Purple Forever

Here is my tribute to Prince, re published on the 1 year anniversary of his passing. As I write this, I witness another otter ( muskrat, groundhog, ??) sighting. He or she was too fast for me to capture photographically. Still cool to receive some awesome creature magick.

I want to use this opportunity to briefly editorialize on the evolution of my blogging, which is very apropos for a Mercury retro cycle. Initially I thought I would write a few posts about my spiritual journey, as an English student would for a teacher. My grades would be in the form of readers and comments. At least that is how it appears looking back. 2013 was an exciting and mysterious time for me and many others. My writing flourished here, and I grew as a result, both creatively and personally.

As my health began to deteriorate and my finances followed suit, my writing grew both more dark and more intimate. I let you in and shared more of my deepest fears and complicated musings. The polished writer facade became more flawed and exposed.

Please be open to every aspect of my writing and try not to draw any sweeping conclusions. Existence is about context and my blog reflects that context over the dimensions of space and time. Creative types are often both tortured and brilliant simultaneously. Please enjoy my Prince post as you contemplate that paradox.

much love, Linda litebeing

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I was preparing to buy groceries when the news came in. Prince is gone at age 57. Think tender and brash, shy and overtly sexual. Think 1999, Purple Rain, Diamonds and Pearls, The Most Beautiful Girl in the World, Raspberry Beret, Little Red Corvette, Money Don’t Matter Tonight etc.  Just Tuesday afternoon while I was driving to a medical appointment, Purple Rain came on the radio. I have not heard it in quite some time. I became very emotional and was surprised by my reaction. Could I have been sent a message foreshadowing this event? Quite likely.

I learned today that he also had an emergency visit to the hospital on 4-14-16 and was also released on 4-15-16.

But I am here and he is not.

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I do not have the energy to write a complete post. He had a Gemini Sun, Pisces Moon, and Scorpio Rising. His chart aligns…

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Follow the Winding Brook

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This is a draft from November 2014 that had not made it to press. It was almost complete, save a few sentences I added a few minutes ago. In light of where I find myself currently, this piece is quite significant. More will be revealed soon. Have a great Memorial Day weekend!

I chose this painting entitled Winding Brook to illustrate that life can be lived like an open road with many twists and turns. What is truly magical is that the name Winding Brook itself is significant in a deeply personal way. Two of the loves of my life ( unbeknownst to one another) resided at the Winding Brook cul-de-sac many years ago. I worked there when I first moved to Philadelphia. Nice housing development, even better metaphor. I knew it should appear here for my post-birthday offering.

I can honestly say that I am gaining more clarity regarding my future, especially in regards to life purpose. The past few days in particular have brought me insights that are leading me out of what seems at times to be a perpetual fog. Born with Sun conjunct Neptune, this tends to be my default position. The fog can be incredibly mysterious and envelope you in its magnificence but I don’t like to drive in it!

With just a few weeks more before I must decide to either pull a rabbit out of a hat ( irony intended) or take my retirement money early, the heat has been on. I take full responsibility for my financial predicament. Years upon years of choices have led me to where I am today. I understand my relationship with money much better now than ever and I am totally fine with it.

Like Prince says:

Money don’t matter to night (no, don’t matter)
It sure didn’t matter yesterday (yesterday)
Just when you think you’ve got more than enough
That’s when it all up and flies away (flies away, flies away)
That’s when you find out that you’re better off
Makin’ sure your soul’s alright (make certain that your soul’s alright)
‘Cause money didn’t matter yesterday,
It sure don’t matter to night

 

This song has been bouncing in my head the last few days and I agree with its premise. I want to make sure my soul’s alright. I just had another birthday and I find this occasion to be a fine time to engage in some honest reflection about the state of my soul. While Prince rarely allows his videos to remain online, this Scorpio Gemini hybrid sure can make a statement with his lyrics. Today the Sun is in Scorpio with the moon in Gemini and it mimics my natal positions almost exactly. I feel so much like me today and hope my message is indicative of  the intense whimsy that resides at my core.

Money is not my primary objective, but freedom to move freely and unencumbered in pursuit of my highest expression IS. I have tried the past couple years to tell myself it is alright to have a small life, in order to appease myself and become comfortable with accepting my reality instead of fighting it. Learn to live within limits and make do with your circumstances. This concept is spoken like a reluctant realist who has just come off a brutal Saturn cycle. I also have had a progressed chart loaded with  many Capricorn planets, a Cap MH and a Taurus ascendant for quite a few years now.

There lies the rub. I now can clearly see that teaching and speaking my truth have a lot to do with my ” next steps” on the highway of life. I thought this new break in the action was a chance to regroup, especially when the research interview easily dropped into my lap. Although the research position did not materialize, it helped solidify what matters to me. Work has typically been the bane of my existence. I do not fit into highly conforming systems. Being an outsider resulted in plenty of stress, wreaking havoc with my health and peace of mind. Most of my jobs were a not so great fit, but had aspects to them that I really enjoyed. I want to hold onto the positive aspects of being a “helper”. At the same time, I cherish inner peace. The nourishment it offers is unlike anything else.

