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Channeling Libra

Hi everyone out in cyberville! I am enjoying this Libra/Autumn time here in the Eastern US. I feel grateful for the chillier weather and clear blue skies. I do not take them for granted, especially now. Not a fan of the noisy pipes adjusting to the heating system, but it is all part of the transition. The environment is still rather summery with an occasional glowing falling leaf or two. That’s fine, I can wait for foliage to emerge.

I came by mostly to thank everyone who is rating my posts and to share another video. Many of you know that I don’t get my guidance in a very direct way most of the time. I have prayed for assistance and also consulted with teachers, helpers, etc for assistance. I heard something today by Lorie Ladd that I see as a potential breakthrough. The video I am sharing is a Q and A and she covers a variety of topics, but look out for the question she is asked about her spiritual journey. For me, this may be a game changer:

 

 

She also briefly mentions her channeling webinar this Saturday. Click here to learn more and register if led to take the class. I am thinking to taking it because I am curious and curiosity is very helpful on the spiritual journey, especially around manifestation.  I am still a fan of Matt Kahn and others and loved Matt’s latest book, but right now Lorie is my girl! I also find it interesting that Lorie is a fan of Matt and watches his videos. One more display of synchronicity.

 

 

Let me fill you in briefly about Libra energy; the goal is balance and harmony, but often we experience the opposite. Libra types often are out of balance and my express more aggression or passive aggression. This may seem confusing, but consider that the path to Venus ruled justice, love, equality, peace and harmony is a road, a journey. Something to chew on…. Cheers to you on this free flowing Libran Wednesday.

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Better Things

Before composing this post I took a shower, needing to wash off all the negativity residue.

I began to ponder what I actually believe about the planet today :

” I tend to be paranoid as a Scorpio but used to be skeptical of conspiracy theories and the theorists themselves. Yet, look at the world especially since 9/11. Hey, what about before I was born like the Holocaust and all the World Wars and so on. We really have not evolved much, or is it all simulated?”

Then my thoughts drifted here :

” Matt Kahn spoke so brilliantly about why some people don’t hear their guides. I remember a workshop I took where I set aside shower time as a safe space for Spirit to be with me so be quiet and listen. ”

Then this line from a song kept repeating in my head. I could hear part of the melody but only made out one line – Here’s wishing you the bluest sky. ” I asked myself to remember this line so I could Google it later, hoping it was a message.

Here’s the song that came to me:

I ‘m crying as a write these words, amazed by the blessings of my guidance and so strongly in need of joyful music. I don’t know how these songs pop in my head, but I know the quantum field is involved. Matt Kahn in his latest video Facing Uncertainty made some points that seemed both personal and universal. His take on what thoughts are and how bad thinking does not create one’s reality was revelatory. He described undesireable manifestation as aligning with a negative narrative, rather than thinking negative thoughts alone. He also spoke about why some people don’t hear their guidance team and what it may mean. Watch the video to get the complete picture. What I will reveal here is that he strongly encourages people on the awakening path to not expect guides to rescue them from unpleasant circumstances and events, but rather be with them while they live their experiences that are meant for them to live through.

I am just another soul trying to live my purpose and shine some light. I don’t know nearly as much as I thought I did and probably more than I realize at certain moments. However, I want to align myself with the narrative that all is really well, even in the face of seemingly Armageddon-like global catastrophes.

I’ll leave you with these final few words ~ Accept your life and what it brings. I hope tomorrow you’ll find better things.

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Happy February!! Why Astrology Works- A Biased View

Happy February 2020 everyone! While I would be lying if I said I am carefree now that the calendar progressed one month, I will say that some relief has arisen inside of me. I do not take this for granted. To say the energies are intense now seems incredibly redundant. We cannot go back ( from the perspective of linear time, that is). This is the norm at present.

The days are growing longer here in the Northern Hemisphere and Spring does seem to be within reach. I am eager to share with you some new musings about reality, ascension, and living in a body litebeing style, but this requires more processing and the correct “space” to write in a way that is blog-worthy in quality and scope.

So in the meantime, I want to share with you a new article by Matt Kahn. I find myself surprised to notice that I may be partially? ascending. Please read below and share your reactions with me. Then scroll further below to read my annual February blog.

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Energy Update: This is the Ascension

I welcome you today for this energy update, not with more signs of how the Universe is preparing you to Ascend, but to confirm that the Ascension process is in full swing and well underway.

During the 12:12 Stargate which was more pronouncedly open between 12/12/19 through 12/21/19, I began feeling the quickening of Ascension in progress, unlike any other glimpse or preview I had sensed before.

