These past two weeks have been out of control. Virtually all of the choices and decisions I have made on my own behalf have proven to be faulty. Where have my superpowers gone? I do not have a poorly placed astrological transit on which to deflect responsibility for my current situation. I keep asking myself if Mercury is retrograde in an alternative universe.
I often take solace in a lesson well-learned. While I have learned a few lessons, I feel too fried to appreciate them. For example, my living room has been plagued with a mysterious dripping water/knocking sound for a few weeks. The intensity and frequency has increased over time and it has become a new form of cruel and unusual punishment. The noise would disappear when people came to hear it. The wall that it was coming from had no water stains or leaks. I began to wonder if my home was haunted, but it did not seem likely.
Today the mystery was solved and I was not even close to guessing the right answer. My old ( ancient) desktop computer speaker was the culprit. The maintenance people were ready to tear up walls to examine heating pipes and it was a speaker! My intuition must be on vacation in Barbados, because it was the farthest thing from my mind.
On top of that, I totally misjudged one of my neighbors who also is part of the maintenance team. He was kind and generous and did not judge me crazy for hearing intermittent noises that had nothing to do with the building. Where has my ability to read people gone? I really regret not seeing him clearly.
I have been making messes everywhere I go lately, from the bank to the supermarket to the laundry room to the public library. This morning I made another practical but apparently poor choice that is putting my finances temporarily at risk. I consulted others and took my time with my decision, but in the end it created drama and I am not out of the woods yet.
A Course in Miracles has a famous line that goes like this:
Do you prefer that you be right or happy?
The former leader of my ACIM group would quote this line over and over and it has stayed with me over the years. I often prefer to be right and happy. Today I am wrong and unhappy, but I understand the value of this question. Indulging the ego in its quest to win at all costs is not the way to go. I also suspect that getting to the bottom of everything is also a fruitless pursuit. Many friends over the years have suggested that I just embrace the mystery. I must admit that I love a great mystery and my intense curiosity is one of my main reasons to get up in the morning, so…..
It is quite humbling to be so off of my game without any excuses. I have been sleeping well and the Pluto Uranus square is waning ( for now). I don’t understand what is driving this train. Am I picking up the energies of other beings ( human or otherwise) ? I do say a protection prayer at least once a day. Am I just plain exhausted from a year fraught with challenges and loss? Maybe I am putting too much pressure on myself to find meaning in what may just be a spell of bad luck. I have not neglected my radical gratitude practice and I am spending time in nature on a regular basis. Apparently doing everything right is still wrong sometimes.
Or perhaps this is a typical way to enjoy the holidaze in Bizarro World?
I will share this catchy song with you, but don’t go anywhere. I do have a few announcements after this musical intermission :
1-Have you been following the 2014 Wrap-up Challenge? Here’s the link to the post with the current line-up here. The blogs have been very moving and quite diverse. I am so pleased that many of the regulars have returned and some new folks have also heeded the call! Please read their stories and be amazed and inspired. There are still some dates available, so I cordially invite you to collaborate with your WP family in bidding goodbye to 2014.
2-Despite my new residence in Bizarro World, I still can perform dreamwork with a vengeance, read a mean astrology chart ( or a nice one), or see the sugar-plum visions in my head regarding your future. So if you are curious about my services, now is a great time to get a reading. I am currently having a special sale for the remainder of 2014. Please visit here for all the details.
3- They say good things come in 3s: The third announcement is that I have a show to plug. My ever-synchronous mind has ascension on the brain. Since I got bit by the ascension bug, I have been looking for more information on-line, at the library, and elsewhere. Well, I discovered there is a 3 part ( get the 3 theme) miniseries on SYFY channel called Ascension that I highly recommend. It kinda just appeared on my cable TV guide. At first I was stunned to see it there. The plot is not what I expected ( par for the course these past few weeks), but it is really unusual and clever and addictive in the best way.
You know we try to keep it positive here at litebeing chronicles, but we also keep it real. I have truly been struggling lately and welcome prayers, love, Divine light, and positive energy. So I humbly admit that even litebeings can be off of their game and get a bit disoriented and lost. I hinted at this possibility (way back when) on Blog Story.
Thanks for reading and commenting and returning here time and time again, post after post, for close to 2 years.