Both the header image and the photo above were taken by my friend and Reiki teacher Sarah in the Redwoods. She pulled the healing card for me during my re-attunement and reaffirmed my role as a healer in this incarnation. It was a powerful process that ushered in many potent events internally and outwardly. I find the images to be sacred and incredibly beautiful. Thank you Sarah!
This is prime time to lean into the Mercury and Venus retrograde energy. I want to finish up my review of the remaining four Scorpio love interests. It turns out I have been entangled with way more Scorpios than I realized. I guess I never bothered to take count until now.
CB Bill
This dude was the first Scorpio that crossed my path as far as I know. I was visiting a friend who had her back in a cast to heal her spine. This was a rough ride for her. She was out of school recovering at home. She was given a CB radio as a way to stay connected to people This was a tend in the 1970s. Her sister and boyfriend were around that day. Some guy who knew the sister’s boyfriend was on the CB. I spoke with him briefly. I was 16 at the time. The details are fuzzy but he asked for my phone number. His name was Bill and his birthday I believe was Halloween which is tomorrow. So Happy Birthday Bill if your name is Bill and your birthday is tomorrow. Bill and I knew some of the same people but he did not attend my high school. He liked talking on the phone. I am sure I told him I was a Scorpio because how else did the birthday thing enter the conversation. He called me daily and I can still hear my mom’s voice saying. ” Bill’s on the phone ” Bill was relentless as Scorpio’s can be. This was the first time that a boy called me regularly. We had never seen each other but I knew he was into me. It was not odd for teens to talk to love interests who were strangers on the phone. I had done with with my crush before Bill. Looking back I can see the drawbacks but the fact we met at all is pretty wild. Eventually we agreed to meet. My friend’s sister’s boyfriend had a car and drove me up to Bill’s neighborhood. I was nervous about whether he would be attracted to me. I think he was tall with blonde hair. Our meeting was brief. He did not like me after all. I was crushed and that was the end of that. This was one of many rejections I have experienced in the game of love. I do not regret the Bill experience. It reminds me of the Love is Blind series. He really liked me ” in the pods ” but was disappointed after we got engaged. I learned about hoe boys could be persistent and enjoy lengthy conversations.
Bob from Group
These next folks were less significant in that the connections were less cerebral. I met Bob in group therapy while in college. He was handsome with dark hair and blue eyes. He was quiet and soulful. We went out a few times if that. There was a physical attraction but not much else. Later he met my next boyfriend in that same group and made some comments to him about me that were unnecessary. He was a Scorpio as well. End of story.
Cousins and astro twins
This next guy had an interesting back story. I was in my twenties and was dating Herman. During one of our many separations I was seeking a replacement as Herman was not good for me. I often got gas for my car at a station near my home. A striking charming man worked there. He was very flirtatious and I felt his energy strongly. I enjoyed it very much. At some point he took me to his house where his girlfriend lived. I decided to not get involved with him. I met his tall, rather sweet Pisces cousin and we dated for a few months. This whole situation was quite messy and karmic. I will keep this vague out of respect for myself and them. I was upset with the cousin for good reason when he had to leave town for awhile. I would hang out with the original guy to gets updates on my guy. When I learned what was going on I was quite upset and turned to the original guy for comfort. We really were not a good match but I was not in a great headspace. It turned out that he was 10 days older than me and shared a birthday with my cousin. They were actual birthday twins, how wild! They are both short in stature and outgoing personalities. I did not feel a strong mirroring with either him or my actual cousin, who I am fond of. Sometimes having the same Sun sign is not an indication of strong chemistry. The moon and Ascendant and other factors are key. As I wrote in my last post, the person in my life now has the strongest chart connection with me ever and we are not the same age. Eventually I was reunited with the Pisces but all of this should have never happened at all. Karma had other plans per usual!
The charmer with promise
While out of sequence I am leaving Paul for last because he was the most significant of this group. I met Paul while in college also. He was a couple years older and more reserved. He loved music and was quietly magnetic, less like the other three in that he did not have to work that hard. He was confident and took his time. He did not spare the compliments and I was flattered. He was not striking in appearance but he had presence. He lived in Delaware and this was a challenge. He took me to a few concerts and we had a blast. He turned me on to new music and I liked his wilder side. I was invited to his family’ s home when my sister visited the University of Delaware where her boyfriend was a student. We hung out and I remember he charmed my mother. He was very adept at making people feel special. Eventually he was replaced by someone new and closer to home. However he called me at my parent’s house for years on holidays. This is my thing where guys often stay in touch. He was a sweet guy and we were close for awhile. Unfortunately he was taken way too soon. He may have passed in his 50s but I do not recall at this time. He left behind a wife and children. It seemed likely that alcohol may have been involved. Both Paul and another on of our mutual friends also died young due to substances. This is what I surmised from what I read and what I knew about their lives. Paul was also a Scorpio with a mature Capricorn moon. I was so sad to learn of his passing and no, Facebook was not in play. It was our friend the internet.
I pivoted after John back to the Pisces dating pool for the most part until I was 40 and retired from relationships. That is when Rick entered the picture. And the rest was history as they say.
I want to end this post with a novel Venus retrograde moment that arrived this morning. It was not a former flame who contacted me but a former client. I received an email from someone I worked with 4 years ago. We had worked together a while and her situation was quite serious. I could not transfer her with me when I changed jobs so I made a referral. I never felt like I was doing quite enough. Sometimes that happens. It still does in my current practice. She was wondering if we could resume working together. She also thanked me for my attempts to help her. She wanted me to know that my impact was not unseen. I do not know if we will reconnect but it felt like a gift from my Higher Self. I have been feeling quite inadequate and lacking this week in particular. I believe this woman whose spiritual side occasionally made an appearance wanted me to realize that not all is as it appears and words do not always tell the actual story.
This first video is a tribute to nostalgia and letting go of the past. i am nearing the time to pack all the men away for the duration. All of them.
This next very joyful video is a testament to pleasant reminders that the future is unwritten and even a cynic like me can still be given the gift of grace when least expected. I like the playfulness and whimsy of this song that was released around 2005 when I met Joel and had my second awakening. I went home today to my old hood and relished in that warm homey feeling I had sorely missed. I took many photos which will eventually make their way here. I am very excited to share a taste of Scorpio color with you shortly.
Paul loved music with an edge like Bowie, punk rock and artists like Blondie that who embodied many musical influences. We both liked Blondie and I did connect this tune with Paul for some reason. Maybe it was his determination. I wish he could have gotten his life together. All I can do is still work on mine since I still have the chance.
