Being Here

Hi litebeings, as we edge closer to Mercury stationing direct, I am aware of a promise I made to myself and my readers. I promised to complete and publish a post sitting in storage. Most of these are more ideas than copy, but they set the stage for article creation.

I am still working on a post about my trip to Baltimore. It is not ready yet but I hope to have it done before Sunday morning when Mercury does its thing. Can I use 2 power outages in one week as an excuse for not delivering sooner? Probably not.

I am not judging, just nudging! I realize that I prefer to be more gentle with myself and recognize that my time is rarely in synch with my Higher Self’s timeline. Stuff happens and my job as a sentient being is to relax into life with acceptance and ease. I spent some time during the power outage drawing a mandala and enjoyed my ability to focus. I also enjoyed these surprise visitors to my neck of the woods.

It is not easy to see but there are two deer, easily camouflaged by nature’s cover. My daily living is like this, with guidance speeding up, but remaining quite subtle. I am writing this today mostly to say I am working with the current energies, appreciating that I thrive as I truly allow myself to let go of wants and needs and listen to that still small voice. Meditation is growing on me and I can once again understand why so many sing its praises. Being one with the breath while inhabiting the body is a privilege.

While it can be fun to have less restrictions and a myriad of choices, I am working with what is presented. There is still free will to be had. That’s a topic for another time. Yet, I will share with you a quote from the show Westworld that I really like:

 Free will does exist. It’s just fuckin’ hard!

I think it is a good time to throw in some questions for you my lovely readers:

What have you learned about your ” self ” lately?

Are you embracing simplicity?

What are you reading?

How are you playing?

 

PS: I did not save my work again and it was not pretty so listen to my advice especially while Mercury is wonky.

My heart sings when I receive a donation for my blog. It lets me know you see me, in this time of wobbly reality and no financial certainty.

Namaste

 

Litebeing’s Energy Update

What if it is really all okay ” underneath it all “, whether we enjoy, judge, understand, integrate, or resist the experience?  About 30 years ago, a young man I was very smitten with, took me to one of his favorite bars. It was an awkward evening and my time with him proved to manifest plenty of awkward moments ahead. In any case, I found him to be wise and confident and took him waaay too seriously. But he said something in the bar in Upper Darby that still rings true now ( and oddly enough,  I still remember it!) He simply told me, “life is here to experience. ” That sentence seemed a bit radical to me then, but not unpalatable or easily rejectable. We did not use words phrases like 3rd density or clear our fields but we were part of a  group of friends who studied The Course and other spiritual teachings. I was down with his concept as long as I liked the experience. It is not designed that way.

I did not plan to write about that meeting in the bar. A lot more was said that evening, but that’s not fit for blogging! This story is included because I am working on relying more on my gut and intuition, using my intellect more as “backup. ”

This is my energy update and the forecast is stormy and humid with a chance of magick.

On previous layoffs, I have struggled with how to best spend my time. Often I was required to apply to jobs weekly as a condition to receive unemployment. This go-round there is no job search requirement. I look inside myself daily to determine what is meaningful, fun, and perhaps healing and/or geared towards awakening? I realize that this timeline we are in is so unusual and I want to use it well or have Source use me well. I hit a recent snag right after the Mercury station when my former manager asked me to come back to the office and hand in my keys and laptop. I became acutely aware of how much resentment I have accumulated towards him. This stems mostly from my disappointment that he was not the person I imagined him to be. This pattern often shows up when I compose a narrative around someone I hardly know and it turns out to be incorrect.  I wanted him to be the creative, thoughtful, reflective person that I saw initially. He ended up treating me poorly and displayed anger, deceptive maneuvers, and condescension. I see my disappointment causing a strong aversion to meeting with him again. I do realize that my actions have also colored his interactions with me, but it still stings. I am considering writing a letter to him as a way to release my emotional baggage. This is a therapy technique I have used often in my work so I figure it can assist me in letting go of the past and accepting him and each moment as it is.