During this actual Ascension, it has a very surreal quality, as if you are walking between worlds. Perhaps it feels like you are already in the afterlife, while story lines of life seem to play out around you. Maybe you are noticing a visceral disinterest with many of the addictive coping mechanisms that were often employed in 3D to numb the pain that you are learning to face, embrace, welcome, and love. Perhaps a mass exodus of friends, family, and partnerships has given way to this multi-dimensional vision quest where, in the absence of relying on others for distraction or the need for constant reassurance or validation, you have been placed in an ‘in-between’ holding pattern where you get to face the sensations, memories, and feelings that cause you to numb your pain or hide your power in the hands of another person’s will.

This holding pattern, which acts as part of the initial big leap in the Ascension already unfolding, gives you an opportunity to transform your relationship with stillness– instead of feeling stuck, disempowered, or afraid of missing out when life stalls to a standstill. Here you are able to see how cleverly life is helping you transform familial patterns of enmeshment into new realities of empowerment, simply by changing your experience of stillness from the withdrawal of loneliness to the true autonomy and serenity of being one with all.

If this holding pattern energy feels more overwhelming than empowering, do not worry. It signifies a great cellular purge, where much like the pulling of a heavy anchor that allows a ship to set sail along its new and exciting voyage, your cellular body is emptying our reservoirs of outdated memories, limiting beliefs, and energies taken on from others all the way back to time spent in utero. The amount of energetic chord-cutting that has been occurring since the 12:12 Stargate opening truly illustrates how hard the Universe is working on your behalf to lighten the load as you begin quantum leaping from one level of reality to the next.

Signs that you have completed the chord-cutting process and emptied out the cellular debris of the great purge and are already making your way from 3D timelines into a new 5D reality include the following symptoms:

The requirement of more rest than normal, including disruptive sleep patterns, the inability to sleep deeply, along with exhaustion, fatigue, and confusion as to where you are in your path and where things are headed.

Heightened sensitivity to triggers, whether in yourself or others, with less drive or desire to be around those whose patterns can be felt in your empathic energy field.

Less desire for people, places, or things as a source of greater happiness, which can also include a lack of desire along with fears that you ‘should’ have something to desire. Often the desireless space, although temporary, signifies a shift from identifying with form to being the formless witness experiencing itself in body.

Lowered immune system function, such as adrenal fatigue, heightened food allergies, difficulties with digestion, as well as healing common colds or flus at a remarkably slower rate. This is due to the majority of your life force, or chi, being utilized to move you through Ascension, which leaves less energy for other areas to be balanced. The more willing you are to step into the unknown and trust the Ascension process, the less energy is needed to move you into 5D, so other subtle energy bodies can be offered greater support.
An absolute resignation with the state of the collective, whether stemming from environmental concerns, the threat of political elitism, or even too much time spent interpreting life through the eyes of conspiracy theories. Such insanity being viewed around you, and acted out by those around you, signifies the detox kickback of those who have spent so much time steeped in 3D belief constructs that they are fighting to stay in 3D, as if Ascension were an unfair eviction instead of an existential rescue mission.

A growing awareness of addiction patterning as the source of true human suffering.

A deep longing to return home, find your soul tribe, and be done with what appears to be an outdated and dying human paradigm.

As you come to see how many of these symptoms match your experience, it confirms the Ascension already taking place. It is important to note that life on Earth only appears to be the unfolding of Armageddon because the ego structure of the collective is so unaware of the process of spiritual evolution, it can’t help but fixate on all that is threatened to be lost, instead of seeing more open space being created for new spiritually-grounded realities to emerge. Simply put, the difference between Armageddon timelines and Ascension timelines is your level of awareness. And yet, both Ascension and Armageddon timelines are playing out within the same hypersphere of reality that we collectively call Planet Earth. This also helps you realize those on Armageddon timelines are experiencing the process of Ascension, but from a perspective of fear, lack, and scarcity, instead of an awareness of what is meant to dissolve so a truth greater than personal gains and losses can be received and anchored into form.

There will not be a time where you must part with loved ones on Armageddon timelines in order for you to Ascend. That is a widely-believed spiritual myth. Instead, there will be those in your life experiencing the same shifts you are, but from a space of fear, codependency, enmeshment, addiction, and self-absorption, who can only be supported by the light you shine when you’re leading by example, instead of trying to constantly change people to your liking.

Please remember, it only looks ‘crazy’ to the unconscious patterning that doesn’t know how to surrender, but is being surrendered by a Universe that can only accept the destiny of Earth’s conscious evolution. To assist you further in this initial leap of Ascension, it is a perfect time in your life’s journey to:

Surround yourself with those who cherish and respect you, instead of filling your life with people just to have bodies around you. Even if you are the only one able to respect your light, you are far better off filling your time with moments in nature, exercise, creative expression, and deeply-integrative spiritual practices than to fuel patterns of enmeshment or codependency as a way of hiding from feeling so alone.

