Psychic Friends

Howdy litebeings! It is absolutely blazing hot here in Philadelphia and Mars at the end of Scorpio is adding even more rage to the fire. I am absolutely filled to the brim with amazing blog ideas, and yet, am too pooped to turn them into actual posts. Work is quite exhausting and physically I have developed rashes and bites and a foot injury requiring a tetanus shot. Rash is so Mars, isn’t it?

Anyway, I want to share a quick tale and then invite you to revisit this post from last fall. A few days ago I was deeply thinking about the last few visits from my dear friend Arlene. I was visualizing all the places we went and the conversations and laughs we shared. A day or so later I receive an email from Arlene saying she’ll be back in my area in about a week! I did not tell her about my telepathic foray, but she does read the blog so perhaps she’ll discover it here.

Why I was moved to contemplate our renewed friendship, I could not say. But I am fascinated by this synchronicity because it was rather specific. Thinking about someone and then getting a text, call, or email is fine, but focusing on Arlene’s specific visits and then a few days later being notified of her next visit seems like a big deal.

It is comforting to know I am still partially tuned into the ethers, even with so much energy focused on maintaining a new work routine while changing my diet and adjusting to this brutal weather.

I hope to be back writing soon, but in the meantime please enjoy the Magic Gardens….

 

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Here is the latest chapter in my Returning Home series, where I explore the portals towards self-realization. I am reposting this on a Pisces day with a Scorpio moon. While editing, I noticed that this excursion to the Magic Gardens occurred on a Scorpio day with a Pisces moon. Ahh, my friend synchronicity never fails to quicken a heartbeat or prompt a smile… It took me some time to realize that South Street contains some powerful energetic gateways. It certainly did not hurt that this recent visit was spent with a dear childhood friend.

Make New Friends, But Keep the Old, One is Silver and the Other’s Gold ..

Photo979 (1)Anyone remember this Girl Scout song about friendship? Apparently Hillary Clinton did when she was recently interviewed about surrounding herself with old friends throughout her life. She goes on to explain that she has made many new friends and then referenced the song. She expressed her fondness for Photo973longtime pals, including a friend she made in the 6th grade. I was a girl scout and also remembered the song. Its mention was timely since I would be meeting up shortly with my friend from 8th grade, Arlene. I think it is okay with her that I use her first name here. If not, this will encourage her to learn how to leave a comment here. ( She does read my blog, which makes me smile).

Photo977 (2)We got together yesterday and it is fall at its finest. The leaves are now close to peaking and I savored their beauty on my drive back and forth from my home to South Street. What a rare day it was with a clear blue sky, cool weather, and endless sunshine. The focus of our trip was the Magic Gardens. We both benefited from some magic in our day.

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Yesterday was that rare astro combo I am so fond of: Scorpio Sun, Pisces Moon. Since it was a void of course moon to boot, the day was emotional, creative, free-flowing, and quite mystical. I had not been to the Magic Gardens before, but was eager to visit. I had read about the gardens years ago and was transfixed by its sparkly goodness. It is so much better in person, I can assure you. I took plenty of pictures, but I urge you to see it for yourself.

Photo971The experience was surreal as we lost ourselves in the mystery of the exhibit space, climbing steps up and down and slowly exploring the nuances of beatific wonder, tiny and huge, whimsical and deliberate.  Stained glass, mosaics, paintings on tiles, curious word puzzles, intuitive use of space, the value of  “disposable ” items.

 There are no limits here. 

Our time together was precious as I introduced her to some of my favorite haunts Photo966that still remain, like the amazing South Street Souvlaki. We had a delicious meal and created new memories to accompany the old ones. According to their website, the restaurant has been around since 1977. We have been friends even before then !

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Sharing great food and experiencing fabulous art is especially awesome when it is with someone who loves the same things with equal passion. It is so refreshing and rare to find someone who understands my taste for both the old and the quirky and finds joy where I dwell ( books, travel, creativity, ethnic food, music, etc.)

Photo976We get each other and leave judgments behind. Compromise is not really compromise and laughter comes so easily.These Magic Gardens and this stretch of South Street did morph into another power place for me, a mystical portal where the light is shimmering and all is well.Perhaps this has always been the case. I am not certain.  What I do know is that we all can benefit from following our dreams and inklings, no matter how fragile or subtle they appear to be. The interplay between living and blogging was evident as I scrambled to take pictures and delete old images to free up memory to capture something new.

I wonder: aren’t we always scrambling to stay in the present and deciding which thoughts to erase in exchange for something sparkling with new life?

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I relish the melding of old and new and blog about this often. I dig the chance to explore new places with an old friend. I also delight that my old friend is engaged with my newer ones through this blog. The added bonus of my “astro-twin” commenting on my Magic Gardens FB post after I mentioned her to Arlene earlier in the day seemed Divinely guided. She is a talented artist that uses recycled items in her work.

For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them.

This biblical quote is the theme of the day. While my health has been troubling and I did not even think I could visit my friend, grace prevailed and a heartfelt reunion happened. What I take from the quote is that all is restored when one is in proper relationship to oneself and with others. Maybe the magic garden is within and all we have to do is excavate it with love and trust in its existence. There lies both the silver and the gold.

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Returning Home: Part VI – Silver and Gold at the Magic Gardens

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Here is the latest chapter in my Returning Home series, where I explore the portals towards self-realization. I am reposting this on a Pisces day with a Scorpio moon. While editing, I noticed that this excursion to the Magic Gardens occurred on a Scorpio day with a Pisces moon. Ahh, my friend synchronicity never fails to quicken a heartbeat or prompt a smile… I took me some time to realize that South Street contains some powerful energetic gateways. It certainly did not hurt that this recent visit was spent with a dear childhood friend.

Make New Friends, But Keep the Old, One is Silver and the Other’s Gold ..

