Guess who’s back?

Hello litebeings! How have you all been? I took a brief hiatus and made the blog private for a little while. It is not a long story, but it requires a long explanation, so for now let’s just say it is great to be back!

I have been ruminating about identity and how it affects my growth potential. I have been busy researching my family tree and learning more about the various cultures that appeared in my Ancestry.com DNA sample. This is a work in progress that I suspect will influence my writing for at least a few future posts.

Another sign of identity morphing is when the outside world works hard to get your attention.  I had two incidents occur back to back that definitely caught my attention. First I cracked the glass on my MSS diploma from Bryn Mawr and this really stung. I must admit I am still attached to my association with Bryn Mawr and that attachments can interfere with one’s forward evolution. Finding a balance between appreciation and over-identification with achievement is my objective here.

Then the following day I get notified that someone may have made a fraudulent charge on a credit card. I did not recognize the charge so I cancelled the card and froze my credit reports with all 4 US credit bureaus. I told myself I will probably meet someone at the bank since I was destined to change my plans and go there to get a new card. So within seconds of leaving my car to approach the bank, a woman smiles at me and calls my name. She was a former supervisor at the City who I have not seen in many years. She is a lovely person and I was happy she recognized me. You may recall that these ” collisions” don’t faze me anymore. I still appreciate them, but they are no longer a surprise. So later that day I get an email from that “fraudulent” vendor and realize that I made the purchase after all! So all these worries about identity theft were a waste of energy. I experienced such a reversal that it made my head spin! Yet I am glad I froze all my credit in light of the Equifax data breach. I am also glad I ran into my former supervisor. But I wish I did not get caught up in such paranoia as a result of a phone call from the fraud prevention service. They have a system for deciding which transactions are suspicious and it was up to me to figure out the details. If I was calmer and more grounded I may have recognized the charge as legitimate, but that did not happen.

What does this have to do with identity? It has to do with victim consciousness. I felt like a victim and acted accordingly. I  can see that now. This is a trap for those with heavy Neptune energy. In my case a Pisces south node in the 1st can appear as a victim mentality. So I have more work to do in this area.

Reading Leigh’s fascinating musings on identity truly helped me formulate many insights about my own journey, some of which prompted completion of this material. Please check them out for yourself, starting here.

It is great to be back in business here at WP doing my blogging and keeping it real. Thanks for listening!

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The Liteness of Being

A while ago I hinted at a new post where I would describe my emerging intuitive process. I am ready to do so now, with the awareness that this may have to be re-imagined at a later date. Somehow I know it is important for me to put my thoughts down and share them with you, before I forget… Do you know what I mean? Have you ever felt that way yourself?

Here is a soundtrack to accompany my musings: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-HLxpWGCzc

It is the truly interesting how subtle my guidance is most of the time. Since my goal is to expand my awareness and notice as many signs as possible, “capturing” each experience seems like a good idea. What I have recently pondered is that these instants are more real then “ordinary” routine living.

Here’s an example: For me, meeting people in odd places and hearing songs that are connected to my thoughts have now become ordinary. This doesn’t mean that they are irrelevant, just that they don’t strike me as novel anymore. It is also getting to be the same with spotting 111 and 1111. So when  I observe an event that is both subtle and novel, it makes a stronger impression.

So if I am looking at the red chicken curry in my freezer while a tv commercial broadcasts “red chicken curry” simultaneously, I take pause. Or when I am uploading a Poplar painting by Monet to the blog, then switch to Facebook and see the exact same painting on my news feed, I may get goosebumps. Or when a day or so after a psychic designates caterpillar as giving me a significant message and about 30 caterpillars fall from a tree above me and bounce on my head and my car as I prepare to drive to  last week’s  job interview, my heart beats faster. All these events did happen to me exactly as described. When I saw all these caterpillars rain on me, I was in such awe. It felt similar to when I am in a dream and get that knowingness that I am indeed dreaming.  Space and time were frozen and all is as it is, and it is simply divine.  Caterpillars are harbingers of transformation and I clearly am in the midst of a major one.

