2015 has been a very intense year, full of surprises and obstacles. I came into the year full of excitement and hope. Saturn was leaving Scorpio and moving up towards my Midheaven. Time to manifest and rebuild.
Or so I thought. Taking my pension a bit early was much more of an adjustment than anticipated. I figured that having some monetary security would actually build my confidence once I resume my job search. I also thought that taking my time would allow for some truly necessary relaxation and self-care.
Apparently the Universe had other ideas. The acceptance of having nearly approached government-employee retirement age proved very difficult. Old stuff came to the surface in a variety of unusual ways. I experienced bodily sensations and dreams that put death and mortality on the front burner once more. Strong themes of mortality were rising to the surface and were beginning to become a preoccupation. Having a medical emergency and then needing to put Dexter down gave more power to old fears and worries about the unknown.
Due to all the obstacles of the past few months, I did not get back on the horse. I have not looked for work. Saturn fell short of hitting my Midheaven , but it will arrive there in a few short months. With mars in Leo and the transiting sun on my Descendant, I feel a bit more momentum, but there are still many loose ends that need to be addressed and losses to mourn.
Those who read here regularly know I am a dreamer and a dreamworker. My dreams are easily recalled and typically powerful. While I do not always attend to their symbology, I am fortunate that they are available to me.
I had a powerful dream recently that is worth documenting here.
In my dream I find myself behind the wheel sleepy and with poor vision. I do not have control of the car and I am damaging the side of one parked car. I am moving faster and faster and am about to drive smack into the middle of a house. I tell myself ok this is it and I am feeling relieved and ready. I am ready to leave this world. The car begins to make impact and crashes straight into the house, but then miraculously bounces back and richochets backwards! Both myself and the car are intact. It was as if the crash never happened. I am amazed and try to reach for the emergency brake. Then I wake up.
I have had many many dreams in the past where I was behind the wheel, out of control and mercy to whatever situation presents itself. This theme of powerlessness is not new to me and I understand its ramifications. I have also had dreams where I almost had an accident or that I survived unharmed.
This was not one of those times.
This was a new reality where actions were reversed and my welfare was fiercely protected. I have not given the dream a thorough analysis, but woke up the next morning with a sense of excitement and awe. Perhaps I can bounce back from all the hardship and pain. Perhaps I can survive the fear and lack of control over my destiny. There are so many miracles seen and unseen.
litebeing chronicles 
I intuit that your divine and loving self protects you and will make sure you are safe… But you have to completely let go of human control of the old ways… You say yourself… Die… To your old self and trust you will be reborn again in this physical now moment.. Barbara
LikeLiked by 1 person
We are always being reborn in some way.
Thank s for your encouragement 🙂
LikeLiked by 1 person
Your Dream Linda is clearly telling you that you are protected and that at the end of the day you are in control ( behind the wheel ) And as you have just said in your post (“Old stuff came to the surface in a variety of unusual ways. I experienced bodily sensations and dreams that put death and mortality on the front burner once more. Strong themes of mortality were rising to the surface and were beginning to become a preoccupation.”)
Maybe as the energies are starting to shift, so too now you are releasing these worries in your dreams and they are reassuring you that all is well in your world..
I can so relate to the not working, and adjustments that takes.. It has taken me a year I retired early at the end of Aug last year and only this last month or so have I settled internally to the freedom of being in control of my days…
Great Post and so pleased you are turning a corner . xxx ❤ Hugs to you Linda.. Sue
LikeLiked by 1 person
I like your interpretation and hope I can move on towards more living and less dying. I can tell that retirement is agreeing with you 🙂
I am not ready to retire and hope to find my new place when the time is right. Thanks for all the support Sue.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Always you are welcome Linda.. Hugs your way xx
LikeLiked by 1 person
I am with Julie! You are powerful, great, and happy~ I love the dream, I have had those dreams in a vehicle behind the wheel without control. I believe in you Linda. I love you Linda.
