Morning All Day Long

Hello world, How are ya doing? I am stopping by with a shorter, more streamlined blog today. I  want to simply report where I am now in terms of living with a pandemic. I do not feel like creating an elaborate, clever, article. Not today. Today I am just gonna keep it barebones and real.

I have noticed how much time I spend in fear and how easily triggered I have become. At first, I thought it had to do with developing IBS and later Diverticulitis, but actually, it started way before then. When you come from a home that is unstable and dysfunctional, you learn how to fend for yourself and you become “on alert.” While I do not think I have PTSD, I do see my tendency to slide into anxiety as default mode connected with repeated trauma. Self-work and therapy(ies) have made a difference but new triggers are a challenge.

Here are some highlights of today: Seeing my new unemployment balance online, but no deposit into my account. Being eligible for federal stimulus check but being told “status not available” on the new IRS payment portal. This is not a portal I want to float into! Getting a call from a life insurance company saying my benefits will be cut off but I could buy a new policy. Needing a mask and almost ordering one online ( until I discovered it was made in China.) My new health insurance provider emailed me to welcome me, in 2 weeks. Just 2 more weeks without health insurance. That thought was prominent for the past few days as I was severely ill and wondered what would happen if I needed emergency care. I am so grateful I feel better today. I have decided to stop figuring out what caused the symptoms. I know stress is at play and that is all I need to know.

I did feel more energized today and went out on a brief walk. I left my phone at home as I wanted to be more present. I saw many gorgeous springtime blooms and a few trees displaying that mellow light green hue that I adore.

Some readers know my love of birds and how a cardinal inspired a piece of poetry on Grace. On two occasions, April 10th and today, I have had cardinal visitations. While it is common for sparrows or robins to come by on my terrace, I cannot remember a cardinal coming over to visit me. If so, it would have been documented on my blog before now! Below are some quick shots from April 10th and then from this morning. Notice how cardinal energy is getting closer…

The first two shots were on the 10th  and the rest were taken this morning. Many say cardinal energy is a connection with those who have departed and I do feel this is true for me. I cannot say who is visiting, but I am also seeing deceased relatives more in realtime. This brings me comfort as I feel more isolated after losing my work. I would tell my clients repeatedly how unpredictable life is and it is key to learn how to adapt without using. Boy, I had no idea just how unpredictable it could be. I lived through 9/11 and this feels like a creepier prolonged version.

A very lovely thought crossed my mind as I took my walk today. The sky was almost shimmering and I heard so many birds singing. This seemed unusual in the late afternoon. I looked up and felt that familiar peace I often had while staying at Pendle Hill. I have felt this wave of innocence come over me a few times since the social distancing/self- quarantine began. This feeling led me to sing a song that I also equate with Pendle Hill and peace.

Listen and may you also ride the wave of spirit before the cosmic separation:

It’s for the Birds

Hello litebeings,

Just yesterday I was meeting with my spiritual director about how bored I am with my life and that I rarely can generate excitement anymore. This existential angst has been in play a few months, as transiting Saturn joins transiting Pluto in my 12th house.

After waking this morning I draw the blinds in my dining room which faces the backyard. I see something I have never seen before. Initially, I thought I spied a few sparrows getting ready to disperse. But this was a whole ‘nother event. I witnessed what looked like a few hundred blackbirds literally carpet the backyard and eventually come close to darkening the morning sky in flight. I rushed to turn on my phone to take a picture but it seemed like I was too late. But they swooped back down just a few yards from view, giving me a small window to capture their images on my phone.

I know that these shots do not really show the scope of this bird convention. The limits of the camera and my inability to go outside to get a wider shot prevented me from transferring my experience to “form” adequately. Let me tell you though: seeing these birds en masse took my breath away. I felt both awe and fear, trying to understand why they were gathering here. Was it a sign for me? Was there something going on that led them here? ( Sometimes it is not about me. )

I did a little digging and prayed they were not a ” murder of crows ” signaling death and bad luck. Honestly, I was feeling that way for weeks before the birds arrived. What I discovered is that blackbirds, among other bird species, migrate together in winter to keep them safe. I did not know any of this and it led me to wonder how many other natural encounters may not have been cosmic in origin.

