Strange Day

 

UPDATE 9/28/20 : I have come to realize that both the image and unsettling experience described below were brought to me by my team and other higher dimensional beings, not at all random or simply intuition( image) or sabotage ( wood chopping). The image is about healing and power through art and stillness. The disruption event was an example of how I get in my own way and/or find ways to not commit to a new way of being. I choose to believe that life is conspiring in my favor and no-thing is deliberately working to impede my progress. Yeah, it took a few days but I see it now.

 

 

Can something be both beautiful and destructive?

Yes it is so. The spotted lanternfly, a lovely ( but easily camouflaged ) insect was spotted by me on Wednesday ( photo above) and in my car yesterday. I also saw it a week or so ago and thought it was a butterfly. I did some research and learned this fly is on the watchlist for extensive tree damage. I am living apparently in the “quarantine zone.” I did take it out of my car. It is so pretty, but a menace to Gaia.

Little is clear to me now. I will explain.

I excitedly took an online channeling class today with Lorie Ladd. My wifi was fine and I was nervous but ready to learn more about how to channel energies consciously. I believe I have been doing it for years, unconsciously. About  a minute or so into the first guided practice meditation , I hear what sounds like drilling. It gets louder and louder. I try to ignore it but cannot do so. I look outside and see some guy sawing wood near my backyard. Why he decides to do this on a Saturday night is beyond me. My neighbors for the most part have been really annoying lately.  There seems to be a callous disregard for the boundaries of other people, as I have written about previously. I had to stop the Zoom call and I felt a lot of anger and resentment. Why would this noise occur right in the middle of the class when we are starting the actual channeling? My laptop does not have a working battery so it would have taken time to find a place to plug in the cord and reboot. I figured I would just try again when I get the video replay. I have let go of the anger because I do not want to be a victim. Maybe there is a great reason why my process was interrupted. The past week has been exhausting and annoying in part to Saturn and Mars, which I may address another time.

On a more pleasant note, earlier in the class an image came to me quite strongly. While Lorie was discussing art and clairvoyance, I saw a painting in my head. It was gorgeous , featuring potent crystals and lavender. I could not , not think about it.  It occurred to me it might be on my blog but then I connected it with Sue Dreamwalker. I could not find it anywhere on her blog. I finally checked my media library, taking in the spectacular array of images and found her painting. Why was this artwork created 7 years ago renting space in my head? I do not know. From time to time I will get a flash of a painting or photo and become obsessed with its origins. Lorie discussed the power of channeled art and it really made me reflect on my love of this medium. Sue’s painting was part of my first blogging challenge back in 2013. Maybe it popped into my brain to invite you all again to join my current challenge. Please check it out here. I am eager to get it up and running soon but need a few more writers to sign up.

I am still trying to get grounded after a very frustrating day. I do not think I meant to sabotage my progress with channeling higher dimensions and owning up to my multidimensional nature. I guess I will need to cultivate more patience and enjoy the rest of the weekend. Thanks Sue for your lovely art and your enduring friendship!

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Art is My Medicine ~ Follow the Thread

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Woman With Umbrella, Washington Square

It all began with setting an intention to receive a symbol from Source. The other day ( was it yesterday?) I asked for a carriage. Today I was curious about viewing Barnes Takeout Art Talk on YouTube and chose the Glackens piece above because of the pastel colors and soft lines. Later on the video I noticed a horse drawn carriage on the upper left hand side. Yes! I exclaimed, here’s my sign!

Glackens was an impressionist painter from Philadelphia and a close friend of Albert Barnes. This piece is described as both an sketch and a painting and I am quite taken with it. The carriage is just a bonus.

When I examine my current take on my spiritual journey, I strive to bring it to down to basics. There is so much noise “out there” and my soul relies on simplicity and silence. Where do I stand on Ascension, QAnon, WayFair, The US presidential election, and so much more? How does any of this connect to finding a fulfilling job that I can see as part of my evolving career? I keep following the thread. I may be entertained by a belief system or teacher or pundit. Lord knows I spend so much time reading, viewing, listening ( via my new love Audible), and processing overwhelming amounts of data. I know that the limits of my senses will not give me answers, nor will my attachment to a particular teacher or personality outside of my self. It has to go deeper. It does not have to feel comfortable but it has to feel authentically true. That is the work of my higher self to reveal to my embodied human self.

