Mars Rages Backward, Jupiter Forges Ahead

Mars

Connect with your roots, align with Gaia, ground yourSelf deeper and deeper.

Here’s a quick piece on this week’s astro weather. Tonight Mars will go retrograde ( 28° Aries)  at  6:22 pm EDT. Currently it is stationary but not for long! Then three days later on Saturday 9/12/20, Jupiter turns direct (17° Capricorn) at 8:41 pm. These two fireballs will surely make their intentions known. Mars is very happy in Aries and will continue to argue, act bossy, and remain angry as charting new territory will be thwarted. It is better to work with the internal flame that shows up rather than project it outwardly. The wildfires in the Western US are a glaring example of flames unleashed. One can only hope the retrograde motion will curb this horrific event. This is not a great time to take action, but it really depends on how transiting Mars hits your chart. If you feel like you have to “go for it” now, then do so! The universe may surprise you. Astro Forecasting is specifically tailored to the person so I am only speaking in general terms here. Not every event will be seen as fiery.  For example, I rarely were seat belts while driving ( I do as a passenger though) and I felt led to get strapped in today. Nothing happened, but this can be a time of accidents and “rash events. ” I also was worried about a conflict arising at the grocery store, because I dislike this task, even more so in this Covid time. However, I had a lovely exchange with the cashier and left the store in better spirits than when I arrived. He asked me how I was and really cared, truly a delight. So I guess we know who was the lightworker in this instance! When he told me his mother shared my name, I smiled, seeing synchronicity at work yet again.

Jupiter

Jupiter is not a fan of being in Capricorn and trust me I know because I have this placement natally. It can bring blessings later in life and reward hard work and change. Jupiter rules my Midheaven and is the ruler of my Venus, that symbol of both finances and love. So this may bode well for me in my job search. You may feel a lighter load and more enthusiasm as Jupiter moves forward. Hard to say, because Mars is more powerful now. Mars will also be squaring the Big Boys of 2020 ( Jupiter Saturn  and Pluto) during his retrodance so this ride will be bumpy at times.

Gratitude~ I practice gratitude daily and some cool happenings occurred yesterday and today. Yesterday this lovely feather was waiting for me on the stairs by my home. I really like the blue. I also had an odd dream last night. At the end a man was sitting at a computer screen with the night sky on it. The number 96 was at the top and 4 was at the bottom. I asked him about changing the numbers but he did not reply. It is unusual for numbers to be clearly seen during dreamtime.

I googled the digits today and found this:

PSALM 96:4

Because the Lord is great and so worthy of praise. He is awesome beyond all other gods.

I chose the most optimistic version online. I would like to think this was a message for me to love myself and others more. We are God, afterall.

Here is a great post by Gray for a more detailed read on Mars Retrograde ` http://graycrawford.net/

How about a delicious cookbook style read on Jupiter, a planet that does not get much literary love? :  https://www.amazon.com/Madalyn-Aslans-Jupiter-Signs-Relationships/dp/0670031496

I have to admit, I am proud of myself as I had some nice surprises and wore seat belts like a grownup! I do not like restrictions which is why I rarely were them but it is crucial to honor one’s inner voice as much as we can. Keep yourself grounded and continue breathing through this energy laden week. Earth and air will temper the fire somewhat.

Namaste, litebeing

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Digging Deep

This world keeps turning and I keep changing from the inside out. With plenty of time for soul searching, it occurred to me that I learned about disruption and reset very early and could be an expert in instability and impermanence. I would not recommend early childhood and adolescent trauma but I am grateful it did not morph into PTSD.   But it might account for this why I tire so quickly of tasks and routines and yet sometimes crave tasks and routines? Ambivalence I have learned to befriend and it is a worthwhile alliance.