Photo979 (1)Anyone remember this Girl Scout song about friendship? Apparently Hillary Clinton did when she was recently interviewed about surrounding herself with old friends throughout her life. She goes on to explain that she has made many new friends and then referenced the song. She expressed her fondness for Photo973longtime pals, including a friend she made in the 6th grade. I was a girl scout and also remembered the song. Its mention was timely since I would be meeting up shortly with my friend from 8th grade, Arlene. I think it is okay with her that I use her first name here. If not, this will encourage her to learn how to leave a comment here. ( She does read my blog, which makes me smile).

Photo977 (2)We got together yesterday and it is fall at its finest. The leaves are now close to peaking and I savored their beauty on my drive back and forth from my home to South Street. What a rare day it was with a clear blue sky, cool weather, and endless sunshine. The focus of our trip was the Magic Gardens. We both benefited from some magic in our day.

Photo972

Yesterday was that rare astro combo I am so fond of: Scorpio Sun, Pisces Moon. Since it was a void of course moon to boot, the day was emotional, creative, free-flowing, and quite mystical. I had not been to the Magic Gardens before, but was eager to visit. I had read about the gardens years ago and was transfixed by its sparkly goodness. It is so much better in person, I can assure you. I took plenty of pictures, but I urge you to see it for yourself.

Photo971The experience was surreal as we lost ourselves in the mystery of the exhibit space, climbing steps up and down and slowly exploring the nuances of beatific wonder, tiny and huge, whimsical and deliberate.  Stained glass, mosaics, paintings on tiles, curious word puzzles, intuitive use of space, the value of  “disposable ” items.

 There are no limits here. 

Our time together was precious as I introduced her to some of my favorite haunts Photo966that still remain, like the amazing South Street Souvlaki. We had a delicious meal and created new memories to accompany the old ones. According to their website, the restaurant has been around since 1977. We have been friends even before then !

Photo975

Sharing great food and experiencing fabulous art is especially awesome when it is with someone who loves the same things with equal passion. It is so refreshing and rare to find someone who understands my taste for both the old and the quirky and finds joy where I dwell ( books, travel, creativity, ethnic food, music, etc.)

Photo976We get each other and leave judgments behind. Compromise is not really compromise and laughter comes so easily.These Magic Gardens and this stretch of South Street did morph into another power place for me, a mystical portal where the light is shimmering and all is well.Perhaps this has always been the case. I am not certain.  What I do know is that we all can benefit from following our dreams and inklings, no matter how fragile or subtle they appear to be. The interplay between living and blogging was evident as I scrambled to take pictures and delete old images to free up memory to capture something new.

I wonder: aren’t we always scrambling to stay in the present and deciding which thoughts to erase in exchange for something sparkling with new life?

Photo958

http://www.phillymagicgardens.org/

I relish the melding of old and new and blog about this often. I dig the chance to explore new places with an old friend. I also delight that my old friend is engaged with my newer ones through this blog. The added bonus of my “astro-twin” commenting on my Magic Gardens FB post after I mentioned her to Arlene earlier in the day seemed Divinely guided. She is a talented artist that uses recycled items in her work.

For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them.

This biblical quote is the theme of the day. While my health has been troubling and I did not even think I could visit my friend, grace prevailed and a heartfelt reunion happened. What I take from the quote is that all is restored when one is in proper relationship to oneself and with others. Maybe the magic garden is within and all we have to do is excavate it with love and trust in its existence. There lies both the silver and the gold.

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The Golden Road to Transformation

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What a long strange trip it’s been, indeed.

My inspiration for the Time Machine Challenge started on a crisp and brilliant afternoon in September. If you are new to my blog or would like to catch up on your reading, please visit here to find the entire roster of spectacular challenge blogs. Reminiscing about my first September in Philly and the man who represented that era took me back to a state of excitement and joy.  I was amazed how my instantaneous flash of insight was later validated when I visited a website where that former boyfriend currently works. According to Michael Lutin, this time period before the New Scorpio Moon accentuates preoccupation and/or random encounters with past lovers or folks who trigger memories of former flames.

A few connections from Leigh and Laura gently guided me on a path of forgiveness and acceptance of the past. Leigh’s post on the  ho’oponopono prayer got me thinking of all the guilt and regret that still remains within me. An unexpected email from a stranger set in motion a fresh attempt to reframe any past relationships. I am speaking of the ones that seemed to stick with me, defying all my efforts to sever lingering cords. That stranger who contacted me is now a friend who readers know as Laura.

So I set out on an adventure to forgive all my past romantic entanglements, beginning with the first and moving towards present time. I would recite ho’oponono before falling asleep and visualize myself back in time with these former flames. It was often unpleasant as long forgotten details resurfaced. I was also looking to explore with fresh eyes the circumstances in which my ex from college would re-enter my life. I am seeking clues as to what his presence symbolizes for me now. I expected this process would eventually lead to healing. Truth be told, this exercise has been met with much resistance. However, I still am pursuing this path, hoping it is a “path with heart.”

But it is a path unfinished and did not reveal a story for the challenge. Around the same time ( late September) I followed up by contacting the director of the group practice where my ex works to inquire about employment. I did so because my ex works at their other location and my friend spoke so highly of the director. This contact led me to the discovery that I cannot get re-credentialed at my level of licensure. Perhaps this was a blessing in disguise because if I was hired and unable to work, the fallout would have been more upsetting and more time would have been wasted.

So I put off writing a post and hoped for the best. After reading Fiona’s challenge offering, I remembered an unfinished draft from July. Oddly enough, it addresses the challenge beautifully. Why am I surprised to discover that yet again Spirit has other plans?

So without further adieu I bring you my nonlinear, unplanned, but totally cool trip back in time:

See that girl, barefootin’ along,
Whistlin’ and singin’, she’s a carryin’ on.
There’s laughing in her eyes, dancing in her feet,
She’s a neon-light diamond and she can live on the street.