I used to be so decisive but lately I work diligently to take in multiple points of view. It is no secret that we are failing as a people and that life does not have to be so hard for so many. That much I am sure of. The different terms and labels do not clarify anything for me.  Words ( and as a writer I am fond of words) fall short of eliciting meaning from socio-political-psycho-spiritual constructs. They only add more fog to the mix.

So I am going to showcase a few more from the Glackens archives and keep following a thread until it leads me somewhere that pops in my soul. Until when the next thread arrives, and so on.

Let’s keep creating and supporting each other, irregardless of the temporary opinions we espouse at any given moment. If you are for love and hope and restoring light, we got this!

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Returning Home: Part VIII – The Barnes Foundation

Today I want to follow up on my affection for the Barnes Foundation and share some resources so curious readers can learn more. The video above is from the classic children’s film Mary Poppins, telling the story of a magical nanny who added joy and whimzy into everyday life. When I write about art appreciation and/or showcase certain works in a single post, I allude to how art moves me. This video does a great job showing how one can become one with art. As a little girl seeing the film watching this movie for the first time, I became enchanted with this scene and this sense of awe never left me. My enchantment grows as I anticipate the fall Matisse class. While recently contacted about getting familiar with the online process I was informed all students can visit in person for free!

Barnes Arboretum, Merion PA

 

The Barnes Foundation, established in 1922, has one of the largest and greatest collections of impressionistic , post -impressionistic and early modernist paintings on the planet. It is also an educational institution featuring both horticulture and art appreciation. It also reflects Barnes` avant garde arrangement of the pieces that defies convention and must be seen to be experienced. I had a few friends who lived a couple blocks away from the original location in Merion PA and have been there for several visits. It is a place I have celebrated with many friends and family. The setting was intimate, exciting, and simply glorious. Showcased within this post is some of the artwork exhibited at the Barnes.  I feel very lucky to live so close to this treasure but was not happy when the move was made to downtown Philadelphia on the site of the former DHS Youth Study Center ( juvenile detention center ). My history with the YSC is complicated, but leaving that aside, I was worried that the negativity of incarceration would taint the magnificent Barnes energy. I have visited the new site once and still found it lovely but some of the charm was gone. However the central location gives more access to visitors and that is a good thing.

During my last visit I got lost and was rescued by a kind soul . I also viewed a compelling  performance by Cambodian dancers. However, my introduction to the Collector ( see below) was the highlight for me.  This film on Albert Barnes’ biography showed how the artist looked at nature or any real presentation and how their vision morphed into a multi textured creation. The film actually showed you the transformation.  Seurat was also featured with a brilliant  explanation of pointillism at another level ~ how everything is changing and interconnected and how the  points are actually particles. Very quantum indeed! Below you will see the video of The Collector along with two links on psychosynthesis and pointillism, topics prominently featured in the film. I highly recommend you visit both of them:

http://www.pieroferrucci.it/beauty.html

http://www.robinurton.com/history/postimpressionism.htm

 

This next film is about the politics of the Barnes Foundation and how key players manipulated the outcome to disregard Barnes’ wishes and relocate from Merion to Philadelphia’s Art Museum District. It is actually much better than it sounds, especially if you enjoy history and political theater mixed in with culture. Let me know what you think about the films and resources in the comments section!

 

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Matisse Made Manifest

I’m going back to school, virtually that is! A few days ago I received an email from the extraordinary Barnes Foundation about online art courses. The Barnes is a magical art collection originally showcased in a suburban mansion in Merion Pa. I have been a frequent visitor and fan of this unconventional art connoisseur whose vision was clearly ahead of his time.

Typically I delete these types of promotional emails because of the location or cost. But I noticed that the subject heading said ” You can take a Barnes course for free. ” This got my attention.

Most of my readers know how much I fancy art, especially painting. I have really missed visiting art museums during the pandemic and have been viewing some artwork online. What you probably don’t know is that I have wanted to take Art History classes for many years. I did not have the time or inclination to do so while in school. I flirted with taking painting classes to improve my skills but did not make it a priority. Yet the dream to immerse myself in art history and art appreciation has been building steadily into a bucket list – like obsession. I figured I could pursue this once I retired and would just enjoy art whenever I could. I had a  lovely time in Santa Fe, New Mexico attending a conference called Creativity and Madness  that focused on the mental health challenges of well known musicians and visual artists. It was a great event and allotted me plenty of continuing education credits for my license. I also had many adventures and transformative experiences. New Mexico is certainly the Land of Enchantment!