And yet, why can’t it be both? Before the internet, I would have had to go to the library and research this phenomenon if I wanted some understanding. And before there were libraries, I probably would have accepted that they were coming to see me!

I have had several unusual bird encounters, especially around the early 2000s when Neptune was conjunct my Ascendant. I learned then that birds are ruled by Aquarius ( my rising sign ) and that fact was important to me then. I am actually fond of birds but was a bit frightened of the power wielded by the magnitude of their numbers. Yet, when they soared together in flight, my fear turned to delight as I witnessed such extraordinary beauty in motion.

Here is some bird interpretation courtesy of my fave symbolism site :

Birds that are black do not give up their secrets easily. They love to watch us marvel over their messages. Blackbirds demand our commitment to learning their wisdom and do not reveal their meanings unless they are convinced we’ve devoted ourselves completely to the path of understanding.

Part of this understanding comes from the clear perception of the dark and light sides of the universe.

This concept of light and dark is a fundamental concept of alchemy which is: Transition and Transformation. It deals with the ability to accept there are both black and white energies, and they most both exist in order for our world to exist.

The bird itself is symbolic of life in the heavens (higher ideals, higher path of knowing). The color black is symbolic of pure potential.

Consider: what is not exposed, is unknown. What is not known, holds infinite possibility. So, between the two, (the meaning of birds, and the meaning of the color black) there is no limit to human transformation – all we have to do is gently pull the shades down of our rational mind, and start sojourning with our darkly feathered friends.

This all comes about because birds are (metaphorically and mythologically speaking), situated in proximity to the higher energies of the Universe. This also positions them as heavenly or divine oracles and messengers in cultural myths across the globe.

Blackbirds and birds of black or dark colors are special among their airy clan as they are symbolic of:

  • Magic
  • Mystery
  • Secrets
  • The Unknown
  • Pure Potential
  • Unobvious Perception

When I consider where my thoughts and energy have been recently, this interpretation is eerily on point. I need more time to process, but I realize that the duality of dark and light is important for me to integrate, yet again. It is also interesting that a bit later today I spoke to my former supervisor on the phone and heard whistling. He told me that what I was hearing was the new parakeet he just brought home. Another bird? hmmm.

So tell me, have you had any unique bird encounters? Please describe them to us in the comments section.

update: Look what I was given later today:

more bird medicine!

Elevation ~ Lee Harris Energy Update

 

The weather has been frigid with snow on and off today. I am enjoying the winter feeling and new breeziness of February. Happy Imbolc to everyone! I find the cross – quarter days fascinating, especially those that coincide with my sun and Ascendant/Descendant axes. The lovely Brigid, featured in the image above is associated with this holy day that celebrates the crossover from Winter to Spring. Funny how Groundhog Day falls during this same time period, right?  I can also report that my health is so much more improved today. I feel freer and more energized and I want to sustain it and build upon it. Yes!

Please check out Lee Harris discussing the energies of February 2019. He speaks of the ending of clearing and the introduction of more light on the planet. He uses the term elevation and abundance frequently and I am taken with this idea.

How about you? What does elevation mean to you?

 

 

Lee is such a gentle soul who brings forth such rich material consistently. It is a joy to take in these messages and carry them forward. Imbolc has a Celtic and Pagan history and Ireland is the home of the magical band U2.

Please enjoy this video of their hit song, Elevation:

 

 

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Uranus Retrograde ~ Be Here Now

I am echoing the sentiments of the iconic Ram Dass , suggesting we all do our best to chill and refrain from engaging in major activities in the environment.  This essay directs us to do the opposite of what I advised back in January when all planets were moving in direct motion. This is because tomorrow Uranus goes retrograde, joining Mercury, Mars, Saturn, Neptune, and Pluto. Venus ( soon to join the party on October 5th) and Jupiter are the only planets moving forward at this time. Look to where 2 degrees Taurus lands in your natal chart to see where the Great Awakener rocks your world. Stationing points can be quite powerful depending on how they impact you personally in terms of sign, house position, and relationships with where the planets were positioned at the time of  birth.

