Oh this is a good one, straight from 2014 to your inbox or reader or phone..
After surviving yesterday’s event, my mind went back to a few days prior, imagining my death and will it be from a car accident. Decades ago I assumed I would die quickly behind the wheel of a car. I have had dreams about this as well. I don’t think it is a premonition, but I could be wrong. What I do know is that I spend lots of time thinking about death. I have yet to heal my death anxiety. When I consider that my body was in the middle of a shit show leading up to the accident, imagine how I feel now? There must be some irony to getting hit by a car in front of your doctor’s office. It is like being injured right before you are able to get the help you need.
I could get into my intergenerational trauma ( my paternal grandfather who I was named after died very young being hit by a car by a drunk driver, leaving my father forever broken… Or I could write more about how much time and money and inconvenience this accident will cause me. I was about to trade in my car and got it appraised and now this? C’mon!
However, I am turning a page. I am deliberately choosing to believe that my higher self chose this for me. Lorie Ladd has been talking this week about a chipped tooth and a broken blood vessel under her eye emerged days before her first live retreat in Sedona. She shared how these events were a wake up call and she agreed that she has gotten the memo and is going to make some changes. While I have not figured out exactly what messages have been sent to me, I have confidence they will arrive in due time. I have a second interview scheduled tomorrow with a group practice that seems promising. Working there could be a game changer in certain ways. I am grateful for this opportunity even though I do not feel my best. It is what it is, after all.
Today’s reblog is a philosophical piece about fate, ascension and free will. It still holds true today, maybe even more that it did originally. Click here to read the post.
See ya on the other side, hopefully! 🙂
litebeing chronicles 
Have you since healed your death Anxiety Linda… I feel it has eased some..
You were very lucky and our destiny I feel often we are not always in control of in one respect.. Yet in another we are..
I will not have time to read ALL of your everyday November blog posts Linda.. but I will catch those I can.. ❤
Much love
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Hi Sue
Why do you think my death anxiety has eased? Also in what sense am l really lucky? I don’t understand the context here. I appreciate your presence here and do not expect you or anyone to read all these daily reblogs. I am unable to read all the bloggers daily posts and comment, etc.
I do what I can.
Much love ❤️ Linda
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We all do what we can… I merely read your blog Linda at your prior anxiety… I feel over the years you seem more at peace with who you are and settled within… That was the basis of my comment.. ❤ Have a good weekend.. ❤
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PS you were lucky in being outside the doctors that day.
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Now I understand! I was lucky 🙂
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Sorry to hear about your grandad. I can’t imagine. Hope you are living everyday to its fullest. Sending best wishes 🙂
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Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate your compassion for my family loss. Drunk driving is a huge problem disrupting many lives in the process.
peace, Linda
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It certainly is, and you’re welcome 🙂
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I think you are coming through strong with your reframe and I am sending you lots of positive vibes for an upgrade through these circumstances that startled you. Grateful it wasn’t worse. It’s okay to contemplate death—but no one wants to be obsessed or compelled to do something because it doesn’t internally feel too good. Lots of love your way!
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Thanks Ka for the encouragement. I am still sort of in shock but as the saying goes Man plans and God laughs. I know it is not that simple though. I must have attracted this into my field and the astrology supports disruption. Mars retro conjunct my moon in the sign of cars isn’t lost on me either, lol! Thanks for the positivity you are sending ❤
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