Almost 4 months into lockdown, my body has been suffering for most of it. Today I can report the “cold ” is improving, my toe hurts less, my skin inflammations are almost gone and my GI tract is rebounding from whatever happened yesterday. I wonder if I welcome illness to avoid responsibility or simply become unwell as my body works to rid itself of all the low frequency thought and experiences I take in? The answer could be neither or both, I do not know.

In any case, I am pleased to say this quarantine has not been just one extended sick day. I have noticed more lightness and laughter and have become more grateful for what I have and the people that I love.

I am also grateful that hydrangea grow outside my bedroom every other year. There is some regularly scheduled beauty in my world. Lovely hydrangea, there is a reason I choose you as my gravatar image.

Synchronicity Central ~ Friday I was getting breakfast at Dunkin and going there reminds me of life pre -COVID. On the way, I noticed a small green grasshopper/ cricket accompanying me on the passenger mirror! He looked just like the one from a couple weeks ago. I turn up the radio and enjoy cruising with this supercool companion! Later in the ride he migrates across the windshield. I did not have a chance to take a photo but he was similar to the cutie I found at the grocery store. While at the drive-through, I  have a worry about catching Covid after the cashier is not wearing a mask and become anxious. After I leave Dunkin I  turn the radio back on.  An instrumental tune entitled Immunity begins playing!  I am thinking ” wow, instant messaging, guide-style, yes!

Many talk about how it is more likely that our physical bodies move back and forth between 3D and 5D. I cannot speak for anyone else, but my ability to tap into Source has increased significantly during social distancing. Telepathy is more frequent and easily confirmed.  The higher vibes usually occur when my mind is quiet and observant. Regular meditation via Headspace is one habit I intend to keep!

The bloom shown above is smiling. You will smile too if you read the announcements below. Please take a peek to get the latest scoop. Let me know how your energy is flowing?

Announcements: 

Save yourself ~ If you are writing online, remember to save your work regularly. WordPress lately has this tendency to highlight and delete all my text. It happened again today while posting here and I did not save my work. I prayed for a solution and somehow autosave must have been operating, despite no indication of it under the Revisions section of the Editor.

Pay it Forward Deadline ~  I am enjoying reading for you and am glad to have a few more “in cue”. If you are still on the fence about getting a reading, decide by July 1, 2020.  Please contact me here to book your free reading. Join the fun! Please contact me also if you want to write a Testimonial about a past or recent reading. The Testimonial page is getting a needed overhaul, waiting for new reviews. Thanks in advance for all the love and support!

Retro works ~ My intention during this Mercury retro season is to publish some posts “vacationing” in the drafts bin. I have been procrastinating writing anything complex and/or lengthy, waiting for my ideas to marinate. I see some of my material to be “timely” so I hope you can support me by encouraging me ( either actively or energetically) to bring this material out in the open.

Namaste dear ones

Refreshed and Rebooted

I did not expect to return here so soon, but here I am with a recommendation. Last night through early morning was another dark period. I developed a headache, congestion and a cough. I went to a sad place with fears of COVID and annihilation. I slept restlessly, plagued with short, dramatic dreams and “visions” of souls on the astral? ( not certain.) I rested a good while in bed, telling myself I can sleep as long as I want. Why do I have this recurring worry that I have something important to do? Nowadays I have less to do than I have in a very long time.

Peace has come upon me once I took my temperature and noticed the cough has not escalated. I wonder if part of the reason I get symptoms so often is because of my empathic abilities. In any case, I feel less anxious and much more grounded. While still “unwell “,  I am not catastrophizing.  Rather, I am sitting with the peace.

Lorie Ladd is my latest go-to YouTube person. A few bloggers have posted about her and one of my offline teachers also follows her. I watched a video about her journey last night and I related to her strongly. I find her to be down to earth, enthusiastic, genuine, and nurturing. I just like her! After watching some of her videos, I noticed my confidence return. I felt like someone actually sees me now, without judgment. Perhaps her heartfelt message contributed to my reboot.

