Feather Fanfare

This quick post is sponsored by ” unexpected magic when least expected and greatly needed. ” I had an urge to throw out the trash today and go outside. It was cold and damp and I felt like staying in on my day off. Yet this nagging thought persisted. And I lately feel lifted when I declutter my home in some fashion. So off I go to discard some garbage and see a gray feather in the parking lot. I am so surprised and thrilled as I scoot down to pick it up. After I walk back up to my house, I notice a second gray feather in the front yard. I gather that one also to bring inside. They look very similar to those I discovered in 2016. Has it been almost four years since I found some large feathers outdoors, well yes!

I went online to learn more about gray feathers to satisfy my curiosity. This particular section grabbed my attention:

A period of tranquillity may lie ahead

Have you been going through a tough time? The grey feather might have appeared to reassure you that the road ahead is much more positive. The feather won’t undo the past nor will it erase bad memories, but it could help to ease your pain and suffering.

Whether you’ve lost your job or someone you care about has passed away, the grey feather could be trying to tell you that everything will be okay. It might not seem like it at the moment but you’re a strong person and you will survive this. Make yourself and those you love proud by holding your head up high and carrying on with life as best you can. Eventually you’ll feel like a great weight has been lifted off your shoulders and you’ll start to feel joy again. Things will get better and these negative thoughts won’t last forever.

I really needed to hear today that things will get better. Life seems to be hyper – frenetic, both while awake and in dreamtime. I am striving to stay in a positive space by keeping up a gratitude practice and being open to signs. One could say I am embracing the dialectic aka gray areas of perspective.

I get very excited when I encounter symbols like these. Nature is wonderful and has so much healing potential. Life is precious and I gather many more folks are finally getting the message.

What have you discovered lately?

Are You Experiencing a Spiritual Emergency?

Leave it to Whitehawk to assemble an excellent share on Spiritual Emergency, a topic dear to my heart. Enjoy and better yet, reblog on your sites! Namaste

Winging with Whitehawk

Image of a depressed man and a candle symbolic of the spiritual emergency I’ve been in and out of “spiritual emergencies” during my “emergence” journey since about 1990. My first exposure to the phrase spiritual emergency was via Christina Grof in the book, The Stormy Search for the Self – still a valuable read if this subject speaks to you.

Also: I’ve always considered the Lonerwolf team – Aletheia Luna & Mateo Sol – to know of what they speak, so I share this with confidence that someone out there needs it, or at least portions thereof. (It’s also currently published on Wakeup World.)   Bless us, every one!  Whitehawk


15 Signs You’re Experiencing a Spiritual Emergency

by Aletheia Luna

You’ve gone through a tremendous spiritual awakening. Your life perspective has changed drastically. You’re no longer the same person you once were a few years ago.

But something has gone horribly wrong.

While others on the spiritual path are reveling in their…

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What now?

So hello 2020! As I read so many musings on the astrological weather, I ask myself ” Why haven’t you wanted to write anything? ” I could answer that I am too busy, tired, or physically unwell ( and they are would be correct). But that is not the true answer. I just don’t have all that much to add to the conversation.

And yet, here I am typing out a few words right before bedtime. So I must have something to say!  When I consider how so much energy is in Capricorn, I wonder about the concept of form and what does it really mean in the true scheme of energy-based consciousness. Then I consider Uranus, who lives in the future and is such a wild card. And then, of course, is my blogiversary on 1-11-20, coming up on seven years. Where does the “time ” go ?

Currently, I have a good part of the Zodiac, 4 planets going on 5 shortly,  temporarily setting up housekeeping in Capricorn in the 12th house , where life is murky, musty, and mysterious ( among many other things. ) So on one hand, I feel more confused than usual, and on the other hand, more aware of subtle divine communications. For example, I received 2 emails today exactly 2 hours apart. The first one has the subject heading “Future is now following your blog. ” The second one reads  ” Sailfuture inc is hiring for adventurous teaching job at private school in Florida. ”  No, you cannot make this stuff up!

