And so it begins, the final week of my first post- 2020 job and the first week of goodbyes. I dread the next few days but really, really, REALLY want to turn it around. I have to end several long – standing relationships with therapy clients starting tomorrow. I have been thinking about this since around September. This was even before I began my job search. I specialize in grief and loss and yet I don’t like goodbyes. I have written a few times about my mobile childhood and how it impacted my relationships. I have also written about the intergenerational trauma in my family that speaks to a pattern of early loss of a parent. With transiting Uranus stationing in the 3rd house of communication, opposing my Sun and Mercury ( planet of communication) it is no surprise that I arrived here now. I am very eager to leave behind my practice but not the people. As Uranus opposes my Sun, it mirrors a 7th house situation, with separations in relationships. Although it is not sudden, it feels sudden now. However I must surrender to it , realizing it must be for the highest good simply because it is happening. I know this in my head but my heart doesn’t care. I am grateful that at least this time I get to do goodbyes. When I was laid off before, I was given no notice and forbidden from any client contact. So this situation is preferable. I realize that this is my choice. And I am owning it.
I already have a few new clients and met with the first one. Her name and backstory was a clear sign that moving to this job was fated. The client’s name is the female version of one of my great loves. He is the guy who shares a birthday with me. Both the client and this past flame also moved from Phila to Seattle and back to Phila. That is quite interesting. These are striking synchs and I take them as a sign of alignment. I often struggle with the message behind the “message” but that is okay. I am being guided and that is enough.
Please think of me this week as I shed some tears and make the most of this transition time. The energies are very off for me but I suspect they will stabilize once Uranus moves off of the opposition. After all, we are finally moving forward! Here’s to gliding instead of slipping.