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Peace Among the Ruins

I am at peace. I woke up this way after a long uneventful sleep. Many hours later, this feeling nurtures my soul. I could attribute it to the new moon conjoining my natal moon ( 1 degree away) and Jupiter retrograding tomorrow exactly conjunct my natal sun. But I do not think it has anything to do with it!

Every so often I enter this spaciousness and one of the gifts at my disposal is to carry over my dream life residue into my waking life. This is not easy to describe, but if you are a “dreamer”, you will understand.

I attribute this blessing as a grace that may have arrived because I allowed myself to feel my pain and grief. I have been pummeled by the sudden deaths of Anthony Bourdain and a former patient. I see these losses as unnecessary and tragic. But guess what, we do not get to judge.

I have found myself reciting the Serenity Prayer often these past few days:

The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.

 

 

I am also moved to include a quote that I find helpful in time of tragedy:

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That’s how the light gets in.

Leonard Cohen

 

Sometimes we become immersed in an experience the dwells outside of time, space, astrology and it is seemingly paradoxical. A few days before the pummeling began I saw a job advertisement to run programming for a Grief program. While it seemed in some ways like an unlikely fit, my guidance nudged me with a quiet whisper. Only a couple of days after I emailed the organization, I was contacted for a phone interview. I was quite surprised since I did not seem a logical choice. The interview took place less than a day after I learned of my former patient’s death. I carried on with the interview anyway and allowed myself to just go with the flow. I was given feedback that I would bring a lot to the position. While I do not know where this will take me, I follow my nudges more and more each day. I am living proof of someone who can hold sadness in one hand and hope in the other. I threw out my back on Monday, yet I feel less restriction today. 

What I want to convey to you dear readers, is that paradox is not an anomaly and that we can all heal and recover. It does not mean that I have finished grieving. It does mean that if you can read my words, you are still most likely alive! I do not know about anyone else, but I plan to live my life with passion and exuberance. This is not about spiritual bypass, but about gratitude for having the gift of spiritual embodiment into form.  While chaos swirls around and life is anything but smooth or certain, peace does prevail and vulnerability is a strength.

 

Blessings to you on this New Gemini Moon!

 

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Follow the Winding Brook

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This is a draft from November 2014 that had not made it to press. It was almost complete, save a few sentences I added a few minutes ago. In light of where I find myself currently, this piece is quite significant. More will be revealed soon. Have a great Memorial Day weekend!

I chose this painting entitled Winding Brook to illustrate that life can be lived like an open road with many twists and turns. What is truly magical is that the name Winding Brook itself is significant in a deeply personal way. Two of the loves of my life ( unbeknownst to one another) resided at the Winding Brook cul-de-sac many years ago. I worked there when I first moved to Philadelphia. Nice housing development, even better metaphor. I knew it should appear here for my post-birthday offering.

I can honestly say that I am gaining more clarity regarding my future, especially in regards to life purpose. The past few days in particular have brought me insights that are leading me out of what seems at times to be a perpetual fog. Born with Sun conjunct Neptune, this tends to be my default position. The fog can be incredibly mysterious and envelope you in its magnificence but I don’t like to drive in it!

With just a few weeks more before I must decide to either pull a rabbit out of a hat ( irony intended) or take my retirement money early, the heat has been on. I take full responsibility for my financial predicament. Years upon years of choices have led me to where I am today. I understand my relationship with money much better now than ever and I am totally fine with it.

Like Prince says:

Money don’t matter to night (no, don’t matter)
It sure didn’t matter yesterday (yesterday)
Just when you think you’ve got more than enough
That’s when it all up and flies away (flies away, flies away)
That’s when you find out that you’re better off
Makin’ sure your soul’s alright (make certain that your soul’s alright)
‘Cause money didn’t matter yesterday,
It sure don’t matter to night

 

This song has been bouncing in my head the last few days and I agree with its premise. I want to make sure my soul’s alright. I just had another birthday and I find this occasion to be a fine time to engage in some honest reflection about the state of my soul. While Prince rarely allows his videos to remain online, this Scorpio Gemini hybrid sure can make a statement with his lyrics. Today the Sun is in Scorpio with the moon in Gemini and it mimics my natal positions almost exactly. I feel so much like me today and hope my message is indicative of  the intense whimsy that resides at my core.