In any case, I went to the Barnes website yesterday and browsed the course offerings. Scholarships were available. While I usually find these type of applications daunting, I decided to apply. I chose to write from the heart about my love of art and my dream to enrich my art education. I selected a class about Henri Matisse because I adore many of the French impressionists and expressionists. Also, Matisse employs pointillism in some of his paintings. This seemed like a longshot but I figured I had nothing to lose and it would also be a way to practice manifesting. Writing from my heart and showing my love for art was key. No pretense, just authenticity. This opportunity certainly seemed out of the blue, just as my introduction to the Creativity and Madness programs that arrived in my snail mail box one day back in the late 1990s. I recall being transfixed by the postcards that arrived in the mail describing unusual lectures taking place in exotic settings all over the planet. I had a strong knowingness that this was meant for me and I could not ignore the invitations that kept arriving. The Barnes e-mail felt similar but not as strong. I could see myself taking the class because I have pictured myself taking art history classes often, knowing I would simply love it.

Today I received notice that I was given a full scholarship! The woman who wrote me is named Alia and I knew that was a great synch, reminding me of my blogette pal Alia! This “happy accident” was not lost on me.

I am so excited about this class and wanted to share my glee with of all you by sharing some Matisse paintings:

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I have been using Dr. Joe Dispenza’s techniques to recalibrate my brain and emphasize choosing my thoughts, pairing them with gratitude and joy while imagining my situation in the “future” had already happened. I am especially interested in having an excellent job well suited for me to “find me” and break the cycle of toxic workspaces I have been experiencing. I am encouraged by how easily this art class found me. I will keep you posted on “future” developments.

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Purple Power

As I stated in my tag on yesterday’s post, red and blue = purple. Purple is the blend of two primary colors and vibrates at a very high level. It is also my favorite color and has been for a very long time. Today I celebrate purple with a sampling of images courtesy of Pexels, a WordPress perk for bloggers.

Let’s  enjoy the moment and raise our frequencies together.

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Brave New Earth

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Sometimes I see unfathomable beauty while dreaming. Other times I capture it digitally on my phone. I used to see it often while visiting museums or going to places like Longwood Gardens. And occasionally, I find it on TV or film. The city depicted in the new TV series Brave New World was unfathomably beautiful until it wasn’t.

When the new Peacock streaming platform announced the launching of Brave New World, I was more than excited, I was held in a state of anticipation. I was held for a few months until it aired on July 15th. Based on the 1931 novel by Aldous Huxley  ( during a Saturn Pluto opposition), the story asks what happens when an outsider is brought into a contained technologically – controlled society that stresses conformity, frowns on monogamy, forbids procreation, and manages emotional fluctuation with designer drugs.

I must admit I rather liked the idea of living in the utopian New London during the first couple of episodes. Everyone seemed happy and happiness is highly valued. No one got ill, everyone had a job they loved, and every night was a party. I quickly realized I would only be happy if I was designated an Alpha or a Beta. This concept reminds me of my high school, where each student was assigned an academic track. Maybe this arrangement started earlier, but I don’t think I was aware until entering high school. I was in the A track, meaning I took the most difficult classes with the smartest students. Maybe this was decided by test scores, it was never explained or discussed with me. I did belong there, mostly. I performed miserably in Biology, and was relegated to B track for Science classes going forward. I enjoyed meeting new friends in B Chemistry and actually learned more there. However, I cannot see myself being happy as someone considered “average” or less than. I was raised to be studious and intelligence was how I was recognized.  It was “my thing”, said my ego. With higher ranking there is more privilege in New London, but freedom does not exist.  Embryos are designed to be different as each subtype is needed for the greater functioning of the whole. We naturally have diversity within our species, but we lack equality and basic living standards in this “modern” world of 2020 AD. To say this is problematic is to state the obvious.

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Upon completion of Season 1, I was eager to reread the novel. Fairly certain I had a copy at home, I found one hidden away with some other Sci-Fi classics such as 1984 and Walden 2. While perusing the forward of the 1946 edition, the author concludes that world totalitarianism is imminent, it is just a matter of when and in what form. The story was set in the 2500s. However, Huxley reveals that this was inaccurate and that a fascist state is most likely to happen in the early 21st century.

And here we are….

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Art is My Medicine ~ COVID – 19 Edition

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Yes, it is time for another art post. While I still figure out how to compose my next contemplative piece, I am continually led ( and fed) by sharing something here with this wonderful community.

So much has changed for me in the past month:

I became ill with GI issues the week of March 10th and stayed home from work through March 13th.

That weekend my manager drove to my home to give me a laptop and some office items to launch telehealth and remote working beginning on March 16th.