After much delay and indecision I finally exchanged my company laptop and keys for my personal belongings from work. At some point I realized that I did not want to return to my old office. I rather just get my stuff and be done with it. So I asked my manager if he would be willing to pick up 3 items for me and make the exchange in our neighborhood. He surprisingly agreed without hesitation. I had already written him an unsent letter, clearing out any crap between us. This is known in ascension speak as alchemizing the density into light. I would be lying if I said this was easy, but I am a therapist and I know how to do this.

Here was our conversation :

Me: Hi

Him : Hi, put this down here  pointing to the bench

Me : The keys are in the bag with the laptop

Him: I found something in the desk that might be yours so I brought it.

Me : What?

Him: Lotion

Me:  I looked in the bag and all 3 items were there plus lavender vanilla cream, which was mine but I had deemed non-essential.         Yes this is mine.  D0 you have the gift card?

Him: Oh, I forgot. It is in my work bag.

Me : I just silently stared at his masked face with my own masked face.

Him: We could meet again?

Me : Thinking to myself ” Fuck no. ” Silence

Him: I could give you cash?

Me: Okay

Him:  He hands me a 10 dollar bill.  It was a starbucks gift card.

Me: So now you can keep it for yourself. It isn’t about the money. It is about the principle.

Him : Take care

Me:  I walk away.

 

It was all very civilized. He had awarded me a gift card at a staff meeting and never gave it to me. It was for five dollars so I made a profit, lol! Yes I took his money without any thought. He took my job away , laying me off because he could. It was like an awkward breakup when people come back to retrieve stuff left behind. I have been through this a time or two.

Just a few days later I saw that my former employer was advertising for my old job. This stung but I got over it rather quickly. I would never work for this company again with these current people at the helm. Another day or so later I “inadvertently” came upon an ad for an incredible job opportunity at an Ivy League University doing clinical work for a research project. This ” happy accident” occurred because I saw a job website email and wondered if my old job was listed. It wasn’t, but this very rare opportunity was listed. I felt inspired. I went outside and I saw a fat gold and white cat approach me, followed by a monarch butterfly and then a small cabbage white butterfly. The energy was shifting…..

The dance with darkness in most sectors of my life is determined by my natal chart. Pluto in the 7th  is an aspect that I have become adept at navigating ( it is not near the Asc/Desc axis fortunately but it is conjunct my north node, summoning me to grow through major  interpersonal excavations). What is much more treacherous for me is Pluto making a rather close square to my MC/IC axis, meaning my inner world, family, home, grounding and my vocation, professional life, reputation, work family ( not to mention both parental figures) are besieged by challenges of power struggles, manipulation, destruction, and reinvention. Good times? no! Clearly I ordered a complex life path from the All You Can Eat Cosmic buffet menu for this lifetime.

So when motivated , I dig deep and work on being my better self, remembering I am not here to hold onto blame, regrets, and old grievances. I know that to attract and acquire a safe healthy workplace with generally decent people I must embody all those qualities in myself and let go of all that does not match that vibration. We are all so much more than we “think” we are and even when we are not living small, there is still larger ways of being. I am not aiming for perfection as that is a trap. I am seeking balance, grace, and humility. And also a butterfly, a fat cat and miracles wherever they pop up.

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Balti -More

Oh Baltimore,

How wonderful it is to know you always deliver, you always bring joy, excitement, love, and a sense of adventure. And then there’s the mystical essence you carry so well, with simplicity and confidence. Our reunion was a dream realized. It took a bit longer than my ego wanted, but it was really on Divine Time.

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Baltimore and I go wayyyy back. My maternal grandmother was born in Brooklyn but her parents moved to Baltimore. She eventually returned to New York to live with a relative and met my grandfather, but many from her family remained in Maryland. While I only recall one visit to my great aunt’s home in Pikesville, my mother spent alot of time in the Baltimore area. I have taken a few trips there with friends but one trip was very unusual. In my twenties, I met a man at a party. While I have no idea how this was possible ( pre-computers) I interpreted his chart for him and we kept in touch. He invited me to visit him in Baltimore for a few days. I agreed to stay with a man I only met once. It was a spectacular time. We rode everywhere on his motorcycle, which I found both terrifying and exhilarating. We went to many local haunts and had dinner one night with his mom. I had a magical time and that memory still has sparkles!