Even if just for a few days at a time, take breaks from chasing news headlines or consuming fear-based “fake news” stories and conspiracy theories. During this time of Ascension, it isn’t a matter of how much you know, but how aligned you are with the highest wisdom you’ve already absorbed. If you sense a fear of being left behind, out of the loop, or a target for unconscious agendas, please know that it is your connection with Source, as the Holy Creator of all things, from one spectrum of consciousness to another that reveals your true sovereign safety, no matter the perceivable threats in view.

When in doubt, always remember: a threat is only as daunting and overpowering as your lack of connection to source. Equally so, it is the will of such dark forces to destroy the hiding spots most people live in to establish a connection in consciousness that ushers humanity along into the pre-destined grace and perfection of unity consciousness. Conspiracy theories can be intriguing like a mystery or horror film you can’t help but watch. And yet, no secret or agenda of the shadow can ever prevent or stop consciousness from expanding. This can help you remember your greatest strength, as the light of all, is in your willingness to change for the better and adapt to the contractions and expansions that serve as an energetic launching pad of your highest living potential. If you are always willing to change and aren’t too inconvenienced to adapt, there isn’t a threat or agenda that can reach your light or get anywhere close to you. Because the agenda of darkness is “control so not to be controlled” it wants absolutely nothing to do with someone whose light of adaptability shines so brightly.

Love yourself enough to bid farewell to long-standing addictions. Do not use self-love as a permissive way of allowing your ego to run your reality with compulsive choices that only make hungry ghosts more insatiable. Whether your addictive pattern is sugar, alcohol, sex, pornography, regular usage of plant medicine, recreational cannabis, binge watching movies or TV shows, or even too much inner spiritual work done from a fear-based perspective, may this be a time of reclaiming the power of your choice-making to fill your life with activities that empower your light versus entangling your ego through the false promise of instant gratification. It is important to remember, addiction is either: (1) over consumption of an external substance, a person, place, or thing used to numb pain or hide from facing deeper truths, or (2) substances that may not be an over-indulgence but are acted out with regular or reoccurring frequency.

At the depths of your soul, you truly know what is and isn’t in your highest alignment to choose. May this auspicious time of quantum leaping be an opportunity to act upon change, instead of merely thinking about the change the Universe is inspiring you to make. No matter how overwhelming it seems, I know you can do this. I so believe in you.

While I will be detailing more about the Ascension as it continues to unfold, today’s energy update is not a call to ascend, but to begin re-prioritizing your reality with greater energetic balance and emotional support in honor of the Ascension well under way.

Whether joining the Love Revolution for Total Integration, Project Resolution, attending a live event in-person, or watching via livestream, now is the time to unite as One and shine our light during the most monumental shift in consciousness this world is birthing.

From my heart to yours, we are in this together. No one can or will be left behind. But your participation is essential in order for the most miraculous versions of this Ascension to shift from ideas of Armageddon to a tangibly-lived reality of Heaven on Earth. I want this for you so deeply and with an outstretched hand, I invite you along a glorious path of love, truth, joy, revelation, and expansion.

As the Universe always says to me, “further instructions will follow.”

All for light. All for Life. All for love,

Matt Kahn

 

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This brief  “rant” is to help the uninitiated understand why I love astrology. This love is illogical, unscientific, and 100 percent biased. Long before I owned an ephemeris or even knew such a thing existed, February was my favorite month of the year. Even though I don’t particularly love winter. Even though I was born in November. When I was a kid, most of my close friends were born within a few days of each other during the beginning of February. I met my teenage crush on February 1st and for a while considered it an unofficial holiday.  My first serious boyfriend was born on February 5th and one of my most magical romances began on Thursday, February 4th. (love the phonetic symmetry)

Once I began taking formal astrology classes and attending astrological lectures, I learned how to properly calculate my astrological chart ( the days before we had computers!!) . Then I discovered that I am an Aquarius Rising. It basically means that the sun enters my first house every year approximately between February 4th and February 6th. For the astrologers reading this, I approximate because I have altered my documented birth-time by a few minutes to correspond better with life events. No one is usually born at 1:00 pm on the dot!!

Why I am posting this ” rant” ? Because I am feeling the pre- ascendant energy take shape! I love the electricity that accompanies the transition from the 12th house to the 1st, the darkness to the light, the hidden to the brightly illuminated. It is truly a rebirth.

 

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Happy Birthday to all my  February Aquarius friends . Come celebrate the coolest shortest month on our calendar. And to those who don’t get astrology, pay attention to when you come back to life. It may surprise you!

 

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Hey 2019, Let’s Dive Right In!

I bought this lavender day planner not long ago. I typically get a smaller black one but opted for this larger model in one of my favorite colors. Ironically, I have a planner and very few plans. But it symbolizes a blank slate, brimming with possibilities. Rather than contemplate or over-analyze, I prefer to dive right in.

