I know it is still the Year of the Fire Horse, but with Jupiter and Mars in my 7th house in Leo and Leo being my chart ruler, It is also the Year of the Cat. This is the first in a series about the Leo energy as it takes various forms.
Yesterday was one of those days where I took action although it was outside my comfort zone. I waltzed into the local SPCA. A few people suggested it would be a good idea for me to get a new cat. Why this is happening now, not sure? On Wednesday when my client began the session with good news, I was curious. She presented a gray kitten to me through the video. He was so cute. I got the memo that perhaps I should entertain adoption.
This location is where I adopted Jasmine many moons ago. The building is dreary and many cages were empty I had set an intention to just stay open. It has been years since I entered this building. I felt very out of place and did not feel excited. But I took a look around. I wanted a male cat, preferably a Ginger. There was one who appeared to weigh 50 pounds. He did not weigh that much, but he was really big. I petted his head, something I almost forgot how to do. He did respond well but I shut down, Either I am not ready or my cat was not there.
This experience was scary. Losing Dexter was so so difficult. Yet I know having him was so worth it. I have heard that our pets send us our next fur baby. Last year I believe I saw a cat on Facebook that I thought was meant for me. He was beautiful and it felt like love at first sight. I expressed interest but had many questions. Apparently by the time I was ready to take the next step, he was taken. Story of my life. Well not really but in that moment it felt that way. I was so angry. The woman in Facebook said she did not think I wanted him because I asked so many questions. She was given a piece of my mind. I felt lead on. But I got over it. However in that timeline it felt more right than on Friday. I am really out of practice with commitments. Life had become darker since 2015 when Dex passed. I had no notice that he was ill. I had to put him down the same die. Part of me died that day. Another part of me died on June 30th when I heard about Rick. I wonder if I am more dead than alive tonight. So much pain, loss, and heartache. I am not sure the Kundalini can compensate for all the pain. Time will tell. I would like to feel sustainable joy again. I would like to learn to trust in life. All this Leo was supposed to rev up my 7th house. Truth is, I have lost more people since the summer. This seems like an unlikely outcome for Jupiter and Mars in Leo. Maybe some of these people will come around or maybe I will make new connections. Gratitude remains for the people in my life. Yet it is so easy to sink back into despair. This spiritual awakening sometimes leans into another dark night. That also happened back in 2005 and 1979.
Yesterday was Bob Weir’s birthday, a day he shares with fellow musician John Mayer. This is the first birthday since Bob’s passing. John posted about their relationship and wrote it to Bob as if he was here. He basically said he would he would continue to share the rest of his birthdays with Bob forever. I plan to do the same for Rick. The post really saddened me, especially since I recently had another Rick Dream. We were both back at our old job where we met. I hung out with him and he was very happy. It was a letdown to wake up.
People tell me I am better with cats. I do agree. It is really hard for me to open my heart back up. I did that with Maurice because I did not seem to have a choice. That turned out to be quite a departure for me. We will have to see if it was worth the investment. He also said ” I should consider inviting a cat into my life again. ” What strange wording. I am still not sure if he was talking about an actual cat. I wonder if much of what he said was even done consciously. In any case, I remain somewhat receptive to the idea. If my furbabies have a new candidate in mind, I will be shown the way. Perhaps Rick can also send me a new man. One with emotional intelligence, minimum insecurities, a kind soul, and a good head of hair. Afterall it is the Year of the Cat and Leos are known for their manes.
Halloween will be here very soon and the veil has already thinned. Enjoy this classic performance.
I do not know how Maurice knew how much I love cats. Maybe its the ” downloads ” or he just got lucky. A few months ago this song started playing on the Pandora App. I had not heard it since the 1970s as far as I can recall. When it plays it reminds me of Leo energy and the possibility of attracting more of it my way. Leo also rules the heart. Let the transits and my higher self do their thing.
