Birthday Blog

This picture above and header image were taken by me this morning. I am so grateful for the beauty of nature at this cross quarter season of Samhain.

I have been here many times before, envisioning plans and outcomes and being forced to either stay stuck or pivot when things don’t go my way. Well today is my birthday and a few things did not go my way. I have been feeling ill for a couple days and now it is looking like I am have a relapse. I am not entirely sure, but a throbbing pain that comes and goes came back strongly today as I was eating some food. My plan is to wait a couple hours ( since the food I ate does not mix with meds ) and begin taking the antibiotics. I lasted 1 week longer than I typically do between episodes. I am not sure what caused this episode. I looked back to a year ago and I was ill then also. I think this was brought on mostly by fear and a powerful Mars Pluto opposition. I am also considering that I am picking up collective pain and fear. Not sure, but it is definitely possible.

I traveled to Longwood on Monday, seeking the nature break I have been longing for. Apparently the meal I ate did not sit well ( but tasted great)  and I became quite ill while at the Gardens. This was a first for me. I asked staff for help . The man who drove me in a cart closer to the entrance is named Angel. I am not kidding!  I told him this makes a good story and I could tell that he gets it. I am grateful I was able to drive home and make it home okay.

That is what counts. I managed to take a few shots of my visit:

While in some ways the trip was not enjoyable, the pictures hold lovely images that transform into memories. Speaking of memories, on Sunday Nala Walla held an online Ancestral Healing circle. Some of her current and former clients were there. We worked together in 2021 to assist me with one of my four lineages. I believe this process created some major healing in unexpected ways. It was incredibly powerful for an online gathering. The Scorpio New moon energies were quite potent.

I am upset to be sick again on another birthday, but it is one of many things I cannot control. I took this week off from work in anticipation of the US Election. I did not want to deal with anyone or anything that would complicate my process. Plus I really needed some time to rest. I was able to do some of things I wanted to do but some activities may need to wait since my health comes first. Researching some new healers and working on a passport renewal may be a good use of my time. I do not want to leave my country, but would like to resume travel. Adventures in unknown places where beauty and mystery lurk is one of my passions.

As for the Election, I feared this outcome for over a year. Maybe longer, but for a good while. Why?  First, because Biden seemed old, even before he seemed debilitated. I did not appreciate the refusal of the DNC to allow a primary twice; once when Biden announced his re-election bid and again when he stepped down. How ridiculous to deny the people to weigh in.  I do not have illusions about many Americans. Many are petty, racist, misogynist, anti -Semitic,  and just plain stupid. I am not speaking about lacking higher education. I am speaking about lacking critical thinking.

Thank Goddess I grew up when college was affordable. I recently looked up college tuition for a number of schools, including where I attended ( a public university ) and was shocked by the figures. As an out – of – state student attending Temple today, I would have had to pay $ 34000 per year for tuition alone for a Psychology Degree. That is for just one year and it is a public institution.  Even with financial aid, I doubt I would have been able to attend if I was of college age now. I think it is absurd that you have to either be wealthy, very poor, or incredibly brilliant or athletic to have college be affordable. Kamala Harris was okay as an alternative to Fascism, but not my ideal choice. The laughing, lying, and evasiveness was not a good look. I kept waiting for her to get some good advice. Who were advising her?  I figure Doug, her likable spouse, will now be able to return to his law practice that he always says he misses so much. I wanted to see someone authentic and seasoned in the job. Someone who stands for something and is comfortable in the public eye. Bernie Sanders would have been great back in 2016. Marianne Williamson is not young, but younger that the white males who were being put up for office. Josh Shapiro or Pete Buttigieg have potential, if only this country would select a Jew or openly gay person. How did Obama even get in? Maybe being a Christian man who  of mixed race made him acceptable. I know this country and we are a flawed people. There are many reasons for the flaws, but there are flaws! Why do people not see this truth? Maybe because so many are still asleep.

I pray to live another year and find health and connection in this new solar return cycle. I figure there are reasons as to why we do not get rescued from suffering, individually or collectively. However I am grateful to have this community and the ability to share my truth.  May Source be able to protect us all until the time we are able to transcend our imperfections as a race.