While most of my readers know that I am not much of a structured holiday person, I often find value in some of the practices or activities, knowing they stem from a good place. If we want to pick an arbitrary point for the new year, tomorrow’s partial solar eclipse in Capricorn is an excellent choice.  A solar eclipse occurs on a new moon and eclipses are like lunations on steroids, so tomorrow 1-4-19 at 8:28 EST could behold a fresh start for many.

I would like to share some videos on my first post of the year that made quite an impression on me. They share some similarities. but have distinct points of view. But I will begin with some recent photos taken a few days ago at Longwood Gardens. It is noteworthy that I have yet to dedicate an entire essay to my time there because it has often served as one of my power places. Even on more mundane visits, it is always breathtakingly beautiful and every moment is unique in its own right.









The first two videos are by thought leaders that need no introduction, Matt Kahn and Lee Harris. Matt is more badass and Lee is a bit more polite, but they both offer excellent, often prophetic content on the current metaphysical climate. This new Matt Kahn video is called We belong to the Light. Matt jokes that it is channeled from Pat Benatar. He does not reference which song, but I would say it is We Belong. It is one of my old school favorites. I googled the lyrics and the first line of the chorus is We belong to the light. Funny, I sang it as We belong to the night.

What I found especially significant in this teaching is Matt’s suggestion for how to handle “unusual events”. He advises against asking why something happens or looking for an accurate explanation. Instead, he instructs us to ask ourselves ” What do we need?” I really like this idea because it lets us focus on how to take better care of ourselves instead of going off on some intellectual tangent. Matt is very much about self-care these days and finds many inventive strategies for flowing with life, rather than beating up ourselves or anyone/anything outside of ourselves ( as if there really is an outside?)

This next video is a real gem because it is a Live 1 hour segment. Unlike the monthly energy forecasts, this presentation goes into more detail and even features a Q&A section at the end! What I found most interesting here is Lee’s take on 2019 as the end of one 7 year cycle and the beginning of a new 7 year cycle. While 2019 is a 3 year in numerology, there are individual numerological cycles ( not to mention astrological cycles) all at play simultaneously. Lee delves into the 2012 phenomenon and how it led us to this point in time. I highly recommend you save this one and listen in small increments, as I often do with Matt’s videos. I often fall asleep if I watch for too much at one sitting!

This final selection is seemingly divergent from the two previous ones, but I would say only on the surface. Bandersnatch is the first movie version of Netflix’s highly popular, controversial Black Mirror series. One could say I am a reluctant fan of this very dark, mysterious Sci Fi series available on the Netflix streaming service. This piece is not only their first full feature film, but it is also interactive. You, the viewer get to make choices on how the story progresses. Without giving too much away, this interactive process lends itself to a story within a story framework that explores, fate vs destiny, parallel realities, and time travel. Why do I include it with the previous videos that do seem more light and optimistic? What all three have in common is that they are highly engaging and invite the viewer to get off the escalator and empower yourself.

I am more inclined to say that free will is not all that free at this juncture. And yet, I do think that making choices can lead to brighter outcomes. How we choose and why we choose is up to you! Check out all three if possible ( Netflix is not free so I included the trailer only) and let me know your reactions in the comments.

This image above is a smaller version of the header photo. I selected it as the header because it serves as a metaphor for 2019. It is fresh and new, multi-faceted, and interactive. It also brings the light and lets you decide where you end and where you begin. So either with or without plans or resolutions, take a deep breath and dive right in.

I wish you a very blessed 2019! 

 

Just one more thing ~  Keep your eyes glued to this site as I will be posting a big surprise very soon!

 

Until then, wishing you a healthy and transformative eclipse.

Venus and Uranus Retrograde: Thunder Island

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UPDATE:  Here is a re-post about Venus retrograde in Leo and Uranus retrograde in Aries. While the signs and aspects are different from the present astrological weather,  this content can still resonate in anticipation of tomorrow’s Venus ingress into Scorpio opposing Uranus retrograde in Taurus.  Venus will also be retrograding  on October 5th.  This will tide you over until I share a new take on the goddess of love , justice, and values. Stay tuned and love yourself and others until then. 🙂     PS, also happy New Virgo Moon!

Change IS in the air..

To quote my hero Anthony Bourdain, ” Welcome to my world!” Venus went retrograde this morning at 5:28 am EDT . Uranus is on her heels, retracing his steps 25 hours  later at 6:38 am EDT. On some level I feel afraid to leave my house. But hey, I feel that way a lot anyway !

Venus retrograde is a topic I have blogged about before because it’s an important cycle. I feel it very strongly, which is odd because my Venus is direct and remains that way even when progressed. It could be because so many of my ex partners come back to visit me either consciously or on other planes of existence. It could also be that Venus is the ruler of my  8th house of death and rebirth. In any case, when Venus appears to move backwards, memories and emotions about old flames come alive. With Uranus following a similar path, it appears that where love goes, lightening will strike.

