I could be grocery shopping right now. But I am here with AC blazing on a Friday afternoon. We are having a heat wave and this new development took me by surprise. Everyone has been talking about the intense Mercury Neptune energy. Honestly for me it is like a regular day at the office ( when I actually went to an office.) Translation: I have Neptune Sun Mercury conjunct in Scorpio ( a stellium) so my mind naturally rides the waves of hyper-imagination, empathy, fantasy, and susceptibility to deception or illusion.
Having said that, I still am taking life slowly and simply for a few more days, focusing more on the inner journey and escapism entertainment. I am really enjoying this new Fox show Wayward Pines. I will not give away the plot twist but will say how wonderful it is to see Matt Dillon back on-screen and find a television series that seems original and captivating. Blending the familiar ( Matt Dillon) with the unfamiliar ( new mystery series) seems to be on today’s menu.
Which brings me to my update:
My health has been more stable the past few days. I continue to incorporate a greater variety of foods into my diet with caution and mild optimism. It has been over 2 months since my attack and I take comfort in this fact. While I still experience pain and discomfort, I believe that the passage of time without an episode indicates healing. I have begun to break out in pimples, which seems strange at first glance. My intuition tells me they are signs of toxins leaving my system.
My meditation practice is slowly coming back. I attended a soundbath on Sunday and it was lovely to hear the vibrations dance within the room and throughout my being. The healing helped activate my ability to go within for longer periods of time. Listening to my boy Matt Kahn has also served to relax me. He often refers to visits to the grocery store and these anecdotes really bring his message down to earth for me. As an empath, I often feel discombobulated in large stores filled with so much noise and activity. Listening to his escapades inspires me to be kinder to myself and others, wherever I go.
I finally put my Meetup to bed today. After switching the format and trying different ways to engage people, I decided to let the group fade away. I feel both relieved and excited. Relief in knowing I can channel my energy elsewhere and excited because another Meetup group invited me to join them as a group leader. While I often seem to succeed by operating independently, it was not happening with the Meetup. I do still hold a vision for a local sanctuary for the like-minded to come together and grow collectively. My contribution to this activity may still happen, but in a different form than I expected. I continue to latch onto the notion that failure is not a dirty word, but simply an attempt to try something new. Celebrating the attempt for its own sake is rather new for me. In Mental Health Recovery, celebration of any step forward in the client’s journey was the foundation of sound practice. Applying this principle in my own life seems awkward and forced. But I am working on it.
Lingering questions:
Why do I feel more at home in “the future” than in the NOW?
Is confusion the new normal?
Can watching Wayward Pines, Tomorrowland and 12 Monkeys account for my experience of malleable time or is it the other way around?
Why doesn’t WordPress announce its new features like live chat or statistics insights?
Am I becoming more comfortable with mystery in general?
NAMASTE
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Lovely to come back and reread again from 2015.. Sound baths are awesome.. Good to know you are nurturing yourself.. for I expect this is reflecting again where you are in life at the moment..
Keep doing what is pleasing you Linda..
Sending Love and well wishes always
Sue ❤
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Not really! I reblogged it because some of the astro energies are similar, I was very hopeful then and it felt good to me to reread my words. Sending love to you ❤ Linda
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Let’s hope you regain some of that past enthusiasm .. ❤
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I love the idea of celebrating every step forward, even if we don’t know what that means! There’s a lot of gentleness and acceptance in this writing and I appreciate your 2019 update as well! Ah, relaxing into the space that expands into new dimensions yet unseen while living through these times. Much Love, Ka
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Thank you for your lovely comments. Your mood seems so buoyant as I imagine you relaxing into the new dimensions. I will follow your lead. 🙂
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I stumbled upon this post while searching my archives for Neptunian material. With Chiron at the tail end of Pisces and Neptune in Pisces this is truly a time for profound healing and kissing the familiar goodbye. Cry, dream, create, sleep, pray, meditate, make love, let go and let God. blessings, litebeing
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Wonderful to know you are feeling so much better Linda, and taking life in your stride and getting back into meditating.. I did some Qi Gong on the lawn yesterday and was teaching my granddaughter how .. She soon got bored.. 🙂 and went back to her hoola Hoop.. 🙂 and had grandma doing a few twists 🙂 xxx ❤ Love your way. Sue
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You are on a roll Sue. It seems like you are taking your own counsel and loving and enjoying your Self. I do feel less pain, but now feel fatigue. Could be energetic changes and/or more of the body’s healing process. So happy how close you are with your granddaughter. Such a blessing! xxx Linda
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So glad to hear you’re feeling better!
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Sorry I did not reply sooner. thanks! 🙂
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Great post Linda… So glad things are easier for you now… Even though confusing… Answers normally come later so here’s to riding the experience… I will get around to replying to your mail… take care Barbara x
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Hi Barbara,
Kudos to your blogging marathon! I am slowly moving along and treading lightly. Friends like you make the difference. Strength lies in numbers.
looking forward. hugs, Linda
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ahhh…mystery 🙂
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Yes, we must be in synch 😉
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Thanks for the update. I am glad to hear that your health is getting better.
Your lingering questions are interesting. When I have questions like these, I put them to the universe and wait for an answer, like a dream, song, inner voice, recurring pattern of events or so. I am curious to know in which ways you receive an answer. Or if the questions will just dissolve. Because that is the answer sometimes. That there is no answer , but that the questions stops being important.
Hugs,
Karin
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Hi Karin,
I think it is improving, still cautious and hopeful. I like this approach and will give it a whirl. Paying attention is key when looking for a response. And sometimes there are no answers. Great to have you in my corner.
hugs, Linda
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