Pain, Empathy, and Vibration

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Yesterday I finished reading Traveling to Parallel Universes by Trish LeSage. I just noticed her last name is Le Sage. How perfect for this Sagittarius season!

If you are fascinated like I am about experiencing other dimensions, read her book. There are so few books out there about this topic. Trust me, as I have researched this rather diligently.

This post is not a book review though. I had a mini-epiphany tonight and it was based on something I read about last night in the book.

It goes a little something like this…

I went on an interview today and I felt utterly crushed when I got home. The funny thing is, I probably will be offered a job there. I do not want to describe the interview or the details of the job. I do want to describe my thought process.

Longtime readers know what a sucky year I have had. Not the worst year of my life, but not one I would ever want to repeat. Lots of Uranus energy everywhere, fraught with unexpected crises and missteps. Most of the happenings were beyond my control. But one was by my own actions and I have not properly forgiven myself yet for it. I lost credentialing as a therapist because I left my practice before finding a new one. I cannot accept private insurance unless I attain the highest level of licensure. This fact was accentuated today as I interviewed for a job I already had and this feels like going backward. So many restrictions continue to interfere with my ability to break free and really live. I sat myself down and asked myself ” How did you end up in a life you do not recognize with so few options?”

A little later the mini-epiphany arrived. I was thinking about a program I helped create. I discussed the Grief and Loss group in the interview and how it came to be. The program was an offshoot of my reaction to the sudden death of my father and a few other sudden losses that occurred around the time of my starting a new job at a Mental Health Recovery Center. Within just a few months of my arrival, a coworker lost her father, a beloved client dropped dead of a heart attack, and a longtime employee died during a freak accident. The atmosphere was so sad and mostly everyone shared in the feelings of helplessness and devastation. I shared with the interviewer that my poor ability to grieve fueled my empathy and birthed a new way for clients to work through years of grief and loss. I do not think the interviewer was that interested in my story, but the telling served me well. I began to think about one of my favorite conundrums : how to be kind  and also be an empath. Matt Kahn and other teachers say that kindness is a great way to raise one’s vibration. I don’t do nice very well when I am supersensitive to my environment. I can become quite impatient and frustrated once I hit my limit. I want to be nice and sometimes the best I can do is be kinder to me for failing to be kind.

This premise triggered a memory from LeSage’s book. She was discussing the moods of people encountered in parallel universes. The author found that nicer people often resided in the lower dimensions ( 1st and 2nd) and that the higher one travels, the more unpleasant the people were. I was really baffled by this initially. Wouldn’t most people be kinder and friendlier in places where miracles abound and physical bodies were lighter and manifestation was typically instantaneous? Why would the kindest folks be in dimensions that are very negative and dense?

This is the thing ~ difficult lives change our outlook. We can become bitter or we can become better. We can reek of sourness or invoke alchemy and create delicious lemonade to quench our thirst. Pain can increase empathy and empathy creates kindness. LeSage goes on to say that in the higher realms life is easy and empathy isn’t required. I don’t live in the higher realms, but I think I would prefer it. Isn’t that what ascension is all about?

So I may make an excellent therapist because my life has been rather difficult. But can I raise my vibration when I feel so resigned to a life offering so few choices and so many doors slamming in my face?

Then I thought about the Lee Harris video I watched today. He emphasized the interplay between inner outrage and the outer world. I considered all the fears and paranoia that have surfaced recently in my consciousness. The video confirmed that most if not all of this is less about my life and more about my assimilation of the violence on the planet. I minimize my exposure, but empaths will feel energy without tuning into the news. I have never been clear which is my stuff and which is totally environmental. Yet, I can clearly see the shift in me as being connected to outside events. I guess I wasn’t able to do so before. Thanks to Lee for helping me discern the source of my recent death anxiety. It is reassuring to realize that I am not alone. This is not the solution though. But that is a different matter entirely that I am not prepared to address.

I hope my perspective will shift about my immediate future. I do not want to sink back into melancholy and victim consciousness. I am aware that my emotions wax and wane rather quickly. At the moment, I feel rather peaceful actually.

I am not looking for those reading this to feel compelled to cheer me up or offer answers. I do welcome any thoughts on how to remain kind on such a chaotic planet or on matters of alternative dimensions and realities.

Or anything else you would like to discuss. I could use some company tonight.

I will have to figure out how to live creatively and optimistically here in this reality until further notice. Thank God I can blog. Maybe if every being on this planet could blog, well …..

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16 thoughts on “Pain, Empathy, and Vibration

  1. I may be a week late in offering company this evening Linda.. but I totally empathise with all that you are saying.. And you hit the nail on its head for me when you said
    “I minimize my exposure, but empaths will feel energy without tuning into the news. I have never been clear which is my stuff and which is totally environmental. Yet, I can clearly see the shift in me as being connected to outside events. “,,

    This so related to me this last few weeks… I had to grapple with demons from within this week.. But emerged the Victor… 🙂 I hope to try and sort out soon what has been happening to me.. as I condense my Dreams and experiences of late..

