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Oh Baltimore,

How wonderful it is to know you always deliver, you always bring joy, excitement, love, and a sense of adventure. And then there’s the mystical essence you carry so well, with simplicity and confidence. Our reunion was a dream realized. It took a bit longer than my ego wanted, but it was really on Divine Time.

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Baltimore and I go wayyyy back. My maternal grandmother was born in Brooklyn but her parents moved to Baltimore. She eventually returned to New York to live with a relative and met my grandfather, but many from her family remained in Maryland. While I only recall one visit to my great aunt’s home in Pikesville, my mother spent alot of time in the Baltimore area. I have taken a few trips there with friends but one trip was very unusual. In my twenties, I met a man at a party. While I have no idea how this was possible ( pre-computers) I interpreted his chart for him and we kept in touch. He invited me to visit him in Baltimore for a few days. I agreed to stay with a man I only met once. It was a spectacular time. We rode everywhere on his motorcycle, which I found both terrifying and exhilarating. We went to many local haunts and had dinner one night with his mom. I had a magical time and that memory still has sparkles!

I did not know if I would attend the NCGR Astrology conference until just a few weeks before as I waiting to see if I would get a scholarship. I did get one and then learned my supervisor was leaving his job and with him went his offer to cover my work for vacation.  I was so excited to go to my first out – of – town Astrology conference. The last one I attended was in 2013. Eventually, all was settled and Labor Day weekend 2019 was here!

Highlights: 

Eating crabcakes three days in a row

Making new friends

Catching up with old friends

A lovely hotel with a stellar view of the Inner Harbor

Spending time back at the National Aquarium

Getting off one’s thought and time loop and allowing life to happen

Few plans and few expectations

The energy of the city, vibrant people, and glittering waves of good cheer

The event dovetailed with my Second Saturn Return. My first one was non-traditional in that nothing “expected ” happened. What did happen is I became a student of A Course in Miracles and my inner circle became inundated with other astrologers. I studied with a group and met many new people as a result. I attended my first astrology gathering at this time and some of those people are still in my life today. This second return echoed the first. While my astro community is wonderful in many ways, it is filled with spirits in form with various personalities and egos. While the conference had some conflicts and mishaps, the joy totally outweighed the negativity.

One conversation was particularly otherworldly: I was attending a lecture and someone in the audience said he had Pluto on the Ascendant. I ran into him the next evening, as if in a lucid dream I thought : Let’s walk up to him and see hat happens. So I did and very soon after two others came over. I did not know them but we had much in common. I began discussing the Presidential candidates and my fondness for Marianne Williamson. This is a topic I did not discuss in astrological gatherings. It turns out one of the people worked on her campaign!  I was told about this theory that Marianne was the reincarnation of Abigail Adams. My mind was blown! We discussed the Course in Miracles and the times to come. I mentioned my timidness around a famous astrologer and how much I enjoyed his 2020 lecture. He came to join our tiny group as he was friends with one of the people I just met. It turns out the famous astrologer knows Marianne very well. Other synchs starting happening in rapid succession. I was feeling such awe.

I will keep the rest of that conversation private but suffice it to say that much magick was evident in mysterious happenings in Charm City. I discovered that my Saturn in Capricorn in the 11th house opposing Mars ( conflict, men, action) and trining Pluto ( influence, rebirth, disintegration) brought my 11th house matters ( astrology, friends, hopes, wishes, dreams. clubs, groups) to light. It was so freeing to be away from home in a city that is so vibrant and friendly. I realize that it is the blending of my energies with this location, as not everyone shares my experience. Baltimore is ordinary in many ways but shimmers for those who notice.