So what do I mean by “real ” ?  This is where it gets a bit challenging. When I discard the constant chatter and analysis in my brain, I am left with a feeling of completion. It is a sense of resignation, of inevitability. I do not have the why figured out, it is a feeling of being temporarily taken out of one’s “story” and placed in a dimension where circumstances are natural and in the flow. Am I describing the 5th dimension ( my analytical mind wants to know) ? Maybe.

I do wish I had pictures of the caterpillars, but I did document the traveling grasshopper last year, so that’s something! I realize this proof is unnecessary, just a crutch until I learn to accept the unusual to be the new normal.

Tell me what you think. I would love to hear about similar experiences or your take on how one recognizes “reality.”

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Pluto station – purge, clear, forgive, release

Howdy litebeings! Pluto stations direct this Thursday 9-28-17. This occurs right before Yom Kippur, the holiest day in the Jewish Calendar. It is called the day of atonement, aka at-one-ment. This station is a BIG deal! Do the work, I promise to do it alongside of you.
Namaste, litebeing

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On September 20, 2013 at 11:29 AM EST, Pluto goes direct.

Here are keywords for Pluto – the masses, underworld, regeneration, crime, rebirth, obsession, slow growth, undoing, transformation, power, control, redemption.

Depending on where you live,  you still have at least a few more hours to work with the Pluto energies.  I checked first to make sure everyone has some time! With so many international friends now, I am more cognizant of the ” movement” of time….   see http://www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/

I would not worry about where Pluto resides in my birth chart or where it is transiting currently. Pluto makes its presence known and for the purpose of this post, I want to accentuate tools over technicalities. What is crucial is to find the proper tools that suit you.  I like dreamwork, prayer, chanting, letter writing, meditation, rummaging through both literal and metaphorical closets and drawers, griefwork, exercise, journaling, drumming and…

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Got the 1111?


UPDATE: I gifted a free tarot reading to my 1111th follower Tatjana, who blogs at https://amorisetsomniorum.wordpress.com/ Congratulations! I look forward to providing you with a reading soon.

Hey litebeings!

It is a gorgeous fall day here in Philly and I have 2 job interviews lined up for next week. I am so grateful to have received positive responses to my resume and am hopeful I will attract the employment setting that is for the highest good. I am also grateful my phone camera is now uploading so I can use my own images for this site. But that is not why I am posting today.

I am posting because I have , drum roll please, 1111 followers! Keep in mind that the number fluctuates according to social media and other factors, but the bottom line is that the number 1111 is radiating on the home page, doing its mystical thing.

I have a special gift in store for a lucky follower, so stay tuned! I realize that my stats will change so I want to capture this moment in time.

Thanks to everyone who reads my offerings, partakes of my services, and leaves comments on my blog. I am so blessed to have so many wonderful litebeings in my orbit.

love, litebeing

 

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Poseidon Adventure

The Pisces full moon this past Wednesday was quite intense because Neptune was conjunct the moon at the time. Considering that Mercury was at the Solar Eclipse degree for this lunation at 28 Leo, the Eclipse was triggered. Take Neptune, the eclipse and a Pisces full moon, add a sprinkle of climate change ( trying to add a little levity here) and you have one hell of a deluge coming your way.

Hurricane Irma is pummeling Florida as we speak. The damage it is creating is historic both in scope and magnitude. Before hitting Florida, Irma made contact with Barbuda, St. Maarten, the Bahamas, the Virgin Islands and Cuba. Barbuda is decimated and St. Maarten is not in much better shape. This current storm is happening  just a couple of weeks after Hurricane Harvey ravaged Houston and surrounding areas.

My heart goes out to all those who are suffering and all the people devoted to rescue and recovery. I have family in Florida and a few blogger friends as well. I keep praying for their safety.

Many memories  flooded back to me as I watched some of the media coverage:

Trekking all over the terrain of St. Maarten with my family as a teen. Spending New Year’s Eve at this amazing restaurant on the French Side.

