Sludge Party ~ Neptune Direct

celestial-dreams.jpg

UPDATE: The transits are fast and furious for most of 2018: This morning’s Full Gemini Moon and then tomorrow Neptune stations direct! Have you felt spiritually depleted, scattered, overwhelmed? The sludge party should be over soon. Get more sleep, stay grounded, and eat protein.   Happy Full Moon and get your Gemini on 🙂

As an homage to the film Sausage Party, I propose that we name Saturday night’s Neptune station the Sludge Party.

I dreamt last night of being prevented from exiting a train at my stop so I had no choice but to get off at the next stop. While the distance between stops was short, I was transported to another land. It was beautiful , with many waterways and falls. I spotted a pinball arcade and a Wawa ( local unbiquitous convenience store) , but everywhere I wandered, my calls for help were denied. I approached everyone and asked for the name of the town, but no one would answer. I told others I was lost and again, no response. I saw a spectacular pedestrian bridge that was massive. When I awoke I knew this dream was significant. I was reliving a childhood trauma of getting off at the wrong school bus stop at around age 5 or 6. No one was waiting  for me at my stop and I refused to leave with a neighbor child, because I was certain that her stop was not my home. I was mistaken. A woman found me and took me home and I knew my phone number. I was safely returned home, but this event left a huge scar. In the dream, however, I was an adult who felt ignored and alone. Everything seemed a wee bit out of focus and in ” slow mo.”

Hence the sludge party.

astro_2atw_01_david_bowie-13837-4359-2

Since I never wrote my David Bowie tribute, I will showcase some of his music here tonight. Bowie was quite Neptunian, with Neptune squaring natal Sun, Mercury, and Mars and a Sun Mars conjunction in the 12th house.  I think he would approve of this linkage. It is cool to note that there is a Bowie asteroid 342843, which sits between my natal sun and Neptune. It is closely conjunct both of them , which surprised and delighted me. David Bowie has been a huge influence on me since my early teens and the recent discovery of his asteroid is lovely validation of my affinity with his essence.

Sludge, quicksand, delusion, subtle innuendo, loss, impostor, stranger, aimlessly wandering, illusion, dreams ~ all trés Neptune.

So here is a semi-random sampling of some of my favorite Bowie performances to accompany us on the hero’s journey across the bridge towards higher consciousness, with a side order of sludge for good measure.

 

 

 

 

image credits ~ header image: wikipedia.org, public domain, butterfly: Josephine Wall
Advertisements
wikipedia. pub domain

Sludge Party ~ Neptune Direct

celestial-dreams.jpg

As an homage to the film Sausage Party, I propose that we name Saturday night’s Neptune station the Sludge Party.

I dreamt last night of being prevented from exiting a train at my stop so I had no choice but to get off at the next stop. While the distance between stops was short, I was transported to another land. It was beautiful , with many waterways and falls. I spotted a pinball arcade and a Wawa ( local unbiquitous convenience store) , but everywhere I wandered, my calls for help were denied. I approached everyone and asked for the name of the town, but no one would answer. I told others I was lost and again, no response. I saw a spectacular pedestrian bridge that was massive. When I awoke I knew this dream was significant. I was reliving a childhood trauma of getting off at the wrong school bus stop at around age 5 or 6. No one was waiting  for me at my stop and I refused to leave with a neighbor child, because I was certain that her stop was not my home. I was mistaken. A woman found me and took me home and I knew my phone number. I was safely returned home, but this event left a huge scar. In the dream, however, I was an adult who felt ignored and alone. Everything seemed a wee bit out of focus and in ” slow mo.”

Hence the sludge party.

astro_2atw_01_david_bowie-13837-4359-2

Since I never wrote my David Bowie tribute, I will showcase some of his music here tonight. Bowie was quite Neptunian, with Neptune squaring natal Sun, Mercury, and Mars and a Sun Mars conjunction in the 12th house.  I think he would approve of this linkage. It is cool to note that there is a Bowie asteroid 342843, which sits between my natal sun and Neptune. It is closely conjunct both of them , which surprised and delighted me. David Bowie has been a huge influence on me since my early teens and the recent discovery of his asteroid is lovely validation of my affinity with his essence.

