Who Are You ? Part II

This is the next segment in the Who are You? series that examines my ever-shifting identity. The first installment addressed my ancestry and where I came from. This piece considers my current state of being. I have been busy, mostly internally. I find that many of my attempts to entertain myself have fallen flat as I realize that time is fleeting and I need to be employed. Can’t you hear it, tick – tock, tick – tock?

September is here. It is Labor Day in the US, the unofficial end of Summer. I have visited September months ago in my mind and now my thought form has manifested. There was a time, an innocent time, when September lifted my spirits simply by arriving. I can still visualize shiny new brown leather shoes, ready to be broken in. And then of course came the pièce de résistance, September Vogue. It wasn’t really the actual clothes themselves that set my heart a flutter, as I am not a fashionista at all. For me, the excitement was in discovering the new trends, color schemes, and accessories for the fresh new season. The September issue was huge and bulky, filled with exotic advertisements that promised fulfillment of dreams. If only it was so simple now.

I work tirelessly to prevent sinking into a permanent blue mood by following passions, curiosity, and/or hunches. Sometimes following the thread leads to peace. Other times it leads to bleak uncertainty.

Here are a few examples of what I am into now :

What I am doing: I take myself places that have historically altered my mood in a good way. While I am a vastly different person spiritually, certain activities still whisper a promise of joy.  Movies, art museums, walks in nature, restaurants, visits with friends ; I have tried them all.  My latest trip to the Phila Museum of Art offered up close and personal views of wonderful creations, but the trip itself was unpleasant and exhausting. Yet, I was able to capture some images to share with you.


What I am thinking: I have been working on raising my vibration and resisting the temptation to stay in fear and hopelessness. I have been bombarded with childhood memories triggered by spending time on my High School Reunion Facebook Page and watching a certain television series ( to be explored later in this essay.) The memories are sweet and bitter, but not bittersweet. Some recollections are joyous and others are ghastly. There are also a few that don’t really register much emotion, more of a hmmmmm.. I am often balancing my need to problem solve with the desire to be in the flow. This often trips me up. The past few weeks has resulted in many electrical and technological challenges, before and after Mercury retrograde. Cable, Internet, Laptop, landline, kitchen fixture, thermostat, full throttle power outages, often intermittent and without warning. The newest wrinkle is I can call out on my phone, but no one can call me. This does seem like a metaphor for my identity at this moment. I feel that others don’t see me, hear me, or value me. This does not mean that I am not seen,  heard, or valued, but that my perception is distorted. I feel very disconnected or invisible most of the time.

Searching for work has brought out my cynicism and resentment. These personal traits do not suggest high vibrations.  As with most issues,  I vacillate between strategic thinking and letting go. When I let go, I feel like I ought to be doing something practical. While in problem solving mode, I consider that I am trying too hard and need to slide into the moment and align with Source.

What I am reading: Just like most activities, I read more than one book at a time.  Its how I roll. But  Playing the Ascension Game by Diana Stone has been an unusual diversion that may turn out to be a “game changer”. Diana Stone was an astrologer, shaman, author, and Aquarian provocateur. I do not recall when I got wind of her, but eventually discovered her website and got on her mailing list. Her newsletters were long-winded but quite enthralling. Withe her Sun on my Ascendant, I found a true partner in crime. We corresponded a few times and she even read my blog! She was best friends with the awesome astrologer  Donna Cunningham, who I also had the privilege of knowing online. They both departed recently and Diana’s passing prompted me to buy her book. It is written in a conversational style and covers so many topics on metaphysics. It is close to 500 pages long and is close in size to that September issue of Vogue! It reads like a diary of the coolest kind, as she recounts her experience with traveling to several dimensions and uncovering all sorts of bizarre occurrences. Her  accounts in the Coffee Chronicles lead me to drink a vanilla latte today after a long break from all things coffee. Her book makes me see miracles again, even if only vicariously. It reminds me that I once lived this way. It is THAT compelling. This isn’t really a review, but get your hands on this book.