Looking back almost one year later, I am so glad I made this trip happen. Money was tight and getting time off was difficult, but my soul needed to immerse itself with my soul group and roam around untethered. Some of the predictions made at the conference about 2020 did come to pass, but not in the way I expected. And I can live with that as I would not change a thing. Ripples continue and mysteries abound…

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Litebeing’s Energy Update

What if it is really all okay ” underneath it all “, whether we enjoy, judge, understand, integrate, or resist the experience?  About 30 years ago, a young man I was very smitten with, took me to one of his favorite bars. It was an awkward evening and my time with him proved to manifest plenty of awkward moments ahead. In any case, I found him to be wise and confident and took him waaay too seriously. But he said something in the bar in Upper Darby that still rings true now ( and oddly enough,  I still remember it!) He simply told me, “life is here to experience. ” That sentence seemed a bit radical to me then, but not unpalatable or easily rejectable. We did not use words phrases like 3rd density or clear our fields but we were part of a  group of friends who studied The Course and other spiritual teachings. I was down with his concept as long as I liked the experience. It is not designed that way.

I did not plan to write about that meeting in the bar. A lot more was said that evening, but that’s not fit for blogging! This story is included because I am working on relying more on my gut and intuition, using my intellect more as “backup. ”

This is my energy update and the forecast is stormy and humid with a chance of magick.

On previous layoffs, I have struggled with how to best spend my time. Often I was required to apply to jobs weekly as a condition to receive unemployment. This go-round there is no job search requirement. I look inside myself daily to determine what is meaningful, fun, and perhaps healing and/or geared towards awakening? I realize that this timeline we are in is so unusual and I want to use it well or have Source use me well. I hit a recent snag right after the Mercury station when my former manager asked me to come back to the office and hand in my keys and laptop. I became acutely aware of how much resentment I have accumulated towards him. This stems mostly from my disappointment that he was not the person I imagined him to be. This pattern often shows up when I compose a narrative around someone I hardly know and it turns out to be incorrect.  I wanted him to be the creative, thoughtful, reflective person that I saw initially. He ended up treating me poorly and displayed anger, deceptive maneuvers, and condescension. I see my disappointment causing a strong aversion to meeting with him again. I do realize that my actions have also colored his interactions with me, but it still stings. I am considering writing a letter to him as a way to release my emotional baggage. This is a therapy technique I have used often in my work so I figure it can assist me in letting go of the past and accepting him and each moment as it is.

Almost 4 months into lockdown, my body has been suffering for most of it. Today I can report the “cold ” is improving, my toe hurts less, my skin inflammations are almost gone and my GI tract is rebounding from whatever happened yesterday. I wonder if I welcome illness to avoid responsibility or simply become unwell as my body works to rid itself of all the low frequency thought and experiences I take in? The answer could be neither or both, I do not know.

In any case, I am pleased to say this quarantine has not been just one extended sick day. I have noticed more lightness and laughter and have become more grateful for what I have and the people that I love.

I am also grateful that hydrangea grow outside my bedroom every other year. There is some regularly scheduled beauty in my world. Lovely hydrangea, there is a reason I choose you as my gravatar image.

Synchronicity Central ~ Friday I was getting breakfast at Dunkin and going there reminds me of life pre -COVID. On the way, I noticed a small green grasshopper/ cricket accompanying me on the passenger mirror! He looked just like the one from a couple weeks ago. I turn up the radio and enjoy cruising with this supercool companion! Later in the ride he migrates across the windshield. I did not have a chance to take a photo but he was similar to the cutie I found at the grocery store. While at the drive-through, I  have a worry about catching Covid after the cashier is not wearing a mask and become anxious. After I leave Dunkin I  turn the radio back on.  An instrumental tune entitled Immunity begins playing!  I am thinking ” wow, instant messaging, guide-style, yes!

Many talk about how it is more likely that our physical bodies move back and forth between 3D and 5D. I cannot speak for anyone else, but my ability to tap into Source has increased significantly during social distancing. Telepathy is more frequent and easily confirmed.  The higher vibes usually occur when my mind is quiet and observant. Regular meditation via Headspace is one habit I intend to keep!

