Lee Harris and Matt Kahn : Two for the Price of One

Happy 2021!

Each moment contains so many possibilities within it. I hope we will choose to make the most of each moment we are given.

This is a brief post to say hi and share an amazing video featuring two genuinely gifted spiritual teachers, Matt Kahn and Lee Harris. This share is such a treat where the two discuss the creative process, what defines true success, changes they have seen on their own journeys and the delight of a loving prepared meal. This video is like a combo platter for the soul, like a pizza with a hoagie, tacos and burritos, The Beatles playing with the Stones ( you get the idea).

Let me know how you enjoyed it!

blessings, litebeing

The Problem is the Solution: Honoring the Journey of the New Year

Another insightful reflection on 2020 and beyond from Dana. Working with what is and using it as a foundation is practical and wise medicine.

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Sunrise through the mist…the way may be uncertain but the sun will rise again

In Permaculture Design, one of the most challenging principles to enact is “The problem is the solution.” It seems simple on paper: you have a serious problem before you, perhaps seemingly insurmountable or overwhelming.  Instead of reacting negatively to the problem, you look for how the problem presents unique opportunities.  You resee your practices, hone them, make changes, and adapt to the problem so that that adaptation becomes a strength. In other words, you make lemonade from lemons–but more than that, you may actually improve your approach by having to consider new options to overcome obstacles.  A simple example: I have a wet, muddy spot in my yard due to the downspout on my house.  Rather than see this as a problem, I turn it into a lush rain garden, which is not only beautiful but…

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Matisse The Dance

An Enchanted Excursion

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Today is a remarkable day in a a series of remarkable days within the scope of a remarkable year. All time is composed of moments, one breath at a time. My day has brought sadness, learning I did not get the job for which I had recently interviewed. Two subsequent mishaps or accidents that occurred within this past half hour signaled to me that I am not fully feeling my emotions: sadness. anger, disappointment, fear, and whatever else has not come to the surface. It is interesting that while intellectually getting the news resulted in muted feelings, hurting my foot and spilling my lunch on the floor triggered quite strong theatrics!

I wanted to have a new job going into a new year, some way forward. Yet I am more at peace with the knowledge that I do not always get what I want when I want it, or in the form I want it, or sometimes not at all. But to quote Mick Jagger ” You get what you need.” and we always do, whether our ego agrees or approves. Everything truly does happen for a reason and rarely for the reason you think. I am starting to see this more clearly now.

I have much to be grateful for and have manifested quite a few unexpected goodies, especially since September. In fact I was granted another full scholarship to study at the Barnes, this time for a course I suggested as a recommendation when completing a student survey. The topic is Seurat and Pointillism, a match made in heaven as this is my favorite painter and technique. Also, it is important to note I saw the course offering on my Facebook feed. I was not seeking anything out, quite content to revel in Matisse a while longer. My point is that I tend to attract more of what I want when I am not putting much energy into acquiring it. I have seen this pattern operate more than a few times in my life, validating both my natal and human design chart emphasis on receiving through invitation or initiation by others. I have become a bit more at ease with entering the flow and focusing less on “productivity. ”

So let’s shift gears to celebrate a blessing that resulted in an extraordinary afternoon back in October. At the time, I considered that my trip to the Barnes Foundation would be an advance Birthday celebration. Looking back, it truly was manna from the Divine, a thank you for agreeing to live through 60 years of 3D smoke and mirrors, illusion and confusion for all of us congregated here collectively now. Admission is free for all students, including parking, so other than a few dollars for lunch, it was a present a few weeks early.

I am appreciative of the following:

A chance to drive to center city in the throes of fall foliage.

Walking around a beloved landmark of culture, taking in Matisse and the abundance of paintings , furniture, and other creations with fresh eyes.

Having a pleasant extended conversation with a live person, a kind man who works at the Barnes and guided me to the Matisse rooms. We discussed art, the Barnes classes, and I felt alive again in a way that I have not in months. 

Plenty of time and space to look at the art, which is unusual for a museum of this stature.

Eating outside in a lovely outdoor space, seeing people while I eat! The meal was simple but delicious, a warm turkey swiss sandwich on a croissant with green goddess dressing that I could have bathed in. It was that yummy! Dessert was a pumpkin cupcake with cream cheese icing that was soft and light and scrumptious. 

Other than the required mask wearing and other precautions, it felt normal to roam around this awesome place, surrounded by beauty and people who also love art. This was remarkable at the time and still is today. Currently the Barnes is closed up again.

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I have included a few Matisse quotes given to us from the course instructor that align so well with my own sensibilities.