This video is her latest energy update. It is informative, straightforward, and delivered with grace. She is natural and vulnerable and I can tell that she really cares about waking us up. I do not guarantee you will agree with me, nor does that matter. I feel led to share her message and to thank my lovely blogging community.

Thank you all for doing what you do, be it poetry, painting, prose, photography, reblogging, or just speaking your truth in a unique way. We all make a difference and are stronger together. I do not always agree with every idea I read or hear, but I respect the intention to spread consciousness.

Namaste, litebeing

Here and There

I wonder if I am alone in feeling like time is slipping away and I have yet to unpack March. I do not really think I am the only one out there with this issue, but I am still highly sentimental and tend to take my time letting go.

Back in the winter, I decided to leave a scarf in my car in case I would feel cold while driving. We have reached close to 90 degrees recently and that scarf is still waiting in the passenger seat. The question is, is it waiting for me to bring it inside or waiting for winter to return? Let’s face it, in the blink of an eye, the summer will be over.  To quote Game of Thrones ” Winter is Coming! “ In many regards, winter never left. My work laptop idly sits on the dining room table, unused since April. I have no clue when my office will reopen and I will return to clean out my office space and hand in the keys and laptop. Perhaps once this happens I will be totally separated from my former employer. I wish I could have worn that scarf at least once. I also wish I could have my personal items back and be rid of the laptop, a reminder of another company with financial problems, using layoffs as a way to survive.

And yet, my intuition tells me that everything ought to remain as is, for now. I cannot say why ; I just feel it. I continue to learn how to be more okay with “what is”, especially when it causes discomfort or sadness. There is peace to be discovered in the alignment with NOW. I am not being all New Agey, I really do believe this. While little me is usually pissed off or impatient, higher self is totally down with taking life as it comes on its own terms.

Spring green has been replaced with summer green and that will have to be enough. I am excited to show you photos taken over the past few days ( including today). I had thought I had already shot some roses, but none made the cut. Hydrangea bloom about once every 2 years and 2020 is the year, woohoo!

As you take in the imagery, make some time to focus on the opalescence of the hydrangea,  the play of light and color contrast. If not now, when right?

Fight Injustice Without Hate

I really truly thought I knew myself better. I expected to weather this isolation period rather well. I am an introvert at heart, that loves lingering in books, with solitude and the old oak tree as a backdrop. I figured once the shock of my layoff wore off and my benefits were established, I would discover some joy within and thrive with all this newfound free time. Well, I was mistaken. The perpetual conflicts I encounter with others continue in my pursuit to receive the benefits I worked hard to acquire. I pay taxes and I have worked very hard over my lifetime, often in psychologically toxic workplaces. My last employer should change its name to Clusterfuck. Yup, I just wrote that sentence. Anyone still wonder why my blog is anonymous?

My health is now showing the delayed result of my anger and pain. I have skin eruptions on my face and hands. It is painful and feels like extreme sunburn. Anger often is a response to hurt. Yes, I do feel hurt. Along with grief, rage, sadness and some hatred. It is unclear anymore which is mine and which is of the collective. As an empath, it is a challenge for me to discern with accuracy. Let’s say some of this stuff is mine to own. I will give you a recent example. Many errors were made by my last employer regarding retirement and health insurance benefits. None of these errors benefited me. I have put in hours upon hours working to unravel the mess that was made in order to clean it up permanently. I had to change insurance providers and was due a refund. Finally, I was told a check was on its way to me. The amount was much smaller than what was owed to me. Apparently they subtracted some funds that were a “writeoff ” for unpaid premiums. This is the thing: I had a zero balance and owed nothing. The insurance company gave me the timeframe of several years ago and I was employed at that time. They say the employer owes them money so it was deducted from my refund. I lost my composure and blew up. And then I gave up.

Around this time George Floyd was assaulted by police and is allegedly dead and my city is now “on curfew”. First of all, I do not know if this murder happened and/or the riots are staged. What I do know is the world is broken and I am out of answers. I have started limiting my social media and tv news consumption. I have asked for dreamless sleep, but have been denied this request. I have to admit I have some hatred in my heart. I have to admit that my past trauma of being a victim of violence has come up again. Many have said that old stuff is coming back for integration during these times of “awakening”. I thought I had done enough self-examination to last 50 lifetimes. My life force seems to be weakening.