The bloom shown above is smiling. You will smile too if you read the announcements below. Please take a peek to get the latest scoop. Let me know how your energy is flowing?

Announcements: 

Save yourself ~ If you are writing online, remember to save your work regularly. WordPress lately has this tendency to highlight and delete all my text. It happened again today while posting here and I did not save my work. I prayed for a solution and somehow autosave must have been operating, despite no indication of it under the Revisions section of the Editor.

Pay it Forward Deadline ~  I am enjoying reading for you and am glad to have a few more “in cue”. If you are still on the fence about getting a reading, decide by July 1, 2020.  Please contact me here to book your free reading. Join the fun! Please contact me also if you want to write a Testimonial about a past or recent reading. The Testimonial page is getting a needed overhaul, waiting for new reviews. Thanks in advance for all the love and support!

Retro works ~ My intention during this Mercury retro season is to publish some posts “vacationing” in the drafts bin. I have been procrastinating writing anything complex and/or lengthy, waiting for my ideas to marinate. I see some of my material to be “timely” so I hope you can support me by encouraging me ( either actively or energetically) to bring this material out in the open.

Namaste dear ones

It’s for the Birds

Hey litebeings! I am reblogging this recent post on my birds encounter because I now see it as foreshadowing. Take this repost as a prelude to fresh new material about these “uncertain times. ” May love and peace be with you always ❤

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Hello litebeings,

Just yesterday I was meeting with my spiritual director about how bored I am with my life and that I rarely can generate excitement anymore. This existential angst has been in play a few months, as transiting Saturn joins transiting Pluto in my 12th house.

After waking this morning I draw the blinds in my dining room which faces the backyard. I see something I have never seen before. Initially, I thought I spied a few sparrows getting ready to disperse. But this was a whole ‘nother event. I witnessed what looked like a few hundred blackbirds literally carpet the backyard and eventually come close to darkening the morning sky in flight. I rushed to turn on my phone to take a picture but it seemed like I was too late. But they swooped back down just a few yards from view, giving me a small window to…

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Revisiting the “Insights”

This is valuable information, especially now. Leave it to Whitehawk to post information rarely seen elsewhere at WP. 🙂

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The Celestine Prophecy

I remember when The Celestine Prophecy “hit” and became a surprise phenom as a self-published book by James Redfield in 1993 (!). By 1997 it was a bona fide global movement, feeding a previously undetected hunger in awakening seekers.

When I read it, though, I just couldn’t push through it, so in need of a proper edit I found it to be. The Insights were good; it was the uneven storytelling that derailed me.

But when the Experiential Guides came out (kudos to Carol Adrienne, the worthy driver of those volumes), I found the spiritual “pay dirt” re: the insights.

Seems the vast majority of Celestine Prophecy readers liked dipping their toes in the rising tide of new age waters via a goes-down-easy parable. For whatever reason, I’m more of a nonfiction, nuts & bolts, show me the steps, deep-dive aficionado. This just happens to be where the juice…

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Another Synch Hits the Spot

This morning I received a cool synch about divine mission/purpose and it truly surprised me. Not the part about receiving synchronicities, but that it was on this topic. After I wrote my piece for my blogging challenge and hit publish, my mind and heart attended to other matters. So while “lightly” viewing CBS Sunday Morning, my heart melted a bit while learning about Jackie Speier’s time at Jonestown 40 years ago. Please watch this riveting account of tragedy and renewal here.

I am using this space to also share some pictures of fall foliage in my neighborhood. While more than fashionably late to the party, the seasonal colors are gloriously dazzling.

While you’re in the mood, take a peek at Dayna’s awesome entry here.

Winter Review ~ I Can Hear Music

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Now that we are clearly into Summer in Eastern USA, with a wild heat wave in effect, I have decided to unpack my Winter. I am using Winter loosely, referring to late September through late March. With Mars and most of the other planets retrograde, I want to work with these energies and take a look deeper within.