Hey hey, hey, come right away
Come and join the party every day.

Well everybody’s dancin’ in a ring around the sun
Nobody’s finished, we ain’t even begun.
So take off your shoes, child, and take off your hat.
Try on your wings and find our where it’s at. *

Was it 2015 or 1978 or perhaps 1967 ?  You decide:

July 4, 2015:

I had just received some long over -due money. I noticed that the Grateful Dead were live streaming their Chicago Fare Thee Well  50 year anniversary reunion concerts on On Demand. The fees were pricey but I had extra money. I deserved to splurge on something fun and purely entertaining. I had not seen any assembly of the Dead in decades and I was not going to be teleported to Chicago, sans an airplane ticket and place to stay. The concerts were to be held over 3 nights. This could be my last chance to see them perform, ever. Which night do I choose?

I could not justify viewing all 3 shows. I finally decided that July 4th would be the one. My reasoning was they would be settled in after the 1st show and since I associate the Dead with parties, why not celebrate America’s birthday in style? This decision was an arduous process. As an INFJ, I like to ponder and deliberate, often to a fault. In this case, I am glad I took my time.

Earlier that day I spotted a HUGE beetle like creature on my bedroom door. It seemed almost alien-like. I was terrified but managed to flush it down the toilet. Dexter was oblivious to this terrifying menace, but it certainly got a reaction out of me. I looked up beetle online to see what I could find here.

By J. Coelho [CC BY 2.0 (http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/2.0)], via Wikimedia Commons

This image is a rather close approximation. While I found the various interpretations fascinating, the following paragraph holds true till the present:

Perhaps the most profound lesson the beetle shares with us is the lesson of transformation and adaptation. Beetles engage in metamorphosis for development and growth. From egg to adult, they are a marvel of transformation illustrated in a short lifetime. They go through these revolutionary transformations with aplomb, very nonchalantly and matter-of-factly. Beetles embrace the flow of life and all its transitions without question. They surrender to change.

Looking back, I realize that this was my final complete weekend with Dexter. I was blissfully unaware that he would be leaving me so soon. Yet I did surrender to change and enter into a phase of transformation. The beetle sighting was fortuitous as it signals a new way of being on the planet. I would venture a guess that Dexter is more adaptive than I have been, given his loving demeanor in spite of multiple placements and tricky health issues.  We have so much to gain from the natural world.

Post beetle episode, I am ready for the concert. There was so much to take in and integrate.  Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined watching a live concert on TV in this fashion. The word surreal is not superfluous in this instance. The telecast was filmed so you were truly in the moment, without commercials and artificial editing. I cannot exactly describe it, but it was quite close to being there in Chicago.

It turns out I almost lived in Chicago. My parents traveled their often as it was where my dad’s company’s main headquarters were located. It is also where they purchased my very first astrology book. I still have it and it was published in the 1960s. I also made a wonderful friend from Chicago who I met in Miami. We both stayed at the same hotel for 2 years over Xmas holidays. We became pen pals and I never forgotten her. Plus I have some online blogger buddies from Chicago so the city keeps appearing in my life.  I recently found out that we almost moved there when I was young. My mother revealed that my dad was offered a big promotion at the main headquarters. I was shocked to hear that he turned it down, given we moved around so often.  So here I am focusing in on elusive and mysterious Chicago. Here’s yet another example of the road not traveled.

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The music itself was very moving. The pace was slow and many of the songs were folksy and bluegrass style. The evening progressed like a heartfelt lullaby. Yet at certain points the mood shifted and the pace quickened. I had not been feeling well and was functioning on little energy. But I was propelled to get off my couch and dance. One song in particular set me in motion like a dervish. The Golden Road to Unlimited Devotion was playing. I could have been hallucinating , but I was lucid and sober. As Dexter watched, I began to swirl. This is MY song and I have never heard it performed live. I felt as if another force was propelling me into seamless, graceful, dizzying, flight. How did I get so energized? What was the source of all this power inside of me? I was floating on air, whizzing in circles, free of obstructions or constraints. I was on fire!

Later I researched the show online to read about the setlist. I came upon this article that blew my mind wide open. Here is what was written about the Golden Road performance:

Next up was “The Golden Road (To Unlimited Devotion),” a song Jerry Garcia wrote about the Haight hippie scene that The Grateful Dead only played a handful of times in 1967. Bruce Hornsby and Trey Anastasio fronted the group on the obscurity.

My favorite ( among favorites such as Eyes of the World, Sugar Magnolia, Truckin’, Scarlet Begonias, US Blues, and Box of Rain, to name a few) is basically a favorite of the few. It was last performed in 1967. I had not even heard of the band until 1977 and had not attended my first show until 1978.  It is probably a statistical anomaly that this song was performed on the exact night I decided to watch the show. This is not just a song to me. It is an anthem. I was this chick in the song in high school and college. Or at least I imagined myself to be like her. She was free and blissful and at peace. Perhaps I longed to get out of my own way so I could be her.

I actually transformed into her a few months earlier. Here is an excerpt of my May 26th post on dream number 3 of an incredibly active sojourn of slumber.

May 26, 2015 ( circa 1978?)

And now for something completely different:

3 – Went back in time to the 1970s. Lots of teens around, big crowd. I run into a friend.We will call him “Sam.” He used to be my dream prompt. Seeing him meant I was dreaming. He has not appeared in years though. There was to be a 1970s party. I was excited about this. My friend “Sam” said I would like to dance with you , big smile. I was so excited and I typically don’t like to dance. Lots of love between me and Sam, unlike real life where we were longtime yet intermittent, platonic friends. I knew him from when I first moved to NJ in the middle of 6th grade through the summer after HS grad when our families vacationed at the same hotel down the shore. At the party, there was such a joyous atmosphere. The room was dark and the music was psychedelic. Sam and I hit the dance floor and did our thing. We were both young but I danced with the confidence of a more mature person. In high school I would have not felt as eager to express myself this freely.