Honestly, with all the various energies emerging at us all at once, it is difficult to be able to distinguish why we are experiencing what we are experiencing. This is why continuous self-care is so important. But you already knew that didn’t you? My self- care regime varies, but my current practice consists of daily meditation, mindfulness, clearing away clutter, gratitude, and aromatherapy. All of these strategies contribute to more clarity and openness.

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When there are too many activities or conflicting ideas to juggle, it is natural to succumb to feelings of overwhelm and confusion. When I reflect back on early 2018, I wish I could have been bolder and capitalized on more new ventures. But my plate was full with all the curve balls thrown my way. I truly believe that we always do the best we can, even when we resort to self-judgement. For example, just a few hours ago, I did not have the energy or drive to complete this post. But after meditation, the impulse to continue writing brought me back here to the draft folder and voila, a blog is born.

While I find it challenging to be able to tease out which particular energy is operating with the most fervor, spending more time within certainly makes this task more manageable. For instance, transiting Jupiter made its second hit to my sun late yesterday and I was hoping for an explosion of joy. That did not happen, but it is likely that this positive influence has tempered some of the more noxious energies currently at play. With multiple eclipses, an unusually strong retro pattern, along with solar flares and God knows what else, ( humidity?), life here on Gaia has become increasingly more complicated. Astrology is magical and my lifelong passion, but it is not a panacea. We live in a time where more is being asked of us and reality is more fragile than ever. So what is the solution? I don’t have an easy answer, but I know that listening to one’s guidance is crucial. Twice this week I have been faced with situations that were very unsettling. Many times in the past I would rationalize them away, or make the “easier” choice and then worry excessively about it afterwards. But not this time. I took a breath, listened more intently, and made the more nuanced, complicated choices. This way I will have less worry and probably no regret. This is my version of living authentically. My intuition was imploring me to undo decisions that may have been harmful. I took the road less traveled. Now I ‘ll wait and see what happens.

What can one expect with Uranus retracing his steps? It will be different for everyone, but surprises and unusual energetic movement is likely. With Mars moving back into Capricorn, some of the wild currents may dissipate, but you never know. Some possible manifestations are circulatory problems, new and exciting encounters, sudden insights, technological irregularities ( especially while Mercury is still retro), and weather anomalies. Like I stated earlier, the location of transiting Uranus in your natal chart makes all the difference. Those who have planets in late Aries or early Taurus may feel this transit more intensely. With Uranus, you really never know.

Let me finish with a few birthday wishes for some of my blogettes: Cheers to Ka, Debra, Dayna, Renate, and Julianne. As the sun travels to my descendant ( 7th house of other),  it is wonderful to have so much awesome company who were born at this time.

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Art is My Medicine ~ Blood Moon Eclipse Retro Edition

With this Total Lunar Eclipse impacting my 12th house/6th house axis and most of our solar system operating retro-style, life is in sloooow – mo and the past is showing up for us in original and sometimes jarring ways. So I decided rather than doing an Astrology blog tonight, I am presenting an intuitive art selection and recommending a fabulous healing summit so more of you can catch it before it ends. My inspiration for the art was how to conceptualize the universe through this medium. Let me know your reactions. Did I hit the mark?

Here is some more art by Russian artist Pavel Filonov:

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Now comes the healing:

As someone who has been living with all sorts of anomalous health issues, I have been challenged to dig deeper and learn more about alternative healing methodologies. I was all in with Chiropractic medicine back in the 1980s when it was exotic. Along the way I tried Acupuncture, Massage therapy,  Reiki  , yoga (with limited success) herbs, and nutritional counseling. I even signed up to take Reiki 1 later this summer.

I have found this journey both exasperating and fulfilling. Since I am so verbal and mentally comfortable, bodywork is rather effective for me. What is also interesting is that lately I notice stress shows up more as somatic than emotional or mental in nature.

Many of my readers know I am a big fan of Hay House and have had the opportunity to hear ( and even meet) some of my faves such as John Edward, Anita Moorjani, and Dr. Joe Dispenza. Now Matt Kahn is a Hay House author too, yea!