I have been considering for weeks how exactly to approach writing about this topic. So many outside events triggered so much inner activity and I am still processing it. I decided to just follow my heart and take it step by step.

Feeling the fear: This is difficult to write about. And yet, this story has been waiting patiently to be heard and my readers deserve an explanation. If I had a nickel for every time I asked myself ” What would I do if my deepest fears were realized? “, I would have plenty of nickels! An event took place in September that rocked me to my core and was really a Godsend in disguise. Do any of you remember that I tool the blog private for a few weeks? Yes, I shut it all down and then simply declared I ‘m back.

Well now I will tell you what happened: I went on a second interview at the drug rehab facility and I was excited but nervous. I wanted this job, but lacked confidence that I was qualified. The woman who would be my immediate supervisor let me know that she googled me and read my blog. I thought ” How can this be? My name is not attached to it. ”  I was so shocked that it took me some time to compose myself. Scorpios like doing the hunting, not being the prey!  She wanted to know if I was planning on using Astrology as part of my therapy. Another person in the room said she would not want to see Astrology contained in the treatment plans. ” WTF? How stupid are these people and why are they asking these ridiculous questions? , I asked myself. ” What felt like an eternity later, I explained that Astrology has many merits and includes a means to explore personality, but that I am a Licensed professional and do not force my views on anyone. I revealed that if a client asked me about astrology that I would discuss it, but it does not drive my practice.

Clearly my answers were fine, because I was hired, but I was dumbfounded. I wrestled with putting my name on this blog and decided against it because my profession can be very conventional. I felt violated that this stranger was reading my blog and had access to so much personal information. Later I figured out how she landed here and I corrected the issue. Bottom line, sometimes what seems like the worst thing possible may just end up being incredibly awkward. I could never have predicted that she would ask me about astrology and was blindsided. I thought my hiring prospects were finished and I was wrong. Let me be clear, I am not ashamed of anything I write and most of my blogs are public. It is just that most people who visit litebeing chronicles are about the path. They are not looking for red flags. Anyway, I stopped writing for a while because I felt exposed, but eventually figured that my self-expression is way too important to be held hostage. You may wonder, what is the blessing? After some deliberation, I realized that I did survive it and the confrontation led to a positive outcome. I also realized that I judge myself more harshly than anyone else, and it was high time I let that go.

Have you ever felt concerned about who might read your musings?

How did you handle it?

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You’re on my mind like a song on the Radio: Many wild and woolly happenings occurred during my time working at the Rehab. My life seemed like I was living a dream while awake. Some events were enjoyable and others were unpleasant. Today I will share an in-between experience. Most readers know by now that the car radio serves as an oracle. So I tend to pay attention when patterns emerge while driving in my car. Three songs kept repeating and repeating and repeating.  All three are old and there was no logical explanation. They are not affiliated with the death of an artist, a sports franchise or a major holiday. I still hear them often now, expect maybe not with the same extreme frequency.

A few weeks into the job, the first song showed up. Cindy Lauper’s Girls Just Wanna Have Fun is a pop classic at this point. I liked it when it came out and it usually lifts my mood. While it is not unusual to hear it on the radio once or twice a month, I was hearing it several times a week. Sometimes I heard it every day. I mentioned it to my coworkers and they found it odd. I was even considering keeping a log just for my records.

Then a few weeks later the other two songs began to serenade me. They are very similar and also from the 1980s. They are associated with films and became rather popular for a few years. The frequency of the airplay was starting to get to me. On one occasion, one of the tunes was playing on 2 of my programmed stations at the same time. It was quite out of control. The songs are If You Leave and Don’t  You Forget About Me. They both are sung with yearning and sadness. They were referring to romance , but could also reflect the fear of feeling rejected or unimportant.