When I turned around I saw a young Bob Weir singing Grateful Dead music. It was a big surprise. I have dreamed of Bob and Jerry( Garcia) many times before over the years. Sometimes while dreaming I talk with them. In this dream I did not know Bob, nor did I interact with him. I was so excited and remembered Sam was there at my first Grateful Dead concert in 1978. The same day he and his band performed a concert at the high school. A group of us began to chant the date of that concert 5-13-78. ( later I checked and that was the actual date of the concert. How did I remember that?) It was wild. I said to him “You were in a band!” I think he was the lead singer. My friends who attended the concert with me were at this party or at the very least I mentioned them to Sam. Some of Sam’s friends were also there. Sam and I were becoming a couple and were very happy. I felt loved and adored.

What was so interesting was the Bob Weir became the face of the Dead once Jerry Garcia passed away. He was my favorite anyway so I would always focus on Bobby. I was also stunned to realize the prophetic nature of this dream. I was seeing Bob Weir perform and dancing as if no one was watching. I was imbuing my current knowingness into the past.  What a wild ride of past and future morphing together in Dreamtime. You could say that for a few short minutes I was livin’ the dream.

I said Fare Thee Well to Dexter one week later. I also learned that the farewell concerts were not the last. A newly formed group called Dead and Company featuring Bob Weir, John Mayer ( another Libra with loads of Scorpio) , Mickey Hart, and others have begun touring recently so the music apparently never stops in some form.

Update: Apparently Dead and Company were performing in Philadelphia last night ( 11-5-15) while I was completing this post. The synchronicity continues…

We never know how much or how little is happening at any given time. I did not know that my current physical body possessed that much energy. I certainly never expected to hear the Golden Road performed live and in real-time in my living room. Life is a mystery that keeps surprising me, just when I think I’ve got it all figured out.

But I have figured out one important lesson. I want to play! Perhaps having the experience of both spontaneity, exuberance, and confidence will assist me in replicating this behavior going forward. My birthday is approaching as I type and I have set my intention to be that girl from the Golden Road. Being free and playful and in motion is the way. 

The time machine kept me quite busy, transporting me to and from Philly to Chicago and to 1967 ( around the year I began studying astrology), 1978,  2015 and beyond. My consciousness flowed from waking state to frenzied ecstasy to Dreamtime. My challenge was not what I intended upon its inception in September. Yet I took the steps necessary to get me to this point. Now I am ready to try on my wings.

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Here’s a video of the original 67 performance.

Here’s what I saw on 7-4-15.

Thanks to all for another spectacular blogging challenge. They keep getting better because WE keep getting better.

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Musings ~ The World is Conspiring in Your Favor

Hello fellow litebeings,
I used my random blog oracle just now and arrived here. This particular post really encapsulates many of the concepts and attitudes that I am currently examining. I invite you all to read again and join in the discussion.

Namaste

PS: Just visited twitter and today is Ascension Day. Happy Ascension Day!

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UPDATE: As often happens in my world, synchronicity abounds. I just discovered today ( 11-2-14) that my local meetup group is having its monthly Saturday Discussion on Ascension. The leader said they have never covered this topic before and is bringing in a special speaker. If you are local and want to know the details, please email me. I hope to attend and gather more information and engage in some meaningful discussions. I am so grateful that my life is so graced with synchronicity, especially when the big questions come to me without any easy answers!

As a recovering paranoid pessimist, I work very hard to “re-frame” my thoughts and my expectations. This is much easier to for me to do with others in my role as a therapist than for myself. I was raised with the motto ” Never Trust Anybody!” and I began to internalize it early…

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Cosmic Retrograde Challenge: Song On The Radio

I hope you enjoy this bonus post for the Cosmic Retrograde Challenge ~

While I was already wearing the Sugilite, I wanted to do something extra to participate along with my fellow blogettes. I had already dug up some old pictures to show to some friends who had recently come back into my life. I began working with my A. T. Mann tarot cards again after years of neglect. I had also started rereading Many Mansions after viewing Shree’s book review.  But these activities did not match the intensity of the Sugilite for me. I wanted to really feeeeeeel something. So I turned to music. I began to forage through stacks of CDs : Prince (maybe); U2 (not now) ; Joni Mitchell (this looks good!); but then I spotted Joan Armatrading and I knew. I felt the power contained within the disc and I knew this would work well. So for three weeks now I have been listening to Joan Armatrading’s Greatest Hits  on my car radio. You may wonder why I chose the car radio.

play now : Song on the radio

In my last post    I described how I became better equipped to tap into information to serve others. Historically I would (and still do) get information on its own terms. Typically  a thought or idea would pop into my head and often lead me to a synchronistic event. My intuition appeared when it wanted to, I had no control over when and where I would be guided.  I was ok with this.  I was grateful to be guided in any form as long as it was for the highest good.  There is one exception however ~ the radio.  I cannot remember how it started but it is the one way I am able to easily receive information at my request.  Sometimes it will work on Pandora or on TV music channels, but it really is all about my car radio. I have been asking for messages to guide me through the radio for a very long time. Never said a word about it until quite recently. I figured people would think I was out of my mind (crazy) if I spoke about my musical oracle. Truth is, I was out of MY mind and into the greater MIND. Usually I would set my intention to get a message within 3 songs. Occasionally I would request a song and it would be played automatically. I highly recommend trying this, very cool!  This method does not always work , but when it does…   So the car radio is the vehicle I chose for the challenge.