Venus Uranus aspects or transits often produce the love at first sight effect. Just one glance and you never know what hit you. Have any of you been there? Great music, poetry, and films have been inspired by such a phenomenon. Often what may appear to be love is simply a powerful attraction of the electric variety. With Venus spending most of this cycle in Leo and Uranus respectively in Aries, we are talking fireworks! But do not do anything stupid unless you are willing to live with the fallout. These fireworks are quite exciting but very temporary and erratic. Don’t say I didn’t warn you!

This is not the time to go out and meet someone new or spend lots of money on Venusian goods like jewelry and clothing. This can be an excellent time to unravel any leftover issues with former partners and whatever else that’s preventing you from moving on and making changes in your life. When a planet retrogrades, it is less about the external and all about the internal. In actuality, life typically operates this way anyway, but we often forget and look to whatever appears outside of us to validate our worth. If you still prefer externalization to build up your self-esteem, now is a wonderful time to modify your thoughts and behavior. Inner change is easier with Uranus retrograde so assess what needs to be upgraded. Don’t delete any files yet or install new software. Rather, review what may be corrupted or incompatible with the best version of you.

Look to where Leo and Aries are in your natal chart to get more insight into how these transits can be best used to your advantage. My 2nd and 7th houses are affected so I can expect some activity with abundance and partnerships. Since it seems like I have Venus retro natally, I do not expect to be that surprised. While the players may be different, the emotions that get triggered are all too familiar. I have noticed this quite often and this awareness has confirmed for me that I was correct in ending some friendships and romantic bonds.

When I think about love and loss in particular, I rarely miss a beat. Whatever I dread will happen once I love again typically does comes to fruition. Or at least that has been my pattern.  For example, after raising my cat Jasmine from a kitten to age 16, letting her go was excruciating. I never forgot the intensity of that loss. When I adopted Dexter, I said I would not love him like I loved Jasmine. It turns out this was true, but not the way I meant it. My love for Dexter was so much bigger, building on the love for Jasmine, but it did not eclipse that initial love. The loss of Dexter reminds me why I was so skeptical about getting another cat. I did not want to grieve again. It is a wicked catch 22 and the only way out is through.

My experience with my pets helped me see why I subconsciously decided to shut down my desire for romantic love. The pain and sadness were not worth the investment. Sometimes a break between involvements leaves me believing a new relationship would not cause the same suffering. But often my reasons for letting a relationship dissolve would re-emerge with someone new. Faulty soul contracts or inability to manifest better outcomes? I have no clue.

Matt Kahn repeatedly says that emotions even out when one begins to ascend. Perhaps this is why I am dealing better with Dexter’s passing than previous losses. The fact that I am pretty together after having lost what I loved most on the planet is astonishing. It is really a miracle that I am not curled up in the fetal position on the floor. Maybe I am evolving and/or the love of my community is holding a space for my healing. I do feel grateful that I am surviving this tragic sudden loss. While it does not seem fair, I realize that we do not get to control the lifespan of another.

While I am curious to see what shows up with these transits, I know that it is all about how I treat myself and raise my vibration. Sometimes the love we receive in relationship builds up in the soul and becomes a resource for future alliances. We shall see. I am grateful that I know myself better than ever and that I have become a more adaptable person. I really have no choice but to grow and adapt.

Thunder Island is an old song that once held special meaning for me. Frankly I forgot all about it until I heard it on the radio a few days ago. It is about a couple braving a summer storm on an island. It was popular during the time my family spent a month or so every August down the Jersey shore. One summer in particular a major hurricane was predicted to hit our beach during our vacation. While I recall our anguish over whether to ride out the storm or not, I do not remember if we went home and returned later, or took a risk and stayed.

What is important is the way I felt hearing the song again and reminiscing about my love interests down the shore. Thunder Island is a perfect metaphor in light of the Venus Uranus retrograde. It is often a place in my heart where unexpected openings wax and wane like the waves along any shore. During these tumultuous times it’s important to learn how to surf one’s inner emotional waves in order to arrive both safe and renewed on solid ground.

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The Apathy of Options

Many of you know I am a huge fan of Matt Kahn’s work. However, I am not excited about everything he shares on social media. This most recent video affected me in ways that are so intense that the word profound is too mild a description. There are no words here, only experience.

Initially while viewing the start of the video, I thought the concepts being introduced were ridiculous and began to disengage. I am glad I hung in there though because the material just kept getting more and more interesting. What I have gleaned so far from Matt’s teachings is that he is preparing us for a larger reality and how to undo what restricts us from being the fullest, most splendid version of ourselves, beyond limitations.