So I watch nature and work on preserving Spring Green. Then an advertisement for Quaker zoom worship at Pendle Hill caught my eye. Pendle Hill, one of my power places where I met James and found mystic openings at every corner? Yes, that’s the one. They are offering anyone the chance to join the staff in daily meeting for worship at the Barn via Zoom. I have not prayed this way in many many years and have not been to Pendle Hill in quite some time. Although much of the energy of this place had dissipated for me, I was curious about this opportunity. I joined the worship group this Saturday morning. There were many tech difficulties and it looked like there would be no service, but the team prevailed. Over 100 people from all over the planet prayed together in silence. In Quaker worship, words are spoken only when someone is moved by Spirit. An African American woman was moved to speak. She wondered how she could fight injustice without feeling hate. I instantly knew her words were meant for me. I listened and reflected and remained silent. A few others spoke and at the end the Pendle Hill staff facilitated sharing of blessings and challenges and prayers for others. Then everyone says “good morning” via Zoom. I felt a lightness and some inner peace that lasted a few hours. When I went outside my home and sensed the sounds and wonder of Pendle Hill’s campus. It is hard to explain how this works but it is as if the energy of the campus is transported to my neighboring surroundings.

I was able to climb out of my temporary placement in the abyss after attending this service. I needed to know that others are struggling with injustice and not always doing it “correctly”. I realize that my personal struggles are not race related but have more to do with financial insecurity, loss of dignity, loss of respect, and loss of power. It is easier not to fight, but is it proper? I do not think so. These days I still find myself trapped in quicksand, where the seemingly easiest tasks take forever to complete, or devolve into battles of will. Eclipse season is upon us and I do not have any answers, but I was able to display some Spring Green imagery and can seek shelter in morning prayer , at least one time.

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Do Nothing Now

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Remember when I posted back in January about moving forward with new pursuits? Now is the time to be still. I doubt this will be a change for most of us during this time of social distancing and global stay – at – home orders. Even for those who are back out in the “real world” ( or essential workers/heroes who never stayed home and kept us safe and secure), the stars require us to slow down and look inward. Three planets are stationing retrograde this week: first Saturn, then Venus, and finally, Jupiter. Many ask what will this planetary retro – dance look like? It is not something that can be easily answered. Some people will feel these energies and some will not notice anything. Three planets slowing down within days of each other is rare, but with all the chaos we find ourselves in, it is unlikely that most people will see any immediate changes. It has less to do with sensitivity and more to do with one’s astrological chart.

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For example, I have both Saturn and Jupiter currently moving through the 12th house in my natal chart and it is unlikely I will notice anything. Transiting Venus is conjoining my natal moon right now in the 4th house and I do expect that the Venus retrograde cycle will bring me experiences that are connected with women, nurturing, home, family or familiar people, and increased psychic activity. I will have to wait and see what transpires. Many times I have little awareness of planetary stations, especially while the cycle is active. Other times I do feel something immediately and powerfully at that.

Bottom line, I would suggest we all slow down, hold off on any major life decisions, and use this time to review, research, regroup,  reflect, reinvent,  revise, reinvigorate, relax, recapture, release, and recreate. Personally, I have often longed for a few weeks off to relax and regroup. But I never imagined that getting my wish would look like this! I expected that after a couple weeks post-layoff I would be busy with creative projects and new ventures. I was off track here because I have felt unwell for most of this at – home time. It has been two months since I called out sick on March 11th and have not been back at the office since. While working remotely I was exhausted per usual and did not really appreciate the benefits of staying home. Lately, I continue to be busy putting out financial and bureaucratic fires. I had been telling myself that my energy will perk up and I will start to make use of the quarantine once all the financial benefit glitches are straightened out. Recently it occurred to me that this type of thinking is similar to saying ” I will be happy once I move to a new home, or get a promotion, or lose 10 pounds, etc. ” I rather live life in a way that I won’t be bogged down by the necessary but tedious tasks that seem heavier now than before. Can you relate to this faulty thinking pattern? Let me know in the comments section.