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Love and Affection  I am starting with the first of three songs on the CD that evoked great emotion. I have arranged them to coincide with the order of my journey.  Since we are looking at cycles, I noticed an overlap between the recent Mercury Retrograde and my Saturn to Sun transit. I examined my first Saturn/ Sun conjunction back in 1984.  I was checking out apartments. It was time to leave the security of living with room mates and have my own place. It was the Summer of 1984 and I was in Graduate School ( Saturn in Scorpio transiting the 9th house). I wanted the independence and freedom of being my own person. I was looking at a small studio apartment in the Castle Building. I had lived in that building a year ago with college room mates. I loved this old space with its high ceilings, huge windows and wooden floors. As I toured the kitchen I saw beans soaking in a bowl on the counter, along with lots of fresh vegetables, and  fresh bread. I was very curious about these beans. An earth mother must live here, I thought to myself! Who will I become? Will I be a good cook? Will I learn how to bake and garden? Will I soak beans? How will my adulthood take form?

I initially associated this song with a crush of mine. This was a couple of years after I moved into that very studio apartment. I had made a great group of friends but was still missing my college ex- boyfriend.  I wanted to feel alive and free and vulnerable again. I was ready for love once more. Later that song referred to other men in my life. But the first time I really got that song was around the time I began to establish a way in the world on my own. I would sing it in the mirror and twirl around full of hope and wonder.

Weakness in me  I did not know of this song until much later in time. I did not have the CD until after I heard this song in concert. This concert I attended was in 1996  , right around my birthday. I saw Joan Armatrading in a small venue and it was amazing. I was in Graduate School again ( a different degree this time) and money was tight, but I wanted a treat. When I heard this tune, I immediately became teary. I knew the story all too well. By this time in my life I had already been involved in a few love triangles. In these cases, one or both of the parties was involved with another partner. The men in my life ( 2 lived in my neighborhood at the time) were prone to ” show up”. This could be taken many ways.  They would pop back into my life after having moved away, or would just show up at my work or my home. Or I would get an email or phone call out of the blue. Or I would meet someone who looked just like a former lover. This song is about love, betrayal, control, and pain. Joan refers to weakness being part of her character. I would add that it applied to all the characters in this drama. Everyone always makes a choice, or chooses to not make one.

Me, Myself, I  The third song in this trilogy has a great reggae beat and a happy melody. Basically Joan wants to be alone and enjoy herself. I often sang this song when I had enough of  a relationship or was so angry with a former partner. I visualized myself traveling and going on adventures freely and joyfully. There is not a particular time period I associate with this song. I placed it last because it is where I am now. I went from the innocence of love to the complexity of intimacy and commitment, to the refuge of independence and mastery. And RELIEF!

Disclaimer: I know in past posts I have either inferred or directly stated that I am done with romance. I want to elaborate on this a bit. First of all, I deliberately leave out the details about my personal life.  Although I do not use my name , some people in my real life read this material and know these men. While I am not in touch with any of them, some of my friends and associates may still be in contact with them. In this cyber world of ours, I prefer to keep things vague. Secondly, I adore men! For most of my life, my best friends were men. It took me a long time to find the connection with women that came easily with men! I do not want my readers to get the wrong impression. I have been fortunate to have loved deeply and experience the beauty of soulful, intimate relationships. It is just that I do not do them well.  Just like cars: I have been driving since age 17 and still don’t understand how my car runs. Well, it is like that for me and romance. I  tend to attract and get involved with very Plutonian, Saturnian and Neptunian partners in a Uranian way. ( Saturn in Cap opposing Mars, Uranus/Pluto in 7th house, Leo descendant, ruler of descendant – Sun, conjunct Neptune) It was exhausting!  I am not saying I will never change my mind. I just do not think there is anything more for me to learn here. My work is DONE. By the way, I do not feel angry about this. I would prefer to call it mature acceptance.

Lessons learned: As I drove around listening to these passionate songs about love and identity, I remembered past associations and also made new ones. This is where the magic happens. Now when I hear Love and Affection, instead of imagining a new partner, I felt the rich, vibrant Cosmic love in the burgundy and rust trees as they shimmered and glowed under the November sun. To quote Steve Winwood, it is a ” Higher Love.” When I play Weakness in Me,  I realize that I participated in dramas that were ultimately unhealthy and somewhat ridiculous. Living in chaos was an easier choice than going about the business of finding a suitable partner and settling down. Today I see that I am my own suitable partner. To live out my chart is to partner with my Sun. My sun is where I star in my life. I have learned to own most of my projections and become more balanced and integrated. Finally, when I sing Me, Myself, I, most of the anger and resentment is gone. I feel lighter and less defended. I am not singing ” I wanna be by myself ” in response to feeling overwhelmed, controlled, or frustrated. I am singing as an expression of gratitude.

Willow     In the course of playing this CD for so long, I came upon a song that I had not noticed before, Willow. Please listen to this gorgeous , soulful composition.  It is very soft and mellow.  I am not really surprised to have discovered it because I took on this challenge in expectation of alchemy. I am in process of becoming a willow.  Willow is a song about loyalty, protection, strength and stability. It is sweet, tender, and ethereal. Perhaps it is a taste of the future.

This challenge has been very Challenging! I have been relentlessly haunted in my dreams by old lovers. Many tears were shed.  This exercise has required major soul-searching.  But in the end it was worth staying with the discomfort. I came out of this experience ever so slightly transformed and renewed. Ghosts have been cleared and released.  I  am aware that I still have plenty of work to do. Fortunately the Saturn/Sun transit is in full effect.

POSTSCRIPT– Remember the young woman staring at the bowl of beans soaking on the counter. I am not through with her quite yet. She returns in a future Collisions series post – stay tuned!

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Cosmic Retrograde Challenge ~ Sugilite Shakedown Street

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You tell me this town ain’t got no heart. well, well, well, you can never tell.
The sunny side of the street is dark. well, well, well, you can never tell.
Maybe that’s cause its midnight, in the dark of the moon besides.

