Wednesday November 4th 1987 is sketched in my memory. I had created a chart for that date as it became a meeting chart of the highest order. It was the date I met the love of my life. I am no longer certain that Herman still is the highest ranking but I will keep him until a clear winner is declared. I think of him less these days but he was the prototype , the standard that anyone later would have to aspire to attain.
Today was a day like that day, especially since the 4th falls this year on a Wednesday. Can it really be 39 years ago? Why do I recall so many details, I remember my dress and his suit. Maybe because time is an illusion. Don’t tell an astrologer this though! The chart has some important aspects like Moon conjunct Jupiter on the IC, a Yod involving the moon, Venus, and Chiron, and Neptune and Ceres on the Ascendant. However the best meeting chart involving my life that I ever saw was May 11 2026. The Maurice meeting chart is amazeballs and should have produced great fortune for these two fated souls, but alas, it sure did not seem to deliver.
I am posting about November 4th because it is part of the Greatest Loves Tour, the 12th house grief project I have been creating since June 30th, I am hoping to wrap it up soon, around Mercury Direct. While Herman is not foremost on my mind, that relationship really transformed me and raised the bar on the intensity I required. Herman set the bar and Rick reminded me of Herman. Maurice reminded me of Rick. Maurice may be the last person I give my heart to because I really do think I should have quit while I was ahead. whenever I was ahead.
It is so interesting how loaded this week has been for me this year in particular. So much emphasis on birth, romance, and death. I met my LOML two days before my birthday. Then Rick and I share a birthday and begin dating in Scorpio season and lastly I pick as astrologer to work with based on his birthday November 5th, which is tomorrow. It is an odd juxtaposition reading Rick’s chart for him knowing the significant between ours and than many years later be on the reverse end of this with Maurice reading my chart with me.
Today was quite an ordinary day although I was hoping to see some magic. Last night though did hold some magic in America. It appears that people voted in a new government for almost all available open seats. This is historic but I am still bracing for possible impact. I do not think I need to explain why. Here’s to hoping that good will prevail and people learn from lessons. It is not as easy as it sounds. I keep regressing or revisiting familiar terrain. Maybe I should give myself more grace. The Kundalini may be clearing out some of those messy chakras that have been accumulating all types of residue.
Mercury Retro has been tough today. I ;eft my phone at home by mistake while out driving. my video platform refused to work for one of my sessions and my Roku remote button is broken My You tube addiction is not happy with this change. Too much usage has resulted in the need to replace the remote. I clearly have a problem with my streaming behavior.
I miss the mystery of Herman. I was less cynical when I met him. He was so different but yet so familiar. That familiarity was less familiar if you know what I mean. I did not have the vocabulary or lived in experience i do now. I never thought I would get over him. I finally did while grieving Rick. That was a surprise. However the fact that I rarely let anyone go entirely is unhealthy at best. I am not suggesting we cannot keep love in our heart. In my case holding on too tight has kept me stuck and weighed down. This is why I hope to release these men and soon. I am not closing off astral contact because i am lucky to have access and I know how lucky I am. The 3D business has to go! It leaves little room for manifestation. On some level the memories keep me less lonely but there are other solutions. I need to figure it out.
In any case, Herman is someone I spent numerous lifetimes with. It explains why we really did not need a courtship. We held so much commonality and so many synchs existed in our history this lifetime. I do not have an actual past life memory but I have some theories. It also occurs to me that some of these men may have been in my past lives simultaneously. This would actually explain the birth chart similarities between them. Maybe it is safer not to know. My circuits are just beginning to recover from all the K activation.
Here are some videos of songs I associate with Herman, who for now is very much still alive down South. I hope he is doing well and is clearing his Karma. We will probably meetup again in the Astral per usual.
Whitney was the soundtrack for this timeline. Her passion and tenderness mirrored the emotions of our relationship.
It wasn’t that Secret but probably should have been less public.
My song for him, the first Plutonian with spy- like tendencies.
His song for me, I loved it because it seemed quite spiritual and very tender. Soul family worthy. He is a Karmic mate, not a soulmate, but there still is Soul resonance that is timeless.