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In the US, being busy equates with being happy. I was raised that way and many Americans do identify themselves with what they do, not who they are or who they are becoming. There is still some residue within me that resists the notion that everyone is created perfectly and need not take any action in order to be worthy of love. It is clear that I will have another chance to embrace the truth that all sentient beings are made of love with no further enhancements needed via acquisition or competition. We can choose to take action but are totally fine as we are. Let’s definitely settle down at this time and choose love.

Wednesday, Right? The bc Blues

More and more each day dissolves into the next. I wake up so many mornings feeling like there is no reason to get out of bed because my day will be almost the same as the last 10 or more. This is so different from previous unemployment episodes. I was at home more often, but I went out regularly and socialized and engaged with the outside world.

Days had distinction.

I remember what Wednesdays meant bc ( before Covid). I ran two groups back to back on Wednesday evenings and got home rather late at night. I was exhausted but also filled with the inner knowing that I was doing something, making a contribution to humanity.

So for the hell of it, let me share what I actually did today ~ 5-6-20, my half birthday.

I will be 60 years old in 6 months if I survive this monotony ( and the Presidential election).

Here are the “highlights ” :

I wished my friend a happy birthday on FB ( Happy Birthday Lynda if you are seeing this!)

I watched part of Morning Joe on MSNBC ( lately the MS/ Microsoft merger is really bothering me, but not enough to divorce me from tuning in to Morning Joe and Chuck Todd.)

I ate breakfast while watching more TV and playing video games. I spend part of most mornings playing a couple video games. I have done so for many years and made them part of my pre-work routine.  I like building virtual cities ; I must admit.

I sorta got dressed, depending on how you define dressed. I logged onto WP and read a few blogs, another daily ritual. I am here almost every day because it is home for me.

I prepared lunch and got into an email argument that lasted a few rounds. I ate lunch and watched part of the Young and The Restless, my go -to soap since around 1975 or so. Yes, we Scorpios can be loy-alle. The show is now airing “classic episodes ” since filming has ceased for now. About half of an episode is aired daily because programming is interrupted by city and NJ briefings. ( My state does not broadcast daily as far as I can tell, but NJ does). I also caught up on Mrs. America on Hulu. This series about the Women’s movement and the fight for the ERA in the 1970s is so fascinating. The acting is also impeccable. Check out Cate Blanchett. She was made for this role.

I must confess I have already forgotten a few hours of my day. Yeah, it was that interesting. I did complete my first mail-in ballot for the Presidential Primary and sent my mother a Mother’s Day card. Other than blogging, those tasks seemed to be the most productive.

I also had a “random ” in-person encounter. I rushed to fill out the ballot and card before the mail carrier arrived. Fortunately, the mail arrives here mid-afternoon now, rather than anywhere between 5 and 6 pm ( or later ) in the evening, like an afterthought. I was so excited and surprised to see the mail woman show up just as I walked out in the hall. I asked her if she could wait for me to address the card and she agreed, which was very kind. She has great long red hair and we talked awhile. She was very sweet and I felt grateful for this chance exchange ( as if anything is chance… )

I also spent way too much time checking email on my phone, expecting some message would arrive and rewrite my day. Maybe something along the lines of  ” You just won a million dollars ” or ” We want to make a movie about your life ” or ” This is just a dream ” and then I awaken to a bc reality.

I ate dinner and watched Becoming on Netflix. It was good, but I find it odd that it seems like I saw it already. Yet, how can that be if it was released today? I was thrilled to see glimpses of my city. Could it be because I don’t go anywhere anymore? I don’t typically venture downtown that much, maybe 5 times a year, but I was gleeful to see a SEPTA bus on the screen and some other local relics. Watch it if you like documentaries, as Michelle Obama’s transformation story is compelling.