What I am viewing: I am perpetually viewing something, or so it seems. Black Mirror, Q Anon videos. Matt Kahn. Gaia TV, WordPress blogs ( yea!), articles on Ascension, job listings, Facebook posts, emails, etc. Note how I include all screen activity as viewing. It is not the same as reading off-screen. Tonight I will focus on one series that has me blissfully distracted. The AMC series Mad Men has become an addiction that leaves me wanting more. The show is about a Manhattan advertising firm in the 1960s. It focuses on several characters, but Don Draper is the big fish, if you will. He is a man with a flimsy identity ( sounds familiar?) who exhibits complexity, compassion, and recklessness. He is a tough nut to crack during a very tumultuous time in our planet’s history. I watched a few episodes while it was airing, but have taken to binge-watching it now via Netflix. The series begins where I began, in New York City in 1960. Watching this show allows me to experience some of what was happening in my childhood, but now as an adult. I lived through most of this decade, but was too young to really taste it. The narrative emphasizes how hard it must have been to be female in mid-century America. Women were called girls and were treated  mostly like porcelain dolls or whores. Expectations were low and alcohol seemed to be running from the faucets. Watching this series helps me understand how my parents were socialized. The field of advertising fascinates me, from the artistic angle. I considered briefly entering this field as a writer. In high school I discovered that one of my classmate’s father was in the business. He showed me a little about what goes on behind TV commercials and I was captivated by his insights. Advertising still strikes me as a fascinating blend of  psychology and art, although I am less and less a capitalist with every breath I take.

Don Draper is played by the actor Jon Hamm, who happens to be a Pisces. He is also a recovering alcoholic who spent some time in Rehab. According to Google, he also was in an episode of Black Mirror! Gotta love those synchs. His Piscean persona is so evident in the Don Draper character. His aka could be Dapper Don as his character is so well put together, at least externally. Tall, handsome, creative, charming, and sometimes sensitive. He is also a chronic liar, womanizer, and escape artist, expert at shape-shifting and manipulation. A stunning example of a wounded soul painted over with a illusory handsome veneer.

Jon Hamm happens to be a great actor in a series that contains an excellent ensemble cast. At times it seems like I am watching an old fave The Sopranos, because there is an overlap between big business and the mob. The other parallel is more subtle, but so powerful. Many of the most profound scenes are portrayed without dialogue. What isn’t being said is what stands out here. This creative technique was also very skillfully executed in The Sopranos.  I wonder if some of the writers worked on both shows. Update: Damn I’m good! Just read an article about Mad Men creator Matt Weiner that said that he wrote a couple of Sopranos episodes. Either I am psychic or a really great observer of television writing or both!

I continue to be smitten with subtlety as an expression of life. What isn’t said is often more palpable than what is spoken. The role of the observer is closer to “real” than identifying with a bunch of cells encased in human flesh. The less obvious, more nuanced messages and clues often lead me out of darkness these days. I do process and receive the dark, but must admit that sustained light has been a scarce visitor these days. The numerous diversions and distractions rarely lead me anywhere solid. I am learning to adjust to living an untethered life. But it ain’t a cakewalk, this ascension business. I am not giving up, but am definitely struggling. Fortunately there is so much more to watch on Netlflix. I will take refuge wherever I can nowadays.

As I took in this sculpture last week at the Art Museum, it revealed a subtle message to me. The Bob Marley tune Three Little Birds entered my mind.

Don’t worry bout a thing, cause every little thing’s gonna be alright.

 

The Road to Resilience

Death and grief are frequent visitors in my heart and soul this week. Resilience is the elixir for those in pain. blessings, Linda

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This is a guest post I wrote for amberskyeforbes.wordpress.com back in 2013. While reviewing my draft folder I discovered it and concluded the message is timely. Resilience is one of my favorite topics and is front and center in my consciousness today. I hope it resonates for you also.

Thank you Amber for having me as a guest blogger today. I want to share some thoughts I have about human resilience in the face of loss. Life is a series of continuous losses. After you take your first breath, you find your way on the path towards your final one. Our cells constantly regenerate. In fact, it is known that our bodies completely change every seven years. Typically people equate death with loss and sometimes use those terms interchangeably. Yet, loss is pervasive and incredibly universal. Here are some common losses to consider: loss of health, loss of youth, loss…

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Magnificence in Motion ~ I AM THAT I AM

Hey litebeings! As I continue to find my new voice, I came upon a blog of mine that illustrates the spiralized nature of awakening. While the current flavor is different, I see the message to strongly reflect my journey rather well. As we continue to live during these profoundly provocative and passionate times, may we grow stronger, wiser, heart-centered and peacefully woke.

love ya, Linda ❤

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Hello everyone, this is my contribution to Litebeing’s Magnificent Challenge. I waited until today to complete my post because I needed some time to put it all together. I am thrilled with the response we have gotten. After posting a reminder yesterday, two more bloggers added their entries to the mix. Thanks Dayna and Michael for sharing your reflections on what makes you “you“. There is still some time left to enter the challenge. Why not take a few minutes and conjure up  some of your magnificent essence now? There is also a shot at a free reading and this nifty badge to display on your site!