Sludge, quicksand, delusion, subtle innuendo, loss, impostor, stranger, aimlessly wandering, illusion, dreams ~ all trés Neptune.

So here is a semi-random sampling of some of my favorite Bowie performances to accompany us on the hero’s journey across the bridge towards higher consciousness, with a side order of sludge for good measure.

 

 

 

 

image credits ~ header image: wikipedia.org, public domain, butterfly: Josephine Wall

Dream ~ Skating On Thin Ice

wikimedia free domain

Yesterday morning right before awakening I had a very brief but powerful dream. I could not find a parking spot so I walked out of my car onto a cold quiet lot. I encountered patches of ice. I am afraid of ice because I tend to fall frequently with painful consequences. In the dream I stepped onto some ice and I glided. I glided and ” skated ” onto the next icy stretch. After I crossed over onto the dry pavement, I noticed an empty parking space emerge out of nowhere. I was quite surprised. I decided to get back into my car to move into the vacant spot.

Then I woke up.

I did a ” mini-analysis.” and concluded that when I face my fears and learn to glide on the ice, solutions and possibilities can manifest for me.

Well today in the wake of a relentlessly punitive Full Moon square Saturn that hit my Ascendent/Descendant axis and Scorpio planets, I left my job. I was there for 3 months, which equals a square in Astrology. A square is typically a dynamic aspect that activates movement.  This lunation took the lives of 2 legendary performers and Ajay. And it is what it is.

I loved the chance I had to teach and mentor people, especially those who were excited about their calling to help facilitate growth and healing in others. I was damned good at it and I will miss it dearly.  I detested the politics, manipulation, and sheer cruelty that often predominates in toxic work environments. I am not surprised that my heart began to harden and my light began to diminish. I have been here before.

I keep reflecting on Aleya’s recent posts, particularly this one.

I am kinda stunned I am blogging on this icky life event, but I am a writer. At my new job, I told everyone ” I am a writer.” Never did that before. But it is a fact.

Maybe that is why I can blog while feeling so much pain and regret.

Thanks for giving me a forum where I can be brutally authentic and unapologetically me. I have absolutely no idea what comes next. As an INFJ, this can be frightening.

Guess I will have to learn to skate on thin ice until I see my way clear to my next available parking space.

image credit ~ wikimedia.org public domain

If you are in the mood for an apropos tune from a fellow Uranian:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8gFCW3PHBws

PS: Jupiter and Venus transiting one’s 6th house does not always translate to harmony and fortune in the workplace. Just sayin’

Related posts: https://litebeing.com/2014/06/20/sadness-at-solstice/

https://litebeing.com/2013/12/20/a-dream-sampler-my-winter-solstice-tribute/

By Jens Jäpel (Own work) [GFDL (http://www.gnu.org/copyleft/fdl.html), CC-BY-SA-3.0 (http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/) or CC-BY-2.5 (http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/2.5)], via Wikimedia Commons

A Dream Sampler ~ My Winter Solstice Tribute

Some readers have been interested in my dream groups, and more specifically the content of my dreams. I have been hesitant to blog about my dreams because I do not like being analyzed. As a psychotherapist, I am sensitive to those who tend to pathologize or judge the inner experiences of others. When I assist another in dream analysis, I take special care to empower the dreamer and avoid labeling or limiting the multitude of layers potentially contained within each dream.

winter_dreaming

Having said that, I see that my desire to inspire and advocate for dream work overrides my worries over being labeled or pigeonholed. So I have assembled a dream sampler for you today! This sampler is an assortment of various dream types. All of them have been quite meaningful because they have provided me with guidance or insight into the larger workings of Source as well as my individual psyche. I had this idea swirling around for months but chose to post now in time for the Winter Solstice. I love the night and have the most mind-blowing, soul-stirring adventures while asleep. So here’s to the power of the dark and the majesty of the night..

ocean_dreams

This sampler will give you a taste of some interesting types of dreams I have had over the years. I will take you back from the most recent one back in time, to provide some perspective.

