Just a quick ( ok, maybe not so quick ) post to commemorate a date I thought may never come: today I was granted approval to sit for the PA Licensed Clinical Social Worker exam! I am still processing this as it doesn’t seem real yet. I have written about this topic a few times over the years, most notably here. I began this process in 2016 and here we are in 2022. I was able to obtain 2 Master’s degrees in less time and 1 undergraduate degree in less time than it has taken me thus far to get this credential.
Now I have to register for, study, and take the exam. Of course, passing it would be optimal! Not many people would call me patient and this process has tested my patience, reserve, sanity, and faith in my ability to manifest. I was able to get a License in Social Work rather easily, passing the exam while still a student and obtaining the credential upon graduation. But this LCSW journey is probably the longest time I have dedicated to the pursuit of a goal.
I had a similar experience in my early twenties. I was potentially eligible to get a License as a Psychologist after obtaining a Masters in Counseling Psychology, but there was a deadline attached. The state was going to change the requirements so Master’s level practitioners were given a short timeframe to take some extra coursework and complete a few other requirements to be deemed eligible. I did take at least one extra course and thought I fulfilled all the necessary requirements so I submitted the paperwork. My sister and my boyfriend also were applying for this same credential. I still recall sitting in my studio apartment in my 20s, writing the word Penn Gram over and over in a notebook, working on manifestation. Whatever a Penn Gram was, it never arrived in the mail. I was very disappointed, especially since my sister and my boyfriend were able to get credentialed this way. It felt fated then, like I was forever missing the mark. I have concluded that not everything is within our reach, sometimes it is timing or not for our highest good, or in some cases, both are true. I was soooo hopeful though, and I am nostalgic for the version of me that was less cynical and worn down by dashed dreams and illusions.
While cynicism prevails at this point, I do still hold space for magic, miracles of the quantum kind, and shifting of perspective/frequency. It’s just when I reflect on this process, I wonder why so many obstacles have been placed in my way. Astrologically, this is a Saturnian theme and Jupiter, the ruler of my career point ( Midheaven) is in the sign of Capricorn. As many folks know, Capricorn is ruled by Saturn. This is interpreted as a slow rise to the top, career and public- standing wise.
On a brighter note, noteworthy transits pointed to receiving good news: This week transiting Jupiter formed a trine to my natal Midheaven, symbolizing luck, fortune, and abundance to my calling, professional standing ; today’s transiting Sun closely opposed my natal Venus, along with transiting Venus closely opposing my natal Sun. This double whammy emphasizes identity and the ability to shine paired with grace, love, and justice. BTW oppositions are not problematic when the Sun and Venus are involved. James had his Venus opposing my Sun I believe this aspect helped bring us together. I was tickled to see these placements today, as they signify a blessing and recognition of my efforts. A just reward! As a side note, on the car radio today I heard the song ” When will I be loved? ” by Linda Ronstadt and I began to wonder the same thing, considering how isolated I have been. After the song ended, the deejay declared ” We love you Linda! ”
I got my answer.
I have posted this video before ( I have a fondness for songs about mountains) but it bears repeating because the lyrics really articulate my understanding of the meaning of struggle and adversity :
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