. This time I was given the name of the instrument so I looked it up. I was curious how this test would influence their decision so I paid to take the test first myself and learn about how it works. I could not find a free test and considered it to be an investment. It was definitely interesting and echoed a little of my Myers Briggs profile. Today I was ready to take the test for the prospective employer and the code did not work. This seemed off but I attributed it to Mercury retrograde. I emailed the practice to tell them about the glitch so I could take the assessment. Half an hour later I get an email from an admin thanking me for my interest and telling me they hired someone else. What happened??

My mind went down a rabbit hole. I thought that maybe they knew I took the test already and that perhaps disqualified me. Or they accessed my results and decided not to move forward. Or it was a miscommunication.  Eventually the practice owner responded and said that the hiring process moved faster than expected and that she will keep my resume on file as they expect another vacancy in the winter. I do not know if I believe what I was told, but I need to let it go. I will be kind to myself and let my feelings move through me. While musing on this, I remembered something my Reiki teacher said recently about the second attunement she did for me. She received a message that my need to control situations usually makes them worse and that I must find a way to be in the flow. I really tried to control this assessment situation. I did not like being judged this way and wanted to “crack the code”. The irony here is that my test results revealed that I do a lot of research and preparation when I face a difficult problem.

So here you go.

In the midst of this dreary day I drove to the post office to mail my ballot. It was anticlimactic. I usually like to wait in line to vote and find this ritual energizing. But it is more convenient to go the mail – in route. I am not excited about this election, just three days before my 60th birthday ( a discussion for another day). I am not a Biden fan. I remember him from the Anita Hill fiasco during the Clarence Thomas Supreme Court hearings back in the nineties. I found him to be sexist and it bothered me. If I could choose, it would be Marianne Williamson or Bernie Sanders. I prefer authenticly messy people over ambiguous phony people. But I certainly don’t want to live in a reboot of Nazi Germany. I read that Trump’s first wife said he would often read Hitler’s speeches over and over. I could go on about the Con Man/ Mob Boss in Chief, but I am out of wine and do not want to worsen my mood.

This Libra New Moon is very challenging as it squares Mars and opposes Jupiter Saturn and Pluto. So it behooves me to watch my words a bit online and off. And yet, as I ponder my job search and this latest theme of trying to please others by showing up as the prototype they prefer, I really resent not being simply me! I do not have a “brand” and shy away from writers who are inauthentic in order to always stay on brand. This is not for me. I revere honesty and want to write from a place of vulnerability.

I may never get a chance to find out if I was right for that job that required an assessment, but I really would like to work somewhere with people who are more like me. Where are they? Who are they? I don’t know. Libra energy is harsh for me because it occupies my Solar 12th house and natal 8th house. These houses are messy and often contain hidden emotional baggage. I have no planets in Libra. I know some wonderful Libra folk like my advisor ( hey CL!)  and my niece but many Libra’s I have encountered have caused me much harm or frustration. It is what it is. We all have our strengths and our weak spots.

Controlling outcomes is one of my weaknesses and Scorpios love to control. Tomorrow is a new day and fortunately my moods tend to change quickly of late. Writing about my darkness is a cathartic relief. So now to bring some light I  will leave you with the song that inspired today’s title :

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Writing ~ The Masterful Administration of the Unforeseen

3rd reblog in a row, yup! I like to find “random” posts as oracles and this post really resonates powerfully in 2020. Welcome to my new followers! I am grateful that you are part of the litebeing community. Please say hello and introduce yourself in the comments section. Thanks for being here. I will be back with fresh writing when inspiration meets energy and initiative. 🙂

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No one can predict the future now. No one can make long- range plans. The best we can hope for, to quote Robert Bridges, is ” the masterful administration of the unforeseen.”  Ride the whirlwind. That’s the most we can do.
Arthur C. Clarke

This sage advice is found on page 150 of Walking on Alligators – A Book of Meditations for Writers by Susan Shaughnessy. I was led to open a random page from this book today and post it here. I have been thinking deeply about my writing process of late. I have wondered why some pieces come so easily to me , while others are so arduous and heavy. I have also noticed how grateful I am when opportunities appear to take my writing and this blog in new directions. For example, when TMA was looking on Facebook for bloggers to review the Music Issue, I had no idea I…

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Musings – November Time Warp

Another day, another reblog. I am really missing my city at this time of year, fully open and alive. How we tend to expect that things will remain the same when we are younger. This is a true time warp since this post is almost 7 years old! Enjoy another post featuring my city where ” Bad Things Happen, – Not!”

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I cannot let the beginning of November go by without a proper post. All the recent posts on Samhain and this current astrological wild ride we are on have been incredibly inspiring and I devoured each one with delight.  Currently I have been rather moody and spacey and somehow surprised at all the emotions and circumstances that I cannot control. Yet I am actually surprised that anything surprises me anymore! That is the cosmic curve ball, that I am still unaware of so much, despite my heightened psychic acuity. Who knew?

