New Moon Melancholy

As Scorpio season wanes and the sun moves into Sagittarius today, I am eager to post about my New Scorpio moon experience. So many bleed-ins from the present and past, possibly mixed with my future?

The festivities started last Saturday November 14th in the CVS parking lot. After shopping I return to my car. Parked next to me is a red MG Midget, a relic from the past. As the driver leaves the vehicle, I say ” I like your car. ”

And so it begins.

My first serious boyfriend Paul ( who would not care at all I am using his first name) drove a dark red MG Midget and at that time I had not seen one before ( and frankly have not seen many since). Maybe his Moon in Aries helped him choose the color. I loved that car, a sporty 2 seat convertible that drove us many places together back in the day. I knew immediately that this sighting was a sign from the Divine. What I had yet to discover was its significance. I clearly miss many signs and symbols as I become distracted, but this was such an easy one. I really like cars and notice them often. So who and whatever was guiding me was definitely on point.

I have no baggage with Paul, this wasn’t about him. My mind started leaping on the ride home. I thought of another boyfriend Paul I had met a year or so earlier. I would not say we have huge ties anymore, but who knows? It quickly dawned on me that November 14th, today in this story, was his birthday! I say was, because he is dead.  While he and I were about the same age, he died quite awhile ago. I blogged about it somewhere. It appears from my research that this death was not of natural causes, but I am speculating. I know he had struggles but had hoped he found a way to keep them at bay. So I began to sob….

I sat in the sadness, soaking up all the Plutonian energy. Then Bono came on the radio. The U2 front man has Cap rising and Scorpio moon, potent as this lunation has Saturn in Capricorn as its final depositor. Bono which also has this Saturn placement natally. Did you know his real name is Paul? Did you connect this to the Pluto Saturn conjunction of 2020 which is connected to this New Moon? See how astrology operates and why I am so passionate about it.

First The Sweetest Thing comes on, and I am smiling and crying. These are all blue eyed boys and I am the brown eyed girl, lol! Then the radio plays All That You Can’t Leave Behind and the water works go full throttle. This song is about death, release, and forgiveness and it triggers me about another flame who shares my birthday with this distinction of being born on a New Scorpio moon. The final song on the cosmic playlist is Broken Arrow. I know the Rod Stewart version but this was sung by the songwriter Robbie Robertson from the Band, who is part Native American. Apparently he wanted to incorporate some elements from his native heritage. This song is incredibly intense and I associate with the love of my life, Capricorn rising, Scorpio moon. I really feel my life within this song. Robbie released it in 1987 when I met said love of my life ( thus far). I researched his chart to find linkage and I did discover Pluto right on his descendant. Both LOML and myself have Pluto in the 7th.

I allowed myself to feel everything: sadness, grief, longing, emptiness, etc, I really tapped into my loneliness. Around this time period I have been studying Animist Psychology and having very occult/mystical leaning dreams and mid-waking visions. I have not thoroughly processed these. but some themes include former loves, ancestors, living out loud, and my beloved cats who I believe are now among my guides.

As Venus enters Scorpio, I will continue to remain as open as I can to my guidance. I am not assuming these men, alive or dead, are trying to contact me. I am grateful for what they gave me and what I learned from relationship.

car images courtesy of wikipedia.org, public domain