I did not know if I would attend the NCGR Astrology conference until just a few weeks before as I waiting to see if I would get a scholarship. I did get one and then learned my supervisor was leaving his job and with him went his offer to cover my work for vacation.  I was so excited to go to my first out – of – town Astrology conference. The last one I attended was in 2013. Eventually, all was settled and Labor Day weekend 2019 was here!

Highlights: 

Eating crabcakes three days in a row

Making new friends

Catching up with old friends

A lovely hotel with a stellar view of the Inner Harbor

Spending time back at the National Aquarium

Getting off one’s thought and time loop and allowing life to happen

Few plans and few expectations

The energy of the city, vibrant people, and glittering waves of good cheer

The event dovetailed with my Second Saturn Return. My first one was non-traditional in that nothing “expected ” happened. What did happen is I became a student of A Course in Miracles and my inner circle became inundated with other astrologers. I studied with a group and met many new people as a result. I attended my first astrology gathering at this time and some of those people are still in my life today. This second return echoed the first. While my astro community is wonderful in many ways, it is filled with spirits in form with various personalities and egos. While the conference had some conflicts and mishaps, the joy totally outweighed the negativity.

One conversation was particularly otherworldly: I was attending a lecture and someone in the audience said he had Pluto on the Ascendant. I ran into him the next evening, as if in a lucid dream I thought : Let’s walk up to him and see hat happens. So I did and very soon after two others came over. I did not know them but we had much in common. I began discussing the Presidential candidates and my fondness for Marianne Williamson. This is a topic I did not discuss in astrological gatherings. It turns out one of the people worked on her campaign!  I was told about this theory that Marianne was the reincarnation of Abigail Adams. My mind was blown! We discussed the Course in Miracles and the times to come. I mentioned my timidness around a famous astrologer and how much I enjoyed his 2020 lecture. He came to join our tiny group as he was friends with one of the people I just met. It turns out the famous astrologer knows Marianne very well. Other synchs starting happening in rapid succession. I was feeling such awe.

I will keep the rest of that conversation private but suffice it to say that much magick was evident in mysterious happenings in Charm City. I discovered that my Saturn in Capricorn in the 11th house opposing Mars ( conflict, men, action) and trining Pluto ( influence, rebirth, disintegration) brought my 11th house matters ( astrology, friends, hopes, wishes, dreams. clubs, groups) to light. It was so freeing to be away from home in a city that is so vibrant and friendly. I realize that it is the blending of my energies with this location, as not everyone shares my experience. Baltimore is ordinary in many ways but shimmers for those who notice.

Looking back almost one year later, I am so glad I made this trip happen. Money was tight and getting time off was difficult, but my soul needed to immerse itself with my soul group and roam around untethered. Some of the predictions made at the conference about 2020 did come to pass, but not in the way I expected. And I can live with that as I would not change a thing. Ripples continue and mysteries abound…

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Trudging Through The Revolution

According to Webster’s dictionary, Revolution is the action by a celestial body of going round in an orbit or elliptical course,  completion of a course (as of years), a sudden, radical, or complete change, and a fundamental change in the way of thinking about or visualizing something a change of paradigm.

I like how all the different meanings coalesce and vibe off each other. Time and movement can inform change in action and in philosophy. The times we live in now show us how history impacts the present and how different perspectives inform the shifting of our future.

It is not an accident that a Lunar Eclipse is occurring this year on America’s birthday. While the entire planet is in major transition, so many look to the US for answers. The US or ” us ” is a hot mess right now, but has been for many decades. It just takes humans awhile to collectively take notice.

I must say I am fortunate to be born here. I realize that my ancestors may have all perished if this country was not open to them. My incarnation into my present family may not have happened without the colonization of the Americas. Yet, this process was brutal, barbaric, and we still live with its wounds today. The slaughter and cheating of indigenous people to take their land, the cruel enslavement of Africans to work the fields, so much damage has been done here.