Next I read a few sections of the Sunday NY Times ( promo deal made this affordable) and completed Decolonizing Wealth. This book was recommended and I got it because I thought it was about explaining the working-class Western world in terms of contemporary enslavement. It is not about that topic but it was still a good read. I came upon a lovely quote in the last chapter that begged to be shared.

When we are engaged in acts of love, we humans are at our best and most resilient. The love in romance that makes us want to be better people, the love of children that makes us want to change our whole lives to meet their needs, the love of family that makes us drop everything to take care of them,  the love of  community that makes us work tirelessly with broken hearts. Perhaps humans’ core function is love. “

So that was my day. Rather ordinary and not much different than Tuesday May 5, 2020. Yet, I was reminded about the power of love and this reminder inspired me to write today.

Love makes each day productive.

Under Construction

It took me only a few decades to figure out why my plants rarely or ever reflower. Following a friend’s advice to unwrap this kalanchoe and put something underneath the pot proved miraculous. See all the lovely orange blossoms and fresh green shoots? I have had this plant since November and it continues to thrive. My only excuse is no planets in Taurus, sadly. All life forms require both freedom and containment. We must be “unwrapped ” to grow and supported to contain the “overflow”.

Think about it.

 

Blog rebirthing : I am making some post-New Taurus Moon changes that will also hopefully complement today’s Pluto in Capricorn retrograde cycle. I deleted a blog that I never used, that contained my last name in the domain. This simple act has freed me up to create anew. I am considering starting an additional blog to showcase my writing in a new way. I am not ending this blog but feel the need to “unwrap” more of my creativity.

Seeking Testimonials : You may have noticed that I removed the Testimonial Page a while back. It needs an upgrade. I am asking that you help me with this. If you have had a reading with me in the past and found it helpful, will you write a testimonial for me? Simply write it up and send it to me via the contact page. Thanks in advance for helping me upgrade my blog and help grow my services.

More in store: I have been considering starting a blogging challenge. I typically do one in November but lacked the incentive to do so in 2019. While I have not decided on the topic, I invite all readers to partake in Barbara’s challenge. She is asking us to envision ( click here to join ) a Magical New Earth. All the offerings will be part of a free e-book to share with the collective. How wonderful is this? I know I will be joining in!

I have some other surprises for readers in the near future so stay tuned. Pluto retrograding in Capricorn will mean a reworking of old material ( reconstruction)  as he backtracks about 2 degrees before stationing direct on October 4th at 22 degrees Capricorn. This will set off the incredibly potent conjunction that we experienced on 1/12/20. I cannot predict how this plays out, but I do know that this is an excellent time to make lemonade out of lemons. Go within, discard, recycle, or upgrade flimsy projects or objects, eliminate what is not useful ( in relationship with others and self), and grieve deeply as needed.

Blue skies ahead: My ability to attune myself with nature is growing and I am so excited to witness nature’s response to less human consumption. The pictures of jellyfish in Venice’s clearer canals is just one example of how resilient our planet truly can be. I know that more loss is ahead, but I also know that rebirth has already begun.

What are you planning on reconstructing?

Make Earth Great Again ~ Earth Day 2020

Gaia is rebounding while most of us stay home. I don’t think this is a coincidence. MGHA ~ Make Gaia Healthy Again! Enjoy this “classic ” blog that still rings true today. Stay healthy everyone! 

I adore Bill Maher and borrowed his tagline from last night’s New Rules segment as the title for this post. I do not think that Earth is not already great, but I do think it urgently needs extreme nurturing and collective respect. Sometimes a catchy slogan makes a difference. It did in the US presidential campaign.

While Bill’s rant is a bit satirical, he is a passionate environmentalist who often features activist scientists on his show. Check out this video and leave me your comments below:

Happy Earth Day!

