Returning Home – Part VIIII – Deeper Embodiment and Grounding

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Where we come from is who we are but we choose every day who we  become. . My family’s not  perfect but they made me  who I am and gave me chances they never had. My future, whatever it is, is their shared legacy.

 

From the film Hillbilly Elegy

 

This entry is part of the Returning Home series, which explores the various ways one can return to God or Source. This blog will be different in that I am not exploring a place or method outside of myself, but rather a dialogue with myself for the purpose of grounding, deeper embodiment, and increased inner peace. This more urgent pursuit has been triggered by the recent Lunar Eclipse on November 30th at 8°37 ′ Gemini conjunct my IC point at 5 Gemini and squaring my natal Pluto placement at  7 °50 ′ Virgo. This lunation dovetailed with my immersion in an Animist Psychology Course which addresses Gaia, Ancestors and Mental Health.

Over the past week or two, a steady stream of synchronicities have been appearing, all communicating the power of one’s lineage. One example is a recent online astrological lecture I attended by Helen Cierzo featuring Family Patterns in Astrology. I learned about how my family of origin has a Neptune pattern signaling enmeshment. I have known since forever about the enmeshment, but now astrology confirms it! Long time readers know that synchronicities are not new to me, but the veracity of synchs around ancestry and family dynamics has been fast and quite relentless. We do see what we believe and what I believe is my history is complicated.

Another important synch was deciding to view Hillbilly Elegy after initially discounting it. I was so involved in the storyline and felt very aware of the different characters. Part of it is understanding of the addictive process from my role as an addictions therapist, while most of it links to my own childhood memories. It was  less about the details and more about the thoughts and emotions that came up, such as fear, being parentified, anger, over responsibility, abuse, and desire to rise above and transform.

While there is nothing in my lifetime that is similar to Appalachia, I have long held a profound curiosity about the people and the land. It is also ironic that I could see my maternal grandmother’s persona in that of Glenn Close’s character.  Not the “crazed ” parts, but the bluntness and simplicity of being.  While observing  Close’s portrayal of Mamaw, I can access my own grandma playing cards like a master with a cigarette hanging out of her mouth! She was nothing like my prim and proper mother who stays in her lane. My grandma was an outlier, much like me, a wild card, who blended traditional roles of wife and mother with that of a rebel who did not care about people pleasing or “branding ” of an image. I wish I knew her better and what forces shaped her into being.

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I struggle with so many questions while taking this Animist course. Such as why am I more in tune with cultures and imagery outside of my verified DNA? I know I am not adopted, but fantasized as an adolescent about finding my true family. Most of this can be attributed to my lightworker mission, but some of it is about being called to people’s outside my white middle class confines. Bluegrass music and Scots Irish folksongs gets me every time. When I visit the mountains ( The Catskills in New York, The Poconos in Pennsylvania, and or the beloved Blue Ridge Mountains of Shenandoah Valley Virginia mostly) or watch media about Appalachia, the music grabs me and does not let go. The vibrations tug gently at first at my heartstrings but quickly escalate to a firm clutch on my soul, that words fail to convey.  I have no clue why it has such a grip on me, similar to reggae rhythms and drum circle rituals. I have no historical frame of reference. Both my parents were very musical ( prominent Taurus and other Venusian placements) but their musical taste reflected the times they were born into, nothing more.

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I have included several videos of both contemporary and classical Appalachian music from artists and movies that tear at my heart. I recommend you watch Cold Mountain and Songcatcher to bask in the glorious music and learn more about a people who have been underestimated or harshly judged. Also, here’s a shout out to Leigh who turned me on to ancestral trauma and healing and Jen, my first friend from Kentucky who is one of the most creative, strongest and wisest people I have some to know.

 

Please tell me in the comments about your heritage, or love of music, or affinity for a certain place or people.

Returning Home: Part VIII – The Barnes Foundation

Today I want to follow up on my affection for the Barnes Foundation and share some resources so curious readers can learn more. The video above is from the classic children’s film Mary Poppins, telling the story of a magical nanny who added joy and whimzy into everyday life. When I write about art appreciation and/or showcase certain works in a single post, I allude to how art moves me. This video does a great job showing how one can become one with art. As a little girl seeing the film watching this movie for the first time, I became enchanted with this scene and this sense of awe never left me. My enchantment grows as I anticipate the fall Matisse class. While recently contacted about getting familiar with the online process I was informed all students can visit in person for free!

