Note the header image is intentional by featuring two cats and a cake lol!
Greetings from the very end of my solar 12th house. What this means is metaphorically speaking I am still in the womb, possibly starting labor. I am not breathing on my own and am still being supported by my mother, However, change is afoot.
Why all the dramatic buildup? I do not think I considered the relevance of this date until it became important in my story. I could have been born today. In fact I was told that I was past due my delivery date so I could have been an October baby. The day before our birth is darkness before the dawn. It is the house of secrets, the unconscious, unlimited mystery. In my incarnation, this is represented by Maurice.
At some point I promise news of Rick and Maurice will dwindle. Not today but soon. Today was quite ordinary. I awoke from another somewhat upsetting confusing dream. I tried untangling it but lost motivation. I attribute the last few dreams to be products of poor sleep and stress. Plus a possible cold. I am not certain. I miss the astral intrigue and am certain this will return at some point.
I worked today and endured Mercury retro frustrations. At 11: 05 AM on 11/05/26 there was a knock on my door. It was an apartment manager and Mario the new maintenance supervisor. I met him once before a few months back . I expected them but not necessarily at exactly 11:05 AM. It is not lost on me that the name Mario is similar to Maurice. It was also funny when he asked me if he could enter my bedroom. It was to replace an alarm battery but previous maintenance did not actually ask. I was thinking Maurice seems to do most things without permission in my experience. In any case it is refreshing that most of my Uranus in 3rd house drama that plagued the early years in this building has seemed to fade. This gives me faith that life can improve.
The midterms seem too good to be true but again, I need to watch my thoughts. My main focus for tomorrow is to buy a new Roku remote. My priorities are tied to my YouTube obsession. My birthday seems like an afterthought.
But I digress. I have to ask myself if Maurice had a different birthday would I be where I am at now? Let’s say his profile did not list his date of birth. It no longer does. If it appeared a few years ago like it does now, we would not be acquainted. I would not have booked a reading. Maybe he would have friended me but I cannot see why. Maybe because my birthday is listed. Last year on this day I d md him and wished him a happy solar return as his almost birthday twin. Irony is a funny thing. He responded with a fire heart emoji. It is still sitting there in Messenger. Was the emoji foreshadowing? All I know is that details do matter more than we know or care to know. As an astrologer I want to know everyone’s birthday. I wondered if I would feel his energy at all. Not so far. I was aware of the Mario synch but one could say that was contrived. But yet there is the Kundalini. He gave me my birthday gift about six months early. Spoiler Alert: Maurice transmitted the K to me. I am not sure if it was conscious. He was not willing to talk with me. All I know is that it is difficult to forget someone everytime your heart hurts are you insides begin to burn and churn and do the K dance. I felt some of it today. It feels tamer but it could be the cold, the rainy damp weather, or other factors beyond my awareness.
Last year at this time he was not on my mind other than whether or not I would commit to a reading. I liked that I knew of this person with a November 5th birthday but Rick was numero uno. Life has drastically changed for not only myself but many people in my circle. Some of them will no longer enjoy birthdays. This saddens me. I am grateful that I probably will be alive tomorrow to see another year. The solar return chart looks quite good. I am hopeful. I need more time here.
Should I celebrate Maurice’s birth? Not an easy question. It depends on the true nature of our relationship. Without him I may not have had this new spiritual awakening. I certainly would not have K activation. Still am wowed by how I qualified for this spiritually? I do not feel like I met the minimal requirements but I cannot deny this experience away. Today I reread a post from August. I write bluntly about my somatic experiences. This really is my reality.
Thank you Maurice. Many happy returns!
I first heard this song in 1982. My boyfriend David took me to his friends birthday party. I liked it immediately. David brought plenty of new experiences to my life. Something as simple as a new Birthday Song felt exciting and liberating. Thank you David for bringing the fire back then. This is why I am sharing this for Maurice. Even though I am not feeling joy for him at this moment, I realize his presence on this planet has impacted me. It cannot be denied. Here’s to joy, liberation, excitement, vitality and love for all.
