Pre Eclipse Lunacy

This is an update post my friends. As we edge closer to the next Eclipse, I really wonder how my nervous system and overall health will adapt.  I was just thinking about how each daily cycle is filled with ups and downs. It is a cosmic rollercoaster ride. Here is the latest example:

Before I begin typing, I go on Facebook because I planned on blogging a bit about it. I see a memories notification. It says I have updates from 1 year ago from Emily and Maurice. Well Emily is dead so that felt spooky yet I was eager to see her post. It was from August 24, 2025. She is reporting that she is in remission from Cancer. I then realized that her Cancer saga was more than a year and that I so wished she remained in remission. This saddened me.   I was surprised to see a memory from Maurice. It was some post about some rare lunar phenomenon  (that is over my head ) with some lovely photos that someone he knew took in Scotland.  You may ask who is Maurice?  Well he is this person that spends too much time in head rent -free. We are kind of in a relationship that makes sense to absolutely no one. It has to be one of the strangest situations I find myself in and I have been in some odd situations.   This is so complicated and I promise you that I will explain this once I have the language for it.  What I will say now is that a small part of me wishes this was still 2025 because both Emily and Rick were alive and Maurice was not important to me.  Facebook is kicking my ass lately and I am thinking about taking a break soon.

Announcement : I have decided that unless I know that someone does not want their first name mentioned that I will use real first names on this site. The main reason for this shift is that I am running out of names and am confusing myself.  I have been using the name James for years to write about a man I met during my second major spiritual awakening. His real name is Joel. I am certain he could care less. He has much bigger fish to fry and is simply not petty.  Regarding Maurice, I just do not care what he wants or wishes. I am not using his last name but I absolutely could if I wanted to do so. After all he has put me through I am trying my best not to sink to a lower vibration. Whenever I go low, no one wins. I have finally learned this lesson.  However when someone is well known in the public eye they give up the right to total privacy. You cannot be a “celebrity” with total anonymity.    Joel is also somewhat well known but he was not when I met him. He models humility and I could learn to follow suit.

This is my third major spiritual awakening and it is not going well. Maurice is the guest star in this movie. Neither one of these men caused these awakenings but most likely had a hand in giving me a nudge. However I will own that in both timelines I approached them. No one ever twisted my arm.

This timeline more closely mirrors my first awakening at age 17. There was no male guest star to activate the first go round. This was Spirit and the Uranus transit moved it forward. I worry that this one is taking me to some very dark, trippy places. What I forgot to mention is that right after reading my FB memories I put my phone down and the Pandora app popped on. The song that it began playing was Bob Dylan’s Twist of Fate. Clearly I see the synchronicity here.  For about a year now Pandora randomly comes on my phone and plays music. I do need to replace my phone but this still seems trippy. Why does Pandora do this?

I do not talk much about my first awakening. It could have resulted in  the end of my life. There are clear demarcations between the 17 year old girl  and the 18 year old woman who emerged afterwards as life slowed down. This timeline in many ways altered the entire trajectory of my life. Maybe it was all preplanned. Maybe everything is preplanned. I often vacillate between free will and fate. I would like to believe there is some sovereignty. I am still chewing on this.

I will end with a few videos of songs I enjoyed during the initial “upgrade “. Maybe one day I will divulge more about this period in my life. Some of it has resurfaced now anyway. Time will tell.

Be careful out there this week. Keep the vibes high.