I live in Philadelphia and went to college here.  I worked for the City of Philadelphia for close to 20 years. I have lived here most of my life. I am very much intertwined with this experiment in democracy. 

There is a magic in Olde City, the original US Capitol. The energy is still palpable. The people who came together were all flawed, but they wanted to build something enduring that was a step up the evolutionary ladder. My time in Baltimore last summer ( which I still have yet to write about) led me to a newfound interest in the Revolutionary era and my mini-vacation this March led me to new epiphanies about this time period.

I am taking advantage of my time at home by watching Hamilton on Disney+ and reading Return of the Revolutionaries: The Case for Reincarnation and Soul Groups Reunited. Both the film and book are lengthy but definitely interesting. I wanted to see Hamilton for some time, but the expense was out of reach and I have lost my enthusiasm for theater. When I heard I could see the film at home for $6.00, I knew that this was within my price range! I have watched about half the film so far and it is energetic, highly original, and diverse in music and cast. I know little about Alexander Hamilton and will do some research if I enjoy the film at its conclusion. I was hoping it would teach me more about the founding fathers, but mostly I am noticing the wonderful songs and choreography.

The Return of the Revolutionaries is a book that describes the links between current personalities with those living here during the American Revolution. According to the author Semkiw, many are influential entertainers, thought leaders, and politicians. Semkiw claims to be the reincarnated John Adams and has a theory on how souls look very similar over lifetimes in terms of facial symmetry. The photographs provided are numerous, with many pointing to marked similarities in appearance. While it cannot be proven, it is fascinating to consider the soul group coming back now to live again and make a difference in shaping current society. I wonder if many of my soul group are part of the WordPress family?

While I have not had any visions or dreams to suggest to confirm my theory, I think it was likely that I also lived during the American Revolution right here in Philadephia. Many of the founders were astrologers and I do resonate so much with this city with distinct flavor and energy. I do not think I was anyone of note, just another soul walking the Earth during those unsettling, critical times. I have several friends and some family I could visualize in colonial days. My interest in Quakerism also speaks to this linkage. I lived in Reading PA as a child and felt at home there. I chose to return to this area to go to college and remained after graduation. It is just a feeling that has been building inside of me. I know it does not really matter now, because future, past, and present are just constructs we use to make sense of linear time.

I do see my country as a microcosm of Gaia in that is a place created as an experiment of sorts that attracted in so many diverse souls of various frequencies and ways of being. I pray for my city, country, and planet that I call home for now. May she not just revolve around the time and space, but may she live up to the intention of a more perfect union, one of unity, freedom, equality, and peace,

With plenty of love

Check this out: I just found this video from Marianne Williamson with her Fourth of July Message. In it she speaks about the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution and why they matter so much today. According to Semkiw, Marianne is the reincarnation of Abigail Adams, the wife of John Adams. The video is very compelling in light of this connection:

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Gemini Dream

I am happy to report that my mood and attitude have improved for the past few days. Meditating daily using headspace has made a difference. I have also participated in a global meditation yesterday as well, thanks to Alia. The accompanying video is uplifting with glorious music. Check out Alia’s blog for more details as this meditation is still happening.

Today’s eclipse is on 15 degrees Sagittarius, near my Venus in my 10th house. The Gemini / Sag polarity is about information, religiosity, ideas, philosophy, teaching, and communication, among other things. This Gem sun – Sag moon combo can produce a slick, fanatical salesman/woman type with lots of bluster and pretty words. Words do matter as well as how we use them. Venus in my 10th house points to the value of public life. At least that is one interpretation that speaks to my current situation. Doing as astro consult on Wednesday was wonderful as I was able to hear someone derive meaning from my words in real-time.  I have another lined up and invite you to join the party! These readings are free. Click here for the details.