“The artist or poet possesses an inner light which transforms objects
to make a new world of them – sensitive, organized, a living world which
is in itself an infallible sign of divinity, a reflection of divinity”

“The attempts to possess the light and space in which I live gave me
the desire to see myself with a different space and light, which would
allow me to grasp more profoundly, the space and light in which I do
live, if only to become more conscious of them”

“I have always been taken by the character of light, which bathes objects
of my contemplation, and often I asked myself during my meditations,
what would be the particular light in the South Seas.”

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Fun Matisse Facts:

He often featured windows in paintings, adding a bit of the outdoors into the room.

He suffered from anxiety and insomnia.

While he lived in France, travel was a delight and adventure.

Matisse’s background in textiles lent itself to featuring fabrics in many of his works and the use of cutouts later in his career.

Bold colors mixed with patterns often appear in Matisse’s paintings.

Over time his style evolved from wider brush strokes and more undefined features ( on portraits) to finer strokes and more realistic figures.

 

Please enjoy a few more images from my visit. I wish you could have been with me in person, but am grateful we can share these moments virtually.

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Welcome to my World

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Two posts in one day! Well, I promised I ‘d be back soon so here I am. About five years ago I was diagnosed with Diverticulitis. There have been many different symptom presentations, multiple ER and hospital stays, numerous medications, way too many opinions, and lots of medical bills. I hoped that certain astrological transits would end my misery, but no clear pattern so far. I have enjoyed some long periods between attacks, along with several multiple episodes within days or weeks. I am experiencing a relapse today and have had about 4 episodes since Thanksgiving 2019.

I have learned so many things about myself and my body since then. In some ways, I am healthier and wiser. Stress is a strong trigger for me, often recognizable in the form of compulsive negative fear-based thoughts. I am a therapist, so trust me I know how this works.

But I did not return tonight to talk about my stressors. This planet is enveloped in stress right now. I rather emphasize the importance of becoming more flexible. I had to cancel attending a friend’s wedding right after my first episode and I waited until almost the last minute to decide. I was angry and sad and it sucked. But as time went on, I became adept at canceling plans and staying home. Eventually, resentment waned and I surrendered to my new reality. I told myself I will be present for all the events that I am supposed to attend. I will see the people I need to see and do the work I was placed here to do. I am not driving this train, but I can make the best of my situation. I actually enjoy my own company and adore reading, writing, listening to music, watching compelling TV or film, etc. Yet I realize that this situation is more than a mere recuperation period.

In the last couple of weeks, I have been teaching gratitude practice to my clients. In fact, I have been a bit relentless. I know I am teaching what I need to learn. We all have so much to be grateful for at any given moment and I truly believe that our perception of gratitude multiplies in direct proportion to a sustained gratitude practice.

How do I know this?

I am blessed to have two lovely nieces that are shining stars. I have been texting them to keep up with their news. The other day I was asking Lily how she has been keeping busy and she was excited to talk about all her passions. She is eleven years old. I asked her to show me some of her art. The piece above is the first one she shared with me. There are no coincidences here!

 

Split Sky

Lily gave me permission to post here and use her first name. I love the title split sky. I see it as significant in terms of how we process crisis. I am grateful for these wonderful souls who are full of love and energy. I am also grateful that I can work remotely from home. I am super grateful I can postpone paying taxes for a while. I will have more food now that I am eating less due to illness. I am over the moon that I got the last package of toilet paper while picking up my medication today.

I will be honest, it is a bit worrisome that I relapsed so soon, but I am much more aware of this illness five years in. But I have learned that I am really so much stronger than I ever imagined and quite certain I signed up to come to Earth for these times. It does not mean I like it, but I AM here now.

Loose Ends:  I tend to be an excellent commenter, but lately I have not been able to keep up with responses to comments on some of my posts. Allow me to take my time with this. I adore all of your comments and have not forgotten you, but I need to take more time.

Spring starts in a few hours in litebeing’s world: I concluded that the equinox ( Spring or Fall depending on the hemisphere) should coincide with Saturn’s ingress into Aquarius at 11:58 PM EDT ( right before midnight). Saturn rules our cosmic weather in 2020 and where Saturn goes, we should follow! So I suggest some sort of ceremonial practice to acknowledge this major sea change. I plan to do a meditation and perhaps pull a few cards. Saturn was last in Aquarius in 1994 during the Clinton years and the beginning of the internet explosion. Perhaps that will give us a clue about what this new transit will bring. In the meantime, please send some prayers, some to me for my healing and many more to all of us as we learn to be flexible throughout this “global reset. ” We are truly all in this together.