Let me know your reactions!  love, litebeing

My Best Friend For Life

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UPDATE 2018: It will be three years since Dexter passed on July 12th, 5 days from now. While I occasionally consider adopting again, I always find reasons to decline. My finances are unstable, or my health is unstable, or I want to travel, etc. The real truth is I am not ready yet. Like so many things, I won’t know until I know.

I spent some time around many cats while at a BBQ for the 4th of July. I clearly enjoyed their company and it appeared the feeling was mutual. For now, I will savor the time I have around felines however they find me. I continue to relish the love Dexter brought to me. He was a heart chakra activator extraordinaire.

Enjoy this post from 2015 ( below the 2016 update).

 

UPDATE 2016: July 12th will mark the one year anniversary of Dexter’s passing. Tomorrow will be more poignant for me because he passed on a Sunday. I am beginning to receive signs, some of which are rather bold, that is time to seriously explore adopting a new cat. While I will consider this guidance carefully, a part of me is still not quite ready. Dexter made me better, and I do not know if another soul can bring out the best that is left inside my soul.

Here is an old post written a week after Dex’s passing. It is heartfelt and chock full of excellent resources. Please send me some light tomorrow and show your loved ones how much they mean to you. It is everything.

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It has been incredibly challenging to simply survive this week. One week ago today, my beloved Dexter transitioned to another realm. So far this is a realm I cannot reach. I sincerely thank everyone here for their love and support. My longtime readers know that this year has not been an easy one. Your unwavering loyalty is priceless.

While writing is both my joy and my solace, words have not come easily to me lately. My pain is too great and my motivation too meager. Yet I do have a message to convey and I will attempt to do so to the best of my ability.

The week that Dexter died was a very busy one. While I know the word busy is relative, for me the increase in activity was substantial. Tuesday was the dentist, Wednesday and Thursday Caryn visited me, and Friday I took my car to the shop. Saturday, my last full day with Dexter was a blur, except for posting about master/students late at night. Sunday, of course, was my own private circle of hell. I wish I could remember more of my final day at home with Dexter, but I don’t. Unfortunately the details of last Sunday seem to be on a rotating loop inside my heart.

But I want to go back to earlier in the week to share some resources that have helped me and may help others who “stumble” upon my blog. Caryn and I have not been together in Philly since the 1990s. We did hang out last fall in NY after reconnecting on FB. I plan to blog about what brought me to NY, but that draft is not ready for completion. Caryn and I were so so busy: special Impressionist exhibition at the Philadelphia Museum of Art, movie night at an old lovely theater, 2 incredible meals ( one was Indian since we both adore it!) and a mini road trip to Longwood Gardens. Our 2 days were go go go and rather frenetic. The weather was horrible both days and my patience often wore thin. Yet grace did surround us in many ways: a deer crossing on a road where this “never” happens; a “random” encounter with a waiter that was filled with synchronicity, a gratis fruit platter that was a work of art in itself and discounts off our bill; and  the sheer joy of watching Caryn frolicking at Longwood for the very first time. The waterlilies  I am sharing were a highlight of this particular visit for me. They were not in bloom during my last two trips.

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Another source of peace was Matt Kahn. On Wednesday Caryn and I spoke about relationships and the nature of connections. That very evening I come home to notice a brand new video by Matt on soul mates and twin flames. In it he mentions, among many other things, that for some a soul mate may be their pet. This idea prompted me to refer to Dexter as my soul mate on my latest post. Matt refers to a soul mate as a balancing counterpart with little drama or intensity, but great love. While I do not agree with every point made, I find Matt’s take on the different type of soul connections to be fascinating and quite revelatory. This information is especially relevant in regards to next week’s Venus retrograde event.  I offer his video here:

 

Now I want to share some resources that have softened the loss by providing a rare understanding of my bond with my cats ( and most animals and inhabitants of the natural world) and some insight into the grieving process.

They are both courtesy of  Caryn and Karin, “the Carings” in my life. Caryn provided me with this link that really spoke to me. I am very picky about these grief expert offerings, perhaps because I provide these services in my work, or because I am quite discerning. In any case, this article was profoundly insightful. For those who may not understand the connection between human and animal, please take a look and your impressions may shift.

http://www.anaflora.com/grieving/beloved/beloved.html

I especially like both these passages:

The love of an animal permits us to unfold, to open up, drop our defenses and to be naked, not only physically but psychologically and spiritually as well. With an animal we let ourselves be seen instead of hiding behind our personalities, our cultures, our jobs, our clothing or our makeup. They know us as no one else does, in our private joys, angry rages, deepest despair, in sickness and in health. All the while their calm steady presence companions us with an unwavering love like few others on this earth. Our animal companions see through us to the very soul of our soul, encouraging the unfolding of a sacred trust. If there is such a thing as a soul mate, then surely this is it.