Yesterday I began a volunteer job and it is very exciting. It happened very quickly and rather organically. More will be revealed in due time, but let’s just say that I thrive when I feel useful. I realize one’s worth is not defined by doing anything, but I like being part of the healing collective, the souls who find meaning in service. My face and hands are improving slowly and I have fewer aches and pains. My emotions are still raw and my patience is lacking, but I am noticing an improvement in my outlook. While I enjoy leisure and would never be called a workaholic, I have 2 planets in Capricorn and Venus in the 10th. Moreover, Saturn is the traditional ruler of my chart. For me, this manifests as loyalty, duty, and productivity, an antidote to my lazyish Pisces south node ( where I could escape into books, tv, and video games for days).

My dreams have been odd, but I attribute to my delicate nervous system adapting to a chaotic new “normal. ” I will not predict how this Strawberry Moon lunar eclipse ( the 1st of 3) will fare, but it does coincide with Trump’s luminaries. Please consider a free reading with me for a look at your near future and/or adding a testimonial for a past reading for my Testimonial page. I am revamping it so it will be more user friendly when I step up my Astrology practice. Dream well and communicate with love.

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Pay It Forward 2020

Hey readers, followers and bloggers/blogettes,

Happy Friday! The weather is summery, the birds are chirping, and I am deciding to focus on the positive. I have plenty to be grateful for. I am happy to report my local Chinese place has reopened for takeout and they got all my special requests right, the staff was very friendly and the food was scrumptious! I have some leftovers and will savor them later.

I have said in previous posts that my life has become more bird forward. A recent change is that some birds are now hankering to come into my home. A few will fly right up to the sliding glass door and appear to knock on it. While I was not able to get footage for those occasions, I was able to get some more photos of a sparrow perhaps? hanging out on the terrace.

 

Another interesting cosmic wrinkle is the increasing frequency of word synchs. I will watch tv and the actor will say a word and it will show up on my FB feed. Or I will be typing a phrase and it will be repeated on YouTube. Sometimes the person speaking will repeat the word or phrase over and over to help it register in my awareness ( thank you!). Please reply in the comments if you also experience this phenomenon. I am not sure what to make of it, other than to notice that it occurs more often now than months before.

I have been thinking about how can I be useful while sidelined from work. What do I bring to the table that is unique and can benefit others at this time? How can I be of service? Well, the answer arrived and I am ready to share it with you now.

Starting immediately, I am offering free astro or intuitive readings by phone or video to anyone who reads this blog. It does not matter if I read for you before or if you just arrived here today “by accident”. All you have to do is contact me here and we will schedule a time. The scope of these readings will be how to be your best at this time. It does not have to be about the pandemic, but rather how can I assist you in seeing what may be hidden from view. If you choose an astro consult, I will need your birthdate, exact birth time ( if possible) and place of birth. No strings attached!

It would be cool though if you would pay forward some act of kindness or service to someone else. Not required, but certainly a great idea.

Let’s end this bizarre week with love and light and harmony and inclusion. I will do my best. Wanna join me?

namaste, litebeing

 

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Do Nothing Now

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Remember when I posted back in January about moving forward with new pursuits? Now is the time to be still. I doubt this will be a change for most of us during this time of social distancing and global stay – at – home orders. Even for those who are back out in the “real world” ( or essential workers/heroes who never stayed home and kept us safe and secure), the stars require us to slow down and look inward. Three planets are stationing retrograde this week: first Saturn, then Venus, and finally, Jupiter. Many ask what will this planetary retro – dance look like? It is not something that can be easily answered. Some people will feel these energies and some will not notice anything. Three planets slowing down within days of each other is rare, but with all the chaos we find ourselves in, it is unlikely that most people will see any immediate changes. It has less to do with sensitivity and more to do with one’s astrological chart.

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For example, I have both Saturn and Jupiter currently moving through the 12th house in my natal chart and it is unlikely I will notice anything. Transiting Venus is conjoining my natal moon right now in the 4th house and I do expect that the Venus retrograde cycle will bring me experiences that are connected with women, nurturing, home, family or familiar people, and increased psychic activity. I will have to wait and see what transpires. Many times I have little awareness of planetary stations, especially while the cycle is active. Other times I do feel something immediately and powerfully at that.