❤ ❤ ❤
Sindy
LikeLiked by 1 person
Hi Sindy,
These car dreams are common. I hope my dream of bouncing back powerfully is a sign of my future. I believe in you too. ❤
LikeLiked by 1 person
I hope so too ❤
LikeLike
That is a pretty cool dream. I like it. I think it’s pretty neat that you can remember so much of your dreams. It takes me a bit of work.
As for what is possible? You know me. I believe everything is possible and if someone says it’s not, it’s just someone who hasn’t met me yet. We are living miracles. Sending you big hugs today. ❤
Sarah
LikeLiked by 1 person
Hi Sarah,
It was pretty cool and I am glad that I documented it here to give it more emphasis. I love that you fervently believe in what seems impossible.
Big hugs back to you, Linda
LikeLiked by 1 person
A powerful dream and beautiful images (and insights), Linda. Seems that the way you felt when you woke from the dream ‘interprets’ it beautifully for you. 🙂 Love, Jamie
LikeLiked by 1 person
Hi Jamie,
I took the photos during my last trip to Longwood Gardens, I really enjoy the waterlilies.
I did feel amazed upon awaking. I would like to embody that feeling again soon in its totality.
love, Linda
LikeLike
Cathy at http://www.untoldbridgesecrets.wordpress.com is a professional dream analyst. She will interpret your dream for free if you visit her blog and post your dream in the comments.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Have you worked with her personally? Thanks for the resource Bev.
LikeLike
Yes, Cathy has interpreted a couple of dreams for me. She takes a while to get back to you but she does eventually. Cathy is also a professional bridge player and has published books on the subject. She is a wonderful, warm person.
LikeLiked by 1 person
I think it was pretty cool too 🙂 You know your team of guides and see elementals. I remember many dreams. wanna do a temporary trade? Hopefully my abilities will expand when the time is divinely ordered.
Big hugs miracle woman ❤
LikeLike
Wow! What a wonderful hopeful dream! I love dreams, especially when the meanings are so clear. I used to have a recurring out of control, going off a cliff car dream, and I was able to change the outcome – almost lucidly but still a dream. Also have had ones where I crash and either step out of it transformed or am able to fly. When in fear I fall, and then I can play with that line between fear and love and when I remember to love, I can fly and then fear creeps in and I start falling again until, oh yeah, love and fly again. Remembering my dreams has slowly left me over the last 10 or so years. I used to be so into them – writing them down, analyzing, etc. I miss that. I only remember about 5 a year now, but they are always significant. My memory is slowly fading as I age, and dreams were the first to go. I’m glad you had such a cool bounce back dream! You have been through a lot this year.
May you have a peaceful day.
Mary
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thanks for sharing Mary and may your day also be peaceful.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Hello my beautiful Linda! You know your dream is fantastic! It has just proved my belief in the Highest Perfect Order. I love to live with this belief – “We are protected”. Period.
Even my father’s death was for my safeness and happiness, I accepted a moment ago because of your dream. It is paradoxical.
We have to be happier in twice times due to inherited strength, joy and Love. We are here for Joy and Love and we are all in the Perfect Order! There are no place for fears.
Thank you for you and for your dreams. Hug you with gratitude. Happy and joyful Monday!
LikeLiked by 1 person
I adore your enthusiasm and support.
Love to you big sis,
Linda
LikeLike
You control your destiny by the choices you make. Choose to bounce back! 🙂
LikeLiked by 2 people
Well said Julie 🙂
LikeLike
Hi Linda,
Although it’s always hard to interpret another’s dream, I did get an intuitive insight reading this one. The car theme is probably familiar to many of us, along with the issue of control and will. I wonder though if your feeling of everything being ok, in spite of a total kack of control, might also point to a necessary sense of letting go of something.
Just an intuition. You will know what the dream says as time goes by, or more dreams come along.
Hugs,
Deb
LikeLiked by 1 person
Hi Deb,
I have been required to let go of almost everything I have left. I am tired of letting go. It is time to move out of fallow to something new and exhilarating and joyful. I thought it was time to die and I made my peace with it. But I do not want to go quite yet. My life path is incomplete.
Thanks for your insights and your friendship.
peace, Linda
LikeLiked by 1 person