Many people have never been blessed with, or felt for themselves, the true love of an animal. They are incapable of understanding that your love for an animal may surpass your love for the humans that are the closest to you. It is a different bond, in a way, more profound; something only the heart understands. What I have learned over the years, as a student of grief and a student of many spiritual traditions, is that no guru, guide, master or friend no matter how enlightened can comfort the heart that believes it has lost what it holds most dear. Whether grieving ourselves, or consoling a grieving friend, often the most useful thing we can do is to simply tell our story. For in the story of our own journey through the gates of grief, or in bearing witness to the grief of another, we can at least legitimize the experience and make it “Sacred.”

Karin turned me on to this excellent video with medium Danielle MacKinnon that was posted just a few days ago. While I do hold some skepticism regarding animal communicators, Danielle is someone who naturally conveys authenticity and warmth. Please check it out if you are called to explore this topic further. What really struck me most was the question posed near the end of the interview.:

 Animals choose to pass at a particular time.  Ask yourself : What was it about this time that has meaning for you?

Here is the link for the video: https://wingingwithwhitehawk.wordpress.com/2015/07/16/pets-in-the-afterlife/

Finally I want to share some closing thoughts. It is so ironic that I have been so successful as a grief counselor. So very many clients over the years suffered unimaginable trauma and loss. I seem to be rather effective at facilitating healing for those in pain and was quite driven to focus on this area of therapy. Personally though, I suck at loss and death. I do not judge how I grieve, so please do not misconstrue my meaning. I just do not like to let go. I do not detach easily, especially if the bond was deep. Losing my first cat brought me to the brink of depression from which I doubted I would ever recover. Yet I did recover and I will recover from this loss. But this journey has just begun…

Let me conclude with a song that helps express the enormity of my love for Dexter. When I call him my best friend and soul mate, I am not exaggerating. It does not mean I do not love or have not loved other human beings deeply.

Dexter

It’s just different.


For a tribute to Dexter circa 2013ish, please visit OM’s site here.

I Don’t Have Words

Hey litebeings, I don’t have words, no not yet. I am still preparing my next post while processing my emotions and navigating this  “new now “.

Although  I have no words, I DO have something for you. While re-reading my post Could You Be  Loved?  , I was curious about the video I featured.  I remember how powerful the message was, but that was all I remembered. So on this void of course Scorpio Moon I re-viewed it again.

Damn, my mind is blown!

So if you are up for a little mind-blowing, check this out:

 

until we meet again, litebeing

My Best Friend For Life

July 12th will mark the one year anniversary of Dexter’s passing. Tomorrow will be more poignant for me because he passed on a Sunday. I am beginning to receive signs, some of which are rather bold, that is time to seriously explore adopting a new cat. While I will consider this guidance carefully, a part of me is still not quite ready. Dexter made me better, and I do not know if another soul can bring out the best that is left inside my soul.

Here is an old post written a week after Dex’s passing. It is heartfelt and chock full of excellent resources. Please send me some light tomorrow and show your loved ones how much they mean to you. It is everything.

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It has been incredibly challenging to simply survive this week. One week ago today, my beloved Dexter transitioned to another realm. So far this is a realm I cannot reach. I sincerely thank everyone here for their love and support. My longtime readers know that this year has not been an easy one. Your unwavering loyalty is priceless.

While writing is both my joy and my solace, words have not come easily to me lately. My pain is too great and my motivation too meager. Yet I do have a message to convey and I will attempt to do so to the best of my ability.

The week that Dexter died was a very busy one. While I know the word busy is relative, for me the increase in activity was substantial. Tuesday was the dentist, Wednesday and Thursday Caryn visited me, and Friday I took my car to the shop. Saturday, my last full day with Dexter was a blur, except for posting about master/students late at night. Sunday, of course, was my own private circle of hell. I wish I could remember more of my final day at home with Dexter, but I don’t. Unfortunately the details of last Sunday seem to be on a rotating loop inside my heart.

But I want to go back to earlier in the week to share some resources that have helped me and may help others who “stumble” upon my blog. Caryn and I have not been together in Philly since the 1990s. We did hang out last fall in NY after reconnecting on FB. I plan to blog about what brought me to NY, but that draft is not ready for completion. Caryn and I were so so busy: special Impressionist exhibition at the Philadelphia Museum of Art, movie night at an old lovely theater, 2 incredible meals ( one was Indian since we both adore it!) and a mini road trip to Longwood Gardens. Our 2 days were go go go and rather frenetic. The weather was horrible both days and my patience often wore thin. Yet grace did surround us in many ways: a deer crossing on a road where this “never” happens; a “random” encounter with a waiter that was filled with synchronicity, a gratis fruit platter that was a work of art in itself and discounts off our bill; and  the sheer joy of watching Caryn frolicking at Longwood for the very first time. The waterlilies  I am sharing were a highlight of this particular visit for me. They were not in bloom during my last two trips.