When I read the first email heading, my thoughts were led immediately to the show “God Friended Me “.  What is the future trying to tell me? More importantly, what is the future? Is this a sign of Uranus trying to get my attention?  Yes, probably so.

I used my randomizer on my blog today to see what I would land on, and it took me to my very first blog post. How cool is that on the near eve of my blogiversary? What I found interesting there is my reference to the planet surviving the Mayan Apocalypse. Remember 12/21/12 and the doomsday havoc we collectively created?  Or the Uranus Pluto Square? Or the Y2K moment?

I am not implying that these astrological events are hoaxes, nothing of the sort. But what is important to note that the external shake ups and blessings are just the tip of the awakening iceberg. The subtleties that often emerge  within our being  – sometimes more obvious in retrospect, that’s where the diamonds are found ( could not help the Saturnian reference. )

So what now?

I wish I could wrap this piece up all neatly with a frilly bow, but that ain’t happening. We will all experience the next hours and days to come within the reality we have created, both in isolation while also communally as the fellow Gaia visitors we all are. We are merely visitors as spirit in form for a blink of an eye. The train has already left the station. So let’s make the most of this experience together and with love.

A map of my spiritual journey

I am guided to share Karin’s lovely post about her journey. Karin’s perspective adds a unique, nuanced dimension that makes an excellent addition to one’s understanding of spiritual awakening.

much love on this Solstice and all -ways, Linda

Spiritual Awakening

Is there a map for the spiritual journey? There are maps for every phase in life. When kids come into puberty, we teach them what is going to change in their body. When a woman is pregnant, she is taught how pregnancy, labor pain and childbirth unfold.

But what about a map for the spiritual journey?

I searched and found that there are already many maps out there. And they differ not only in the metaphors they use, but also in the emphasis which they give to the single phases and milestones of the spiritual journey. No wonder, because the curriculum of life is highly individualized.

So, I decided to draw a map of my own journey and add it to the number of already existing maps. And even though everyone’s journey is different, I still hope that some readers can relate to my observations.

When I look back at…

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It’s for the Birds

Hello litebeings,

Just yesterday I was meeting with my spiritual director about how bored I am with my life and that I rarely can generate excitement anymore. This existential angst has been in play a few months, as transiting Saturn joins transiting Pluto in my 12th house.

After waking this morning I draw the blinds in my dining room which faces the backyard. I see something I have never seen before. Initially, I thought I spied a few sparrows getting ready to disperse. But this was a whole ‘nother event. I witnessed what looked like a few hundred blackbirds literally carpet the backyard and eventually come close to darkening the morning sky in flight. I rushed to turn on my phone to take a picture but it seemed like I was too late. But they swooped back down just a few yards from view, giving me a small window to capture their images on my phone.

I know that these shots do not really show the scope of this bird convention. The limits of the camera and my inability to go outside to get a wider shot prevented me from transferring my experience to “form” adequately. Let me tell you though: seeing these birds en masse took my breath away. I felt both awe and fear, trying to understand why they were gathering here. Was it a sign for me? Was there something going on that led them here? ( Sometimes it is not about me. )

I did a little digging and prayed they were not a ” murder of crows ” signaling death and bad luck. Honestly, I was feeling that way for weeks before the birds arrived. What I discovered is that blackbirds, among other bird species, migrate together in winter to keep them safe. I did not know any of this and it led me to wonder how many other natural encounters may not have been cosmic in origin.

And yet, why can’t it be both? Before the internet, I would have had to go to the library and research this phenomenon if I wanted some understanding. And before there were libraries, I probably would have accepted that they were coming to see me!

I have had several unusual bird encounters, especially around the early 2000s when Neptune was conjunct my Ascendant. I learned then that birds are ruled by Aquarius ( my rising sign ) and that fact was important to me then. I am actually fond of birds but was a bit frightened of the power wielded by the magnitude of their numbers. Yet, when they soared together in flight, my fear turned to delight as I witnessed such extraordinary beauty in motion.