Maybe the dark is from your eyes, maybe the dark is from your eyes,
Maybe the dark is from your eyes, maybe the dark is from your eyes,
Maybe the dark is from your eyes, maybe the dark is from your eyes,
You know you got such dark eyes!

Nothin shakin on shakedown street. used to be the heart of town.
Don’t tell me this town ain’t got no heart. you just gotta poke around.

Shakedown Street by The Grateful Dead

HAPPY SCORPIO/TAURUS FULL MOON! Welcome to the story that inspired this challenge. Before we head into the back story, ( isn’t there always a great back story attached to most tales?) I invite you to click on the link below and listen to the video while reading. This post will work better with a soundtrack…

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BACK STORY ~  A few years ago I was driving to work. It was around the Christmas holiday season. The roads were slick with ice. I swerved downhill and lost control of my vehicle. I resigned myself to certain death. The car stopped moving on its own accord ( as an Accord is known to do) and there was no tangible damage. I was very lucky! While still in shock, I tiptoed over the ice to the nearest house. I was too shaken to attempt to drive up the hill. A compassionate and friendly couple let me stay with them all morning until the ice melted and I could drive home. We drank tea and talked. I was grateful to have survived. They were neighbors that instantly transformed into friends.  From time to time I would see  ” Jane” take her children up the hill in their strollers. On one occasion I first saw them at the mall and then at my favorite sushi restaurant. I consider these sightings fortuitous because this family reminds me of ” the kindness of strangers.” This translates to the truth that there are no strangers, just people we have yet to meet. Fast forward to this summer: I run into  ” Jane” with her daughters. She is wearing a gorgeous purple pendant. We talk about where she found it and the different healing properties of crystals. I tell her about my Sugilite and that perhaps I should wear it again. Weeks go by and I take a look at the stone. I see ” Jane” again and we have a wonderful chat. I remember the Sugilite. This time I decide to take it out of the jewelry box and give it a whirl.  

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New Hope ~ I have been visiting New Hope for the greater part of my life. Friends, family, lovers, acquaintances, you name it , we have all been there together.  A first date, the transition from the 1980s to 1990, book browsing, psychic fairs,  and everything in-between! http://www.visitnewhope.com/

This beautifully quaint village on the Delaware River is very special to me. It holds promise.  Many years ago I walked into a metaphysical store that sold crystals. I engaged in a conversation with a young , knowledgeable  store clerk about the various stones in the display case. He suggested I look into Sugilite. I had not heard of it before.  He told me that it helps with psychic abilities and is very powerful. I was quite intrigued and was taken with its intense purple hue. The generous young man agreed to throw in the chain for free.  I said ” I’ll take it!”

What is Sugilite?

Sugilite is known as one of the love stones of the earth. A natural facilitator of physical and emotional healing it also dispels negativity and anger, creating harmony and opening one to spiritual energy and growth.  Sugilite can help you answer the great questions such as “Why am I here?“, ”Who am I?”, “Where did I come from?”, and “What do I need to understand to evolve my soul?” It is a very spiritual stone that will help keep the soul safe from  shocks, disappointment and trauma.

Sugilite is a major spiritual stone, promoting individual as well as universal love. Sugilite is said to help with understanding the “big questions” in life. Especially helpful for those who feel alienated and alone, Sugilite helps the user to understand the purpose for their existence.  Known as “The Healer’s Stone”, Sugilite is said to enhance one’s healing and psychic abilities.

Sugilite balances and heals all the chakras and the bodily areas associated with them, which in turn, allows for the free movement of kundalini energy please use with caution.This crystal will open the third eye chakra, crown chakra, soul star chakra… then right up to and including the fourteenth etheric chakra.  As you become more spiritually advanced, the growth of psychic powers and especially channeling abilities are aided by Sugilite stones.

reference ~   http://blissreturned.wordpress.com/2012/04/20/sugilite-known-as-the-healers-stone-sugilite-is-said-to-enhance-ones-healing-and-psychic-abilities/

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How did I use it?  When I first took it home back in the 1990s, I kept it under my pillow at night. The man from the metaphysical store suggested it would create vivid dreams. I recall that it was too much for me. I did not feel comfortable and was a bit afraid of the energy. I wore it a few times around my neck and then it went into a jewelry box. I do not think I was ready or perhaps I misinterpreted the effect it had on my consciousness. I also have difficulty wearing anything around my neck for too long so I could only wear a necklace sporadically.

What happened this time? I could not find the original chain so I used an old chain adorned with tiny lavender beads. Shortly thereafter the clasp broke. Eventually I found a cord that contained a dream-catcher (who knows how long  this was collecting dust) and substituted the dream-catcher with the Sugilite. While the cord is not delicate and pretty, it easily accommodated coming off and on my neck and under my pillow every day since September 15th until now. I adjusted the length so that it was slightly above my heart. I read somewhere not to have it directly on your heart. I was relieved to discover I could tolerate anything that tight around my neck!

Many astrological events have been in play during this time period. We had 2 eclipses, Mercury Retrograde and Saturn in Scorpio. Saturn is now conjunct my Sun. All the Scorpio activity – Mercury, the November 3rd eclipse, and the Sun/Saturn cycle, all take place in my 9th house. Among other things, this is the house where belief dwells. 

 For more on Saturn in Scorpio ( scroll to midpage) http://www.michaellutin.com/ The information on this page is truly prescient!

Major developments

Astrology Class ~ I taught my first Astrology class in October. I have a fear of public speaking and I did not know anyone in the audience. Yet I knew that this role is part of my destiny. The talk went well and I was given 5 star ratings on-line. A few people asked to have me return and speak again. No one knew that this was my first talk! I have begun to conquer this life – long fear of public speaking. My beliefs are starting to transform..