Walking Collins Avenue with my friends looking for adventure. Strolling along Lincoln Road with my mom and grandmom. Miami Beach was her home for most of my life and we spent almost every Christmas visiting my mother’s side of the family in South Florida. My first plane ride was as a toddler to Miami.  I have seen scores of black and white pictures of myself with my cousins at their house. Biscayne Boulevard, South Beach, Fort Lauderdale, yup I’ve been there.

Spring break on my senior high school trip to Daytona Beach and Disney World was quite an excursion. Sneaking into a disco underage with my friends, good times!  I had already been to Orlando a couple of times, but it was so much cooler being on your own with friends at age seventeen  ( there were teachers as chaperones, but..)

Viewing cheesy home movies of my mother as a young woman surrounded by Flamingos in Nassau. My parents visited here shortly after they were married.

Driving from New Jersey to Tampa with my friend and her sister was quite an adventure. After our arrival, I then flew from Tampa to Miami to spend time with my aunt and uncle, my cousins, and my grandma. It was the first time I took a major road trip and traveled on a plane by myself. It was so wonderful to really bond with my cousins and my grandmother.  After all, I only saw them occasionally throughout the years. I still can taste the exotic foods served at the Cuban pig roast feast. Yucca, plantains, and lots of anticipation of a bright new year. I always loved hearing Spanish being spoken on my visits and how my dad would often be mistaken for Cuban by the natives. But that will be covered in a later post….

I could go on and on, but you get the idea. I love this area and I have roots here. But the thing is, we all  have roots everywhere. Blogging has widened my circle and I know people practically all over this beautiful planet. Many of us have expanded our circles through social media over the years. But even before that, we as people are one people. Energetically speaking, there are no real boundaries between us. How many more disasters ( etymological translation is “ill-starred” ) do we need to endure before the realization hits that we have to solve our differences and heal the divisions so we can ultimately heal Gaia? So many have predicted devastation to coastal areas for this timeline. Is it inevitable? I don’t agree.

We can transform our reality.

 

I added some movie disaster songs. They are poignant and inspiring:

 

Let’s love ourselves and one another. We can transcend challenging transits or eclipses or futile division. Neptunian energy can be associated with many things. As the higher octave of Venus, Neptune epitomizes Spiritual Love.

 

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September Splash

Re-Write Your Story

I wrote these words on the easel in my office on my very last day of work. I used them as inspiration for an exercise I concocted for the Pick Up The Pieces group I ran every Wednesday afternoon. This group was designed for adolescents and young adults who wanted to find their way back to living, not simply existing as mental health consumers. The purpose was to nurture one’s resilience and find a path forward.  It was my baby and I worked very hard to bring this concept to life. It was exciting to witness positive changes in the group members and the group was creating quite a buzz in my program. It gave me a reason to get up in the morning and I miss it terribly.

I had the participants jot down an event that they found to be upsetting with a very negative outcome. Their task was to re-write the story and imagine a new, positive ending. I could tell they found this exercise challenging, but they prevailed and began to write.  They were to return next Wednesday to discuss their revised stories. I was not there the following Wednesday to find out how their events were re-imagined, but I get to revise my own narrative.

My dear friend and  fellow bloggette Sue suggested a few weeks ago that I re-imagine my Colonodyssey  piece to re-vitalize my energy. She thought it would be healing for me to move on from that episode and I agreed.  It seemed like a great idea, but I was not ready at the time. Then inspiration finally hit! September has arrived with cold, rainy might, announcing a change of the energies in a dramatic way. Where was Summer, I wonder? This pronounced change may have aided my ability to begin a new project.  I have just started drawing this evening and the process of conceptualization has altered my mood quite noticeably. Seeing some lovely images of the Grand Canyon on TV and in print have left me wanting more. The bold colors and contrasts, not to mention how the light bounced off the rock and water, all did their part. That yearning to feel awe and majesty has led me to begin my interpretation of one of Gaia’s natural spectacles. I have a hunch the Grand Canyon will be a significant symbol in my evolution.

This post is to coax me to continue creating and remembering that life is creation. Change is not an enemy, but an ally that sustains the material experience.  At least, that is what I am telling myself. And I know I can change my thoughts. Afterall, what have I been telling my clients for years?