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First, a little bit about the process. I don’t think I ever intended to create blogging challenges. I would receive an idea that sparked my enthusiasm and soon after, I would receive another notion that it would make an excellent…

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Art is My Medicine ~ Winter’s Bones Edition

Hey litebeings,

Winter is incredibly damp and frosty today, chilling me to the bone. It is high time for some art therapy to the rescue. Today’s featured art is by hishida shunso.

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I was inspired by the muted colors and soft imagery, not to mention the hydrangea symbolism that reflects my Gravatar.

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And thus we begin . . .

May we all remember that we are protected and loved and take comfort in the knowledge that we create our world with every breath….

Please take the time to view this powerful video. I promise you it will be a perfect way to begin 2016.

 

Happy New Year litebeings!

THE POET BY DAY


If you are viewing this post from Facebook or email, it’s likely you will have to click through to watch the video. 

May this be the year we let go of certainty and embrace mystery.

May this be the year we know love as respect and peace as decision.

HAPPY 2016!

Love,
Jamie

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Share Your World ~ Litebeing Style – Part 2

On my birthday I decided to be more playful for the year ahead. I can be sooooo serious. Well, seriously?? Yes, I am afraid so.  This is why I am grateful to Cee for posing some great questions via Share Your World for some blogging fun. To join in on this challenge, just visit her lovely blog. Or just stick around to take in her gorgeous photography.

Ready for some self-disclosure? Let’s go:

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What would be your ideal birthday present, and why?

I just had a birthday and got to celebrate it many times. While I would really like a soulful, purposeful way to serve the planet that also compensates me comfortably, having so many wonderful people in my life is the gift that keeps on giving. But I am still receptive to both!

What color would you like your bedroom to be?

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Would you prefer snowy winters, or not, and why? 

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Snow is so beautiful, especially as it beings to hit the ground or right after the precipitation ceases and no footprints are evident on the fresh blanket of goodness.

And yet, I would be very pleased if this year was snow-free. Why? because it makes traveling difficult and sometimes treacherous.

Would you rather go a week without bathing, but be able to change your clothes, or a week without a change of clothes, but be able to bathe?

Where did she get this question? When in hermit mode, I don’t really care either way. But after a few days, the socks would have to go!

Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

Last week was rather disappointing, but I enjoyed a pancake lunch at Cracker Barrel and receiving a check for $11.o1 dollars. That was definitely Spirit-led.

This week I am excited about a possible out-of-town guest, some home remodeling, and my blog giveaway and readings sale. We are very close to reaching 500 followers and my 3rd blogiversary will be here in about a month. Where does the time go?

Most importantly I am grateful for days of decent health, nights of uninterrupted sleep, and guidance to help me see in the dark.

 

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Gemini New Moon: Walk and Don’t Look Back

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This image looks very similar to the snapshots I took back in 1990 when I went to Runaway Bay Jamaica.

My Jamaican adventure is a great entre into how to do this New Moon at 25 degrees Gemini. With Mars at 24 degrees Gemini closely conjunct and Mercury prancing direct once more, life has a spring back in its collective step.

Frankly I have become weary of writing astrology event articles since I seem so out of synch with the rhythms, floating in my own personal universe. But this one is different.

The lunation is very close to my own Gemini moon at 21 degrees Gemini and it hits my 5th house cusp. Coincidentally my progressed moon just came home to its original position, heralding a lunar return! I do feel more alive today, albeit sleepy (staying up very late playing computer games can do that!) Cards, computer games, photography, crossword puzzles, Facebook, twitter, reading, writing, blogging, run on sentences ~ all very Gemini.

Moon in Gemini is not about feeling emotions. It enjoys conversations about feelings! However I am learning to bridge the disconnect between heart and mind. My moon in the 4th house loves the soulful atmosphere but still grabs onto logic and reason. But where does that leave us?

But I digress, very Gemini indeed..

Musical inspiration often arrives first for blog ideas. The song Walk and Don’t Look Back popped into my head a week or so ago and I was going to use it for some other topic. But I am glad I saved it because it does a great job highlighting Sun Moon Mars in Gemini sextiling Uranus in Aries and Jupiter in Leo. Stay tuned, I explain later in the post. Chiron is squaring the Gemini stellium at 21 Pisces, but I say, don’t let him drag you down. If you have cleared out enough sludge this past year or two, Chiron will not be riding shotgun on your joyride.