Anyway, I am currently viewing a different type of Hay House online summit devoted to healing. I cannot explain why, but this particular event is striking all the right notes for me. For the past three days I have been introduced to three different experts who have blown me away, Dr. Kelly Brogan, Joan Borysenko PhD  and Anthony William. While I may have heard these names in passing or glossed over some of their material, these hour-long presentations have been incredibly insightful and fascinating. Some of you may have read my reblog about probiotics and mental illness. Just  a few days later I am watching her presentation, rejoicing in the synchronicity that I have just heard of her here at WP.

Today’s interview with medical intuitive Anthony William was such a delight. My main reason for blogging now is to share the link so you can watch his video for free. That’s how good it is. Go over now by clicking here.

The rulers of my Scorpio sun, Mars and Pluto are both moving retrograde in my 12 house and have been traveling there for some time. This type of energy is powerfully mysterious and can also be disturbing, Isolation, an influx of unconscious material, and confusion can manifest easily under these conditions. But so can miracles, atypical healing, and heightened compassion. Wherever and however these planetary energies impact you, I wish you nothing but healing, miracles, and peaceful awakening.

Blessings on this Eclipse and all-ways, litebeing

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J2P: Clear ancestral fear, clear current fear?

I keep returning to Leigh’s blog and feel led to share it here. Energetic healing is complex and simple simultaneously. The processes can take care of the complexities while we learn to better love ourSelves. ❤

Not Just Sassy on the Inside

As my regular readers know, I’m big on clearing issues and have been quite fascinated about ancestral fears and beliefs and how they pass down.  So a chunk of the time I’ve been spending on Steve Nobel’s many meditations has been spent on various ones focused on clearing ancestral lines of fear and negativity.

Such guided meditations are always intriguing to me as I rarely can point to a tangible provable outcome in the world and say it resulted from meditating.  But doing these many clearings has certainly had my energy shifting and buzzing and left me feeling often unbalanced and…  odd.

Yesterday I decided to dust off an old meditation I was taught 30+ years ago by the transpersonal psychologist who introduced me to all this “spiritual stuff”.  In this one you follow a specific path to reach a council of guides and then ask questions.

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528Hz: The Frequency of Love & Miracles

Another gem from blogette Whitehawk. Here’s a reminder to be aware of what we  expose ourselves to.  Enjoy the free  MP3 downloads too at the end of post.

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Sound Healing: 528Hz – The Frequency of Love & Miracles
Everything in this Universe, including you is vibrating at a frequency. This is because you and everything around you is energy.The energy of the Earth vibrates at a 528Hz frequency which is the same frequency as Love, the Universal Healer.

The frequency of 528Hz is believed to be so powerful that it can help repair and restore DNA damage, bring peace and harmony and restore equilibrium to everything around it. Talk about good vibrations!

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Why Do We Die?

Last night I discovered that a favorite rehab patient died at the age of 25. While I don’t know the details, I am assuming heroin and/or suicide were involved. He was addicted to heroin and cocaine, in addition to other substances and had many deep wounds. He was quite multi-talented and was sweet. He was also bright as a whip and quite charming. I could go on about him, but it is not necessary.

After a night of restless sleep I login to Facebook and find a video from a dear friend. She did not know about this  development. It is incredible, so please watch now with an open heart.

blessings, litebeing

 

Shifting Waters Carry Fresh Energy

Hello to new and old readers alike and welcome! I hope to hear from some of the new followers! Please say hi and let me know what’s happening with you.

I am grateful to have you on-board.

 I recently made a few changes to the blog’s look and theme.  I changed the tagline to ” Moving at the Speed of Lite”. It many sound familiar, because it is also the title of a post from a while back. Every so often the tagline feels stale so a few days ago I  unceremoniously came up with a one-liner that works.

I know my spirit is moving at least as fast as light, which we call “lite” here at the Chronicles. Some of this movement may be the raising of my frequency and some of it is definitely feeling overwhelmed by all that I encounter internally and externally. Many would agree with me that our planet is speeding up with massive over-stimulation and chaos. I prefer to highlight the joy, but ignoring the shadow is not doing the planet any favors. Many folks say that the light and dark are showing up now more than ever.  So for now this new tagline will help describe my mission, to convey my journey while navigating this new accelerated speed.