Intuitive readings ~ I gave away some intuitive readings as a way of paying it forward.  This post has the details : https://lindalitebeing.wordpress.com/2013/09/21/pay-it-forward/  What no one knew was that I have never done this before without ” props” ( such as cards).  I just closed my eyes and entered the stillness. I was beyond amazed that I was able to ” see” and ” hear” so much detail about the querents’ lives. I was truly astonished. I took this activity on with nothing but faith and a knowing that I was to explore another way to serve others. More of my beliefs were in the process of changing..

Past life regressions ~ I participated in 2 group past-life regressions. They took place over the course of several weeks. While my process was not what I would call dramatic, I noticed that I have an ability to ” see” people and places and scenes with my inner eye. I later connected these visions with my psychic/intuitive abilities. The gift to me from the regressions was not past life recall. The gift is the insight that I can forge a path while visiting the inner world. I am now owning that my experiences have practical applications for my evolution as both an individual and as a healer. New beliefs are being shaped and born into being…

Alchemy ~ The most subtle but amazing result of combining the old stone with the current me is that I can now wear something around my neck for 2  months. I hated anything around my neck! I will attribute some of this transformation to my dear friend Heidi. She did some clearing of my throat chakra and I do feel lighter around my neck. Thank you Heidi!

I also realized that I am now ” ready” for this energy. Perhaps I had been ready for some time, but  seeing ” Jane” wearing her crystal was the catalyst that set this in motion. While I did not experience a marked difference in dream content, I did not have my original reaction with the stone under my pillow. I have grown to a point where I am able to make use of its unique healing qualities. I am still not certain about how Kundalini operates, but am aware that more of my chakras are being utilized differently.

CONCLUSION: So what did I glean from playing cosmic dress up? I discovered that my psychic abilities have been working tirelessly throughout my lifetime, varying in intensity depending on my energy level and state of awareness. I was not seeing the forest for the trees. I have recently pondered if I could use my intuition to serve others as a therapist, astrologer, friend, rather than to gently guide my own journey. I had been worried that I have waited too long to pursue this life path.  What wearing the Sugilite amplified is my awareness of my abilities in action. I think my awareness increased because I was wearing the Sugilite and living with an open mind and heart.   I just needed more confidence in my abilities. Recently more people have been asking me how the astrological material manifests. They were asking not about data interpretation per se , but my inner process. In all my years of practice, I  have rarely had this question posed this way.  During these past 2 months I have been repetitively asked how do I read people? Is it psychic or intuitive? Is the knowledge channeled? A pattern had developed here and it caught my attention. I do not know for sure if the Sugilite increased my capacity for healing or simply illuminated what had been hazy. I plan to continue wearing it and see what develops. What I have come to realize at a much deeper level is that my gifts have always been serving others. Which hat I wear does not really matter, but my attitude does. This all is tied together with the nature of my beliefs. Taking on this challenge allowed my limited beliefs to be altered so that I was free to see my healing abilities with more clarity. I plan to experiment more with mixing up the old with the new. I see the value in using adventure and play to create some magic. There is always more to uncover. You just have to poke around!

Nothin shakin on shakedown street. used to be the heart of town.
Don’t tell me this town ain’t got no heart. you just gotta poke around.

You think you’ve seen this town clear through.
Well, well, well, you can never tell.
Nothing here that could interest you. well, well, well, you can never tell.
Its not because you missed out on the thing that we had to start.

Maybe you had too much too fast. maybe you had too much too fast.
Maybe you had too much too fast. maybe you had too much too fast.
Maybe you had too much too fast. maybe you had too much too fast.
Or just over played your part.

Nothin shakin on shakedown street. used to be the heart of town.
Don’t tell me this town ain’t got no heart. you just gotta poke around.

Shakedown Street 

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Original post on Sugilite and Cosmic Retrograde Challenge: https://lindalitebeing.wordpress.com/2013/10/14/cosmic-retrograde-challenge/

 November 18th challenge post : Shelley  

Cosmic Retrograde Challenge – a quick review and more posts added!

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for more on this artist in our midst~ Sue

Both Mercury and Neptune went direct, thank goodness. I still feel spacey ( as only a Neptunian can), but I have some news so …..

But before the big reveal, let’s talk about this challenge and what we have seen so far. There are enchanted chariots, engaging rings, rousing rap music, animated books, profoundly awesome pendants, visits from old friends, powerful pyramids, flailing hippy beads, soul retrieval, and it’s just day 5!  If you have not read all the posts, please make a visit now and get up to date. The articles have been so varied – yet all the writers recount embarking on a uniquely memorable and sometimes surprising journey.

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BIG REVEAL 1 ~ Speaking of dates, Shelley from Psychic Pharmacy Tech has been added to the roster for November 18th ( see link below) and I know this will be off the charts wild and enlightening!  Thank you Shelley for taking the plunge.

BIG REVEAL 2 ~ I have added a bonus post for November 19th. So now the challenge has been expanded to 11, yes 11 days!  That is all I can say for now so you will have to wait until the 19th…

Here is the complete updated schedule for the upcoming challenge:

November 9 – Julianne

November 10 – Heidi

November 11 – Shree

November 12 – Karen

November 13 – Sindy

November 14 – Sue

November 15 – Barbara

November 16 – Lehua

November 17 – Linda

November 18 – Shelley

November 19th – Bonus post!

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How have you enjoyed the challenge so far?

What has inspired you?

Mesmerized you?

Moved you?

Do tell!

Related posts:

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for challenge description see – https://lindalitebeing.wordpress.com/2013/10/14/cosmic-retrograde-challenge/

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 Welcome to November 11th, or 1111, woohoo!