That week I began practicing individual and group therapy to my clients via telehealth, many of which had just returned home from rehab.

On March 21st I relapsed from my GI illness.

On April 2nd I was laid off from my job, due to the company’s financial losses, exacerbated by the COVID -19 pandemic. 

On April 3rd I lost my health insurance coverage.

I am now picking up the pieces while still practicing social distancing, applying for benefits and grappling with the emotions I feel about the abruptness in which my relationships with my clients have been severed. I am not allowed to speak with them and my former employer has not reached out to some of them ( or perhaps any of them ) yet. A few have left voicemails for me, asking about sessions and wondering why I am not calling them.

So I do the best I can, as we all do. Wikiart never disappoints. Today I stumbled upon the work of Nicholas Roerich. His use of color and form is restorative to my spirit. Enjoy!

 

Here are a few links to some art and culture online for your exploration:

https://collection.barnesfoundation.org/

https://www.smithsonianmag.com/smart-news/ten-museums-you-can-virtually-visit-180974443/?fbclid=IwAR1bl65hmh1qBGsmHnlc3GbHgneZauFvlAVcEGumvnsaeBAWhftTv8koa5g

http://library.nyam.org/colorourcollections/

https://www.operadeparis.fr/

http://en.chateauversailles.fr/discover

https://www.metmuseum.org/toah/?fbclid=IwAR1ntTF4u0sbgay4utImEZ-oaG1X22tm9vGChyMto69W_19ApY37ab807I0

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Welcome to my World

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Two posts in one day! Well, I promised I ‘d be back soon so here I am. About five years ago I was diagnosed with Diverticulitis. There have been many different symptom presentations, multiple ER and hospital stays, numerous medications, way too many opinions, and lots of medical bills. I hoped that certain astrological transits would end my misery, but no clear pattern so far. I have enjoyed some long periods between attacks, along with several multiple episodes within days or weeks. I am experiencing a relapse today and have had about 4 episodes since Thanksgiving 2019.

I have learned so many things about myself and my body since then. In some ways, I am healthier and wiser. Stress is a strong trigger for me, often recognizable in the form of compulsive negative fear-based thoughts. I am a therapist, so trust me I know how this works.

But I did not return tonight to talk about my stressors. This planet is enveloped in stress right now. I rather emphasize the importance of becoming more flexible. I had to cancel attending a friend’s wedding right after my first episode and I waited until almost the last minute to decide. I was angry and sad and it sucked. But as time went on, I became adept at canceling plans and staying home. Eventually, resentment waned and I surrendered to my new reality. I told myself I will be present for all the events that I am supposed to attend. I will see the people I need to see and do the work I was placed here to do. I am not driving this train, but I can make the best of my situation. I actually enjoy my own company and adore reading, writing, listening to music, watching compelling TV or film, etc. Yet I realize that this situation is more than a mere recuperation period.

In the last couple of weeks, I have been teaching gratitude practice to my clients. In fact, I have been a bit relentless. I know I am teaching what I need to learn. We all have so much to be grateful for at any given moment and I truly believe that our perception of gratitude multiplies in direct proportion to a sustained gratitude practice.

How do I know this?

I am blessed to have two lovely nieces that are shining stars. I have been texting them to keep up with their news. The other day I was asking Lily how she has been keeping busy and she was excited to talk about all her passions. She is eleven years old. I asked her to show me some of her art. The piece above is the first one she shared with me. There are no coincidences here!

 

Split Sky

Lily gave me permission to post here and use her first name. I love the title split sky. I see it as significant in terms of how we process crisis. I am grateful for these wonderful souls who are full of love and energy. I am also grateful that I can work remotely from home. I am super grateful I can postpone paying taxes for a while. I will have more food now that I am eating less due to illness. I am over the moon that I got the last package of toilet paper while picking up my medication today.

I will be honest, it is a bit worrisome that I relapsed so soon, but I am much more aware of this illness five years in. But I have learned that I am really so much stronger than I ever imagined and quite certain I signed up to come to Earth for these times. It does not mean I like it, but I AM here now.

Loose Ends:  I tend to be an excellent commenter, but lately I have not been able to keep up with responses to comments on some of my posts. Allow me to take my time with this. I adore all of your comments and have not forgotten you, but I need to take more time.