Barnes Arboretum, Merion PA

 

The Barnes Foundation, established in 1922, has one of the largest and greatest collections of impressionistic , post -impressionistic and early modernist paintings on the planet. It is also an educational institution featuring both horticulture and art appreciation. It also reflects Barnes` avant garde arrangement of the pieces that defies convention and must be seen to be experienced. I had a few friends who lived a couple blocks away from the original location in Merion PA and have been there for several visits. It is a place I have celebrated with many friends and family. The setting was intimate, exciting, and simply glorious. Showcased within this post is some of the artwork exhibited at the Barnes.  I feel very lucky to live so close to this treasure but was not happy when the move was made to downtown Philadelphia on the site of the former DHS Youth Study Center ( juvenile detention center ). My history with the YSC is complicated, but leaving that aside, I was worried that the negativity of incarceration would taint the magnificent Barnes energy. I have visited the new site once and still found it lovely but some of the charm was gone. However the central location gives more access to visitors and that is a good thing.

During my last visit I got lost and was rescued by a kind soul . I also viewed a compelling  performance by Cambodian dancers. However, my introduction to the Collector ( see below) was the highlight for me.  This film on Albert Barnes’ biography showed how the artist looked at nature or any real presentation and how their vision morphed into a multi textured creation. The film actually showed you the transformation.  Seurat was also featured with a brilliant  explanation of pointillism at another level ~ how everything is changing and interconnected and how the  points are actually particles. Very quantum indeed! Below you will see the video of The Collector along with two links on psychosynthesis and pointillism, topics prominently featured in the film. I highly recommend you visit both of them:

http://www.pieroferrucci.it/beauty.html

http://www.robinurton.com/history/postimpressionism.htm

 

This next film is about the politics of the Barnes Foundation and how key players manipulated the outcome to disregard Barnes’ wishes and relocate from Merion to Philadelphia’s Art Museum District. It is actually much better than it sounds, especially if you enjoy history and political theater mixed in with culture. Let me know what you think about the films and resources in the comments section!

 

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Pete and Me

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Update: Warning, this is a spoiler alert about Westworld. In Season 2 Westworld enters the life extension business. How’s that for another synchronicity?

Happy New Gemini Moon everyone! Before the moon moves into Cancer, I want to get this post out about consciousness, a very mercurial subject. I stumbled upon an article about Pete Buttigieg and decided to take a look. The article contains an interview with Mayor Pete about how he is spending his time nowadays. I was astonished to discover we have the same viewing habits! When asked about what he is watching , this is his reply: ” We got pretty deep into “Westworld.” I know I’m like five years late on that. We’re starting to get into this show “Upload.” I am also just starting Westworld and just completed Upload and am completely obsessed with both of these shows. While Pete and I have little in common outwardly, I am wondering why he is drawn to these shows. This synch came on the heels of my watching the Season 1 finale of Westworld which I cannot stop thinking about. Yes, it is THAT GOOD.

I will try not to spoil anything here, but I have to share the basic premise of Season 1, and maybe the entire series. Westworld is about an adult theme park featuring AI set in  19th Century Western United States. It is a place where guests can come and explore all their fantasies without any consequences. Over time it becomes clear that the AI “hosts” are retaining some of their memories of being exploited and abused by the guests. When they are ” killed” they are brought back online and awaken from an allegedly dreamless sleep. However,  many of the characters begin to evolve based on retaining memories and developing intuition and wisdom. They become sentient beings, likely to evolve past the humans who created them. Once they awaken, they cannot revert back to who they were before and life has permanently changed. This is similar in some ways to Upload, which is where a young man who dies in a car accident and whose girlfriend signs him up for life extension. Life extension is a process whereby a technician uploads one’s consciousness onto an avatar so humans can still be “alive “. In Upload we see what happens to the main character and his “angel” while he roams around a for-profit luxury virtual afterlife. Upload is a dramedy yet also about moral evolution and awakening within a virtual reality.