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Clearing Away for a Faerie Future

Update 4-13-20: While I was looking for an old post to share about how I struggle with unemployment, I arrived at this gem.  While it really doesn’t address unemployment ( what’s up with that, WordPress search? ) it does a nice job detailing the business of loss, renewal, and faith. I am missing my faith plaque, an item still residing on the windowsill of my former office. Until I can retrieve the plaque, I will draw faith from my inner resources that are limitless. Please, let’s keep one another close in our hearts, where love knows no bounds….

Whew! We survived another Eclipse season. When I think back to where I was one year ago during the August eclipses, I am so grateful to be here now. Not to say that this summer has been a party, but hey, I have grown quite a bit since then. There really is no other choice. Many mornings I wake up with a heaviness of a sense of dread, wondering if I am picking up collective energies, or my own. Sometimes the clarity I seek alludes me. Yesterday was a very social day for me and it was very celebratory in a true Leonine manner. I had such a lovely time with friends, one of which is a Leo. Today had a darker vibe and a couple of hours ago I heard some horrific news about a woman who died way too young. She was not a patient, but someone I knew as a teen.  But I will not let it drag me down. I will absorb the information and then let it go.  It will be added to the clearing pile.

Let me elaborate: I have been dedicating myself to clearing away debris, literally and metaphorically. It has become almost an obsession for me, emerging from my higher self.  I recently hired a service to clear out an old tv and desktop from my place, which made room to organize more stuff. There comes a time when you will ultimately know what no longer suits you. This retrograde period has allowed me to release old memories from high school, courtesy of a high school reunion Facebook group. I find it interesting that while I am processing and discarding,  pleasant memories of people and places are coming back into consciousness. I must admit that the internet is a fine tool for refreshing the details, but then again, what IS the internet really? Energy like everything else in existence.

While synchs are a daily event, the truly mystical has eluded me for quite some time. But a subtle discovery brought magick back into focus:

It has been difficult the past few days to find parking near my door, so I have had to park further away. Why, I wondered, was this happening? Maybe so I could find this lovely feather today while walking to my car. I would not have seen it otherwise. I have not found a feather like this in about  2 years, so it grabbed my attention, and what you attend to expands. These types of experiences strengthen my faith that all is really well, even in the midst of stagnation and chaos.

Sometimes clearing is metaphorical or occurs on a parallel plane. I am a computer game enthusiast. I really like building cities so I am attracted to games that focus on this angle.  Elvenar is a Facebook game that has a mystical feel. There are several worlds to play in and the builder can focus on human or non-human realms. When I reached a certain level I was close to the fairy realm. I was prompted to sell most of what I had built over the years to clear the way for a new type of fairy technology. I found myself resisting this process. I did not want to undo all this work and leave my city practically bare.

Then it hit me, this is where I am headed on my ascension journey. I must be able to sit with emptiness and continue dismantling what doesn’t fit into my life anymore. I told myself ” Linda, listen to the fairy prompt and sell your stuff!”. My city has miniature humans and a few fairies now walking among my city streets. The city is in flux and has plenty of room to breathe.  This is where I need to be.

Isn’t it ironic that on the morning that the game suggested I convert to a fairy avatar that this huge beetle showed up to greet me? I saw the beetle at the exact moment that I was trying out the new avatar.  Beetle medicine is about transformation after-all. You all may wonder how much time I am devoting to computer games, but unemployment has its perks (Or not).

The image above is a faith plaque I purchased last December. I participated in a Secret Santa at work and someone mentioned buying small gifts in anticipation of the Secret Santa event. I was at Cracker Barrel and saw the plaques. I liked them so much that I bought one for my coworker and one for myself. I figured it would be a nice addition to my office. I look at it daily to remind me that faith has a place in my spiritual practice. I don’t hold the philosophy that some otherworldly being will save me, but rather that my time here is on purpose and that guidance is a certainty.

The video below is a song written by Jon Bon Jovi for Stevie Nicks. It is quite on point regarding living with what appears and embracing the mystery. I dedicate this song and this post to all who have left this planet too soon. While it seems to me that the number of souls taking the nearest exit is increasing exponentially, that does not diminish the value they hold or the love they still engender. test