Here is some bird interpretation courtesy of my fave symbolism site :

Birds that are black do not give up their secrets easily. They love to watch us marvel over their messages. Blackbirds demand our commitment to learning their wisdom and do not reveal their meanings unless they are convinced we’ve devoted ourselves completely to the path of understanding.

Part of this understanding comes from the clear perception of the dark and light sides of the universe.

This concept of light and dark is a fundamental concept of alchemy which is: Transition and Transformation. It deals with the ability to accept there are both black and white energies, and they most both exist in order for our world to exist.

The bird itself is symbolic of life in the heavens (higher ideals, higher path of knowing). The color black is symbolic of pure potential.

Consider: what is not exposed, is unknown. What is not known, holds infinite possibility. So, between the two, (the meaning of birds, and the meaning of the color black) there is no limit to human transformation – all we have to do is gently pull the shades down of our rational mind, and start sojourning with our darkly feathered friends.

This all comes about because birds are (metaphorically and mythologically speaking), situated in proximity to the higher energies of the Universe. This also positions them as heavenly or divine oracles and messengers in cultural myths across the globe.

Blackbirds and birds of black or dark colors are special among their airy clan as they are symbolic of:

  • Magic
  • Mystery
  • Secrets
  • The Unknown
  • Pure Potential
  • Unobvious Perception

When I consider where my thoughts and energy have been recently, this interpretation is eerily on point. I need more time to process, but I realize that the duality of dark and light is important for me to integrate, yet again. It is also interesting that a bit later today I spoke to my former supervisor on the phone and heard whistling. He told me that what I was hearing was the new parakeet he just brought home. Another bird? hmmm.

So tell me, have you had any unique bird encounters? Please describe them to us in the comments section.

update: Look what I was given later today:

more bird medicine!

Sundeelia: Coming Into Alignment With Higher Self

Eliza of blue dragon journal gifts us with a treat! Read with an open mind and open heart. ❤

Blue Dragon Journal

Coming Into Alignment with Higher Self

Aspects of Ascension – Impressions of a Pleiadian Walk-in

By Sundeelia VaCoupe, Specialty Commander Communications, ‘The White Winds’

In the course of being “here” on 3D Earth, I have observed the many permutations of various psyops variously called “religion”, spirituality including so-called “New Age teachings which were designed specifically by the Central Intelligence Agency in the mid-20th century. While my sister, Lady Tazjma, was present here, she posted channeled pieces and articles written by many people, some posing as ‘ascension teachers’, ‘guides’, and other self-appointed titles. I will make a simple and perhaps disturbing statement in response to these people who take themselves too seriously, charging other people money for their services, and invariably falling into ego traps: Spirituality or to truly live within Spirit is very simple. You don’t need books, lectures, videos, workshops, or other people how to tell you…

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Undone

Hi litebeings,

As promised, I am back. But sadly, I could not find time or energy to complete my draft for publication. You could say I have become a little undone. Or perhaps a bit obsessed with the Amazon Prime tv series Undone. I somehow wound up on Amazon Prime and seemingly found this show I knew nothing about. I watched the entire series in one sitting ( while recuperating from another GI episode)  and was completely captivated.

Yeah, it was that good.

Check out the trailer:

This sci-fi semi-animated series turns out to be considered one of the best new television shows of the season. Stunningly beautiful, witty, and unpredictable, I am surprised I had not heard of it on social media.  It is about many things but mostly leaves the viewer wondering if  Alma, the main character has a mental illness or is spiritually gifted. Sometimes I wish I could view my life this way, fast forward to the end to see how it turns out. However, Undone will be filming a second season, so both my life trajectory and this spectacularly mind-bending storyline will both remain mysteries. I find it quite interesting that I wound up watching this amazing show given that I am fascinated by this particular topic.

Maybe I am spiritually gifted, or am I just exhausted?

to be continued….