I was getting the impression that these songs were more than synchroncities, but rather premonitions. Perhaps I was given a heads up about the layoffs and my concerns about my patients after they left treatment. Clearly I was not having enough fun in my life, as it revolved around work, a brutal commute, and lots of bodywork appointments. But then again, there could be more to this , still left undiscovered. I strongly sense there is more to it, because the songs continue to play regularly.

Are there certain tunes you hear repeatedly on the radio ( playlists don’t apply.) ?

What meanings do they reveal to you?

The End of the World As We Know It

Just ‘randomly” deciding to read this evocative post is a synchronous reminder that I will soon be publishing my review of the intriguing film ” Time is Art”.

Dontcha love when that happens?  Enjoy the article and stay tuned!

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http://www.13lunas.net/eventos/estrella/valum_votan.pngI’ve mentioned here before that back in the 80’s I relocated to Boulder, Co, and joined the core team that created the global Harmonic Convergence event, as dreamed into manifestation by visionary artist and Mayan “son,” Jose Arguelles.

That was my earliest exposure to Arguelles, and to this day I hold him in a warm heart-space of respect, while also admitting I’ve not yet fully wrapped my mind around his whole cosmology. Still – I luvs me a good visionary 😉

The phrase time is art comes from him. His ideas are evocative and their time for ripening is, I believe, upon us. I’m feeling the higher frequencies and my life is taking a creative upswing. (Body still trying to adjust and doing some complaining about “coming along on the ride,” but the spirit keeps encouraging the biology.)

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Guess who’s back?

Hello litebeings! How have you all been? I took a brief hiatus and made the blog private for a little while. It is not a long story, but it requires a long explanation, so for now let’s just say it is great to be back!

I have been ruminating about identity and how it affects my growth potential. I have been busy researching my family tree and learning more about the various cultures that appeared in my Ancestry.com DNA sample. This is a work in progress that I suspect will influence my writing for at least a few future posts.

Another sign of identity morphing is when the outside world works hard to get your attention.  I had two incidents occur back to back that definitely caught my attention. First I cracked the glass on my MSS diploma from Bryn Mawr and this really stung. I must admit I am still attached to my association with Bryn Mawr and that attachments can interfere with one’s forward evolution. Finding a balance between appreciation and over-identification with achievement is my objective here.

Then the following day I get notified that someone may have made a fraudulent charge on a credit card. I did not recognize the charge so I cancelled the card and froze my credit reports with all 4 US credit bureaus. I told myself I will probably meet someone at the bank since I was destined to change my plans and go there to get a new card. So within seconds of leaving my car to approach the bank, a woman smiles at me and calls my name. She was a former supervisor at the City who I have not seen in many years. She is a lovely person and I was happy she recognized me. You may recall that these ” collisions” don’t faze me anymore. I still appreciate them, but they are no longer a surprise. So later that day I get an email from that “fraudulent” vendor and realize that I made the purchase after all! So all these worries about identity theft were a waste of energy. I experienced such a reversal that it made my head spin! Yet I am glad I froze all my credit in light of the Equifax data breach. I am also glad I ran into my former supervisor. But I wish I did not get caught up in such paranoia as a result of a phone call from the fraud prevention service. They have a system for deciding which transactions are suspicious and it was up to me to figure out the details. If I was calmer and more grounded I may have recognized the charge as legitimate, but that did not happen.

What does this have to do with identity? It has to do with victim consciousness. I felt like a victim and acted accordingly. I  can see that now. This is a trap for those with heavy Neptune energy. In my case a Pisces south node in the 1st can appear as a victim mentality. So I have more work to do in this area.

Reading Leigh’s fascinating musings on identity truly helped me formulate many insights about my own journey, some of which prompted completion of this material. Please check them out for yourself, starting here.

It is great to be back in business here at WP doing my blogging and keeping it real. Thanks for listening!

Shine a Light on 1111

Happy 1111 everyone! Here is a re-blog on this auspicious date that is very on-point for the times we find ourselves living in. Please take a look at my challenge post and join in on the fun. You might even win a free astrology reading!