I have also played around a little with the color scheme , hoping to spruce things up a bit. Let me know your thoughts in the comment section. I am always interested in getting some feedback.

The photos in this blog were taken at Longwood Gardens with my new smart phone. While I am still figuring out how to operate this device, I must say I like the higher quality images and the ability to take loads of pics without having to delete some for  lack of memory. I chose images with water to highlight the sacral chakra. I learned today at an energy workshop that all of the chakras have an element assigned to them. The sacral chakra is associated with water and is emotionally – based. On Thursday my massage therapist said that this chakra needed balancing. It is also connected with the large intestine and can be one of the chakras effecting digestion. In any case, I am working on digesting whatever I encounter and not staying stuck there. These images encourage flow, movement, and harmony so I am setting an intention to get back on track and let life flow through me.

I still plan to write about how I spent my winter so that I can properly catch up with all of you. I find the process to be therapeutic at times, and writing about my experiences helps me integrate them and release them sooner rather than later. Being unemployed again has not been easy for me. I dread it when someone or something I love is removed from my life. I loved working with my guys at the rehab and I was surprised how important that job became in such a short time.

I treasured Anthony Bourdain and he was taken from me too soon. I saw some of myself in him, but more in terms of my potential.  He had an infectious balance of passion, intellect, curiosity, and sensitivity. He was living my dream by being able to inspire, educate, travel, write, meet fascinating people and sample the world’s cuisines. He was a badass with a huge heart. But it appears his shadow got the best of him and he gave into his darker impulses. I realize these losses are not personal, but they still feel personal. I can strongly relate to the stories of those who are survivors and come from behind and do great things. However, here in 3D, no thing is eternal and to quote George Harrison, all things must pass.

I am so moved by those who can transform themselves and live life fully. So I honor my heroes who are recovering addicts or recovering from anything toxic by working on myself. I take photos, apply for jobs, participate in new activities, delve into subjects that excite me, and balance the new with the respect for the old. We do not usually get to decide when change is upon us, but we can decide how to cope with it.

I am still exploring what I want to do next. What type of career path should I pursue? How can I best be of service? I want to continue helping awaken the planet and not much else interests me anymore. Can any of you relate to narrowing one’s focus in this way? The trick is to find the best way to serve that is uniquely meant for you. How do you know what it looks like? Does length of service matter at all? What about function, setting, location? This can be overwhelming but the guiding principle in this process is to do what feels good in the body and participate where I can grow and develop along the way. At least that’s the motto for today!

Ascension~ The Gift That Keeps on Giving

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This will be brief and to the point – This ascension stuff is real! Every time I try to deny the increase in my abilities, I fall short. Ascension is not what I think it is, according to what I read and hear, but that does not mean that many of us are experiencing a shift in our day-to-day 3D lives.

The weird symptoms I am experiencing this week have had me confused and alarmed. Others I talk to have felt them too: dizziness, light-headedness, chest pain, rapid heart beat, and more.  Are they kundalini manifestations or something else? This has happened to me before, in the early 2000s and more recently from 2015 till now ( intermittently). I have had several EKGs and they have been normal. My doctor said he does not think it is my heart.  I do not want to dwell on my ordeal, but am wondering if you are getting these also? Email me if you do and we can compare notes.

By the way, if you are enjoying the recent series of orchid header images displayed here, they are photos I took last month at Longwood Gardens, one of my power places. I plan to post more when the time is right.

Here is today’s version of  ” Expect the unexpected” :

Today is the anniversary of my father’s death, the day before Spring Equinox. I have been more aware of my clients’ struggles with loss than my own lately and have not been focusing on this date. So I am driving today, running errands, feeling tired and weak from the dizziness, etc and I notice a truck right in front of me. The bumper sticker on both sides says DAD. I could not make this up!

My motto is, if I post it, then it happened. That is my reason for writing today, to share my ups and downs, even as I wonder why I have to struggle so much. I do feel strangely comforted to know my dad is watching over me, hopefully from a more enlightened realm. The relationship was complicated and apparently still is. And yet, there is a point where all that is messy becomes blessed. Do you agree? Please reply because ~

I am listening….

 

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