Reclaiming My Day 11/11/19

This autumn was less vibrant, or maybe I missed the foliage at its peak. You see, I was ill for over a month with a “mystery illness”. It came and went and later returned, near my birthday. My birthday was last Wednesday and I took the day off from work excited to see where the day would take me. But when I woke up in pain and so nauseated that I had to vomit, I know I wasn’t going anywhere. The feeling of nausea and the act of vomiting are among the most dreadful experiences to me. The fact that this happened on my birthday pissed me off! Vomiting rarely happens to me as an adult and the fact it happened on my day of rebirth was cruel. But, as usual, I adjusted to my circumstances and focused on feeling better. It appears ( not definitively ) that the new probiotics I am taking are making me sick.  After weeks of tests and no answers, I started to improve without treatment. The only change made was the elimination of my supplements, recommended by my GI specialist. At first, I was skeptical but went along anyway. After my test results returned to “normal”, the doctors were no longer interested in figuring out a diagnosis. So a few days later I went back on the probiotics and the symptoms returned. So I stopped taking them again and am also noticing a lessening of symptoms. How could this product that I considered life-saving be the culprit? Could it be a bad batch or some other reason? I don’t know.

I began leasing a car about 3 years ago, just a couple weeks before my birthday. So it was time to trade in Kokoa for a newer model. Say hello to Azia! I named her after the lovely blue color that reminds me of the astral. From astral I came up with Azia.  I chose this particular model because it is a very quiet ride. I revel in quiet these days, not to mention, standard features include a sunroof and heated seats! While not much brings me joy anymore, I hoped a new car would help because I really dig cars. I also like the free trial of Sirius Radio but really miss not having a CD player. So much has become obsolete in these “modern times. ”

Please enjoy this song that also helped inspire Azia’s name:

The past few days have been exhausting and liberating, all leading up to a new start for me. I took two risks, one planned and one rather spontaneous. At a book club with my Social Work group, I disclosed something very private. I barely gave it a minute of contemplation. Someone in the group shared a personal story and I was moved. I decided to be authentic and see what happens. It was a chance to be more vulnerable, but there was more to it. Later I realized that I was challenging some of the older LCSWs on how non-judgmental and inclusive they really are. Behind the political correctness and blind obedience to ethics, I wondered ” Will they walk their talk? ” It turns out that I still know how to shut up a room! It is disheartening to see that I still feel superior or above the established groups I belong to, but not ( hopefully) in a narcissistic way. People are people and most I encounter have little consciousness. Part of me already knew I might be rejected, but I was feeling rejected in other sectors of my life anyway.

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The second risk I took happened yesterday. I fired my clinical supervisor, this judgmental, rigid, mean woman who I have paid to provide me with supervision to prepare me for a higher level of licensure. I have worked with her off and one since 2017, the second of three people I have hired to walk me through this minefield. She has misled me about many things and I let them go. She does not respect my wishes, she is petty, and sometimes passive-aggressive. She will not be accountable for any mistakes she makes and has threatened to end our association a few times. She is unpredictable and often remembers events very differently from my recollections. I kept this going because of fear I would not find someone else affordable, nearby, and able to meet me outside of my work schedule. But after a few sleepless nights, I decided enough was enough. I did not have the courage to confront her directly but I left a detailed voicemail on her phone. I was also afraid she would sabotage my LCSW application if I stayed with her. I wonder why I keep attracting these cold women into my life after so much therapy and other forms of inner work. Maybe so that I can continue to take better care of me? I have not found a new replacement, but I am glad I let her go. So many people abuse their power and do not question how they handle their responsibilities. I hope I will choose better next time.

So what about my blog title? When will I write about 11-11? Patience is a virtue, right? I decided I would take back my birthday this weekend if I felt up to it. I enjoy time alone to travel somewhere and indulge in activities that bring me pleasure and/or peace. Today I felt well enough to drive to South Street and visit a new find and an old haunt. Dishes that feature fall flavors are among my favorites and I planned on going somewhere for Oktoberfest. That did not happen so today I discovered the very popular Brauhaus Schmitz.