Bottom line, I would suggest we all slow down, hold off on any major life decisions, and use this time to review, research, regroup,  reflect, reinvent,  revise, reinvigorate, relax, recapture, release, and recreate. Personally, I have often longed for a few weeks off to relax and regroup. But I never imagined that getting my wish would look like this! I expected that after a couple weeks post-layoff I would be busy with creative projects and new ventures. I was off track here because I have felt unwell for most of this at – home time. It has been two months since I called out sick on March 11th and have not been back at the office since. While working remotely I was exhausted per usual and did not really appreciate the benefits of staying home. Lately, I continue to be busy putting out financial and bureaucratic fires. I had been telling myself that my energy will perk up and I will start to make use of the quarantine once all the financial benefit glitches are straightened out. Recently it occurred to me that this type of thinking is similar to saying ” I will be happy once I move to a new home, or get a promotion, or lose 10 pounds, etc. ” I rather live life in a way that I won’t be bogged down by the necessary but tedious tasks that seem heavier now than before. Can you relate to this faulty thinking pattern? Let me know in the comments section.

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In the US, being busy equates with being happy. I was raised that way and many Americans do identify themselves with what they do, not who they are or who they are becoming. There is still some residue within me that resists the notion that everyone is created perfectly and need not take any action in order to be worthy of love. It is clear that I will have another chance to embrace the truth that all sentient beings are made of love with no further enhancements needed via acquisition or competition. We can choose to take action but are totally fine as we are. Let’s definitely settle down at this time and choose love.

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Archetypal Astrology and 2020

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I don’t know about you, but today was very rough. The kind of day where you can feel your blood pressure rise after spending hours on the phone with people who are supposed to help you but deny you help at every turn in service to ” The System. ”

So tonight I present an antidote:

This video of Richard Tarnas about the meaning of these times is simply food for the soul. I offer it as an opportunity to take a journey into Archetypal Astrology with someone who is an expert in history, astrology, and so much more.

Under Construction

It took me only a few decades to figure out why my plants rarely or ever reflower. Following a friend’s advice to unwrap this kalanchoe and put something underneath the pot proved miraculous. See all the lovely orange blossoms and fresh green shoots? I have had this plant since November and it continues to thrive. My only excuse is no planets in Taurus, sadly. All life forms require both freedom and containment. We must be “unwrapped ” to grow and supported to contain the “overflow”.

Think about it.

 

Blog rebirthing : I am making some post-New Taurus Moon changes that will also hopefully complement today’s Pluto in Capricorn retrograde cycle. I deleted a blog that I never used, that contained my last name in the domain. This simple act has freed me up to create anew. I am considering starting an additional blog to showcase my writing in a new way. I am not ending this blog but feel the need to “unwrap” more of my creativity.

Seeking Testimonials : You may have noticed that I removed the Testimonial Page a while back. It needs an upgrade. I am asking that you help me with this. If you have had a reading with me in the past and found it helpful, will you write a testimonial for me? Simply write it up and send it to me via the contact page. Thanks in advance for helping me upgrade my blog and help grow my services.

More in store: I have been considering starting a blogging challenge. I typically do one in November but lacked the incentive to do so in 2019. While I have not decided on the topic, I invite all readers to partake in Barbara’s challenge. She is asking us to envision ( click here to join ) a Magical New Earth. All the offerings will be part of a free e-book to share with the collective. How wonderful is this? I know I will be joining in!

I have some other surprises for readers in the near future so stay tuned. Pluto retrograding in Capricorn will mean a reworking of old material ( reconstruction)  as he backtracks about 2 degrees before stationing direct on October 4th at 22 degrees Capricorn. This will set off the incredibly potent conjunction that we experienced on 1/12/20. I cannot predict how this plays out, but I do know that this is an excellent time to make lemonade out of lemons. Go within, discard, recycle, or upgrade flimsy projects or objects, eliminate what is not useful ( in relationship with others and self), and grieve deeply as needed.