I had dreamed of Jamaica for years and knew I had to visit. As often as I had traveled with my family to the Caribbean, we never chose this magical place where reggae, rum, and spicy cuisine form a holy trinity of passion, freedom, and relaxation. I loved Bob Marley and I also longed for white beaches and turquoise waters. I decided to travel alone as I needed to escape from some romantic drama. While I was afraid of traveling all by myself, I was determined to treat myself to a long deserved vacation. I found the experience initially to be filled with loneliness and sadness. What have I gotten myself into? Did I make a huge , expensive, mistake?  I had no place to hide so I felt my emotions and journaled about them. I was going to commit to this adventure. Very quickly the situation changed. I made a new Italian friend who spoke excellent English. Her traveling partner had to abruptly change plans, so she was also vacationing by herself in Jamaica. We became fast friends and spent most of the trip together. While our personalities were very different, we complemented one another and made lemons out of lemonade.

Less than one year later, I was boarding a plane alone to Milan Italy. My friend invited me to stay with her in Italy for a couple of weeks. I visited Milan, Rome, Venice, Lugano, Zurich, Bergamo, Pompeii, Naples, and much more. We did this all in 2 weeks. How did this happen? I had one of the most amazing experiences of my life. This was so much more than a vacation as I was invited into the life of an average Italian, staying in her home, meeting her friends and family, eating home cooked food, shopping at local markets, swimming in a city pool, and feeling a bit more Italian than before. I got a peek inside the life of my Italian ancestors in present time.  Did I forget to mention I would also fall asleep at night dreaming about seeing Europe? How in the world did my trip to Jamaica lead me all the way to Italy and Switzerland? The following year she came to stay with me in the US. One decision led to two transatlantic trips over the course of 2 years. Being bold, communicating about emotions, and following your dreams can be very indicative of this lunation parried with 2 sextiles from Jupiter and Uranus. Taking a leap and staying open allowed me to make a unique connection and the universe took notice.

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In my case, my natal Venus at 19 Sag is being activated and has formed a grand fire trine. This would be a great time for a vacation! While I do not have the resources to travel at the moment, I am almost ready to leave my sanctuary and have some fun. I hope you will do the same. Look to where 19 to 26 degrees of Aries, Gemini, and Leo are in your chart to figure out how to best create your celebration. Much love to Gem Moon blog sisters Jamie, Debra, Renate, and Amanda. I am so blessed to be in such great company.

This old Peter Tosh classic demands you leave the past behind and move forward, full steam ahead. I hope it inspires you to feel, sing, dance, and dream big!

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Help Me See My Situation Differently, I Humbly Ask All of You

Brief Update 5-12-15 : A huge thanks to all who have responded to my plea. Blessings to all of you. I am deeply moved by the outpouring of kindness both on the blog and by email. I am still very much in the thick of it, but want all my readers to know I have read each and every response. The further I delve into my predicament, the more I see that I must hand it over to Source. I must find a way to change my fear and pain into peace and serenity. While most of my struggles may seem random, one conflict is beginning to look quite insidious and dark. I hope I can find the strength to face whatever outcome(s) materializes.

Please keep the love, healing energies, and prayers, etc, coming. I am so very grateful to belong to this beloved community that really represents the best definition of  a “global family.”  Much love, Linda

I am asking all of my readers to send me love and healing in whatever form(s) you choose. After employment woes, difficulty at my home, and a serious health crisis, another series of unexpected financial surprises has arrived at my door. I received 3 upsetting notices in the mail within less than 1 week. I will keep the details private as they matter only to me. What is critical is that they have sent me further down a black hole into the void.

I have been struggling with finances for years, and was beginning to see some relief once I made the decision to take my pension. But now a series of 3 events has me scrambling to breathe.

I could say this is just more of transiting Uranus in my 2nd house of finances, but Uranus is soon applying to trine natal Venus. Perhaps it is transiting Chiron squaring natal Venus, but I am not certain.

The old story I tell myself is screaming in my ear ” You are unworthy of happiness and you deserve to suffer!” or ” This is payback for everything you have done wrong to others and your enemies are celebrating!” I know this is so Scorpio , yet this is my truth at this moment. There are many moments just like this one, when I just don’t see the point in being here. It seems like I have accomplished all I ever will and that I have loved all who I will ever love, and that I am just killing time and space. I want to see this differently, but I don’t. Peace eludes me, and it is not for lack of trying. My plight seems inevitable.