Doesn’t that look good? It is schnitzel with mushroom sauce, cabbage, and spaetzle. I could not finish it all, but it was delicious. The cabbage was amazing, so yummy with the mushroom sauce. Authenticity matters to me, in cuisine and in people!

A few blocks away is The Garland of Letters, a bookstore that opened in 1972, way before my college days when South St was one of my typical hangouts. It is reassuring that it still remains in its original location, featuring all the spiritual books and gifts anyone could wish for.

This is my little present to me from me, a cool book about chakras that I just had to have. I wanted something I could take back home with me to carry on the 11-11 energy. Going downtown did shift my awareness and increase my vibration. I felt it rather quickly. Synchs were happening with regularity and my mood brightened. I was also delighted to notice that fall foliage was rather abundant in Center City. I took a few shots from my car ( while the vehicle was stopped).

I am aware that today’s blog could have been spread over several posts, but I see it as a complete story. Existence can be dark and hopeless and full of pain, regrets, and lost opportunities until the opposite emerges. Birthdays or solar returns, whichever you prefer, is a time of reflection for me. This was not a stellar year in many respects, months of illness, much upheaval, disappointment, and displacement. Yet, chakra bibles, trees bursting with color, and liberation can manifest, sometimes when hope is lost and letting go is the only choice that works. So I chose a new birthday this year and hope the memories I made will reverberate throughout the next solar cycle.

HAPPY 11 – 11 TO YOU!

We were looking for your Blog

Happy Samhain season litebeings! It is not really on Halloween, more mid-Scorpio, so you have missed nothing yet. I plan to post today as more of a journal-style entry, experimenting with a new technique. Re-working one’s writing style is très Mercury Retrograde you know?

So here goes nothing:

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I have come to the conclusion, as of today, that all points of view are true, that no one is ever wrong, regardless of intelligence, morality, logic, or dishonest leanings. It is pointless to argue with anyone if the goal is to change someone’s opinion. Motivational Interviewing is a therapy technique used to connect with people who have sought ( or were mandated to seek) therapy. The idea is to allow the client to be where they are, be supportive, assess where they are in terms of readiness for change, and point out any discrepancies between their goal and their choices. This strategy acknowledges it is futile to try to force someone’s hand.

This idea triggered my mind to retrieve a quote I like ” If someone wants to leave your life, let them. ” It goes something like that. Basically, it implies that we are better off without those people at this time. They no longer belong in your life.  Reminds me of the three levels of teaching in Manual for Teachers in A Course in Miracles. Time spent together is unimportant, since time is a construct. What is important is what one gains from the teaching/learning potential during the course of the encounter.

What’s my point? We all exist in a separate plane of being, our own dimension/frequency that is rarely static. We are all one, but not in physical form. So each individual expression of energy has its own universe ( one – song). I do believe that there can be an overlap between 2 people or more, but not for extended intervals. These overlaps are fleeting more often than not. So if someone doesn’t “get me” and my efforts to connect are rejected and/or thwarted, it is best to just surrender. I cannot seem to attract many kind, decent authority figures into my orbit, at least not for a good stretch of time. I keep attracting cold, passive-aggressive, manipulative types who control something I need, like a paycheck or my LSCW. I feel beyond exhausted. I know my childhood was fraught with toxicity, but I also thought I had done more than my share of inner work and clearing the crap out of ” my field. ”

It feels like most people have no idea who I am or what I want or hope to accomplish. Today I had an image of my life being over while still breathing – meaning that it is possible to have exhausted one’s life force. I equate this with a product that has expired. You can still use it, but its quality has diminished because it is no longer in its prime or at its peak expression of vitality. Could my life force be compared to moldy cheese?

Perhaps this is why I was initially excited when a coworker greeted me yesterday with these words ” We were looking for your blog today. ”

What?