Mercury went direct a few hours ago and to say that I am relieved is a humongous understatement. I have already noticed a subtle turnaround. For months I have been locked out of my Amazon account. I called and I emailed several times with no success. I was told the website and my browsers were at fault. I figured I would try again during the retrograde to resolve this fiasco but time did not permit. So tonight I took a shot, totally expecting to be stuck in this special circle of hell where you are being continually asked to enter characters to prove you are human, over and over and over…

But, that did not happen! Within minutes I had a new password and was on my way to buying books that I cannot afford, but cannot afford to miss. Life is GOOD.

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 You may wonder why I have uploaded an image of cinnamon here. It is a representation of the number 11.  From the header on down, I am showcasing images that feature repetitions of 1.  I started my blog on 1-11-13 and missed the chance to create a post for 11-1-13. At this point 10 months have gone by and what a ride it has been. As many of you know, I began seeing numerical sequences ( 111 and 1111 specifically), for at least a year and a half  now. For the first few months I do not think it had registered with me. I was only partially paying attention. That’s why I am not certain how long it has been actually happening. Now so many people are reporting this phenomenon and discussing it verbally and online. Often this phenomenon is included in the great ascension or paradigm shift  heralded in with the 12-12-12 Mayan prophecies. I am still on the fence as to whether I am buying what is being sold here.  I cannot honestly separate my own individual evolution and the accompanying astrological cycles from a distinct collective shift in consciousness. It is not necessary that I know the differences for a shift to be in operation. It is just that I have been evolving, and transforming  in a non-linear, spiral like fashion my entire lifetime. I cannot tell if this moment is just another step on the yellow brick road. However, I really dig seeing the sequences and am hopeful that I may graduate to 222s, 333s, and so on with the same frequency and reliability of the 111s.

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 How are you enjoying the Cosmic Retrograde Challenge ? The first three posts have been excellent. There are some interesting patterns emerging among these three posts thus far. What have you noticed? One pattern I noticed was that Julianne, Heidi, and Shree were all attracted to jewelry and had different reactions. Another trend is that all three bloggers discovered significant, yet subtle epiphanies regarding self-awareness. It feels to me like there are layers upon layers of potential self-realization and this challenge has perhaps brought to light some potentials that were residing  just beyond the surface patiently awaiting to be discovered or re-covered. 

Any questions or reactions to the challenge posts? What has been stirred up in you? Tell me all about it. Thanks for your support and may the 111111111s be with you!

Challenge schedule:  

https://lindalitebeing.wordpress.com/2013/11/07/november-9th-cosmic-retrograde-challenge-instructions-for-bloggers-and-reminder-for-all/

Related post : https://lindalitebeing.wordpress.com/2013/09/03/musings-hiding-in-plain-sight/

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November 9th Cosmic Retrograde Challenge – Get ready for take off !

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Update: Welcome to Day One of the Cosmic Retrograde Challenge. Board your magic carpet and assume take off position. Ready, set, go …

The day has finally arrived! Thank you in advance to all the participating bloggers and everyone else embarking in this astrological, mystical alchemical adventure.

Instructions and entire schedule are included below. Hold on tight, take a deep breath, and enjoy the ride!

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The Cosmic Retrograde Challenge begins in 2 days, November 9th! I am so excited to see how this turns out. We have  assembled such a great group of versatile, talented, and fascinating bloggers. I promise you this will be captivating material  and full of surprises for all involved. This is Must -See Reading ( remember Must-See TV anyone?)

 To bloggers participating in the challenge: Please include Cosmic Retrograde Challenge within your title. Also kindly link to the next blogger ( see schedule below) at the end of your post for the sake of continuity and helping readers follow along. You can also cut and paste the schedule below if you like! Please contact me –  via the comments section below, or by email if you have any questions.

For all readers: You are in for a treat. Get ready for what happens when some powerful amazing women play Cosmic Dress up! This challenge will be a series of posts that reveal what happens when you combine something old and beloved with the present you to create a newer you. It is sort of like the bridal ritual – something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue … Of course the difference here is the wedding or merger takes place within the individual.

For more details about the challenge and how it came into being, please read: https://lindalitebeing.wordpress.com/2013/10/14/cosmic-retrograde-challenge/ 

Here is the complete schedule for the upcoming challenge:

November 9 – Julianne

November 10 – Heidi

November 11 – Shree

November 12 – Karen

November 13 – Sindy

November 14 – Sue

November 15 – Barbara

November 16 – Lehua

November 17 – Linda

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I can certainly say that I have unearthed some very unusual and unexpected reactions as a result of this process. Some of them have already leaked out onto my last few posts. There is plenty more in store. While the road ahead is often unpredictable, we can always find practices to guide us as we continue to step into the totality of our being..

Just 2 more days!

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Cosmic Retrograde Challenge – We are set!

 

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Mercury went retrograde today.  While I am not superstitious about this poorly hyped cycle, I must confess that I already have a story to tell , entitled ” American Laptop Horror Story”.  I am saving this tale for a later date because I want to gain perspective so stay tuned ..

On a brighter note, I am happy to report we have a full 9 day challenge schedule.

Can I hear a big collective woohoo!

Here is the complete schedule for the upcoming challenge:

November 9 – Julianne

November 10 – Heidi

November 11 – Shree

November 12 – Karen

November 13 – Sindy

November 14 – Sue

November 15 – Barbara

November 16 – Lehua

November 17 – Linda

I will post this again as we get closer to the time for the  posts to make their debuts. I know that this will be an extraordinary opportunity for folks to experiment with the old and new.  Since this particular retrograde is in Scorpio, this energy can be used to dig deep, uncover old secrets and barriers, and then restore, renew, reinvent, and reemerge victoriously.

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Does anyone have any Mercury Retrograde incidents to share as of today?

How did the Eclipse affect you? Let me know your stories.

Related post:

 https://lindalitebeing.wordpress.com/2013/10/14/cosmic-retrograde-challenge/

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