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Another source of peace was Matt Kahn. On Wednesday Caryn and I spoke about relationships and the nature of connections. That very evening I come home to notice a brand new video by Matt on soul mates and twin flames. In it he mentions, among many other things, that for some a soul mate may be their pet. This idea prompted me to refer to Dexter as my soul mate on my latest post. Matt refers to a soul mate as a balancing counterpart with little drama or intensity, but great love. While I do not agree with every point made, I find Matt’s take on the different type of soul connections to be fascinating and quite revelatory. This information is especially relevant in regards to next week’s Venus retrograde event.  I offer his video here:

 

Now I want to share some resources that have softened the loss by providing a rare understanding of my bond with my cats ( and most animals and inhabitants of the natural world) and some insight into the grieving process.

They are both courtesy of  Caryn and Karin, “the Carings” in my life. Caryn provided me with this link that really spoke to me. I am very picky about these grief expert offerings, perhaps because I provide these services in my work, or because I am quite discerning. In any case, this article was profoundly insightful. For those who may not understand the connection between human and animal, please take a look and your impressions may shift.

http://www.anaflora.com/grieving/beloved/beloved.html

I especially like both these passages:

The love of an animal permits us to unfold, to open up, drop our defenses and to be naked, not only physically but psychologically and spiritually as well. With an animal we let ourselves be seen instead of hiding behind our personalities, our cultures, our jobs, our clothing or our makeup. They know us as no one else does, in our private joys, angry rages, deepest despair, in sickness and in health. All the while their calm steady presence companions us with an unwavering love like few others on this earth. Our animal companions see through us to the very soul of our soul, encouraging the unfolding of a sacred trust. If there is such a thing as a soul mate, then surely this is it.

Many people have never been blessed with, or felt for themselves, the true love of an animal. They are incapable of understanding that your love for an animal may surpass your love for the humans that are the closest to you. It is a different bond, in a way, more profound; something only the heart understands. What I have learned over the years, as a student of grief and a student of many spiritual traditions, is that no guru, guide, master or friend no matter how enlightened can comfort the heart that believes it has lost what it holds most dear. Whether grieving ourselves, or consoling a grieving friend, often the most useful thing we can do is to simply tell our story. For in the story of our own journey through the gates of grief, or in bearing witness to the grief of another, we can at least legitimize the experience and make it “Sacred.”

Karin turned me on to this excellent video with medium Danielle MacKinnon that was posted just a few days ago. While I do hold some skepticism regarding animal communicators, Danielle is someone who naturally conveys authenticity and warmth. Please check it out if you are called to explore this topic further. What really struck me most was the question posed near the end of the interview.:

 Animals choose to pass at a particular time.  Ask yourself : What was it about this time that has meaning for you?

Here is the link for the video: https://wingingwithwhitehawk.wordpress.com/2015/07/16/pets-in-the-afterlife/

Finally I want to share some closing thoughts. It is so ironic that I have been so successful as a grief counselor. So very many clients over the years suffered unimaginable trauma and loss. I seem to be rather effective at facilitating healing for those in pain and was quite driven to focus on this area of therapy. Personally though, I suck at loss and death. I do not judge how I grieve, so please do not misconstrue my meaning. I just do not like to let go. I do not detach easily, especially if the bond was deep. Losing my first cat brought me to the brink of depression from which I doubted I would ever recover. Yet I did recover and I will recover from this loss. But this journey has just begun…

Let me conclude with a song that helps express the enormity of my love for Dexter. When I call him my best friend and soul mate, I am not exaggerating. It does not mean I do not love or have not loved other human beings deeply.

Dexter

It’s just different.


For a tribute to Dexter circa 2013ish, please visit OM’s site here.

Get Off the Couch and Ride the Energetic Train

I just finished viewing the latest Matt Kahn video and I cannot wait to share it with you.

If you only watch 1 Matt Kahn video, watch this one.

If you only watch 1 video of any kind, watch this one!

This is the absolute best way to supercharge the new year. The lessons here are pure genius. I have been aggressively asking my guides to assist me with my next steps and I got my answers and then some.  Thank you!

How does he do it? It doesn’t matter, but I just had to ask. It felt as if he was addressing me directly, but maybe thousands of folks spend too much time on their couches. The title is Energy Upgrade. This tells you nothing and everything about what you will encounter here. How does he use material from Seinfeld to illustrate cosmic magnificence? Brilliantly. I want to say more, but that would spoil the fun. We can discuss later.

 You will have to tune in to find out.

 

header image taken at the Garden Railway display at Longwood Gardens January 2016.