It is in play all throughout November.

Namaste, litebeing

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Update: Yesterday ( 11/23) I took a trip to meet up with a friend that I have not seen in about 20 years. We were looking at art and I had to go to the bathroom. We were headed towards the restrooms when I noticed a room filled with beguiling paintings that we may have missed. So we made a quick detour and lo and behold, what did I find staring right in front of me? This masterpiece by Monet which is the image for my 1111 blog post!

Seeing Poplars, Four Trees in person for the first time was exciting and we both were taken with it. The meeting of the physical world with the cyberworld was intensely gratifying. Seems the Elevens are always waiting for me to discover them and remind me that all is well.

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The Artful Juggler

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With my chart  ruler Uranus, Pluto, and the north node in the Seventh house, Venus in the 1oth and my Moon opposing Venus, one would conclude finding balance is a priority for me. While I do not see myself as primarily Venusian in temperament, I find relationships both compelling and challenging. This would also apply to the inter-relationships between the various areas of my life.

I drew the 2 of Pentacles from the Goddess Tarot Deck for both the Cancer new moon and the recent Capricorn full moon. I find this repetition to be significant.

Here’s the meaning associated with this card:

TWO OF PENTACLES The woman juggles two pentacles. Completely focused upon her act, she does not drop the pentacles.  Meanings: The ability to juggle several situations at once. Jobs, opportunities. Grace and bounty. Commerce and expansion.

I definitely relate to the juggling of work and personal life, adherence to dietary restrictions and urge for indulgences, saving and spending newfound income, fatigue and creative expression….

It is reassuring that the card is suggesting that I can keep all the balls in the air without dropping them. Grace and bounty, why, of course! Who isn’t enamored with both of these gifts? I really hope I can continue along this course. There are many adjustments in my life that are necessary for my healing and well-being.

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I have begun implementing my new wellness plan and it is not easy. I am amping up the organic foodstuffs,  leafy greens, legumes, and whole grains, and decreasing red meat, pasta, bread, and processed foods. Hello to kale – laden salads and good-bye to hoagies!

I am enjoying the lighter foods in this hot and humid season, but wonder about how I will fare in the winter. I realize it is wise to just focus on today. I am also adding vitamins and medicinal tea to the mix. My nutritionist is great, but it is hard for me to hand control over to her. But I believe I was guided to her for this purpose, so I will trust in the process.

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I am also juggling my mixed emotions about getting a new cat. I have blogged about this before and had concluded I am in no hurry. But the signs are getting louder and louder. I subscribe now to both the Sunday Philadelphia Inquirer and the Sunday New York Times. I equate the Times with sophistication and intellectual discourse. It feeds my curiosity and expands my worldview. Very 9th house ~ It rocks!

Yesterday I received the early section for both papers. The cover of Parade Magazine features Christopher Walken holding a cat for the film Nine Lives. The NY Times Arts and Leisure section features an article on the Return of Cats the Musical. So we have Nine Lives of Cats and the Return of Cats just in one day! This is in addition to the Dexter encounter last week. Plus the release of Zootopia and The Secret Life of Pets. Now I realize that the sun just entered Leo, but there certainly seems to be an abundance of feline presence everywhere I look.

I did visit the SPCA again on Sunday, but left empty-handed. I was not feeling the selection, except for a few kittens already labeled as adopted. This is all very confusing. My solution is to devote more time to meditation and journaling so that I can slow my mind and gain more clarity.

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I still miss Dexter so very much, but realize that he has moved on or is waiting to return to me via a new incarnation. In the meantime, I have plenty to keep myself occupied. I am taking my computer tomorrow for the Windows upgrade so I will be less available for a few days. But my heart will remain connected with all my readers and fellow bloggers.

I definitely plan to immerse myself in the Democratic Convention coverage  held in my beloved Philadelphia this week. If you have a chance, please tune in if only to get a glance of my beautiful city.

peace and avocados,

litebeing

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