Money is not my primary objective, but freedom to move freely and unencumbered in pursuit of my highest expression IS. I have tried the past couple years to tell myself it is alright to have a small life, in order to appease myself and become comfortable with accepting my reality instead of fighting it. Learn to live within limits and make do with your circumstances. This concept is spoken like a reluctant realist who has just come off a brutal Saturn cycle. I also have had a progressed chart loaded with  many Capricorn planets, a Cap MH and a Taurus ascendant for quite a few years now.

There lies the rub. I now can clearly see that teaching and speaking my truth have a lot to do with my ” next steps” on the highway of life. I thought this new break in the action was a chance to regroup, especially when the research interview easily dropped into my lap. Although the research position did not materialize, it helped solidify what matters to me. Work has typically been the bane of my existence. I do not fit into highly conforming systems. Being an outsider resulted in plenty of stress, wreaking havoc with my health and peace of mind. Most of my jobs were a not so great fit, but had aspects to them that I really enjoyed. I want to hold onto the positive aspects of being a “helper”. At the same time, I cherish inner peace. The nourishment it offers is unlike anything else.

How will I find balance between purpose and peace?

Stay tuned..

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Peaceful Easy Feeling

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Post full Leo moon and pre Mercury stationing direct, wild times we find ourselves in! We accumulated close to 2 feet of snow in the Philadelphia region and I am glad I can wait awhile to dig out my car. It frees me up to make the most of this powerful energy. Mercury stations at 14° 55″ Capricorn at 4:50 PM EDT, which is very close to my natal Saturn. I have a sense of destiny coming alive in my life, still gaining momentum and preparing to take form.

I continue to cherish the contributions of those no longer with us. This seems to complement all the activity in my natal 12th house. Today I want to honor Glenn Frey, cofounder of the Eagles. The Eagles have been around for decades with such memorable hits such as Hotel California, Take it Easy, The Long Run, Lying Eyes, and Desperado. I have seen the Eagles once in concert and was quite taken with Don Henley, especially his solo work in the 1990s. But Mr. Frey began to enter my awareness once I discovered we share a birthdate ~ November 6th. Then I began paying more attention to his story. Glenn also struggled with intestinal difficulties so we also have that in common. Scorpio is linked to the lower digestive and reproductive systems. I have Pluto in Virgo, which accentuates the digestive challenges. Glenn has Saturn in Virgo ( conjunct my Pluto) so he also suffered the double whammy with intestinal woes. Yet he accomplished so much in his lifetime as a musician, writer, and actor.

Frey’s speech at the 2014 Rock and Roll Hall of Fame ceremony where he paid homage to Linda Ronstadt was quite poignant. Apparently he was smitten with her when she was seeing someone else. Another irony is that while Linda was too ill to participate in the Induction ceremony, she is still hanging on and Glenn has transitioned.

I posted watery images because water represents emotions and can be quite healing. Watching water in motion ( e- motion) can be a very peaceful activity.

While I enjoy many Eagle songs, Peaceful Easy Feeling is the one that seems most appropriate today. It also triggers a pleasant 12th house memory. On a sunny mid January day, many years ago, I had my first date with a man who would become my partner. I had just returned from Saint Maarten so I was sporting a tan. I was wearing hoop earrings on that day (I have excellent long-term memory, partially thanks to Mars in Cancer). We drove in his red convertible ( he has moon in Aries) where we went to a local burger place to eat. Outside of the parking lot he began to serenade me. While he was not a romantic guy in general, he had his moments. He sang Peaceful Easy Feeling and it was beautifully done. It was not his voice, but the sentiment that got my attention.

“Peaceful Easy Feeling”

I like the way your sparkling earrings lay,
Against your skin, it’s so brown.
And I wanna sleep with you in the desert tonight
With a billion stars all around.
‘Cause I got a peaceful easy feeling,
And I know you won’t let me down
’cause I’m already standing on the ground.
And I found out a long time ago
What a woman can do to your soul.
Oh, but she can’t take you anyway,
You don’t already know how to go.
And I got a peaceful easy feeling,
And I know you won’t let me down
’cause I’m already standing on the ground.
I get this feeling I may know you as a lover and a friend.
But this voice keeps whispering in my other ear,
Tells me I may never see you again.
’cause I get a peaceful easy feeling
And I know you won’t let me down
’cause I’m already standing…
I’m already standing…
Yes, I’m already standing on the ground
Oh, oh

 

Here is a video clip of Peaceful Easy Feeling from 1973

I was impressed that he chose a song that not only detailed my appearance, but probably echoed his ideas about our possible relationship. This is how music becomes interwoven into the fabric of one’s consciousness.