I feel sad that my group could not continue and that my connections with my clients have been severed. But I cannot ignore the fact that I decided to declare Re-write Your Story on my very last day of work, not knowing that it would be the final words left as my swan song. This is significant to me; I feel it deep in my bones.

September has made a splash and I am excited to see where it takes me.

How about you?

 

Here is the inspiration for my group’s title:

 

UPDATE: Guess what I found on the front page of Sunday’s newspaper?

 

 

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Saturn Direct

There are mountains in our way, but we climb a step every day.

Saturn stations direct on 8-25-17 at 8:08 AM EDT. I am already noticing a calmness and expectancy of progress. In my chart, this transit is occurring in the 10th house of reputation, calling, and public persona. Considering all the changes I am experiencing, I am hopeful that clarity and peace will prevail.

Many of my readers have been aware that I have been quite depressed for a few months. Those who are astrologically-minded will understand that transiting Saturn has been opposing my natal moon in the 4th house since Christmas 2016. During this same time period, transiting Pluto has been opposing my natal Mars in the 6th house.  The second direct hit of both these cosmic events just occurred within a few days of each other, (the beginning of this month). They are still strongly in effect and will remain until October 2017 and December 2017 respectively. The lunar and solar eclipses just amplified the intensity for me. The lunar eclipse was conjunct my ascendant and square my Sun. Monday’s solar eclipse was conjunct my chart ruler, Uranus in my 7th house, close to my descendant and opposing Chiron. All my wounds about identity and relationships came up for review big time.

Within just a few days my life has truly changed. Last Monday I received my Ancestry DNA results.  Last Tuesday I interviewed to be Clinical Director at a Substance Abuse IOP program. Last Wednesday I lost my job as a therapist at a Psych Rehab program.

The program lost 60% of its funding and my position was eliminated. While losing the job is not surprising, dealing with the aftermath is quite traumatic for me on many levels. I hope that this gift of time will re-energize my drive to blog more. I certainly hope this will happen as I have so much to share here with all of you.

While I do plan to write in-depth separate articles on my genealogy findings and the loss of my job, today is not that day. I still have more inner work to do, including more meditation, prayer, and journaling. I am excited that my oldest friend from junior high/ high school is visiting from Texas tomorrow. This unexpected surprise is a welcome one, fortunately!

What  I mentioned today is just the tip of the iceberg. So many people are leaving and entering my life. So many choices and options are on the table. So much grieving and forgiving is necessary before I can truly move forward with confidence and sure-footedness.   I am actively working on integrating all this seismic activity internally.

In the meantime, if you desire a reading, please check out my services page. Or if you want to donate funds for the blog, contact me here.

I have never suggested donations from readers, but I realize that now is the perfect time to do so. If you want to support my writing and creative flow, I am happy to receive your generosity with gratitude. Learning to receive is one of my lessons and during times of financial uncertainty it is especially relevant to my evolution. While I have truly struggled with this decision, I believe it is the right one for now. Thanks in advance for any contributions on my behalf.

Finally, I want to leave with you a song as you contemplate tomorrow’s Saturn station. Up Where We Belong is the Grammy and Oscar-winning song from the film An Officer and a Gentleman starring Richard Gere and Debra Winger. Both the song and the movie emphasize Saturnian themes of achievement, seizing the moment, and overcoming obstacles. They are also both personal favorites of mine and have been since seeing the film for the first time as a college senior.

 

 

What does Saturn mean in terms of your evolution?

 

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Transparently Yours

Life requires courage, only the bold can continue to breathe in and breathe out. Existence on planet Earth, not for the faint of heart. Walking the path is the hero’s journey only. Cowards need not apply here. Fear is never far away, only a nuanced, inkling separates the being from the trap of despair.

Nature has its own secrets, only for the properly initiated. The rest of us counts the seconds, minutes, hours, between the first squeal and the final gasp. Linear time is a game that is tempting at first glance. And yet, the only way out is to quit playing.