Dream 1 –  October 2013

This is a long dream sequence with Richard Gere and a former boyfriend. We are having dinner together, just the 3 of us. We are at a formal function. I am enjoying myself. I discuss with someone ( not sure who) having spent 7 years with this man, but not marrying him. Later I tell people I have met Richard Gere. He looks about 10 years younger than his current age. He has dark hair and is not wearing glasses. At some point the scene jumps to my bedroom and I hear the song ” Up Where We Belong” from the film An Officer and A Gentleman. I tell myself it is okay to listen to this song that once was associated with myself and a different ex-lover.  Richard Gere starred in that film and the title track was ” our song  “- for me and my college boyfriend.

After jotting down some notes in my dream journal, I go online. I go to the AOL page and glance at a headline about Richard Gere. It reads ” My lunch with Dakota Fanning.” I think, hmm maybe I dreamed I was Dakota Fanning. But no, it gets better : He is living in my city and dined with her here. They are filming a movie together in Philly! This article was written just one day before my dream. I had no idea he was working or living here.

http://greatideas.people.com/2013/10/17/richard-gere-dines-on-brown-butter-salmon-get-the-recipe/

 stairway_dreams

Dream 2 – Lucid Dream, March 2013

I am in my bedroom and I am about to turn on the lamp. I stood up and looked around and knew it was not my room. I told myself ” I am having a lucid dream!” I knew upon opening the bedroom door that an unknown world waits upon my in the hallway. I see a few strangers who appear a few years older than myself. They are gathered around what appears to be a kitchen table. The surroundings are bare white, and not very engaging. I quickly ask myself what do I want to do here? I address the 2 men and 2 women and say ” What do you want to tell me?” I left it open-ended because I did not want to influence their responses. I tried my best to be quiet and really listen. What I heard mostly was unintelligible nonsense. The first man seemed disappointed in me. The first woman asked me to take a seat. I knew they all wanted me to make changes but I was given no direction. One of the women said to change something” even before baby-sitting.” That was the only phrase that I could decipher.

dreaming_in_colour

Dream 3 – Epic Dream, About 2-3 years ago

I call this an epic dream because it was spectacular in scope. I was in Cambodia with my friend who lives there now. He runs a spiritual retreat center. Teaching yoga is one of his many roles at the retreat. We are sitting together with a group and we are up high above the ground. Everything I can see and hear is over the top in color, vibration and scope. It is beautiful beyond words and unlike anything I have seen while awake. We are breathing quickly and deeply and we are also chanting.  I am in an altered state. I am ascending and I am in bliss. When I wake up I am still feeling the peace and ecstasy. I go online almost immediately upon awakening. I go to Facebook and begin to read the news feed. At the very top is a post that reads ” Cambodian Dream”.  I read it and it is a story about my friend’s retreat !

Dream 4 – About 7 years ago

This dream happened on either a Friday or Saturday night. I am at a local Chinese restaurant and I am eating wonton soup. It is the best I had ever tasted. I do not remember much else. Rarely do I try to recreate a dream  while I awake, but on this occasion that is exactly what I did. I had to have that soup.  I went there for lunch that afternoon and ordered the wonton soup. I was seated in a side room where I typically do not sit. It is by the door and also the bar where people order takeout. I am savoring my soup and wondering why I felt so compelled to do this, Close to the end of my meal I notice a woman waiting for her takeout order. She looks vaguely familiar. ‘ I know who she is, Dr. Robin!” Dr. Robin is a psychologist and was a frequent guest on Oprah at the time. I decide to introduce myself.  I tell her that I am a therapist and ask her if she is from this area, She replies that she lives in the Phila. area and often frequents this restaurant. I tell her that I am a fan and very impressed with her success, She is very kind and gracious. I am very pleased that I took the risk of introducing myself. I receive the requisite fortune cookie with my bill. Read the message below! ( I still kept it after all these years.)

get-attachment (6)

Dream 5 – Pre-cognitive dream, February 1999

Backstory: I am working as a Social Work Supervisor for a unit of Child Welfare workers. One of the workers was in her 40s and taking some time off to have surgery. I will call her Terry. I do not know the details about her health, but on her last day before taking medical leave, I speak to Terry as if I may never see her again. Fast forward a few weeks later, I am told Terry’s  surgery went well and  that she is recovering successfully.