We need peace now more than ever before. Life is so exciting and can be very overwhelming in this age of info and techno overload, not to mention all the energetic activity seen and unseen. How can we cultivate a road to peace, irregardless of disappointment, delays, loss, illness, violence, confusion?

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I am open to any and all suggestions. I wish you all peace and urge you to practice peace as part of daily living.

The Eagles recorded two popular songs about the city, In the City and You Belong to the City. They were popular while I worked for the City and whenever I heard them playing, I considered how they described some of my feelings about my situation. You Belong to the City was featured on the show Miami Vice, where Frey had a supporting role.

Here is a video of his performance.

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New Sagittarius Moon ~ Prepare to Communicate with Tolerance and Forgiveness

Happy New Moon litebeings! May I add Happy 12-11!

How did my very personal post become political and global? This is what I asked myself after I crafted the title.

 The symbology took me there.

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Today the new moon highlights 19 degrees Sagittarius. This just happens to be the location of my natal Venus. Venus is about many things, love and resources in particular. This new moon is part of a t-square with Chiron at 17 Pisces and Jupiter at 22 Virgo opposing each other and squaring the sun and moon. The release point of this configuration is between 17 and 22 degrees Gemini. This just happens to be where my natal moon is situated.

Clearly this is an important event for me personally. I’ll share a little bit about how I have done Venus in Sagittarius:

Love of adventure and travel

Taking risks in romance

Spending money on leisure activities

Appreciation of the exotic and unfamiliar

Expensive and often lavish taste

Feeling at home on the road and in hotels

My focus has been more on resources than romance presently. My upbringing comes into play as I consider how I do money. It seems strange to me to be living on so little income, because I don’t see myself as poor. I have lived most of my life with more than enough to make ends meet. Or at least enough to get by. I grew up always wanting expensive stuff and aspiring to dine in fine restaurants and stay at luxurious resorts. This is because I was introduced to this lifestyle early on. But I had champagne taste without the champagne budget!  While looking back at my history, however, poverty is never that far away. And yet, optimism was also just around the corner.

I grew up solid middle class, maybe even upper middle class for a while. But both of my parents grew up during the Great Depression and had little money. They were raised in households with little education and plenty of responsibility, like so many recent immigrants to this country. My parents’ synastry was based on a close Moon/Venus conjunction in Taurus. They both sought upper mobility and material security. My sister and I never knew what it was like to go without new clothes or a decent place to live. But worries about the future were always in the air. My father was the only one in his immediate family to get a college education and he was very ambitious. But even with the nice cars and fancy vacations, long lingered those disturbing memories of sacrifice and making do on very little. Some of those fears were transferred over to me. One cannot deny their history, otherwise they are doomed to repeat it

But there was also plenty of optimism about the future. My parents asked us to dream big and work towards our goals. They took us to foreign locales and exposed us to culture and diversity. They both loved history and this country. We visited many historical sites and made frequent trips to Washington DC. They discussed politics openly and encouraged us to be involved in the process by encouraging us to vote and participate in the national dialogue. They believed that we would see a brighter future. There was plenty of enthusiasm and exuberance both at the dinner table and out in the world. It was a strange mix of conservatism and naiveté. Another paradox that I strive to resolve.

Sagittarius is my family signature. We all have either a Sag MC or a Sag IC ( my mom). We were wanderers who enjoyed travel, foreign food, and gambling on the American Dream. But there was also plenty of conflict about religion and diversity. Diversity and identity are personal to me. I grew up in a Jewish/ Roman Catholic, Italian ( originally French immigrants to Italy), Eastern European ( German, Polish, Russian) family where many factions did not tolerate one another very well.   This theme goes back to my grandparents marrying outside their faith and ethnic heritage , and possibly even further back. Sagittarius can mean evolved sages or radical extremists or fervent fundamentalists. Often times it has to do with recognizing that some limitations ( Saturn) are actually for our own benefit. So much to chew on and integrate. When will we achieve the right balance as a society?

So fast forward to the present. Sagittarius is also about fanaticism, over-the-top ideology that can be equated with intolerance and self-righteousness. However, the flip side of Jupiter/Sag is a live and let live, anything goes philosophy. Bigotry and acceptance, side by side.