I Applied to 200 Jobs and All I Got Was This Moderate-Severe Depression

Hey litebeings, I wondered onto Discover and landed on this insightful moving essay by the ubertalented ( not the taxi service uber) Athena. While this reblog might be off brand for litebeing chronicles, I was so drawn to it as someone who has endured so much suffering via unemployment and the job searches from Hell. Although I am certainly not a Millenial, Athena’s desire to be her authentic self and not be homeless while waiting tugs at my heartstrings. My desire is for some of my readers to reblog her post and help her get closer to finding the career that is waiting for her somewhere. ❤

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“And when everything else is gone, you can be rich in loss.”

– Rebecca Solnit, A Field Guide to Getting Lost

About Me, Your Friendly Neighborhood Millennial:

I was your garden-variety smart kid, shuffled through GATE programs of every type from kindergarten onward. In sixth grade, I left the classroom in the afternoons to study Latin roots with our school’s principal for the spelling bee circuit. As you can probably imagine, I was bullied a lot (Apparently, no one likes a first-grader who says “in addition to” instead of “and.”). I went to a competitive high school near Silicon Valley, where– with my AP courses– I had a 4.0 cumulative GPA, but was not in the top 10% of my class.

After getting summarily rejected from the Ivies, I went to a small university in Oregon, where I worked harder than I thought possible to graduate a year early with…

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Lucky litebeing ~ published on 7-7-14

This one’s for you, Anthony Bourdain!  RIP

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Welcome to my world!

This quote is the first line from the food show that started it all, A Cook’s Tour with Anthony Bourdain. There are some people you like right away and Anthony is one of those in my world. I considered his influence on me immediately last Saturday when I had an incredibly blessed and lucky day that involved food, film, and fancy.

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Tony is not only a gifted television personality on multiple networks, but  a supremely talented writer, chef, foodie, philosopher and adventurer. Here is an excerpt from his book A Cook’s Tour,  from which the television show was based:

I wanted magic.  When is food magic?  What are the common denominators? Certainly. when food is the result of a brilliant  and obsessive personal vision, it can take on mystical, magical aspects. At their best, chefs like to consider themselves alchemists, and some of them, particularly…

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Glove Story

I have been spending the past few weeks honing my creative therapy skills by helping my clients dive into their emotional landscapes via music, visual arts, and writing.  This is not particularly new. I have used these modalities many times in my work as a therapist. But as a therapist who is now an active writer, this endeavor has taken some new turns.

The more I delve into my clients’ lives, the more I question my own. The mirroring that I observe is both miraculous and ordinary. If you visit here often, you know that the miraculous and ordinary usually represent the same experience for me. For example, I have a new client who I was told can be difficult to connect with. I have not seen her through that lens. We engaged in some small talk initially, which led to her revelation about art. She repeatedly said that she is not good at art, but she loves viewing it and learning about it. ”  I don’t know why I love art, I just do!” We have connected so easily because of our shared love of art. I quickly noticed that I say the same thing to others: that I am not good at art, but am a huge fan of the craft. I realize that repeating that statement undermines my delight in making art and enjoying my process. Note to Self: Halt the judgement.

I use these creative modalities in order to help others access their emotional worlds and enhance their communication skills. This emphasis on self-expression has led me to analyze further my own unique process. What is driving me? Why do I need to write? Am I incomplete in some way until I release my essence on the written page? Reading Michael’s excellent offering yesterday inspired me further to conjure up a little something for you today. The Universe never fails in complementing my inner musings with outer evidence.

So let me share a small Glove Story with you:

I used to lose my wallet repeatedly or have it stolen. This happened in both dreamtime and while awake. I figured this had to do with a weak identity. When my wallet stopped being stolen or lost, I decided the identity misgivings were resolved. I also have lost many keys in both realms, tying this into mastery and autonomy. This association works for me. Earrings also go missing, leaving me with several solo earrings in my jewelry box. This seems less symbolic and more aerodynamic. Earrings fall off or get caught on things and slip away to earringland.

But then there’s the gloves….

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I bought these oh-so-sweet gloves a few months ago. They dazzle with so many of my favorite colors, purple, gray, maroon, etc. They work so well with my plum jacket and black shawl. They are soft and warm and cozy. I have lost one glove at least three times since I first wore them. And every time I was able to retrace my steps and find the stray – until now. Tuesday night I discovered that one of the gloves was not in my jacket pocket. I was at a diner and began to search half of the entire diner, then my car, my office the next day ….  Nada.

Then I begin combing the office parking lot and the cafeteria where I ate on Tuesday. I also scaled the campus between said parking lot and cafeteria by car and foot. I discovered other sole ( soul)  gloves, but not mine. I even went back to the bathroom stall in aforementioned cafeteria. I later returned to the diner on Wednesday, again asking the same questions and receiving the same answers. Today I went back yet again to the lost and found. I even searched online to see if I could buy a new pair. They are all sold out. I called the store where I bought it and contacted the manufacturer. I also prayed for guidance.