So much of my favorite entertainment, both old and new, revolves around this theme – Groundhog Day, The Good Place, Vanilla Sky, and Black Mirror’s San Junipero episode, just to name a few. In all these shows and movies, the main character(s) are altered somehow while asleep or unconscious. Eventually they discover the key to enlightenment. The repetition of this theme is not random, at least I do not see it that way. Westworld in particular emphasizes how humans and AI operate within loops and rely on their “stories” to define identity. It is suggested that awakening requires that we abandon the narratives and make the best choices we can, knowing that there is still some programming interfering with absolute free will. This had me considering the notion of the inmates running the asylum, as the actual “asylum personnel” are interested only in conformity, control, and monetization of the enslaved. Naturally I landed on the familiar Matrix notion that we live in a simulation and need to free ourselves.

All life is sentient or at least has the potential to become sentient. Isn’t it interesting how much entertainment “programming ” focuses on rebooting aka reincarnation? I welcome your thoughts on this in the comments below. While Westworld has too much violence ( like The Sopranos, Game of Thrones, and other HBO darlings) and Upload can be a bit campy, they are excellent opportunities to see evolution in action. As someone who often remembers dreams and can occasionally go lucid, I hope I can forge ahead with my own ascension, pandemic or not.

Related posts :

https://litebeing.com/2020/03/09/staycation-is-in-session/

https://litebeing.com/2019/12/02/undone/

https://litebeing.com/2018/06/23/to-be-or-not-to-be-simulated-existence/

https://litebeing.com/2020/02/09/litebeings-guide-to-the-movies-5/

PS – take a closer look at the trees in these photos and you will see more than meets the eye.

Litebeing’s Guide to the Movies

Hey, it’s Oscar time here in the States and what a wonderful day it is for all things cinematic. With Neptune in Pisces trine the Scorpio moon, supported by Saturn, Pluto and the nodes, this year’s festivities should be spectacular, even without a host! Do I have a favorite pick for best film? I did enjoy A Star is Born and am a long time Bradley Cooper fan, but I have not seen the other films. Most of them intrigue me, especially Roma, Black Panther, Bohemian Rhapsody and The Favourite. Honestly, all of the contenders look good! Please share any of your fav films, spiritual genre or otherwise.

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While I am still busy preparing my Awakening post for Barbara’s challenge, I figured this old chestnut will tide my readers over for now. I hope to have it published by Sunday evening, but you never know..

So here is an oldie but goodie that will provide you with some excellent entertainment choices. Until we meet again, have a grace-filled weekend.

In honor of the Oscars on Sunday, I had to showcase some of my favorite spiritually themed films. This weekend’s Sun in Pisces, Moon in Scorpio energies are excellent for combining fantasy with passion. It is a great combo for just about any activity, in my opinion. Some of my choices are more obscure, and therefore less well-known. A few are controversial (big surprise!) , while others are more mainstream crowd pleasers.

Here’s an alphabetical list with my brief critiques below, enjoy!

Bee Season  (2005)

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Its a Groundhog Kinda Day

Lotsa activity in the skies and inside the soul: Imbolc, new Aquarius moon ( almost smack on my Ascendant), Chinese New Year of the Pig, and the last days of Chiron in Pisces…

And yet,  I often feel like no-thing has changed and the ground beneath me is quaking. But I continue to soldier on, knowing deep within that all is and has always been and will all-ways be, well.

I continue to sample meditations from Dr. Joe Dispenza and look for ways to connect with the Universe, where all is possible and here for the enjoyment of all. It occurred to me that the film Groundhog Day will reveal some new insights for me at this time.  After-all, we just had Groundhog day here in the States and I do live in Pennsylvania, and don’t they look like  otters ? I have seen it several times already, but it contains so many layers of complexity.

Here is a clip for your viewing pleasure:

I plan to watch the film tonight and take my cues as guided. I see this new moon as a second birthday of sorts and my present to me is to be Present.

 

love to all, litebeing

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A Day in the Flow

I dedicate this post to Anthony Bourdain on his birthday today. He would have been 62 years old. I chose this blog because it chronicles an ordinary, yet extraordinary day filled with food, reading, cinema, and exploration.

