Embodied Surrender

I am eager to share a spiritual practice that I am trying on “for size. ” The goal is to not get overwhelmed by decision – making by remaining hopeful yet accepting. The Quakers call this ” holding it lightly. ” I tend to hold it tightly!  This practice of surrender is not new. In fact Oprah shared her take on it years ago when she was up for a part in the film The Color Purple. I have practiced this before, but the stakes seem higher now. From another angle, the stakes are rarely that high. It has more to do with desire than necessity. Still I feel challenged to override my programming and learn a new way.

While I do live in a lovely place, I have outgrown it for various reasons. My guidance is showing me that it is time to move on and the amount of mechanical and structural issues in  my  apartment unit borders on unbelievable.  I get it, I should leave, no more signs please!!

Finding a  decent place is not a walk in the park. Prices are very high still, and it seems there are more people seeking apartments than vacancies. This is very different from my last foray into relocation. I only have  a few more days before I have to give notice to my landlord so the heat is on.

I have seen a few places and most of them have no vacancies yet. Some may materialize around June 1st. One property was really unique. It is in a town about half an hour away. I have traveled there for a few reasons. My energy shifted in a positive way during my tour.  I saw possibilities that were new to me. This building has so many extras, including a yoga studio and  a screening room! I would have to pay  much more money to live in a smaller place, which is less than ideal. But I would have more convenience, newer appliances and pipes ( trust me this is important) and a whole different vibe. I was sure I was in a higher frequency because I got lost on the way home. Unlike the last time this happened ( after taking my LCSW exam), I kept driving in the “wrong direction” and ended up on the path home. I intuited my way naturally.

I recognize that the deck is stacked against me “logically” but I set an intention a couple weeks back, allowing events to occur for my higher good without any need for my ego to control.  I set the “cosmic order” to the quantum and then let go.  I call this embodied surrender because I feel the uncertainty in thoughts and emotions as they arise. I am working on accepting the outcome without resistance. I view this as a more conscious way to be.

I also got a “hit ” recently to look at daily events not just with gratitude but as opportunities. I am being guided to be more observant of nudges that are potentially leading me to my future timeline. I am figuring out the details and am excited to see how this will go. Please keep me in your thoughts as I practice allowing regarding such a major life change.

I want to end this post with some photos worthy of contemplation. I noticed many years ago that the land near my bedroom windows was lacking plant life. I am not a homeowner and do not get to decide what is planted or not , etc. However for the first time maybe since I have lived here, I have seem some green areas emerge. Maybe this is Jupiter in Taurus with its trine to my Natal Jupiter, or perhaps my Progressed Ascendant coming into alignment with my IC ( roots, home, foundation).  Here are some photos offering me a glimmer of lite that more vitality is coming my way:

The photos are in chronological order and some of the earlier plants were mowed down by the landscapers. However, green remains where it was once dry and lifeless. I choose to see it as an opportunity, a way forward…