The ocean is no joke. Either you learn to ride the waves or the waves ride you. Power is the ability to influence and Gaia’s a powerful mistress. Obey the silent cry within, never stray far from your truth, your core. Otherwise you may find your essence scattered into the center of a salt crystal, where no-thing can hear you cry.

How can you tell the direction of the fates? The sky can fool the best of them with its wily ways. Clouds are shape-shifters and the sun can play hide and seek like a crack-addicted rabbit with ADHD. If you don’t believe this, go follow Uranus on a cantankerous Leo day and report back with all the details.

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What can a simple soul do when she feels the breeze but her heart no longer feels the relief it delivers? Is there solace to discover? Are the winds of change a blessing or a flukey hoax? Where does the joy go when no one can dance with her in an instant? Does she linger in the shadows, waiting for time and space to dissolve? Perhaps joy’s promise can raise the shadows to meet the heart on its own terms.

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Petapalooza

7-12-17 UPDATE: Guess what arrives in the mail, last night, the eve of the 2 year anniversary of Dexter’s death? A huge envelope from the SPCA. I open it up to discover a 2018 calendar featuring photos of cats and dogs. I have never received a calendar from them before, in all the years I have been affiliated with them. And look at the timing? hmmmmm…

I love you Dexter ❤

On Thursday or Friday I heard something on the radio about a Petapalooza in my neighborhood. My intuition told me this whisper was a possible summons. I like the name Petapalooza and was curious. I “heard” it was yesterday and noticed nothing was happening in the area. That is because it was scheduled for today!

Friday evening before bed I sensed Dexter asleep in his bed. Almost instantly I realized this could not be. Yet I gave myself permission to allow this idea to express itself. While asleep I dreamed about animals. Both a dog and a cat ran to me like babies missing their momma. When I hugged the cat, I felt the embrace of completeness. The cat felt like Dexter, but the body was ice-cold. I remarked about this coldness to someone in the dream. There was also a patch of purple fabric on the cat’s body. I did not analyze the dream, but figure Dexter was paying me a visit.

I awoke feeling confused and sad. Honestly, I have felt sad, lonely, missing, and angry for several months now. I keep working to find ways to heal what needs healing. I considered that the Petapalooza may offer some answers.

The weather is lovely so I did not mind the long walk from my car to the festivities. I told myself my body requires more exercise. At first I only saw dogs around, but eventually I noticed some cat rescue organizations. I checked out some cats, with the intention of browsing. I am not ready to adopt. Even though it will be 2 years next week since I lost Dexter. My grief has changed since then, but I am not fully over losing him. Part of me has not fully accepted his departure. I am not really surprised at this discovery. Not really.

While I am glad I got out of the house for a while, I was only more saddened by the sight of the homeless animals. I thought of my former cats Dex and Jasmine who I adopted from the SPCA.  Someone at the cat rescue booth suggested people take pictures of the kittens to post to social media. Once it occurred to me that I could help out, I had already begun to walk to my car. I simply lacked the energy to seize the moment. I feel like those shelter animals: abandoned, lost, empty, and sad.

I am not a stranger to depression. In this instance it is mostly situational. Practically everything in my life has disintegrated before my eyes. What I tell suicidal clients is that we are here for a reason and it is not our choice to end our lives. I am here to see how it all plays out. But at this moment it does not look good.

Emotional Rescue ~ Gratitude Rising

My Mars return cycle begins today, woohoo! However it occurs just as Jupiter squares my natal Saturn for the second hit. This post is so very uplifting so I am reblogging as reminder that I can transform my thoughts and my life. Enjoy!

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I am noticing a liteness of being lately. Could be some lovely transits. Could be the result of my spiritual practices. Could be all or none of the above. Does not matter as I remain grateful. Get ready for the list cause here she comes.

You can listen to this while you read: Emotional Rescue

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My income tax return arrived about 2 months late. HOWEVER, I was given an extra hundred dollars! Thought it was interest, but apparently I made some mathematical errors. I have been filing my own taxes since I got my first job and dear readers, I have never received extra money from the IRS! It is glorious to temporarily have more than enough money in the bank. Thank you!

After receiving the money, I get iced tea at McDonald’s. I pay for a…

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