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The day after Easter was one of those days. It flowed. Everything turned out better than I planned and when I can quiet my INFJ monkey mind, anything can happen! I wanted traditional Easter ham. Mind you, I have never celebrated Easter but I just love that ham. It reminds me of numerous road trips to Virginia and one to Canada, places known for ham extraordinaire. Travel and food are dear to my heart and memories often include a combination of the two.  My sister’s mother in-law bring this sweet spiral ham every Thanksgiving and I adore it. I am the kind of person who will decide ahead of time what I will order at a restaurant unless I see something better on the menu. So I arrived at Cracker Barrel ready to dig in. I ended up having ham with 2 order of carbs because cornbread stuffing was the…

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This one’s for you, Anthony Bourdain!  RIP

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Welcome to my world!

This quote is the first line from the food show that started it all, A Cook’s Tour with Anthony Bourdain. There are some people you like right away and Anthony is one of those in my world. I considered his influence on me immediately last Saturday when I had an incredibly blessed and lucky day that involved food, film, and fancy.

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Tony is not only a gifted television personality on multiple networks, but  a supremely talented writer, chef, foodie, philosopher and adventurer. Here is an excerpt from his book A Cook’s Tour,  from which the television show was based:

I wanted magic.  When is food magic?  What are the common denominators? Certainly. when food is the result of a brilliant  and obsessive personal vision, it can take on mystical, magical aspects. At their best, chefs like to consider themselves alchemists, and some of them, particularly…

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The End of the World As We Know It

Just ‘randomly” deciding to read this evocative post is a synchronous reminder that I will soon be publishing my review of the intriguing film ” Time is Art”.

Dontcha love when that happens?  Enjoy the article and stay tuned!

Winging with Whitehawk

http://www.13lunas.net/eventos/estrella/valum_votan.pngI’ve mentioned here before that back in the 80’s I relocated to Boulder, Co, and joined the core team that created the global Harmonic Convergence event, as dreamed into manifestation by visionary artist and Mayan “son,” Jose Arguelles.

That was my earliest exposure to Arguelles, and to this day I hold him in a warm heart-space of respect, while also admitting I’ve not yet fully wrapped my mind around his whole cosmology. Still – I luvs me a good visionary 😉

The phrase time is art comes from him. His ideas are evocative and their time for ripening is, I believe, upon us. I’m feeling the higher frequencies and my life is taking a creative upswing. (Body still trying to adjust and doing some complaining about “coming along on the ride,” but the spirit keeps encouraging the biology.)

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A Simple Tale

Brief update: Happy to report my laptop is back home after a harrowing four days at Best Buy’s Geek Squad. All sorts of confusion and ridiculousness ensued and I am hoping at least some of it can be attributed to the Uranus station yesterday. I like Windows 10 and it is simpler in design than Window’s 8. I cannot get Cortana to talk to me, but maybe she isn’t one of my guides 🙂

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Two days ago I had a quick tale to tell. Now I have a simple tale about miracles and perspective. I am sharing this not only to inspire you , but to remind myself that all is well, somehow…

 

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I had the notion that the deadline to install Windows 10 for free on my laptop was fast approaching. I am not certain  I want the upgrade because of the privacy issues associated with the new operating system. Still, I wanted to learn more about it. My laptop may be incompatible with Windows 10 because of its age. So I did some research and was left more baffled than before. I decided to call the Geek Squad that is affiliated with the store where I purchased my PC. I was connected to a man with a strong southern drawl. His name was …… DEXTER.

Dexter was not able to answer my questions to my satisfaction and the remote viewing process disabled my security software. This freaked me out so I was leery of continuing further. However, I asked him if his name was Dexter and he answered in the affirmative. I wanted to be certain I had heard him correctly.

In my 55 years of living on Earth, I believe this is the first time I spoke to a human named Dexter. The fact that this happened 4 days after the anniversary of his passing was not lost on me. I sense that this urgent need to learn about the windows upgrade was communicated to me. I cannot be certain of this, but I was considering checking out cats tomorrow at the animal shelter. I do not know if this is a sign I should proceed, or more likely confirmation of my intense focus on my Dexter.