On a Sunday night I am dreaming of Terry. We are going to a service. She tells me it is her aunt’s funeral. I recall very little detail. When I wake up I find it unusual to be dreaming about her. It is Monday morning and I am about to enter my office. Before I could get their, my supervisor stops me. He takes me into his office to tell me that Terry has suddenly passed away!

 

dance_of_dreams

An interesting dream prompt: I want to end this sampler with a tool that was at my disposal for many years. I created this by trial and error and it worked for a very long time. I had a childhood friend from 6th grade through the end of high school. I will call him Greg. We were not very close but we had some friends in common and we would party together. He was in a band and we both loved the Grateful Dead. We also spent part of our summer together the year after graduation as both our families rented rooms at the same place down the shore. I only saw him once or twice after that summer.

What I noticed was that Greg kept appearing in my dreams. Because he was not a love interest or a very close friend, I did not have a profound emotional link with him. I decided at some point that he would become my prompt. Whenever Greg appeared, I would know that I was dreaming. This went on for several years. I would be in a non-lucid state, notice Greg, and then have the epiphany that I was dreaming. It has been quite some time since he has appeared, but we had a good run! Has anyone tried this or something similar?

Please use the Comments section to share some dreams.

Describe your Epic Dreams, Pre-Cognitive and Lucid Dreams !

Have I left out any dream categories that you have experienced?

What patterns have you discovered?

Wishing you a gentle, healing Solstice …….

header courtesy of  Jens Jäpel (Own work) [GFDL (http://www.gnu.org/copyleft/fdl.html))], via Wikimedia Commons

art by Josephine Wall

Musings – Hiding in plain sight

I have recently subscribed to the theory that every image is potentially a symbol. I mean every image, no exceptions! Some are very obvious, such as a national flag, a smiley face, or a red traffic light. Others are more multilayered and typically more subtle. I have not totally grasped the nuances of my theory, but decades of exposure to symbols as a therapist, astrologer, dream worker, etc, has certainly laid the groundwork.

josephine wall starscape

Dream: I had a dream last night that was not that different from my standard fare. I dreamt of a former lover paying me a visit. So ” been there, done that ” .  I do not want him back in my life , but he was significant at one time. I used to relish these ” visitations”, but not anymore because I have moved on. There was something new in this dreamscape, though, that really caught my attention!  He brought over a bottle of champagne for us to share. I recall feeling very happy in the dream when I noticed the bottle. I even remarked ” You brought us champagne!”  I did some quick research and champagne can mean anything from sexual activity (ejaculation), to celebration,  to  completion of a long-term project. I believe that I have grown and evolved these past few months and that this symbol is telling me to celebrate and enjoy my  internal and external successes. I feel great that I can now place more emphasis on new symbology rather than staying stuck in some old relationship holding pattern!

Numerical sequences: I went to the dentist today, not typical blog fodder!  Yet……  I was entering the office building and noticed an acupuncture practice. I looked at the address and it was 112. I was surprised I had not noticed it before, and then quickly became curious as to my dentist’s address. In case you are wondering, I do not usually memorize these details, I just drive to the medical office and look for a nearby parking space. So imagine my amazement when I got to his door and saw 111 !  I felt absolutely ecstatic since I have been seeing 111 and 1111 for over a year now. I told the receptionist about the number and she asked if I was going to play the lottery. I  replied that I was not planning on doing so and asked if she knew anything about repeating numbers. She shrugged her head no. I took my newfound bliss into my appointment with me and stayed in that space for as long as I could.  I later reflected on why I prefer this office to my previous dental practice. Their lovely aquarium truly does make a difference , but I think that the energy of 111 and its sum, 3 is beneficial to me.

http://freerangestock.com/

 So as I continue to process today’s events and contemplate my theory, I have some questions for you to ponder:

Do symbols hide in plain sight?

Are symbols immersed everywhere?

Do numerical sequences like phone numbers, addresses, account numbers all have a unique vibration?

Speaking of numbers: My blog just recently surpassed the following milestones, 200 followers, 1000 likes, and 5000 hits. Thank you all for your part in helping litebeing chronicles achieve what seems to be a critical mass within the past few days!

painting by Josephine Wall

spiral image by http://freerangestock.com/

related post: https://lindalitebeing.wordpress.com/2013/06/10/111-global-party/