This purple hydrangea was recently planted by my neighbor in our front yard. She does not know purple is my color or hydrangea is my flower. My mother also gave me a get well card at the hospital. It is a purple card featuring white, pink, and purple hydrangea. Coincidence? I do not think so. I blog about my Gravatar flower here. This flower has come to be a powerful symbol for me, rich with beauty and wisdom.
As far as I am concerned, 2015 starts now. Today marks the first new moon after the Spring Equinox ( Autumn Equinox for our friends in the Southern Hemisphere). So it seems natural that today is New Year’s Day! I am all for starting fresh, how about you? I reviewed many of my 2015 posts and it seems like the past few months have been one ginormous blur. Most of it I would rather forget, and just move on.
I pulled a healing card today for this lunation from the Caroline Myss deck. This beautiful deck was gifted to me many moons ago by a dear friend. Here are both sides of the card:
I love the green mermaid imagery and the message that my body can heal via the Divine as the body is part of the Divine. As I am presently finished with the harsh medications, I am praying that my body can finish the job. My doctor is quite conservative and traditional but very caring and determined. He said something recently that was uncharacteristic of him, but quite provocative and wise: All medications are poisons, but the side effects of these poisons can be helpful ( such as killing off harmful bacteria). I was amazed at this disclosure and knew I wanted to share it here.
I later pulled a spread from the Goddess Tarot for the new moon, but it did not sing true. I will try later or use another deck. My abilities are a bit off while my body is recovering, or so it seems. Some things cannot be rushed, despite my inclination.
Update: Pulled 1 card today ( 4-20-15) and it rang true:
The seven of pentacles indicates promise of reward or harvest to come. Very Springy and hopeful. Today is another day and with every moment comes infinite possibilities.
Michael has created some mind-blowing poetry, which has inspired me to find a gem from Love Poems From God. Today seemed like a good time to transmit some ” random poetry.”
I found this somewhat randomly, and it fits both literally and metaphorically:
I Had To Seek The Physician by Kabir
I had to seek the physician
because of the pain this world
caused
me.
I could not believe what happened when I got there –
I found my
Teacher.
Before I left, he said,
” Up for a little homework, yet?”
“Okay,” I replied.
” Well then, try thanking all the people
who have caused
you pain.
They helped you
come to me.”
There are 4 people who I have to let go of with love. They are not bad people, they just do not possess the awareness I need to be in my life. Three of these people I chose consciously to be in my life, the other is kin. They all have brought some positive energy to my life in one form or another. I will let them be transformed so they can return to me another time, or not. It is really fine however it turns out. Holding on is too high a price for me to pay.
As Pluto moves back into my house of friends, some house- cleaning will prevail. Severe illness brings me to my knees and also makes the bare basics essential above all else. Anything or anyone that is not healing is part of the “problem.” And that includes my messed up thinking ( was gonna use another word!). It simply has to go.
While I have plenty to ponder while I recover, a few issues have become clear:
I am not looking for work for the foreseeable future. I have enough to live on and this obsessing has almost killed me.
I am also taking any plans off the table that are not essential or enjoyable. I will resume non-essential and non-enjoyable activities when I feel ready.
I am going to treat myself like a goddess and rebirth myself into being.
I am seeking NO-thing. I am complete as is and am going to give up the search for purpose, meaning, anything. I am whole and Divine. I have everything I will ever need and always have.
If I have not learned my lesson by now, these years on Earth were indeed futile. I do not need a bigger boulder to hit me upside the head.
I GET IT!
Thank You for your kindness and well wishes.
I feel your love and I am touched by your concern and care.
I am taking it one moment at a time.
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I love this line the most.
“I am going to treat myself like a goddess and rebirth myself into being.”
Good idea. You are a goddess. Heal quickly and smile as much as possible. I am smiling in your direction. Lots of love. ❤
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You are a Goddess too!
Healing is slow it seems but I am hopeful. Will attempt a smile, but feeling pain at the moment. Thanks for the love ❤
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Lots of love ❤ Its okay, I will smile for you until you feel up to it.
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I have recently been listening to talks with Paul Levy. You should check him out if you have not already. awakeninthedream.com
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i had not heard of him. He is intriguing to me. Listening to him now. Keep these resources coming. You and I are linked 🙂
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What you wrote about is exactly synchronous with what I have been exploring.
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I hope to resume our email communication when I am further into my recovery. We have much to share with one another 🙂
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Definitely so…all in due time. Lately I have been wrapped up in manifesting my next reality…all in due time.
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will you be blogging about your next reality?
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I will….coming soon!
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I like the message of the healing card you pulled, and the message of this post. Glad you are taking care and simplifying into what brings joy. This can only help.
Much Love
Michael
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Dear Linda.. I can see from your new Gavitar that you are now fully embracing the new.. as you heal on many levels, Letting go of those whom you do not now need.. And also seeing that you have NO Thing to worry about.. And this too I obsessed over when I retired.. I think it was because It seemed I had given up my independence.. And only while working through my Listening to the Universe phase recently did I settle in my mind the fact I no longer need work.. 🙂
For the Universe is taking care of everything.. Is not the Universe giving your the Signs.. Purple Hydrangeas no less .. And a Get well card with them on.. What more do you need 🙂
Love the tarot card message.. And I know ALL will be well, including your good self..
I enjoyed the poetry too Linda..
Just take great care of yourself.. And when we learn to nurture ourselves.. from the INside out.. then our body responds .. Love and Hugs dear Friend.. Love Sue ❤
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Thank you dear Sue for reflecting back to me the signs that are clearly arriving at my “doorway.” Hydrangea ( and I did choose the new purple one to be my gravatar) implies snake and snakes shed what is no longer needed and transform. While I do feel scared, I know what I need and what I do not need. This crisis is the opportunity for me to take on what I had been hesitating to let go. particularly 1 person, but I have added 3 more to the mix. One of them will still be in my orbit ( family) but I am releasing any remaining expectations and other non-sense. It is very old and in the way.
Thanks for supporting me as I do the work that will leave me stronger, peaceful, and free.
love,
Linda
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Your ponderings are beautiful and I thank you for sharing them as you learn… we are always developing and such is the nature of life xo I wish you all the best
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Thank you Christy. I appreciate your comments and your kind words.
peace, Linda
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Amen to your declaration Linda… And so it is… Love to you my divine friend… Barbara x
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Thanks Barbara! xoxoxo Linda
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I hope you get better soon.
What you wrote sounds like a good list of New Year’s resolutions.
Sending you love and light,
Hugs,
Karin
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Hi Karin.
Thanks for all your encouragement during this stormy season. I do see some sun in the background.
Hugs,
Linda
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Beautiful, Linda – both the Spring flower photos and your revelations and musings. Your comment about “anything or anyone who’s not part of the healing is part of the problem” is a valuable insight, and reminded me of David Whyte’s poem, “Sweet Darkness,” which ends, “anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive is too small for you.” Amen to that, sister. Love and well-full blessings, Jamie
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Hi Jamie,
That poem sounds like truth to me. Glad you enjoyed the beauty and revelations.
love and blessings your way,
Linda
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