After this encounter, I watched the film Miracles From Heaven. It is about a young girl who undergoes a transformation that tests the faith of her family. I like Jennifer Garner and am attracted to these types of stories. I was quickly drawn into the story because the protagonist has a mysterious digestive disorder requiring numerous tests and hospital visits. If I had known this beforehand, I may have not watched the film. Her stomach becomes quite bloated and she is in constant excruciating pain. She endures an endoscopy and meets with several GI specialists. This was hitting too close to home.

Then the song Collide begins to play and my heart bursts wide open. That song is my jam. This song links me to my mystical encounter that happened eleven years ago on July 21st 2005. Today is July 16th, hmmmm.

The song was used to illustrate a strong connection between this ordinary, traditional church-going  family and the power of Source. I was quite tickled by this because Collide was written as a romantic love song. I intuited it to be about a higher love and it appears that the producers did so as well.

I will not give the story away because this film is relatively new. What I will say is that interwoven into the main storyline are several subtle miracles in action. I noticed a few of them immediately, but later on they are highlighted to convey the significance of faith.

I came away from today feeling mixed emotions. I am experiencing the extreme sadness and anguish that often accompanies pain, suffering, and powerlessness. At the same time, I am also warmed by the electric vitality of bold synchronicities that cannot be explained away.

I still am undecided about getting Windows 10 and adopting a new cat. But I feel less disconnected and more enchanted. Jennifer Garner’s character quotes Einstein at a pivotal point in the plot:

There are two ways to live: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a miracle.

Which way do you choose?

 

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Words and Pictures

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Words and Pictures is a film I have longed to see for a good while. The draw for me is my passion for both writing and the visual arts. It had alluded me at the theater and disappeared from cable and Netflix without warning. It reappeared this week on On Demand fortunately.

Mini-review: This film is about two lonely, wounded artists who find one another and challenge each other to become better versions of themselves. The acting is magnificent. Juliette Binoche and Clive Owen are beautifully matched here. I am a fan of both in such films as Chocolat, Bee Season, Croupier, and Closer. But I would be inclined to say they gave better performances in this piece. I appreciated mostly the nuances in what wasn’t said, the intricacies expressed by their facial expressions were on full display.

The main premise asks the question: Which medium is more moving , pictures or words? While the answer still remains a mystery, the film uses both words and visuals to provide drama, inspiration, and some comic relief. Both main characters struggle with loss, failure, and emotional vulnerability. It seems like they have become reduced to lifeless, half-dead, shells. But life has other plans….

The purpose of this post is to pair images with words and have you, the reader, decide your preference. I am pairing the paintings of J. E. H. MacDonald and the words of  poets from Love Poems from God and quotes by The Book of Awakening by Mark Nepo for your enjoyment and comparison.

First pairing:

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I WOULD CEASE TO BE by St. Teresa of Avila

God

dissolved

my mind – my separation.

I cannot describe now my intimacy with Him.

How dependent is your body’s life on water and food and air?

I said to God ” I will always be unless you cease to Be.”

And my Beloved replied, ” And I

would cease to Be

if you

died.”

Second pairing:

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LIKE ROOTS by St. Thomas of Assisi

Our hands imbibe like roots

so I place them on what is beautiful in this world.

And I fold them in prayer, and they

draw from the heavens

light.

Third pairing:

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The stream of life that runs through the world,

runs through my veins.  ~  Rabindranath Tagore

Fourth pairing:

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And then the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk to bloom.  ~ Anais Nin

Final reflections ~

This is not a contest, just merely an exercise to focus on the wonder of the written word and the dance of color and light. I will admit that blogging has afforded me the luxury of marrying my words with art, a luxury I am unlikely to relinquish without a fight.

The beauty of Words and Pictures is the restoration of the main characters. This is a partial restoration or reset point. While neither one goes back in time, before the damage and wounds set in, they emerge lively and prolific once more. Compromises were made and risks were taken. Through this process, rebirth prevailed.

Happy Spring from litebeing,

May you embrace your inner Easter.

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