I want my glove back. I do not know why I am so obsessed. I have other gloves that are nice. But they are not enough somehow. I told myself in a few weeks it will be much warmer ( heck it’s spring-like now!) and I will not need to wear gloves. I realize this is a frivolous, high-class problem. But something deeper lurks. Something is stirring within that leaves me sad and unsettled.

Maybe it would be different if I had made peace with my father before he died, or if I could have caught Dexter’s heart problem before it took his life, or if I remained in one neighborhood and school for my entire childhood, or if I was taught that I was always enough simply because IAM. But I wasn’t taught and it is not different.

This Glove Story has no ending. In fact, it has only begun to brew, like a fresh teabag covered in tepid water.

Art is My Medicine ~ Winter’s Bones Edition

Hey litebeings,

Winter is incredibly damp and frosty today, chilling me to the bone. It is high time for some art therapy to the rescue. Today’s featured art is by hishida shunso.

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I was inspired by the muted colors and soft imagery, not to mention the hydrangea symbolism that reflects my Gravatar.

image credits ~ wikiart.org, public domain

Gemini Moon Magic

Here’s a treat for the non-astrologer. You may ask: What does Gemini moon even mean? How does it look, feel, operate? Here’s a gem from me and a couple of Gem moonbeams from last year that will give you a hint or two. Enjoy!

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“Gem Moon Mandala” by AmandaSeesDreams of http://www.Dreamrly.com

Welcome to the collaborative lunations of Gemini moon pals, LitebeingDreamrly, and yours truly, The Ptero Card. Yesterday marked the Gemini / Sagittarius full moon of 2014, and through our mutual love of art and writing we’re combining our efforts for a few reflections on our experience of lunar Gemini in our natal astrological charts. Each of our contributions was produced independently, without consultation other than assigning the art work to Dreamrly, poetry to Litebeing and intuitive writing to me. We present here the fruits of our work which we hope enhance your own lunations, where ever they may take you.

The basis of astrology, an ancient wisdom practiced by nearly all pre-scientific cultures, comes from the understanding that external cosmological events have a corresponding affect on our interiority, because human disposition is a microcosm of the macrocosm, or, as the ancients say, “as above, so below.” I suspect…

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Could You Be Loved?

Hello litebeings!

I don’t know about you, but I have been feeling very lethargic the past few days. It could be the extreme heat or something more. But in the car on my way to pick up shrimp and crab fried rice, Could You Be Loved? immediately came on the radio.  I knew right then what I would be posting on today. The teachings of Matt Kahn are intensely percolating in the coffee pot of my consciousness. It is time to pour a cup for me and you to sip and savor. Be warned, it may taste mellow, but this blend has quite a kick!

Photo644Matt has coined the name Love Revolution and I am processing how to apply this ideal to my life. While he seems to negate the teachings of ACIM and Eckhart Tolle, I will love him anyway. For one thing, I do not see any disconnect between these messages of love and presence and his own, and he says to love whatever arises. I think the reason I am strongly resonating with Matt is his ability to communicate and model his teachings. He keeps it interesting and fresh and has a personality that I find engaging. He is more dynamic than many on the scene today and he seems to be really authentic.

He speaks of enlightenment and how it is not a goal, but the beginning. This reminds of the old zen saying Before enlightenment chop wood, carry water, after enlightenment, chop wood, carry water. Matt raises discussion of the end game. I never expected to become fully enlightened. I hoped for more mystical openings, but I also hoped for freedom and security. For me that means the freedom to pursue travel, new people, adventure… Security means peace of mind and complete grounding within my being. I did not expect complete realization or ascension while in this body. This 5D idea is really new to me. I was content with having a window into the true nature of existence and finding more ways for me to heal myself and the world. He and many like him really raise the stakes of this game.

Photo664 (1)I would recommend this series to those new to Matt Kahn and his philosophy of love. He emphatically insists that shadow work and constant clearing are over, very old-school. He practices loving all of creation as you interact with yourself, other people, and all other manifestations of existence. I have to take an extraordinary big picture perspective to see how this idea complements the purpose of form and creation. It is almost too big for me and I am a big picture person!

Check it out and please report back: the pleiadian prophecy

I must end this blog on a lighter note. This material is not for those on their first rodeo, at least I don’t think so. In any event, I really hope that these videos I mention generate a lively discussion. While I am aware that whatever I learned in the past is not relevant now, I sometimes long for the days when my circle and I would watch videos and have parties filled with music. These were the days pre-internet when a gathering meant everyone in the same place.  On one such occasion, this song was playing loudly and the energy was pulsating with love and promise.

Enjoy: