Guess who’s back?

Hello litebeings! How have you all been? I took a brief hiatus and made the blog private for a little while. It is not a long story, but it requires a long explanation, so for now let’s just say it is great to be back!

I have been ruminating about identity and how it affects my growth potential. I have been busy researching my family tree and learning more about the various cultures that appeared in my Ancestry.com DNA sample. This is a work in progress that I suspect will influence my writing for at least a few future posts.

Another sign of identity morphing is when the outside world works hard to get your attention.  I had two incidents occur back to back that definitely caught my attention. First I cracked the glass on my MSS diploma from Bryn Mawr and this really stung. I must admit I am still attached to my association with Bryn Mawr and that attachments can interfere with one’s forward evolution. Finding a balance between appreciation and over-identification with achievement is my objective here.

Then the following day I get notified that someone may have made a fraudulent charge on a credit card. I did not recognize the charge so I cancelled the card and froze my credit reports with all 4 US credit bureaus. I told myself I will probably meet someone at the bank since I was destined to change my plans and go there to get a new card. So within seconds of leaving my car to approach the bank, a woman smiles at me and calls my name. She was a former supervisor at the City who I have not seen in many years. She is a lovely person and I was happy she recognized me. You may recall that these ” collisions” don’t faze me anymore. I still appreciate them, but they are no longer a surprise. So later that day I get an email from that “fraudulent” vendor and realize that I made the purchase after all! So all these worries about identity theft were a waste of energy. I experienced such a reversal that it made my head spin! Yet I am glad I froze all my credit in light of the Equifax data breach. I am also glad I ran into my former supervisor. But I wish I did not get caught up in such paranoia as a result of a phone call from the fraud prevention service. They have a system for deciding which transactions are suspicious and it was up to me to figure out the details. If I was calmer and more grounded I may have recognized the charge as legitimate, but that did not happen.

What does this have to do with identity? It has to do with victim consciousness. I felt like a victim and acted accordingly. I  can see that now. This is a trap for those with heavy Neptune energy. In my case a Pisces south node in the 1st can appear as a victim mentality. So I have more work to do in this area.

Reading Leigh’s fascinating musings on identity truly helped me formulate many insights about my own journey, some of which prompted completion of this material. Please check them out for yourself, starting here.

It is great to be back in business here at WP doing my blogging and keeping it real. Thanks for listening!

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11 thoughts on “Guess who’s back?

  1. Pleased you are back Linda, and Happy too that no one was using your cards either.. But an eye opener none the less.. Wishing you happy blogging and welcome back ❤ .. I thought on you today, so logged in to see if your blog now back open to us. And so happy to see it was..
    Love and Hugs xxx Sue ❤

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    1. hi Sue,
      Yes it was a wakeup call that prompted me to freeze my credit. This is a good thing, but unfortunate that we live in these times of constant thievery. The reversal I experienced was surreal and taught me a few things, still processing…

      xo Linda

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  2. Thanks for sharing your stories and insights. The credit card thing sounds like a lot of hassle. But, as you mentioned (Equifax), maybe it was good for something. I hope you can easily unlock the cards again and there will not be too much effort involved.

    The question of identity is an important and all-pervasive one on this spiritual journey.
    At least for me, I am pondering this often.
    I my opinion, there is this shift we have to undergo – from feeling as a separate person towards identifying as awareness towards identifying as all that is. I have read of an enlightened one (Adyashanti) who said he looked at the dresser drawer and he saw that he was the dresser drawer. I have had glimpses of that but it is not permanent for me.
    He also said something like , John Doe looks at the mirror and says, “That is me”. The enlightened one looks at the wall and says “That is me” (quoted from memory).

    I guess that further down on this spiritual path the identity becomes one of being the experience. Or of experiencing. Here, I am often thinking of this picture of Ernst Mach

    where he has painted just what he sees through his eyes. That is the room, but also part of his nose, eyebrow, beard. I think identity shifts from feeling located in the body towards identifying as the whole experience that is in one’s field of vision. Somehow like, whatever appears in my field of experience – that is me. On the few occasions where I felt this, it was like being a soap bubble of awareness and the world moving through me or being painted on me.

    This shift of identity is huge. No wonder that the spiritual journey can be so difficult at times.

    Hugs,
    Karin

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    1. Hi Karin,
      Thanks for sharing your perceptions related to the transformation of identity. The Course in Miracles helped me grasp the notion that personality is not permanent or real. Ones does need to be able to function on the physical world and having no identity would make functioning quite difficult for most of us. You gave me plenty to ponder here. Thank you for keeping me on my toes.

      hugs, Linda

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