Blue skies ahead: My ability to attune myself with nature is growing and I am so excited to witness nature’s response to less human consumption. The pictures of jellyfish in Venice’s clearer canals is just one example of how resilient our planet truly can be. I know that more loss is ahead, but I also know that rebirth has already begun.

What are you planning on reconstructing?

Welcome to my World

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Two posts in one day! Well, I promised I ‘d be back soon so here I am. About five years ago I was diagnosed with Diverticulitis. There have been many different symptom presentations, multiple ER and hospital stays, numerous medications, way too many opinions, and lots of medical bills. I hoped that certain astrological transits would end my misery, but no clear pattern so far. I have enjoyed some long periods between attacks, along with several multiple episodes within days or weeks. I am experiencing a relapse today and have had about 4 episodes since Thanksgiving 2019.

I have learned so many things about myself and my body since then. In some ways, I am healthier and wiser. Stress is a strong trigger for me, often recognizable in the form of compulsive negative fear-based thoughts. I am a therapist, so trust me I know how this works.

But I did not return tonight to talk about my stressors. This planet is enveloped in stress right now. I rather emphasize the importance of becoming more flexible. I had to cancel attending a friend’s wedding right after my first episode and I waited until almost the last minute to decide. I was angry and sad and it sucked. But as time went on, I became adept at canceling plans and staying home. Eventually, resentment waned and I surrendered to my new reality. I told myself I will be present for all the events that I am supposed to attend. I will see the people I need to see and do the work I was placed here to do. I am not driving this train, but I can make the best of my situation. I actually enjoy my own company and adore reading, writing, listening to music, watching compelling TV or film, etc. Yet I realize that this situation is more than a mere recuperation period.

In the last couple of weeks, I have been teaching gratitude practice to my clients. In fact, I have been a bit relentless. I know I am teaching what I need to learn. We all have so much to be grateful for at any given moment and I truly believe that our perception of gratitude multiplies in direct proportion to a sustained gratitude practice.

How do I know this?

I am blessed to have two lovely nieces that are shining stars. I have been texting them to keep up with their news. The other day I was asking Lily how she has been keeping busy and she was excited to talk about all her passions. She is eleven years old. I asked her to show me some of her art. The piece above is the first one she shared with me. There are no coincidences here!

 

Split Sky

Lily gave me permission to post here and use her first name. I love the title split sky. I see it as significant in terms of how we process crisis. I am grateful for these wonderful souls who are full of love and energy. I am also grateful that I can work remotely from home. I am super grateful I can postpone paying taxes for a while. I will have more food now that I am eating less due to illness. I am over the moon that I got the last package of toilet paper while picking up my medication today.

I will be honest, it is a bit worrisome that I relapsed so soon, but I am much more aware of this illness five years in. But I have learned that I am really so much stronger than I ever imagined and quite certain I signed up to come to Earth for these times. It does not mean I like it, but I AM here now.

Loose Ends:  I tend to be an excellent commenter, but lately I have not been able to keep up with responses to comments on some of my posts. Allow me to take my time with this. I adore all of your comments and have not forgotten you, but I need to take more time.

Spring starts in a few hours in litebeing’s world: I concluded that the equinox ( Spring or Fall depending on the hemisphere) should coincide with Saturn’s ingress into Aquarius at 11:58 PM EDT ( right before midnight). Saturn rules our cosmic weather in 2020 and where Saturn goes, we should follow! So I suggest some sort of ceremonial practice to acknowledge this major sea change. I plan to do a meditation and perhaps pull a few cards. Saturn was last in Aquarius in 1994 during the Clinton years and the beginning of the internet explosion. Perhaps that will give us a clue about what this new transit will bring. In the meantime, please send some prayers, some to me for my healing and many more to all of us as we learn to be flexible throughout this “global reset. ” We are truly all in this together.