I told a friendly coworker that I am an astrologer after we discovered our birthdays are 4 days apart ( different year). She shares an office with a colleague who I find challenging. Anyway, I asked them both how their week went and if it was as bizarre as mine has been.  Then  I mentioned the frustrations of Mercury Retrograde. They had no idea what I meant.  Said challenging person’s face lit up though when I mentioned astrology and was excited when I said I am an astrologer. She asked if I have a business and I said that I advertise on my blog.  She wondered if I could do some astro type activities for her program if her boss agrees.

I wasn’t sure about this. After all, people in 2019 still are judgy about all the woo. So even while hearing the word blog uttered in the office was lovely, I told her that my blog is anonymous and I am not sure I feel ready to share myself that deeply at work. No one really pushed the issue, but for a moment I thought that maybe I am still alive, not sure though. Figured I better blog again and see what happens next.

PS: Move your clocks back one hour tonight if you live in the US.

 

Book Review : The Little Soul and the Sun

litebeing’s note: I have re-posted a section of a blog I wrote in 2014 to showcase this book review. It just occurred to me that if we truly want to save this planet and each other, we need to be kinder, forgive more, resent less, and become more open to each other. This is not about the “other”, rather it is about recognizing there is no one outside of ourselves. Separation is an illusion. This children’s book is truly a gift to all children of Creation, reminding us to see the Divine everywhere and all-ways.

It was nearly fourteen years ago when I first was introduced to The Little Soul and the Sun by Neale Donald Walsch.  After gazing at it on Amazon for a long time ( could not find it offline), I finally ordered it.  The package arrived a few days ago and we had a joyous reunion! To read it again after all this time is so empowering and certain passages triggered a profound crying spell. These were tears of recognition of the power of the Source and my longing for that complete connection. Shortly after I had my awakening during the Summer of 2005 I returned to a very chaotic work situation. Many people had moved on and the entire leadership team of my department was in flux. One of my supervisors ( one of the few who remained) was led to bring me a book to borrow. He had never done so before. He came to my cubicle and said that he wanted me to read this book because it will help me deal with a very difficult dilemma. He handed me this children’s book. I am thinking ” Why is he giving me a children’s book?” When I saw that the author was Neale Donald Walsch, creator of the Conversation with God series, I was happy to dig in.

This beautifully illustrated tale is about the purpose of the human experience and the contracts we make with one another in order to help us fulfill our unique expression of the Divine. It tells the tale of one soul who wanted to live the wonder of his being through physical expression on Earth and chose to experience the nature of forgiveness. This short story succinctly explains the role of darkness in the Universe and why this physical world is ” all pretend.” It is indeed a children’s book, but I enjoyed it as much or more than many of the heady metaphysical material that I pore through on a regular basis. The main theme is to forgive one another for any perceived wrongdoing and to recognize that we are all loving beings of light.

I understood the reason my supervisor lent me this book, yet I was unable to forgive this coworker who was to play a powerful role in my workgroup. I did not have the support necessary to deal with her daily, and look beyond her current persona that was quite untrustworthy and manipulative. While I understood that a great life lesson was before me, I simply was unprepared to take this challenge on. Not at this time.

I ultimately used this situation to once and for all make a clean break from a system that I had outgrown. This coworker actually did me a huge favor by being a catalyst that set these events in motion. By the way, I  lent my supervisor Dan Millman’s The Way of the Peaceful Warrior in exchange for his kind gesture.  It was the least I could do!

I highly recommend this book to anyone who wants a major heart-opening. This may seem paradoxical to many, but often the simpler texts teach me more about life than the scholarly ones. Perhaps this is why I am so drawn to poets like Rumi. He packed millennia of lifetimes condensed into mere sentences. Sometimes less is more. Check out Sindy’s post here to read the entire story!

May we all become wiser, stronger, more conscious and kinder to ourselves and everyone who crosses our path.

book image courtesy of amazon.com