Still, I adore November which was originally the 9th month on the Julian calendar. Makes sense right? After all, November literally means 9th month. The Julian year began on March 25th which is very close to the Spring Equinox. When the transition was made from the Julian to the Gregorian system, November became the 11th month. I prefer the original sequence…

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Another Fall in Philadelphia

Hello litebeings, with the Mars square Pluto transit this morning, I learned that a friend of mine is seriously ill. She is so young and strong and this news makes no sense to me. No sense at all.

I drove to the store today and it became apparent that fall has arrived in Philadelphia. Slowly but surely the leaves are turning and gliding through the clear blue sky. I long for normalcy in this anything but typical year of 2020. Here is a reblog of my post about Philly traditions and shifting cycles of time.

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It is only fitting that I post about this Hall and Oates song on the first full day of fall, here in Philadelphia. This version with Diane Birch is from Live from Daryl’s House. I moved to this city to start the fall semester of my senior year at Temple University, so it is an anniversary theme of sorts. My trip to University City last week really reminded me of those first days of freedom and adventure in a new city and new state ( Though I did live in Reading , PA  as a child).

The first time I heard this song on the radio while living in Philly was very special to me because it was in early autumn. I told myself I would hear it every year on the radio as a way to usher in the season and mark my life in this amazing…

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How to Navigate These Surreal Times

 

” You gotta learn how to zig when you wanna zag. ”  Wise words from my former  supervisor at the rehab where I worked. I use them all the time, talking myself down when I feel powerless in handling a situation. Most people would not call me flexible and when someone does, I feel like I have made a significant change. WP just gave me a good scare to reinforce the theme of today’s blog, acting as a catalyst for change. Some readers know I am not all that tech savvy. I  find it miraculous that I learned how to blog mostly on my own. But when WP unceremoniously switched me today to the Block Editor,  I was really stuck. After trying to figure it out , I became quite overwhelmed. Then I began to go into crisis mode, but  I went over to my reader and saw that the first blog in the feed was entitled Trust. That was my sign not to give up. I eventually found a way, albeit possibly temporarily, to still blog in Classic Mode. I also saw how fast my thoughts deteriorated into a catastrophic storyline.

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Saturn

Saturn, pictured above, recently stationed direct on September 29th, signaling a return to progress and form. Let’s say this statement comes with some fine print. 2020 has been prophesied by many astrologers as a major game changer and the month ahead is no exception. Saturn and Pluto ( who stationed direct today October 4th) moving forward bodes well in general. But both planets are still dancing together with Jupiter in Capricorn and will be making several challenging squares to Mars retrograde in Aries and Sun in Libra. The encouraging news is that even with Mercury retrograding soon , all of the traditional malefics ( Mars, Saturn, and Pluto ) are in cardinal signs. Cardinal energy adds action and enthusiasm and agency, and we could all use that about now.

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These energies are very powerful and transformative. I have the big 3 ( Pluto Saturn and Jupiter) currently transiting my 12th house, which does not bode well for optimism, but does favor subconscious attitude readjustment. It also improves the connection with all that is nonsensory and energetic. I am happy to report that I have completed my Reiki I training. There is still much to absorb but I am really glad I achieved this goal. I am also excited that my art class begins on Tuesday. In addition I was able to manifest two job interviews this week that allow working remotely from home. It is possible that my high from completing my attunement and getting the interviews caused a flare up of my GI troubles. It is interesting that I recently read how Mars retrograde can cause health flare ups, which makes sense to me with natal Mars in the 6th house of health. Or it could have been faulty thinking that led to a setback. Or both.  Or neither.

Today I am feeling improved and excited for the first interview tomorrow. I am a bit out of practice, but I will remind myself how much I have to offer. Speaking of which, a recent email heading tonight eased my mind. The title said Offers Are Coming Your Way.  Well, how about that? This synch is quite encouraging!

I subscribe more and more to the importance of paying attention to one’s thought patterns and the outside environment. Mindfulness and gratitude have helped me cultivate more patience and hope. This doesn’t mean I am completely unaffected by the shitshow in my country for which the word surreal can seem insufficient.  I just don’t have a better word in my vocabulary so surreal will have to do.  Yet, I am learning to surrender more and more. I recommend mindfulness, meditation, anger reduction, and exercise as ways to improve resilience and focus. All practices are not for everyone so your mileage may vary. Astrology is not a panacea that will solve all conflicts but it can point one in the right direction.

 

Please send me some love for this coming week as many changes are in play. While I am becoming more adept at coping with this tumultuous year, I am still a work in progress. Just don’t mess with the Classic Editor because I don’t want to zigzag right off the rails. I just love blogging for all of you way too much.

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