The feature photo is a 3D representation of Unity Consciousness. My vehicle is parked next to a vehicle that displays the meeting date and reverse birthdate of the person that is attached to my heart. Keep in mind I do not look for the car and park next to it if available. I will notice that I park first and later that day or in the morning the vehicle appears next to me. This is a metaphor in my book. Could I be bringing this into my field? Maybe. Are we all one? Absolutely. Does that freak me out? It depends on the day.
As I type, Pluto is still retrograde but it will shift soon. Just a few days after the Pluto station in May, I met my person. I was not putting much thought into the station. I have no planets in early fixed signs, yet I do believe this station brought a Plutonian into my life, in he 12th house of past lives, the underworld, and what is unconscious. My 12th is his 8th. Different houses but similar vibes. Pluto transiting my 12th house has been an incredibly dark and deadening experience until quite recently. I did not realize I needed a third major spiritual awakening. I gave up on the idea of Ascension after the teachers began downplaying it. As the planet gets darker and darker, I feel more alone and more disillusioned. However in some moments my heart expands and my body can hardly contain the emotion within. I wonder where all this will lead.
The film Interstellar was a gamechanger for me. Seeing the “files ” in outerspace provided a new conecpt for time and space. A recent book also introduced me to the notion that we can reincarnate to an ealier time period. So I wonder is 2026 the recent timeline or a point in our history? Maybe it is a timeline far in the future that is a probability?
I vowed for years that I would never want to come back here again and was determined to avoid the dark reaces thhat keep souls tethered to this dark planet. Then I learned more about Twin Flames on YouTube. I was first introduced to this concept back in the late 1980s and began reading anything I could find on the topic of reincarnation and love. I needed to undertand what was I doing with this man. Why was I so drawn to him when we were so wrong for each other? Why couldn’t I just walk away? I learned about Soul mates and Twin Flames. Twin Flames were usually one’s counterpart that watched over you in the astral. You usually would take turns and would rarely meet on Earth. I quickly concluded that if i had a twin that he was a guide. Maybe Herman was a soulmate. I understand he is not a soulmate. I learned a few years later from a Channeler that he and I go wayyyyyyy back and keep showing up playing multiple roles. That would explain all our unusual dynamics. I did not share this info with him because it seemed like a bad idea. However he knew me so well from the get go. Every hour with him felt like a lifetime. Eternity resided in his gaze. Good thing he moved to Atlanta or we would still be going our push pull dance. Lately I considered that maybe I could have a Twin Flame here and now. Maybe that is why I returned here yet again. I will not reveal more today but am considering what embodiment could be like with that quality of love over endless time and space. Could that entice me to return one more time?
My recent foray into connecting with the Other Side has beenc both miraculous and depressing, Hearing from Rick has been one of the most magical moments this year. That is saying a lot because this has been quite a year. The thought of being with him again when I die is truly exciting. But do I really know if he will be there upon arrival? I don’t know. What I do know is that many men , some alive and some dead enjoy watching me. I expect this applies to all humans here. As a female, the idea of males trying to ocntrol me makes me uneasy. Connecting with my dad in Spirit was absolutely dreadful. He seems ro be the same as when he was alive. Rick seems much more open and honest and sweet. My own father could give a shit. What exactly does that say about me? The nightmare I had with him last night was so dark , bordering on evil. I am hoping that the figure in my dream was actually another man in the guise of my father. Then it would be easier to accept. The dream was not lucid so perhaps it was just a bad dream.
Many women want to be admired and watched. I think I have been watche don Facebooj by Maurice and this should not surprise me. If I did not look at Rick’s page, I would not have know he had passed. It is not that I do not look at the content of others. It has to do with the male dynamic, particularly the Scorpio mentality. I do own the fact that if I avoided social media , none of this would have happened. I just hate having so little control. The impact of mirroring relates to unity. Like attracts like sometimes. My family of origin thought my dad and I were similar although he had no Scorpio in his chart. We were alike in many ways but I do not think I am capable of the atrocities he displayed in his lifetime. I also have difficulty understanding hoe my mother and sibling were able to tolerate him. My refusal to conform is why I remain estranged from them. Writing today is fitting because today is my sister’s birthday and my parent’s wedding anniversary. i have no planets in Libra and Libra is my solar 12th house. I love the weather but do not enjoy the Libra energy.
Having said that, I keep trying to hang on. Realizing that I am not evil is important to hold onto. This is not a new insight but sometimes I wonder why I still attract such controlling stubborn men. I do not usually disucss this but I do not date Jewish men nor do I date Gemini suns. I stay in my lane. Spirit brought me a Jewish man suring my second awakeing and his name is Joal. He seemed like the most un Jewish person ever but in reality we could be related! then Spirit did it again during this awakening and fooled me. Spirit brought me a man with a Latin last name who also happens to be atleast partially Jewish. Spirit certainly can be creative. I do not know what purpose any of this serves except to demonstrate that there are no barriers to aligning with those we are contracted to meet. Like it or not, separation is an illusion and qunatum entanglement is ore real that what we have been taught to believe.
I wish you all joy , love , grace, and healing. Let’s all heal so we can finally leave the darkness behind.