    Thank you for your lovely visit… sending Lots of Love and Hugs your way my dear friend.. Love Sue ❤

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    1. Hi Sue,
      I missed you so and take comfort in your resonating with my experiences. I am seeing my spiritual counselor tomorrow and will ask her about this too. It is a revelation to me that much of my rollercoaster is not about me! When I am triggered by stress, conflict, etc, I know it, but in the absence of triggers it can get fuzzy.

      much love, Linda

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      1. I hope to put into words how I have been feeling soon.. As yet I am still digesting how my Dreams and feelings have affected me these last couple of weeks… I knew deep down that it didn’t just come from my own feelings.. but I had to sort through what was happening to me in peace and quiet.. I couldn’t even paint either.. Which was my intention.. But I will reveal all soon.. If I can find the words. Right now, I am just so grateful for friends such as you and others who have said all the right things to help me over another hurdle in my life.. 🙂 Thank You. xx

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  2. Hi Linda,
    This post highlights such an interesting discussion. I checked out Trish LaSage’s interview in a youtube video while I was falling asleep. I was unable to hear anything she said – well, at least, consciously. It’ll be neat to see what kind of conversations you generate here, Linda. Consciousness definitely finds itself in different states, which is part of the experience of growth – and part of the challenge of identifying growth as progress, rather than a quantum fluctuation.
    xo, Ka

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    1. Hi Ka,
      Now I want to find her video! Maybe it will answer some questions I have. So far there have a been a few comments. Maybe more will appear or perhaps I need to enter a parallel universe and report back, lol! Right now I prefer to stay put.

      There is so much chaos and confusion, but fortunately we have each other. ❤

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  3. Whoa…all I can do is point to the sychronicities of your post and the many things I’ve been writing about (not yet published) or thinking about writing about! OMG! Pain, empathy, being ‘nice’, and how it all fits into a higher vibration…and also, tuning out of mass consciousness but still (as an empath) feeling all the craziness (the latter being partly why I’m taking some time away from FB). Thanks for this heartfelt post Linda, the parallels of your words, mine, and many others show that so many of us are feeling our way in to this new reality – and this is one intense, challenging point of the shift. ❤ Aleya

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    1. Hi Aleya,
      Thank you for validating my experiences here. I so want to be kinder and nicer and more patient. I feel like I owe the world the benefit of my gentle heart an sensitive soul, especially after decades of working on myself. But sometimes I fail. Being part of a like minded network does make a difference. I feel less alone when I realize that many are on a similar path.

      love, Linda

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  4. The book sounds interesting. Thanks for mentioning it here.

    It sounds good that you might be offered a job soon. I am glad to hear that.

    About all the loss and grief:
    I am sorry to hear that. Grief seems to be a current underlying subject which came up in a couple of posts recently, and in the movie Inside Out.
    The life of an empath must be difficult if on top of your own grief you feel the grief of the world around you.

    About the kindness:
    I just came across Whitehawks post of today which contains a channeling which relates to this.
    https://wingingwithwhitehawk.wordpress.com/2015/12/04/your-path-of-return-1/
    Being kind to yourself for failing to be kind sounds like a good idea.

    Hugs,
    Karin

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    1. Hi Karin,
      The book is interesting for sure! I may have been born empathic, so it is not easy to assess what it is like or not like if it what you have always known. There are times when I can successfully avoid feeling things. But then I close myself off.
      Thank you for the link about kindness. I read some of it. Being more kind to me is always a win win. I keep practicing and it does get easier.

      love, Linda

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  5. Dear Linda,

    There was a young lady of Wight,
    Who traveled much faster than light,
    She departed one day,
    In a relative way,
    And arrived on the previous night.
    (found on the website of Stephen Hawking)

    I sympathize with you. How many times have I also been in the place where my body and the physical reality have not caught up with my mind? I find the theory of multiple dimensions very thrilling, though I constantly work on grounding my crazy mercurial flights of fancy to a single spot. Instead of ascension, I am trying to practice descension 😉

    I wish you all the best (you know that!)

    With love

    Monika

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    1. Hi Monika,
      Thanks for the limerick and your support. With my fast mind ( merc trine mars) and my vivid imagination, I rarely find myself where I want to be. But there are times I find myself in wonderful moments beyond the scope of my imagination. I think we all are in descension in order to incarnate, but I know what you mean 🙂

      love, LInda

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  6. I struggle with some of the same things. As far as the other dimensions part, I don’t look into it much, but when i think of the highest vibrating beings of which I’m aware on this planet, like the Dalai Lama or Thich Nhat Hahn or Ammachi, I feel high vibration and lovingkindness/compassion or totally intertwined. So I’m finding this experience Le Sage describes odd. And wonder if there are different definitions of what a high vibration is…
    As far as learning to stay in a place of kindness, I’m a work in progress, but for me any improvements have been from a combination of: becoming more mindful, practicing right speech, doing practices that keep my energy balanced, using affirmations (both saying them to myself and playing tapes of them), lots of work on releasing old feelings, and hanging out with people who practice kindness and compassion. Years of keeping at those things seem to be getting me shifted into a kinder and more positive space. Which is not to say I don’t snap my mother’s head off or occasionally feel despondent, but those states are ever more ephemeral.
    Hang in there, the Universe brings miracles every day.

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    1. Hi Leigh,
      You and others like you help keep me on the right path, by inspiring me to try harder to be a better version of me. I have a dark side which I try to minimize, especially here! But I also know that darkness requires care and attention, so I practice that also.

      I also found LeSage’s observations unusual, but they are her experiences, not mine.

      Still on the lookout for miracles every day. love, Linda

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