Here is a look at the Sabian symbol for this new moon :

Sabian Symbol for 20 degrees Sagittarius by Dane Rudhyar

20° MEN CUTTING THE ICE OF A FROZEN POND, FOR SUMMER USE.

Depth of operation necessary to prepare for next phase of life. Sacrifice of present to future. Throughness of action.

I wonder,  how does this apply to me? I rarely thought about the future in romance or finances and that is how I got here. Lots of lived experience with little to show for it ( materially). Sagittarius is all about experience. I live my life that way and this worldview is reflected in my astrological practice and in my writing. Yet it does not necessarily help with saving, investing, and maintaining a budget. But I had enough foresight to stick with my government job long enough to acquire a pension. So perhaps I was living the symbology to some degree.

You may wonder how I arrived at my title  Prepare ( 20 ° Sag) to Communicate ( Gemini) with Tolerance ( Jupiter) and Forgiveness ( Chiron) ? Basically I combined the key themes for Jupiter, Chiron, and Gemini with the Sabian symbol for this lunation. Tolerance is the antidote to too much excess (Jupiter). Jupiter squaring this Jupiter- ruled new moon implores that we become more moderate so that we can promote healing ( Chiron)  through forgiveness ( Pisces). This leads to self-love and ultimately, global peace. Communication with one’s higher nature is the way to begin. Forgive and tolerate any excesses or missteps. Chart a new course but first free oneself from old, dysfunctional, belief systems. Embrace your truth in a way that allows others to do the same, tolerating what you may not understand or agree with.

I really think this post was channeled , at least partially. My initial ideas for this article had very little to do with this prevailing theme. But I am going with the flow and allowing this material to be expressed in this manner. I hope that it resonates with some of my readers.

On some level, I have been wanting to contribute somehow to the global discussion of terrorism, inclusion, and finding a way to come together as one people. I just did not know how. By the way, presidential candidate Donald Trump has the moon at 21 Sagittarius and Sun at 22 Gemini. I have a strong belief that astrology presents us with public events and personalities to illustrate the mood of the times. Can you see how perfectly this is being played out on the public stage?

If we are all connected, then we all must own our part in the situations we find ourselves in. All this mutability ( Gem, Virgo, Sag, Pisces) encourages the ability to change, adapt, move through resistance.

I still have to explore further how this may operate in my life. I know all 4 angles of my chart are lit up in neon lights. Look for any planets and house cusps between 17 and 22 degrees of Gem, Virgo, Sag, and Pisces to see where you are being triggered to communicate with tolerance and forgiveness for the future.

I will end this very intense post with a song. I am not athletic, but I really took to archery at camp, before I was aware of my Venus placement ( Sagittarius the archer). The following song came to me as I was preparing for this draft to be written. Arc of a Diver and Archery, get it?

Do you see any of the themes discussed in the lyrics?

Arc of a Diver

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On The Wings Of Peace

There is no way to peace. Peace IS the way. Please join me in re-blogging this all over the planet. Namaste, litebeing

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During the 1980’s, Mike Bryant created a Peace card. He hoped that by sending it to friends and relatives, they would sign it and re-post, and a chain of Peace would spread around the world. I have to admit that I never got around to sending on the card. I wish I had, but as Mother Earth heaves with sadness, and her people are drowning in sorrow and grief, I offer this Peace chain, to join with other Peace chains along the way. With today’s technology words travel further and faster. Taking up the sword is not the answer. Peace is the answer.


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Image of world globe from original card by Mike Bryant

Wings of Peace is author’s own.

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J2P Monday: Ho’ oponopono to heal your world

Leigh’s post is so “timely” for me personally and for the condition of our planet. Please read on and you will see!

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I’m still hanging out with my “don’t beat the drums” thing (see last week’s J2P post).  It’s led me to think about Hew Len and Ho’oponopono.  Long ago I wrote a post about it.  This time I want to switch the emphasis a little to really focus on the well-known story of Hew Len’s work at a ward for the criminally insane at the Hawaii State Hospital.

This ward had become a terrible place.  Inmates attacked each other and the staff.  The staff had a big turnover and those who did work there called in sick regularly.  The grounds and ward had become run down.  Hew Len was a psychologist who followed a long line of others assigned to the ward.

He never saw a patient.  He sat in his office with a pile of files, periodically asking someone to bring him more.  He read each file and then he…

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