How will I find balance between purpose and peace?

Stay tuned..

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Purple Forever

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I was preparing to buy groceries when the news came in. Prince is gone at age 57. Think tender and brash, shy and overtly sexual. Think 1999, Purple Rain, Diamonds and Pearls, The Most Beautiful Girl in the World, Raspberry Beret, Little Red Corvette, Money Don’t Matter Tonight etc.  Just Tuesday afternoon while I was driving to a medical appointment, Purple Rain came on the radio. I have not heard it in quite some time. I became very emotional and was surprised by my reaction. Could I have been sent a message foreshadowing this event? Quite likely.

I learned today that he also had an emergency visit to the hospital on 4-14-16 and was also released on 4-15-16.

But I am here and he is not.

 

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I do not have the energy to write a complete post. He had a Gemini Sun, Pisces Moon, and Scorpio Rising. His chart aligns very strongly with my Pluto Mercury signature. We both loved Purple and adored paisley.  Similar to Edward Snowden’s signature as well. To learn more about the Gemini Scorpio mix, please check out this article I wrote about Joan Rivers and Johnny Carson.

Have not gotten around to my Bowie retrospective yet. These things take time for me. I do not digest easily and it is the bane of my existence. I must learn how to absorb and transmit at a faster clip.

My header will remain up in its purple glory in memory of His Purpleness.

 

RIP PRINCE

WHERE HAVE ALL OUR ICONS GONE?

 

Listen here for Prince’s Super Bowl performance.

 

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Money Don’t Matter Tonight

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This song has been stuck in my brain for weeks now. I have not listened to this old Prince song in years. That’s until I noticed it on Ann’s blog here. I cannot get it off my mind. With my current financial challenges, it is no wonder that money or lack of money has been a source of musical contemplation ( among other things ).

When I consider that I have had Uranus transiting my 2nd house of money for a while now, it should come as no surprise that money slips through my fingers, or just plain eludes my grasp. Sometimes this transit results in windfalls or fortune out of the blue, but not in my case ( yet). What has happened is that I find myself with just enough. The sources change and the amounts vary, but my ruler Uranus is protecting me.

Never been one to get too caught up in the consumer game, yet I wish I could shower my loved ones with wonderful gifts on birthdays and holidays. I really like shopping for others and watching their facial expressions upon opening their gifts. I try to remind myself that there are many other ways to celebrate those you care about.  I could become bitter about my situation, but I am done with bitter. I have wasted enough time asking myself questions without answers.

I prefer bittersweet anyway ( chocolate, coffee) etc. ,  But I digress..

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This month of November has been so incredibly rich in the best possible way for me. Spending time with friends has been so rewarding. Birthday road trips, reunions with long-lost pals, meeting new friends, my cup runneth over with love all month-long. My INFJ  tendencies preclude large soirees and gatherings. I still tense up when meeting new people socially, even after all this time. Yet I have become more at ease in my own skin, and really enjoy myself so much more. With Pluto about to leave my 11th house of friends in a few months, I want to shake his hand. Pluto , you truly outdid yourself this time!  I really have the most incredible people in my life. Perhaps Pluto gifted me with more Plutonian type affiliations, and/or transformed some former connections into shinier, brighter, new ones. It is most likely that anything I experience outside of myself has to do with internal transformation. Call it the Law of Attraction, higher vibrations, or just better judgement, but I would not trade in any of these folks in ( yes that includes YOU); even for a newer car. Remember the song ” Make new friends but keep the old, one is silver but the other gold.” Well I cannot distinguish the new from old as all my peeps are dear old souls. When it comes to my tribe, we are talking  platinum all the way.

The kindness and generosity I have experienced lately boggles my mind. How did I get so lucky to deserve such good care? Truth is, we all deserve the best, but rarely embrace it for fear of loss or simply not feeling worthy. These are also Second House concerns. I used to find it curious that income and self-esteem would be contained in the same sector of life of the natal chart. But after living some time without financial solvency or reliable employment, I am beginning to see the connection.

I have some tough choices ahead of me if I do not secure a sufficient income soon. This is not news to me, just needs to be accepted as a  real possibility.  Yet, I am realizing more and more that I lately have so much more of the life I once only dreamed about. Good friends and a bunch of creative ideas waiting in the wings fulfills my soul and helps me sleep more soundly. Being who you really are and sharing yourself with others is the best job description I have ever seen. It does not always pay well, but the benefits are off the charts.

I can sleep well most nights because I take much better care of my soul. Prince and I would agree that the soul’s needs are much more important tonight.

And Every Night

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