I need some help, NOW.

Thank goodness I have Dexter to keep me here, along with the hope that I do not see my life clearly. This is not a Neptune mess as I am in a Neptune trine cycle. I just came out of a yucky Neptune square to my MH/IC that was full of deceit, lies, and general disillusionment. I thought I had weathered the storm, especially after Saturn left Scorpio at the end of 2014. But life keeps getting grimmer and grimmer and I feel little hope that I can fix my situation. I feel so tired.

Mostly everything I have tried to do to fulfill my heart and soul’s calling this year has either failed or fizzled out. I do still have my writing, but worry it is not as effective as it once was. I feel directionless and hopeless. I am overriding my ego and letting you see me in my vulnerable state. I want to be seen and express my sorrow and despair with integrity and purity.

Both my new radical gratitude practice and my new philosophy” Life is Conspiring in my Favor” are simply not working. I want them to work. I want to believe that I do matter and that I can transcend the wounds of my past, along with the sad stories I created to understand the wounds.  I know better on many levels, but I still feel so powerless and defeated. Meditation, prayer, asking for assistance from my guides, etc has not made any impact.

So I am asking for assistance. Thank you all for reading my words, viewing my images, and believing in my ability to spread the light, even when I have my doubts.

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Grace with Wings

 Very Inspiring Blogger Award

I like to keep up with awards but sometimes I cannot do so. The timing is off somehow. Today the time is fine to do a post that is “late”.  Retrograde cycles are excellent for catching up with what seems to be temporarily cast aside. With Mercury, this can apply to writing.

Annesquared is a very cool blogger friend who nominated me back in July 2014. We had an excellent communion when I gifted her with a free telephone reading on one of my blog giveaways. She blogs about being an INTJ and other very interesting, diverse topics. Thank you Anne for recognizing the intuitive healer in me by taking a chance and helping me spread my wings. I am grateful for this award and your support.

Since inspiration is something I highly value, I am happy to receive this token and pass it on to others that inspire me.

Rules

1. Display the logo of the award.
2. Link to who nominated me.
3. Say seven things about yourself.
4. Nominate  fifteen other bloggers
5. And in doing said nomination, link over to them

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SEVEN SAVVY SELF STATEMENTS

1- I adore old buildings and places with plenty of history. I can often sense the character of a place by walking around and taking in the energy.

2- I am told that I have a great sense of humor, especially when I am not being so “serious”. I enjoy irony, word-play, and yes, sarcasm from time to time. Working on letting the sarcasm go.

3- I like walking outside in the Winter when the air is clean and crisp. Love how alive I feel and seeing my breath as I exhale.

4- Room temperature water is my favorite drink, not too cold. I rarely go anywhere without some water. 

5- I was born without a gall bladder and was horrified that I lived so long in the dark. Do you wonder if you may be missing an organ or two? One of the reasons this is underreported is that we can live fine without some of them ( lungs, heart, brain are essential) and most people would not know unless they are having particular medical problems. I wonder if my original people are gall bladder less?

6- I am becoming more comfortable looking silly or goofy. This is a real shift for me.

7- I have so many famous friends in my dreams. Once I dreamed I was hanging out with Julia Roberts ( a fellow Scorpio) and offered to do her chart for free. When I wake up it seems odd that I don’t know Julia or Brad Pitt, Mick Jagger, Cameron Diaz. Maybe my parallel self is an entertainer and moves in these circles while awake.

In these very exciting yet confusing times, inspiration can be as necessary as oxygen and water. Physical reality can be so fast paced, contradictory, and overwhelming.

Inspiration can be described as grace with wings.

So in that spirit, let me introduce you to my nominees:

http://cindyknoke.com/

A picture is worth a million words when Cindy takes them.

https://wheredreamsbecomereal.wordpress.com/

Renate’s stories are so rich with meaning and depth of soul.

https://inwestphiladelphia.wordpress.com/

newish blog with such heart ~ adore the exuberance and love for my old college ‘hood.

https://karinfinger.wordpress.com/

Karin’s take on spirit is nuanced with layer upon layer of consciousness and truth.

http://juliannevictoria.com/

Julie’s love of life and optimism/ truth are splashed all over her blog pages.

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Some of these blogs are well established, with tons of readers and “cred”.  Others are just beginning to catch fire and take flight.

Mixed metaphor? Oh well..

Needless to say, I walk away feeling understood, enriched, and renewed in a very personal way.

Grace has a way of showing itself to me in such a manner. What about you?

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