Spring starts in a few hours in litebeing’s world: I concluded that the equinox ( Spring or Fall depending on the hemisphere) should coincide with Saturn’s ingress into Aquarius at 11:58 PM EDT ( right before midnight). Saturn rules our cosmic weather in 2020 and where Saturn goes, we should follow! So I suggest some sort of ceremonial practice to acknowledge this major sea change. I plan to do a meditation and perhaps pull a few cards. Saturn was last in Aquarius in 1994 during the Clinton years and the beginning of the internet explosion. Perhaps that will give us a clue about what this new transit will bring. In the meantime, please send some prayers, some to me for my healing and many more to all of us as we learn to be flexible throughout this “global reset. ” We are truly all in this together.

Art is My Medicine ~ Mercury Retrograde Mars in Capricorn Edition

Happy Mercury retrograde season litebeings! This is the first one of the new decade and it happens to coincide with Mars moving into Capricorn. Mercury in Pisces screams art to me and Mars is exalted in the sign of tenacious, go-getting, ambitious Capricorn so I have chosen Georges Seurat, artiste exalted to infinity. This is not really an astrology post, merely an excuse to showcase awesome art. We have not done this for quite some time, so when the muse knocked on my door, I opened it cheerfully! Some readers know Seurat is a favorite of mine. Tonight I am featuring a few landscapes, most of which are less famous but beguiling just the same.

Pointillism is a technique that promotes universality and inclusion. Each dot is unique and precious, contributing to the mystery of all that is.

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You Have a Writer’s Energy

Greeting litebeings and welcome to all the new followers! Thank you for taking the time to visit this site and check out my musings, stories, and whatever Spirit brings forth from this vessel. I have a moon in Pisces blessing to share with you tonight.

Most readers know that my outer life has been consumed by work, adjusting to an odd schedule and accommodating an endless array of shifting demands and circumstances. I can truly say I love working with my clients, so I guess it is worth the effort to shapeshift as best I can.

Yet I yearn for the mystery that resides in my inner life, where Source resides and the divine spark is lit. Tonight I can report that a spark was present last night ( Friday).  After a very busy and exhausting week, I was delighted to park my car and walk towards my door.  Before I could do so, I was greeted by two neighbors with their collective dogs. I was feeling quite disengaged and made quick small talk without missing a beat. When a neighbor made a comment that saddened me, I retorted ” I work as a therapist and when I come home, I want to leave the negativity behind. ” ( or something to that effect. ) I do not know these neighbors well, and since I do not have dogs, I am not part of that crowd. So as I was walking to my apartment, the female neighbor ( we’ll call her Andrea) shouted out ” So do you practice CBT? ” and I am thinking ” What? ” I just want to watch some TV and chill. But I answer her and was surprised she knew about CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy). Andrea responded she once was a therapist but could not deal with the transference. She has lived upstairs for at least two years and I know nothing about her or her husband. Andrea seemed compelled to share more and more about her life. While it was interesting, I wanted to be alone with my thoughts.

Then she asked ” Are you published? ” I found that an odd question. I asked her if she was published because often people will ask others about topics that interest them personally. Apparently Andrea is getting her Ph.D.  in Education and her dissertation is almost complete. I told her I blog but have not published anything professionally.  She matter of factly declares ” I had thought you were a writer. ” This was strange since we never had a conversation before and barely say hello in passing. I wondered why she had arrived at this conclusion and she said that she’s an empath and reads people well.   ” You have a writer’s energy.” I was surprised she was spot on and quipped that since writing has always been my passion that perhaps I should step up my game. I took a good look at Andrea and the two small dogs she was cradling like babies. The dogs looked so gentle and sweet. How could I have not seen them before as they are? How could Andrea see me as I am so easily?  I suggested we talk again and she replied that they are relocating in about one month.

It occurred to me that I quickly dismiss people if they don’t quickly meet some arbitrary set of criteria that I subconsciously create. I make assumptions and filter out most people as mundane or mainstream or simply not interesting.  I rely on my perception to show me who and what to focus on. I avoid most dog people because I am a cat person and don’t really get dogs. Maybe my filtration system needs an upgrade. I wonder how many other people and situations I have overlooked in my desire to become less overstimulated by the outer world.  It is not a self-judgment as I understand that I do not have time to completely slow down and take in all of my environment. Yet, there is a lesson here for me to learn.

I really like the idea of having a writer energy, whatever that means. This was clearly a mystical moment; she could not have conjured up her impression randomly. She does not look like an empath, but even as I write this, I realize an empath does not have a look.

Speaking of perception and looking at things Wayne Dyer style, I have some lovely pieces to share with you from last week’s visit to the Philadelphia Museum of Art. Enjoy!

Don’t you just love moon in Pisces evenings?

 

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